Sophie's Slimming World and Cinema critiques!

[cheekychinchilla]

I'm really tired and feel rather crappy today, so I can't really think of anything helpful, thoughtful, or whatever.

But I'm sorry your good mood has been destroyed I dunno what it's like to be in a relationship with someone who does something you hate as much as G watching F1
Your plans and ideas sounded really cool, but I do agree that it is a BIG commitment for you guys. Hope you can talk things through with him properly. Really is a shame that you couldn't see your family and speak to your Dad.

Wish I could give you a big hug. And also go out and dance like a loon with ya.
Hope you're ok matey. Your work trip sounded like it went pretty well btw.xx

 

[Tetris]

Thanks girl. Feel less alone after your reply. Big hug to you too. X

 

[EmmaB]

Your not alone Hun, I'm here too, and sending hugs!
Im so sorry that Gerard was a douche with the F1, you don't deserve that, and he should understand that it's getting you super upset! :-(
have you spoken to G about how much of a commitment you felt it was, and happy you were, but how you can't commit, if he can't even keep a simple promise?
Can you drive Hun? I know it's not the issue, but have you thought about getting insured on Gs car, might give you but more freedom.
Hope ur ok, are you feeling more positive today at all? Xxxx

 

[Summer86]

Hope you are feeling a bit better today x

 

[Tetris]

Thanks guys, I feel much better today.

I showed Gerard that post, I've always felt I get my feelings out better in writing than spoken so I just showed him and let him read it. Last night I went a bit crazy, we were arguing and I like threw a chair and ran downstairs and then was really scared I might have killed the cat because I threw it at my luggage and it was dark and the cat might have been nestled into the bag (he loves doing that) but luckily he showed up and I was relieved! :|

Anyway, I told him he needs to get off his arse and start having a life. Formula 1 is the only thing in his life, it's really pathetic. I listed all the **** I've been doing- I've been spending hours a day emailing clients and doing pre-production stuff for numerous video shoots, on top of that the editing, dealing with the steadicam rental emails, etc, and he is doing NOTHING unless I push him to. I told him he needs to get his ass into gear because he's not been working for a year now, not been earning- I've been struggling to keep myself a float and he's just relying on savings and... he's very slow about everything, so it's scary that it's been a year of being freelance photographers together and he's ONLY JUST setting up shoots and stuff, he needs to be getting clients in by now. I'm working my arse off to reel in video clients and am getting on with it, but he's being really slow about 'learning' how to direct models, arrange shoots, edit, etc. It took me 6 months to do what he's done in a year- when I was 15 years old and a full time student! Anyway, I kind of laid this all on him last night and I said that there's no way in hell I'm putting all the effort into getting a studio together on top of my current work load- he needs to pitch in, etc.

I told him about the commitment thing, he had this reaction of "yeah, but it's not like we're ever going to break up" and I was like "Um...?!" lol- because I friggin' hate him SO OFTEN and we've only been together like 18 months- I feel like I am at the stage of wanting to strangle him like 5-10 years into marriage. I'm not saying it won't work out, lol, but I'm a flakey person and he seems so cool about it all, it's kind of annoying. He keeps dropping hints about how we should get married and such (in a jokey way because he's too scared to ask because he knows what I'm like and it would freak me out if he did) and it's just like LOL? Seriously, this relationship sucks balls. He needs to sort it out if he wants this to last.

Man, I feel like such a ***** at the moment *sigh* but it's all just... grr. I don't know.

Thanks for the support girls, really helps. Find it hard to talk about this stuff to friends but it's nice I have friends on here I can write it to.

WI this morn was -2, yesterday my sneak peak was +1 so it was like -1 really overall guess I was bloated from the flight still yesterday. Had a nice soup day yesterday too!

