wow i gained 6lbs in a week!!!!!! i've been on and off plan since friday. My water intake has been a joke. I've still got a bottle of water that i took out of the fridge on Tuesday sitting on my desk!!
I have consumed a lot of alcohol last weekend, i don't usually drink but seen as it was my birthday BBQ it would of been rude not to :giggle: NEVER AGAIN!! 13hrs of drinking, me and my sister suffered the next day!!
My mum told me yesterday (my b-day of al days!) that she has been diagnosed with Chronic obstructive pulmonary disease, she found out few days ago but thought it would be best to till me on my birthday first thing in the morning!! I know i am going to sound absoulutely awful but for those who have read my diary you will know what a bad mother she is to me, I'm not 100% convinced that she 2has" it or whether they are going to look into it. She said she was diagnosed with it but this isn't the first time she has lets say exaggerated the truth. My head has been all over the place since i found out, she's 51 so shes still young.
I've really struggled recently with motivation and the negative thoughts have crept back in, i've put my health and well-being on the back burner and i've suffered as a result. This morning i have booked in to see my Gastro consultant, my IBS has been horrendous (poor diet main cause but also stress)
I need to take back control and make time for ME as a broken me is no good for anyone
Sorry for going on a bit but i needed to get it off my chest xxxx