Sarah's Slimming World Diary!
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xsarahx
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Arghhhhhhgg I just wanna cry. I've completely lost it. Not just not on a diet but am eating absolutely uncontrollably! Eating a load of crap every day. Don't know what's happened as I was doing so well!
Going to 'start again' tomorrow and really try. I'm moving out in two weeks, then going on holiday, then moving into new flat. Gonna be manic and not great for food. Really need to try as I feel awful in myself and really lacking confidence.
Going to 'start again' tomorrow and really try. I'm moving out in two weeks, then going on holiday, then moving into new flat. Gonna be manic and not great for food. Really need to try as I feel awful in myself and really lacking confidence.
xsarahx
Gold Member
Just checking in. Had put on a load of weight and have managed to lose 10lb since Sunday. Would like to think that's great but it's all down to the lovely heartbreak diet.
Don't know what's going on but was supposed to be signing up to the flat on Monday and dave split up with me on sunday. No warnings, no signs, nothing. In fact, he seemed really excited for the flat...
He's comin over tonight to talk about it. No idea what's going on in his head.
Don't know what's going on but was supposed to be signing up to the flat on Monday and dave split up with me on sunday. No warnings, no signs, nothing. In fact, he seemed really excited for the flat...
He's comin over tonight to talk about it. No idea what's going on in his head.
xsarahx
Gold Member
Hello
Well I'm officially single
It's so weird... one minute we are looking at flats, choosing the one we want and talking about furniture and the next we are split up.
He came over last night and basically said that for the last month he has not been feeling the same. He hasn't acted any differently with me - usually you can tell can't you, when something is wrong? He said that he thought it was just nerves about moving but he said that he felt like he should be wanting to rush home from work to get his work done so he can spend the whole weekend with me, or en I all him he should want to have a nice long conversation - but he doesn't feel like that.
I said about how love goes up and down, its not always perfect but he said he has tried for a month and can't see his feelings changing and so can't give it a try now. I said it wasn't fair... he should have told me so that we could work on it together rather than just him.
Anyway... we chatted for hours, cuddled and both cried loads. We still kissed a bit - he said he still fancies me, still has feelings for me, still cares about me more than anything in the world and wishes he felt the same as he used to. He said he wants to be friends - the best thing about us is that we always had so much fun - there was never a dull moment and we were each others best friends. It's been different to any other relationship I've ever had... I've never had that level of friendship underneath the relationship. I hope that from this we can remain friends. The thought of not having him in my life kills me and we both said we will really try.
It's hard to explain to people who don't know him. He is genuinely the nicest, most caring person I have ever met. It's nice knowing that I can trust everything he says - I know if he says he wants to stay friends and will try that he will try his hardest and it's not just empty promises.
I said I would back off asking him to keep trying if he would keep his mind open to things developing when we are just friends. I think if the pressure is taken off then things may work out. I still see him being the person I want to end up with and so I'm hopeful. We've never argued, never fallen out, never hurt each other... there is a great relationship there and definitely something that could be worked on.
He has just been told about an Inset day at school on the day we are supposed to fly to Amsterdam. He originally said I could have our holidays to Amsterdam and Spain but I said I would much rather go with him. He said he is going to ask if he can have it off and still come so fingers crossed he is able to do that.
Well I'm officially single
It's so weird... one minute we are looking at flats, choosing the one we want and talking about furniture and the next we are split up.
He came over last night and basically said that for the last month he has not been feeling the same. He hasn't acted any differently with me - usually you can tell can't you, when something is wrong? He said that he thought it was just nerves about moving but he said that he felt like he should be wanting to rush home from work to get his work done so he can spend the whole weekend with me, or en I all him he should want to have a nice long conversation - but he doesn't feel like that.
I said about how love goes up and down, its not always perfect but he said he has tried for a month and can't see his feelings changing and so can't give it a try now. I said it wasn't fair... he should have told me so that we could work on it together rather than just him.
Anyway... we chatted for hours, cuddled and both cried loads. We still kissed a bit - he said he still fancies me, still has feelings for me, still cares about me more than anything in the world and wishes he felt the same as he used to. He said he wants to be friends - the best thing about us is that we always had so much fun - there was never a dull moment and we were each others best friends. It's been different to any other relationship I've ever had... I've never had that level of friendship underneath the relationship. I hope that from this we can remain friends. The thought of not having him in my life kills me and we both said we will really try.