Yesterday: Red/SE?
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B- fruit, yog
L- Soup (made with tomatoes, courgette, onions and red pepper) with 4g knob of lurkpack (1.5 syns? Worked out via calories) it really made it nice and creamier!
D- Soup with a chicken frankfurter chopped in (2.5) and onion rivita with cheese grilled on top (HexB1 + HexA1+2)
Snacks- Muller, Chewy D (HexB2)
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My friend is coming over this weekend from out of town, she's going to stay here friday until late Sunday and we are going to get wasted and party and have an awesome time. I can't WAIT!
The thing is, she and Gerard really don't get along; she gets jealous that he's getting my attention and he just hates her because she's quite annoying often but anyway, I really wanted Gerard to go stay with his parents for a night so we could just have fun and I wouldn't feel like I have my parent in the house watching over us (lol) but he can't go there and he has no-one else he can stay with *sigh* so he'll be around, which sucks. I just want to have a girly weekend and have some space. Oh well! It'll still be great (she was the one who bailed on me last time but turns out she was reaaally ill! Have been anticipating this for monthsss) We're going clubbing too, it's been ages since I went! Halloween I think :S

x

 

[cheekychinchilla]

Seems like it was an excellent idea to have him read your post and basically lay it on the line for him. It must be very frustrating for him to be so slow and seemingly lazy over work stuff. Why should you be doing it all and supporting you both?!
I agree that he does need to get his ass in gear and pull his weight. If he was in business with anyone else they wouldn't let him get away with doing hardly any work.

Oh dear about your friend and G not getting on. Hope it's not too awkward for you. Can he hide away playing Xbox somewhere? Or something like that? Really sucks that he has no friends No one???
I'm sure you'll have fun and it'll be cool to go out clubbing. I might be going out this weekend too

Super well done on the loss. Dead proud of you.xx

 

[Tetris]

LOL he literally has ONE friend who lives in Spain. So he sees him once every 1.5 years haha.

Yeah, I've made it clear we want to have a girls night and don't want him wandering about on Sat when we're hungover and 'hanging out', so he's going to go out and busy himself.

I feel bad to have slated him so much- he is slow just generally at EVERYTHING, but the main reason he isn't pulling his weight is because he's spending time researching and learning things (like photoshop techniques and photography stuff) on his laptop. He's too much about the theory and not enough in practise!

I'm HALF a pound away from breaking into the 16 stone range! omgomg hehe, excited!

RED today
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B- Nat FF yog, banana, kiwi, splenda

L- Lean turkey meatballs (HexB1 + 2 for olive oil and wholemeal breadcrumbs, HexA1 for milk for sauce) with spinach and asparagus.

D- picked at extra meatballs (took up 2/3rds of HexB for first portion so can have a few more for free ) and some ketchup (+1)

Snacks: half a rolo desert (sooo good! worth the 4 syns to split it, even if it is like 2 tsps worth lol)

Drinks- 3L NAS squash, 1 green tea, milk (hexA2)

Syns- 5
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[Tetris]

Major choc cravings this eve, had some of my easter lindt bunny, maybe the equivelant of 5 squares of cadburys, 8 syns to be safe? Not that I've been having many syns lately anyway, week before ladt probably went under my syn allowance by like 75% :S but didnt feel like I needed it that week.

 

[Tetris]

Just tried on a bunch of things in Asda (shorts and stuff for Florida hol) and everything I picked was too big *jaw drop* I tried on a size 20 dress as they didn't have any 18's and it was like a sack on me- so loose! That used to be my size :O that felt AWESOME. I felt like I could really see feel the air in there and how that would have been filled snugly before as it was quite a fitted one (not elasticated) - woah! Felt great. Also, Picked up loads of size 24 bottoms because my ass is huge and used to need 24-26 for jeans, but ended up fitting into 22's and 20's even! wut!? AMAZING. The 20's were a little bit tight but I still slipped them on without unbuttoning- just a bit of camel toe LOL so put them back and bought some 22's. Sweet!
I kinda hope by Florida I'll be another size lower but we just booked a trip to Sweden mid June as (random) a friend of a friend needs a cat sitter and they live in a really cool place in the middle of Stockholm, so we were like "Free accommodation? Let's do it!" have been dying to have a break out of the country for ages- just a new scene (without work involved) so will be cool! But yeah, might be not as 100% on plan as usual out there so that might slow things down a bit. I plan to be pretty on plan though! I mean, we'll have a kitchen and stuff, so... yeah
Getting there is costing us about £110 each (trains + busses + flights) which isn't bad, and hoping not to spend too much out there I have heard how horrifically expensive everything is though! But won't be eating out and such much really!

