Panda's Slimming World.

[PandaNate]

Apprantly her results are back tomorrow, she's been told to ring between 12 and 1pm to find them out... Does this usually mean, it won't be as serious as cancer? I would think they wouldn't tell her over the phone that it's cancer? It would be a doctors appointment?

I've been panic attack free today, woke up at 8:30 and met my friend in Stafford for 11, we then took my Godson/her baby to a farm out Telford way. It was a nice day out, I made my lunch, had 1 sandwich for my HEB and 2 cheese sticks for my HEA (plus 1syn = 5g).

B - Strawberries, diet coke <-- bad habit developing!
L - Ham and tomato sandwich with a tsp light mayo = 1 syn, Pear, Muller corner greek - 5syns, french fries - 4syns. Pepsi max 250ml bottle.
D -

S - Strawberries, 2 cheese stickers HEA plus 5g = 1 syn

11 syns so far.

 

[PandaNate]

Well my scales are showing a loss but smaller then thr loss was on sunday :/ I also seem to have a cold developing again

 

[Ally89]

Yeah would be an urgent docs appointment if it was cancer I'd imagine.

Any weight loss is better than none

 

[PandaNate]

They have told her the results are unclear and are being sent to a specilist :/

I took my measurements, will post before and now in a second.

 

[PandaNate]

19/06/13
Bust biggest - 47in
Under bust - 36.5in
Hips across bum - 47in
Across stomach - 48in
Top stomach - 43in
Thight r - 27.5in
Thigh l - 27.7in
Arm r, arm l - 15in, 14in.

26/06/13
Bust biggest - 46in
Under bust - 36.5in
Hips across bum - 46.5in
Across stomach - 48in
Top stomach - 42in
Thigh r - 27.5in
Thigh l - 27.5 in
Arm r, arm l - 14in, 14in

 

[Ally89]

They have told her the results are unclear and are being sent to a specilist :/

I took my measurements, will post before and now in a second.

So there is something but they don't know what. Hopefully its nothing too bad.

 

[PandaNate]

She's had 3 scans, one ultrasound, one CT scan and one MRI scan... I think atm its a case of the GP can't read the results so someone else needs too... They said she has a gaul stone and something else they find suspicious, lesions. Whatever these are.

B - Nothing
L - Smoked ham sandwich - 60g wholemeal (HEB), 1 tomato. Pombears - 5syns?
D - Meal off.


Only thing I can find that does say Cancer on it about Lesions.
http://www.radiologyassistant.nl/en/p4ec7bb77267de

 

[Ally89]

aren't they usually caused by previous surgery...or are the adhesions, can't remember now

 

[PandaNate]

My moms never had surgery on her stomach, she has however been sewn up after a failed suicide attempt before I was born where she cut her stomach open. I'm guessing they would of looked for damage before sewing her up? x

 

[shysarah]

Hugs hunny,

No wonder you are having panic attacks with so much going on.
Don't spend time on the net googling illness's I know as well as anyone that it can lead to you getting convinced of all sorts of scary things. Try and be patient and see what the Dr tells your mum. It will not be a long wait to see a specialist I am sure.

Try not to worry about your panic attacks and peoples perspective. I know it is hard to do as they either dismiss it or stare at you but it is really nothing to do with them so they can get lost.

Keep on sharing things here too. Might not post everyday but I do keep a watch over you and I am thinking of you x

 

[Ally89]

My moms never had surgery on her stomach, she has however been sewn up after a failed suicide attempt before I was born where she cut her stomach open. I'm guessing they would of looked for damage before sewing her up? x

It's possible I guess, could be something to do with that. Sure lesions are to do with tissue damage.

 

[PandaNate]

I'm trying, I haven't had a panic attack for 1 1/2 days so far, not sure why I suddenly got a cold now, it's making me feel very run down today. I'm actually wanting my WI to come so I can just settle and do nothing even though it isn't until 7pm and I don't think I want to stay the entire group. If I lose 3lb, I'll stay, if not, I'm going to come home and have date night with my boyfriend = meal off plan and a film. Tonight's meal is SFC wraps and some bread sticks with homous... Next week however, the 'meal' off I'm going to do something I really want to eat but SW friendly as I have had what I feel is my ease in to the diet (where I have a bit of a break so I'm not overly craving). Does this make sense, but I don't want to do it the entire diet as I believe it will affect my weight loss eventually. xx

 

[PandaNate]

WI in 38 minutes!