It's hard to explain to people who don't know him. He is genuinely the nicest, most caring person I have ever met. It's nice knowing that I can trust everything he says - I know if he says he wants to stay friends and will try that he will try his hardest and it's not just empty promises.
I said I would back off asking him to keep trying if he would keep his mind open to things developing when we are just friends. I think if the pressure is taken off then things may work out. I still see him being the person I want to end up with and so I'm hopeful. We've never argued, never fallen out, never hurt each other... there is a great relationship there and definitely something that could be worked on.
He has just been told about an Inset day at school on the day we are supposed to fly to Amsterdam. He originally said I could have our holidays to Amsterdam and Spain but I said I would much rather go with him. He said he is going to ask if he can have it off and still come so fingers crossed he is able to do that.
xsarahx
Gold Member
Had to start a new post as I'm writing this on my iPad and it stopped scrolling down! Sorry about such a long post and I'm sure no one is actually interested! Still, it helps to get things out doesn't it.
I still can't eat. I have been trying to. Since Sunday night I've had a satsuma, a poppadom, a spoon of rice and 2 spoons of curry, 5 tic tacs and a cereal bar. Not even 1000 calories over the 3.5 days. I've lost 13lb. I can hardly even stomach drinking. It's horrible.
Dave brought me back home last night as I didn't want to stay at uni. Everyone has gone home from uni so I don't have anyone there to be with. Hopefully can have a busy weekend here at home, get back to work next week and gradually find this whole thing a bit easier.
We've got lots of fun stuff in the Summer that we spoke about doing - we've got a trip to Longleat, hopefully Amsterdam and Spain, maybe surfing, lots of training for our charity swim. There is lots to look forward to and lots of opportunities to have fun.
Arhhhhhhh so frustrating though, just want to scream. My whole life has just been turned upside down. I need to make some decisions about where to live next year etc... so much on my mind.
I still can't eat. I have been trying to. Since Sunday night I've had a satsuma, a poppadom, a spoon of rice and 2 spoons of curry, 5 tic tacs and a cereal bar. Not even 1000 calories over the 3.5 days. I've lost 13lb. I can hardly even stomach drinking. It's horrible.
Dave brought me back home last night as I didn't want to stay at uni. Everyone has gone home from uni so I don't have anyone there to be with. Hopefully can have a busy weekend here at home, get back to work next week and gradually find this whole thing a bit easier.
We've got lots of fun stuff in the Summer that we spoke about doing - we've got a trip to Longleat, hopefully Amsterdam and Spain, maybe surfing, lots of training for our charity swim. There is lots to look forward to and lots of opportunities to have fun.
Arhhhhhhh so frustrating though, just want to scream. My whole life has just been turned upside down. I need to make some decisions about where to live next year etc... so much on my mind.
Caz
Repeat Offender
Such a difficult situation to be in and can imagine how you're feeling but in a way it's better to happen now than after you've moved in. This takes the pressure off and gives you the chance to be friends and see how things develop again from there, giving you both space to see what you want to happen. Know how hard this is, if you need me you know where I am.
xsarahx
Gold Member
Thanks girls.
Was waiting to hear about Amsterdam today but is head was out of the school so he couldn't ask him. Will have to wait tip tomorrow! Ahhhhh! I'm so impatient and this really doesn't help. I want to know if we are going so I can have something to look forward to.
Was waiting to hear about Amsterdam today but is head was out of the school so he couldn't ask him. Will have to wait tip tomorrow! Ahhhhh! I'm so impatient and this really doesn't help. I want to know if we are going so I can have something to look forward to.
xsarahx
Gold Member
He said if he can't go on the Monday then we should be able to change the flight to later in the day or the next day... he seems to really want to go still. Otherwise he has said we can do something here instead - go to Longleat maybe. I'm sure that all we need to do is spend some time together, without any stress and pressure, and he'll come round.
I'm starting to eat a bit... not a huge amount. Have lost a stone in 4.5 days... it's crazy. How do I go from being such an emotional binge eater to nothing!?
I'm starting to eat a bit... not a huge amount. Have lost a stone in 4.5 days... it's crazy. How do I go from being such an emotional binge eater to nothing!?