Went to Dad's office to pitch the studio idea and he green lit it (it's his flat) but he was concerned it might cause noise for the neighbours downstairs and said we need to talk to the council about running a business in a residential building. I think it'll be OK though, we'll see. First step was to talk to dad so we'll look into costs and council stuff next!

Red:
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B- Nat ff yog, apple

L- home made veg soup, scrambled eggs, ketchup (1)

D- Realllly want carbs but will be bringing a pasta pack lunch to music video shoot tomorrow so will keep to Red and have a Potato Pancake using 2 HexB's for potato + olive oil. TBC.
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[Tetris]

I forgot to say before- on the flight to Saudi the air hostess said "Did you order a special meal?" and I said "Yes." - she then checked the meal and said "Low fat? You don't need low fat, gosh!" and laughed. MADE MY WEEK LOL. Even if she was just being nice

I did buy another size 14 dress today, elasticated at the waist though, which feels EPIC. It's a bit tight on the bust but I have more back fat to lose lol

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[cheekychinchilla]

Wow! Well done on the clothes sizes dude. It's such a shock isn't it?! Super made it for you Hehe at the camel toe.... probably wise to have put them back!!

Oh God I'm so jealous of you going to Stockholm!!! Can I come?! When I go back to Kiruna I'd think about a night or two in Stockholm. It is a little expensive, but not ridiculously expensive. Also depends on the shop or restaurant.

Awww how sweet of the air hostess?! Really nice or her and I'm sure she wasn't just customer servicing you xx

 

[Tetris]

Thanks mate! Can't believe I bought a size 14 dress LOL. Mental.

Haha- you can join us in Stockholm if you want! apparently there is a sofa bed at the place so could have free accommodation with us
We're going to be there during their Midsummer festival- apparently quite a big deal where everyone gets wasted to celebrate the start of summer.
My dad was saying how expensive it was earlier, but I don't think we'll eat out much anyway, it's more about

That air hostess' comment gave me a goofy smile for ages! I did notice too that there was a bit of slack in the seatbelt unlike usually it's tight to the end. So glad I'm finally seeing changes, really felt bummed when at club 10 I didn't see a difference yet. I feel really cocky about it now LOL buying slightly tight things because I KNOW I'll eventually get into them. That's a feeling I've never had before I wasn't brave enough to buy a nice small size outfit early on to shrink into but now I feel like it is destined to one day happen, yippee!

 

[EmmaB]

I am loving hearing you so positive it's inspiring!!
Yay on the 14 wont be long til all your tops at least are 14

stockholm sounds awesome, will be great to get out and explore. Take lots of pics for us. That gives you something lush to look forward to and not daunting like a beach hol.
Xxx

 

[Tetris]

Thanks Em! I doubt we'll do much in Stockholm really, keep it cheap and cheerful, maybe a photoshoot or two though. Just will be nice to be somewhere else! I'm actually more excited about this weekend than going there LOL!? Have stocked up on yummy low syn things for when we get munchies and I'm too out of it to think about syns.

Had a yummy yummy green day today

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B: banana, yoghurt

L: took packed pasta salad to shoot, not much salad as am low on fresh stuff :/ just some cherry tom's and cucumber (salad cream light +1), but had a banana too

D: Potato pancake (again!) with pasta (again!) in 1.5 tablespoons of olive oil (hex B 1+ 1/2- fries sooo nice like that, like deep fried hehehe) and loads of cheese (hexA1+2), ketchup (+1) sugar snap peas (as I didn't have a carrot grated in this time, ran out) and caramelised onions.

Snacks: another banana, Alpen Light (1/2 hexB), mini milk (1.5)

Syns: 3.5
(had some more choc yesterday, some of my easter lindt bunny, maybe 3-5 cubes equivalent, 5 syns worth? Have nearly made my way down the head of the bunny now. Guessing I'll be working out weekly syns for the weekend so thought I'd count it now so I don't forget)
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Am going to have a detoxing Red day tomorrow (as I feel naughty after two nights of Potato Pancakes in a row) to prepare for a carby weekend; will stick to meat and salad/veg and keep low syn hopefully, then I'm pigging out all weekend heh.

x

 

[cheekychinchilla]

I guess it'll just be nice to be somewhere different. And you don't have to spend a lot exploring. I'd really love to visit Stockholm at some point. The airport's very nice lol!

