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Hi RD, good luck with the loss. 8lbs is fabulous and as all the other gals say it's 8lbs closer to your goal! Good luck for week 2!
RD's life diary: I'm back (sort of)
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Russiandoll
Carpe diem
It's been a hard day ... very heavy-duty lectures at Uni have fried my brain and I'm pooped! I was there until 6pm but I did well in the diet dept and just had my two shakes throughout the day.
On the way home from Uni, I stopped off at Asda to get some bits in for the family and whilst I was there, the scrumptious aroma of fresh bread wafted by my discerning nose ...
OMG I could have dived into the wicker basket full of warm, uncut bread right at that moment. My mouth was watering and my stomach was rumbling so much it sounded like a 747 about to take off. I don't think I've ever had a bread craving THAT strong before.
I'm pleased to report I resisted and got home, diet intact. One veggie drink and a choc mint mousse later and I'm ready for bed.
Over and out xx
On the way home from Uni, I stopped off at Asda to get some bits in for the family and whilst I was there, the scrumptious aroma of fresh bread wafted by my discerning nose ...
OMG I could have dived into the wicker basket full of warm, uncut bread right at that moment. My mouth was watering and my stomach was rumbling so much it sounded like a 747 about to take off. I don't think I've ever had a bread craving THAT strong before.
I'm pleased to report I resisted and got home, diet intact. One veggie drink and a choc mint mousse later and I'm ready for bed.
Over and out xx
canireallydothis!!
Gold Member
You are doing so well hun, Get you, wish you could pass some of the determination on to me!!!
Russiandoll
Carpe diem
I've sent a large portion of concentrated determination your way in the post ... should be with you first thing tomorrow!
jane
Opinionated
Just caught up with your diary.
i'm amazed at how you are keeping going in your life blizzard at present.
you are managing to think ahead & make constructive decisions at a time when others might either become self destructive or merely flounder in chaotic circles.
Ok, the eating discipline had slipped enough to allow a significant ( but not disasterous) regain, & your self esteem has slumped as a result, but the next time you do a bit of self-assessment will you please remember what inner strength, resiliance, backbone,fighting spirit etc you have & still find time to help out a friend in need.
well done for getting the ss underway. now you're over the hardest part it would be brilliant if you can keep going, at least til christmas, cos by then most of the damage could be undone. What a nice present that would be to yourself!
hope the CAB appointment helps the next stage in the sorting out of the finances.
i'm amazed at how you are keeping going in your life blizzard at present.
you are managing to think ahead & make constructive decisions at a time when others might either become self destructive or merely flounder in chaotic circles.
Ok, the eating discipline had slipped enough to allow a significant ( but not disasterous) regain, & your self esteem has slumped as a result, but the next time you do a bit of self-assessment will you please remember what inner strength, resiliance, backbone,fighting spirit etc you have & still find time to help out a friend in need.
well done for getting the ss underway. now you're over the hardest part it would be brilliant if you can keep going, at least til christmas, cos by then most of the damage could be undone. What a nice present that would be to yourself!
hope the CAB appointment helps the next stage in the sorting out of the finances.
Russiandoll
Carpe diem
Thanks for the lovely comments Jane. I seriously thought I'd 'lost it' at one point but with the help of everyone here, I've managed to hold on to thread of sanity and am (for now) back & fighting my corner. I now realise that I can be a tough old bird - for me, 'down' doesn't mean 'out'
Today is going to be a busy one. I plan to take my job application to the local secondary school in by hand (keen? lol) then ito town to sort some bills out after which I have an appointment at the doctors to have a Mirena coil fitted. I confess to being terrified ... the last one I had fitted (some 6 years ago) was put in by a total incompetent: it was half an hour of agony. Hope the doctor today is a bit more adept.
If I have time after (and don't feel like I've been kicked by a mule) I'll pop in and visit my mum and dad. I haven't seen them since I started back at Uni so it'll be nice to catch up. I think I'll buy him a nice jar of special home-made marmalade to take round (there's a shop in town that sells it): he eats so little now so it might tempt his taste buds if he had something special for his morning toast.
