Ahhh Blubell, I've just read your entire thread in one evening. I feel like I know you lol.
Please keep us updated on how you get on - I think I'm now as invested in your weightloss as I am my own. I've experienced so many emotions reading your posts, and now I'm really rooting for you!
I've been out of the dieting world for a while, on day 3 and desperately trying not to let it consume me so I become obsessed like I used to! Think it's why I enjoyed reading your posts as then I'm not thinking about my own diet lol