My consultant is okay with me just weighing in because I told her, I have family issues and being around people doesn't help me. Going to try and build exercise into my plan from Friday (I'm working tomorrow), I'm thinking of a walk around the block once or twice a day at first then some sort of toning exercise. What exercise can I do to tighten my arms and back skin/muscles?

 

[PandaNate]

Okie dokie.. 1/2lb loss :/ water intake needs to be increased. X

 

[PandaNate]

Ive notice only two people put slimmer of the week food in the basket, me and another women. Its really unfair as people not contributing are getting it :/

 

[PandaNate]

Going to try and label things when I'm on netbook.

Yesterday
B - Special K Clusters 35g (I don't think it's a HEB but I don't really know). So until I know for sure from my consultant I will HEB it.
Strawberries, banana.
L - Spicy Red Lentil and Dhal soup from the SW soup book - Free on Green & EE.
Contains - onion (S), ginger, sweet potato,(free) swede,(S)chopped tomatoes,(S) garlic.
S - banana, half an orange and hoops and crosses - 4syns.
D - @ 10:30pm from sainsburys - Fruit box (grapes, strawberry, apple, pineapple), 2 small boxes of ham and chicken slices, 3 light babybell (HEA) Mikado Daim - 8 sticks = 4syns

I think thats everything so 8 syns.

Work - 5-10pm. Mopping most of it, all 20 lanes and 3 toilets lol.

Today

B - 35g of Shredded Wheat Fruitful. 3 light babybell. Banana. Rest of fruit box - apple, pineapple, pear.
L - BLT Salad (cucumber,(S) tomato,(S) lettuce,(S) bacon(F) with 1tbsp of thousand island dressing 2syns.
D - beef strip stirfry - green beans, peppers, tomatoes, mushrooms.
Actifry chips.

S - Pom Bears - 4syns. Mikado Daim 8 sticks - 4syns. 1 Cherry greek muller light - 1/2syn, strawberries. Mugshot chicken - 1syn. Small bowl of actifry chips done with fry light. Tea 1syn for milk. -10.5syn total.

 

[PandaNate]

My mom has a benine tumour, we had a massive fall out last night because she started sending me death texts, saying goodbye and talking about life insurance. It but me in a really bad place mentally, my boyfriend (I didn't ask or know about this till this morning) texted her to tell her to stop hurting me with her texts. She stopped texting and texted me this morning saying I had no right to get my boyfriend to tell her off, it wasn't happening to me, it was happening to her. She has no idea what losing her would do to me... she has no idea. I'm sitting here in tears because I've just watched one of my favourite shows called Nashville, and the young singer lost her mom and it made me realise how close I could of been and we have similar moms, who unintentionally hurt us with their actions and how they lean on us. I have a sister but she does nothing, she's 16 years older then me but she stepped away long ago and ever since I was little I've bared the brunt of my moms illness and sometimes the pressure is so much, I've fell apart, I once made a complaint to the NHS that they do nothing to support me, her family with her illness and I'm getting sick and ruining my own life because I can't deal with the pressure all on my own.

I'm not asking for advice or anything, I'm just so unhappy today at the same time as being happy it's nothing TOO serious but perhaps I'm crying because it's pressure lifted or because she yelled at me for my boyfriend protecting me, as she isn't used to someone else being there for me. It's his job to keep me above water like it is mine for him and it's so much easier then doing it for my mom... but I can't stop, i can't step back because she'll have no one...

 

[Ally89]

Sounds like your in a difficult situation. Mums don't tend to realise how much losing them will hurt. Am i right in assuming she suffers from depression (just a guess from you saying she attempted suicide years ago)? If so i know that will make it 10x harder to deal with, my mums only mildly depressive but even thats hard to cope with sometimes and i know what being manic depressive is like. Its like a no win situation where your always dealt the bad card. But whatever maybe step back a little, but not so far back that your not there ready to catch her when she falls.

 

[PandaNate]

She was diagnosed with Schizophrenia when I was younger, from a blow to the head she got as a child (a violent stranger attacked her whilst she played in the garden), she does get depressed, over worries and frankly I've adopted quite a few things she has apart from the big main one. The only way I know how to step back is by not texting back :/ She lives further away then she did as well as we moved a town further down the country and when we buy a house, it'll be yet another city down the country from where she is. xx

 

[Ally89]

I see why it's hard to cope sometimes, I don't know what I'd do in your situation tbh.