I'm feeling a bit nervous in the kitchen today. Last night, a HUUUUUGE spider scuttled across the floor and scared the holy bejeezuz out of me and DD3. She threw a book at it and missed - or maybe it just bounced off. I swear that creature was so big I could see tattoos on two of its legs!!
Well, it went under the cooker so I know it's still in the house somewhere. I'm very uneasy sharing my space with the King Kong of arachnids!
Right - off to get ready. More later ...
Today is going to be a busy one. I plan to take my job application to the local secondary school in by hand (keen? lol) then ito town to sort some bills out after which I have an appointment at the doctors to have a Mirena coil fitted. I confess to being terrified ... the last one I had fitted (some 6 years ago) was put in by a total incompetent: it was half an hour of agony. Hope the doctor today is a bit more adept.
If I have time after (and don't feel like I've been kicked by a mule) I'll pop in and visit my mum and dad. I haven't seen them since I started back at Uni so it'll be nice to catch up. I think I'll buy him a nice jar of special home-made marmalade to take round (there's a shop in town that sells it): he eats so little now so it might tempt his taste buds if he had something special for his morning toast.
I'm feeling a bit nervous in the kitchen today. Last night, a HUUUUUGE spider scuttled across the floor and scared the holy bejeezuz out of me and DD3. She threw a book at it and missed - or maybe it just bounced off. I swear that creature was so big I could see tattoos on two of its legs!!
Well, it went under the cooker so I know it's still in the house somewhere. I'm very uneasy sharing my space with the King Kong of arachnids!
Right - off to get ready. More later ...
Barb
Gold Member
OMG - SPIDERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate the horrible things, there is nothing about them to like reallyis there? Hope he stays well hidden till your DH gets back at the weekend, then he can kill him for you!
Well done on your iron resolve, warm bread has to be one of the most yummy smells around. It's great to hear you sounding so confident again, I really think you are on your way again Debbie; so pleased for you!
Hope you get on Ok at the doctors and then have a nice visit with your Mum and Dad.
Catch up later, Lots of love
Well done on your iron resolve, warm bread has to be one of the most yummy smells around. It's great to hear you sounding so confident again, I really think you are on your way again Debbie; so pleased for you!
Hope you get on Ok at the doctors and then have a nice visit with your Mum and Dad.
Catch up later, Lots of love
Russiandoll
Carpe diem
Well, I'm back from my trip to the doctors to have another Mirena coil fitted and so my upholstery is now 'resprung'!
It was a bit 'ouchy' but a helluva lot better than the male doctor up North who, six years ago, put me through half an hour of torture to refit one - I swore then I'd never have another but I need contraception and I loved the freedom of the Mirena. I just hoped the fact it was being fitted by a female doctor in a Family Planning clinic (where she does loads of these procedures) wouold mean it would be a less traumatic experience.
She was wonderful ... very kind and understanding and PD quick too! The whole thing was fitted in around a minute. It did hurt a little but was worth it for the five years peace of mind it's going to give me. I felt quite faint after it was done - I think it was a combination of anxiety and relief - she brought me an electric fan and a cup of water and let me lie there for as long as I wanted.
I went into town afterwards and bought my dad the marmalade I spoke about. It's made by a small local company who produce delicious jams, preserves and chutneys and sell them through a charity shop outlet, so everyone benefits. I bought some thick cut seville marmalade: My dad's face lit up when he saw it ... he loves his chunky marmalade!
He looks so thin - but still maintains a sense of humour. When me and my mum got onto the morose subject of who had died in the news, my dad chipped in "What about that bloke who died ... the one who ate cat-food".
"Oh dear," I said, "that's terrible!"
"Yeah," replied dad, "It wasn't the cat-food that killed him - he broke his back bending round to lick his ****!"