Mmmm green days are awesome

You looking forward to your weekend?x

 

[Tetris]

I am totally psyched about the weekend! Meeting Eliza tomorrow to go shopping and maybe get a nice outfit for clubbing and a new lipstick because I lost my fave red one, I only have one other red but it's more crimson (very deep pink) and brilliant red suits me better so am going to find a nice new one. Then we're going to get dolled up and get the music going and head out clubbing around 9pm. Club runs until 6am and there is a nearly door to door 24hr bus so that's SO convenient. And it's my fave club- Voodoo (the once a month rock/metal club with a ball pond and stuff) so am SO psyched seriously haven't been this excited in ages, lol!

Red day today:
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B: breakfast in bed made by G, yay (even though I asked him, hehe) banana, blueberries and nat ff yog with splenda.

L: Fresh salmon with cherry tomatoes and red pepper. Used 1 syn worth (10g) of Flora Lightest and maybe 2 syns worth of honey.

D: None :S

Snacks: we stocked up on fruit (see pic!) and I nommed loads of it before our late lunch- had a mango, plum, mini peach thing, a few cherries, a nectarine... I think I'll have a ChewyD now (HexB) as I'm getting hungry but it's late, and glass of milk for HexA.

Syns: 3
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I went a bit ape sh*t at the fruit market- look at all that! The box of yellow things are Caribbean Mangoes they were the priciest thing- £4, the rest of it came to £23 including some veg that's in the fridge (carrots, red peppers... can't remember what else) the blueberries with the £1 sticker were from Tesco yest though.

SO. PSYCHED. FOR. WEEKEND.

I think I should successfully manage a red day tomorrow but will stick to less Hex's just in case it needs to become EE.
x

 

[EmmaB]

Hi Hun,
all that fruit looks super yum. I've been putting off buying food this week as we didn't get paid until today, but means I can go shopping! Yay!!!
ball pool sounds awesome in a club!!!
Hope you have N awesome time! Xx

 

[Tetris]

Ball pond is so much fun adults become kids again. Metal head adults! Haha.

I'm hoping the fruit will sway me from naughty temptations this weekend!

Just had mid week WI (a day late, oops) and lost 1lb so am in the 16st range now! OMG! But right on the edge so might be back in the 17's by monday if I drink too much :/ will try and be good feels awesome to be in the 16s, havent bern there since I WAS 16 am going to treat myself to a nice (inexpensive) clubbing dress if I find one later. I want to feel smokin' tonight!

 

[cheekychinchilla]

That is an amazing fruit haul! I'd be well chuffed with that

Hehe ball pond at a club just made me think "Euw! The vomit!!!" LOL. I wish I got as excited as you about going out!!

I've had to postpone my night out again. Probably for the best considering I already have all the symptoms of being drunk Have a crazy dance for me! x

 

[Tetris]

Aw, you're missing another night out sucks! I will have a crazy dance for you. I intend on getting about 4-5hrs of cardio in tonight on the dance floor

Haha- I've been in the ball pond before and it was pretty clean! Probably gets a bit sweaty towards the end of the night though I guess ewww.

Food so far today - RED:
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B- Natural FF Fromage Frais (it's so much creamier than normal yoghurt, hadn't realised when swapping between them before :O def having more of it as it costs the same!) with looooads of strawberries and raspberries as they were all turning- oops! Market fruit for you... But anyway, SO delicious

L- A whole cauliflower boiled in stock cubes and mashed with a tiny bit of smash (+2.5) a drop of milk and grated cheddar (HexA1)

D- Won't be eating anything tonight as I tend to feel sick if I'm drinking on a full stomach/am eating while drinking, so might just have another ChewyD later for HexB. Hopefully avoid kebabs on the way home

Syns so far: 2.5
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