It was a bit 'ouchy' but a helluva lot better than the male doctor up North who, six years ago, put me through half an hour of torture to refit one - I swore then I'd never have another but I need contraception and I loved the freedom of the Mirena. I just hoped the fact it was being fitted by a female doctor in a Family Planning clinic (where she does loads of these procedures) wouold mean it would be a less traumatic experience.
She was wonderful ... very kind and understanding and PD quick too! The whole thing was fitted in around a minute. It did hurt a little but was worth it for the five years peace of mind it's going to give me. I felt quite faint after it was done - I think it was a combination of anxiety and relief - she brought me an electric fan and a cup of water and let me lie there for as long as I wanted.
I went into town afterwards and bought my dad the marmalade I spoke about. It's made by a small local company who produce delicious jams, preserves and chutneys and sell them through a charity shop outlet, so everyone benefits. I bought some thick cut seville marmalade: My dad's face lit up when he saw it ... he loves his chunky marmalade!
He looks so thin - but still maintains a sense of humour. When me and my mum got onto the morose subject of who had died in the news, my dad chipped in "What about that bloke who died ... the one who ate cat-food".
"Oh dear," I said, "that's terrible!"
"Yeah," replied dad, "It wasn't the cat-food that killed him - he broke his back bending round to lick his ****!"
Russiandoll
Carpe diem
Steve managed to get home again this evening: what a treat to have him with me five nights in a row! We took the dog for a walk along the bay ... it was chilly but the sunset was particularly beautiful.
I was looking forward to my dinner when we got home but realised I couldn't remember if I'd had one pack or two. I really wasn't that hungry so had to think hard - did I have a shake for breakfast? No. Did I have a shake for lunch? Ahhh - I had a bar at my mum and dad's and that was the first of the day.
So I was able to have a soups AND a mousse for dinner: I feel well full-up now. It was then that it occurred to me that I've slipped into CD's 'easy' phase. Physical hunger has gone and the lure of food is slipping into the horizon - long may this continue (I just hope my student loan comes in before my packs run out!)
I received an invitation to a 40th birthday party this evening. My heart sank when I saw it was to be a 'Come dressed as you would for the Oscars' themed party. My sister has been invited too and I said there was no way I could go. I have NOTHING to wear that is even remotely glam - and even if I had the money I wouldn't buy anything. I do NOT want to waste money on clothes I won't be wearing for long.
I was momentarily annoyed with myself for having regained the weight - if I hadn't then I could have worn my very glam strapless monsoon dress. But I have regained so there's no point in going down the self-recrimination route. Anyway, my sister said she'd contact the person throwing the party (an old family friend) and ask if we could go in smart eans rather than not go at all (My sis said she'd wear jeans so I didn't feel so out of place - really nice of her I thought). I have a nice pair of jeans that, at the moment I can't quite do up. I wonder if I could get them on in ten days (party is on the 29th). Hmmm.
People have been so nice to me recently that I could cry. I feel so humbled by the number of people with good hearts: bless them all.
I was looking forward to my dinner when we got home but realised I couldn't remember if I'd had one pack or two. I really wasn't that hungry so had to think hard - did I have a shake for breakfast? No. Did I have a shake for lunch? Ahhh - I had a bar at my mum and dad's and that was the first of the day.
So I was able to have a soups AND a mousse for dinner: I feel well full-up now
. It was then that it occurred to me that I've slipped into CD's 'easy' phase. Physical hunger has gone and the lure of food is slipping into the horizon - long may this continue (I just hope my student loan comes in before my packs run out!)I received an invitation to a 40th birthday party this evening. My heart sank when I saw it was to be a 'Come dressed as you would for the Oscars' themed party. My sister has been invited too and I said there was no way I could go. I have NOTHING to wear that is even remotely glam - and even if I had the money I wouldn't buy anything. I do NOT want to waste money on clothes I won't be wearing for long.
I was momentarily annoyed with myself for having regained the weight - if I hadn't then I could have worn my very glam strapless monsoon dress. But I have regained so there's no point in going down the self-recrimination route. Anyway, my sister said she'd contact the person throwing the party (an old family friend) and ask if we could go in smart eans rather than not go at all (My sis said she'd wear jeans so I didn't feel so out of place - really nice of her I thought). I have a nice pair of jeans that, at the moment I can't quite do up. I wonder if I could get them on in ten days (party is on the 29th). Hmmm.
People have been so nice to me recently that I could cry. I feel so humbled by the number of people with good hearts: bless them all.
Barb
Gold Member
It's the effect you have on other people - you bring out the goodness in others, which is a gift in itself. Its good to know the CD regime is getting easier, you sound back in the zone in a way that you haven't for a very long time. Hooray, you really are going to do it RD!
I like the glam jeans idea, you could always resort to magic knickers if push literally comes to shove but at the rate you are going I doubt it will be necessary.
Lovely to know your DH is back tonight; any sign of that pesky spider for him to dispose of?
love
I like the glam jeans idea, you could always resort to magic knickers if push literally comes to shove but at the rate you are going I doubt it will be necessary.
Lovely to know your DH is back tonight; any sign of that pesky spider for him to dispose of?
love
Russiandoll
Carpe diem
I don't think Gandalf himself could create knickers magic enough to work miracles on my middle - I'll just go for a long top in the hope that it covers a mulitude of sins!
As for the spider - it hasn't reared its horrible hairy head in my presence today so I'll just have to stay vigilant. I can't bear the thought of it running up my trouser leg while I'm cooking dinner! <shriek!!!>
Dibspl
Radix lecti
OMG, I'm terrified of spiders and DH isn't too keen either but i was sat on the settee the other night and he made that "what the hell was that comment" and the dog was staring at a spot behind my back - i haven't moved so fast for years
Anyway, as i got the full story from the other side of the room, a huge spider (complete with leather jacket and doc martins) had run up DH leg, across his lap and straight behind the cushions i was lent against. So much for them being more scared of us!!!
He got a bit of kitchen towel and tried to grab it so it having about 40 years advantage on him moved much faster, jumped off the settee and ran straight across the room towards me. I did that elephant and mouse thing, hoiked up all my skirts and danced on the spot trying to work out which way it was going to turn but it stopped for breath and DH grabbed it and ejected it out to the far end of the garden *phew*
He said, that spider was certainly after you - yeah thanks.......ughh they make my skin crawl.
So best of luck with the big game hunt and tracking yours down
Anyway, as i got the full story from the other side of the room, a huge spider (complete with leather jacket and doc martins
) had run up DH leg, across his lap and straight behind the cushions i was lent against. So much for them being more scared of us!!!He got a bit of kitchen towel and tried to grab it so it having about 40 years advantage on him moved much faster, jumped off the settee and ran straight across the room towards me. I did that elephant and mouse thing, hoiked up all my skirts and danced on the spot trying to work out which way it was going to turn but it stopped for breath and DH grabbed it and ejected it out to the far end of the garden *phew*
He said, that spider was certainly after you - yeah thanks.......ughh they make my skin crawl.
So best of luck with the big game hunt and tracking yours down
Russiandoll
Carpe diem
I am so angry ... in fact I'm fuming.
My sister came round earlier and brought a 'friend' with her. I won't go into too much detail but she's hung around with heroine addicts in the past but has promised she doesn't anymore. Anyway, months ago, she came to my house with one of these addicts and I was pretty bloody angry about it. I just didn't want anyone 'casing' my house for nickable things. I told her later how I felt. I stupidly thought she wouldn't do anything that idiotic again. WRONG!!!!
Today, she turned up with this young bloke 20 years her junior. He was a bit rough looking and wore a baseball cap - I was instantly on edge. She told me his name and said he had been a friend of her son James (my nephew who died).
They stayed a couple of hours after which I went to my youngest sisters house to say I was uneasy about what had happened. We spoke to a mutual acquaintance who knew the circles James moved in and recognised this character as being a violent, thieving criminal who is nasty and unpredictable. Apparently, James didn't even like him: He just knew who he was.
I was livid that she'd brought such a character round my house!!
I texted her and told her what I'd found out - the bloke was there and she only went and showed him my text!!!! Then she phoned me and we had an argument on the phone. She then slammed the phone down on me.
Five minutes later she phoned and apologised saying she'd had no idea and had asked him to leave. I gave her a few home truths about her conduct lately and we left it at that.
Now we're all on egg-shells here as this character has now seen my scathing text about him: I hope we don't end up with a brick through the window.
She gave him a 'tour' of my downstairs whilst they were here so he even knows the layout of the house and all the exits. Hubby is LIVID - understandibly. If we get turned over, I'll know where to go!!
My sister came round earlier and brought a 'friend' with her. I won't go into too much detail but she's hung around with heroine addicts in the past but has promised she doesn't anymore. Anyway, months ago, she came to my house with one of these addicts and I was pretty bloody angry about it. I just didn't want anyone 'casing' my house for nickable things. I told her later how I felt. I stupidly thought she wouldn't do anything that idiotic again. WRONG!!!!
Today, she turned up with this young bloke 20 years her junior. He was a bit rough looking and wore a baseball cap - I was instantly on edge. She told me his name and said he had been a friend of her son James (my nephew who died).
They stayed a couple of hours after which I went to my youngest sisters house to say I was uneasy about what had happened. We spoke to a mutual acquaintance who knew the circles James moved in and recognised this character as being a violent, thieving criminal who is nasty and unpredictable. Apparently, James didn't even like him: He just knew who he was.
I was livid that she'd brought such a character round my house!!
I texted her and told her what I'd found out - the bloke was there and she only went and showed him my text!!!! Then she phoned me and we had an argument on the phone. She then slammed the phone down on me.
Five minutes later she phoned and apologised saying she'd had no idea and had asked him to leave. I gave her a few home truths about her conduct lately and we left it at that.
Now we're all on egg-shells here as this character has now seen my scathing text about him: I hope we don't end up with a brick through the window.
She gave him a 'tour' of my downstairs whilst they were here so he even knows the layout of the house and all the exits. Hubby is LIVID - understandibly. If we get turned over, I'll know where to go!!
Barb
Gold Member
Blimey, I don't know what I'd do except possibly tell the story to the local cop shop in the hope they may be a little more in evidence than usual. Even if they did the odd drive past it may make you all feel more secure and might deter this dodgy character if he is in the area.
Your sister really is pushing your relationship to the edge and I think you have been incredibly supportive and understanding. Her actions in bringing this lowlife into your family home is unforgivable, she has a lot of making up to do. You are totally right to fume, I'd be on the verge of combusting!
Hope all is well and that his brain is too addled by drugs to do anything stupid. He would have to be pretty stupid to attempt anything as you could identify him very easily.
Now try to calm down or you won't get any sleep! ( Barb being very strict there!)
Lots of love
Your sister really is pushing your relationship to the edge and I think you have been incredibly supportive and understanding. Her actions in bringing this lowlife into your family home is unforgivable, she has a lot of making up to do. You are totally right to fume, I'd be on the verge of combusting!
Hope all is well and that his brain is too addled by drugs to do anything stupid. He would have to be pretty stupid to attempt anything as you could identify him very easily.
Now try to calm down or you won't get any sleep! ( Barb being very strict there!)
Lots of love
pandora
finding my way again !
having allready once told your sister that her so called friends wern't welcome i feel she is bang out of order puttiny you in this situation.
I agree with Barb that maybee the local bobby could perhapse do a drive by or 2, might be worth a quick phone call.
hope you rest well
xx
I agree with Barb that maybee the local bobby could perhapse do a drive by or 2, might be worth a quick phone call.
hope you rest well
xx
