Surfhunny's Countdown to Florida

[summerbear2013]

Just been reading all the threads and wow feel like I know you all now like you feel like you know people off the tv haha.
I am re starting CD in the morning whilst in sunny north Wales for a couple of weeks at our caravan.
Your dress looked amazing and I wud kill to look as good as you and am sure that 8lb will be gone soon.
Good luck everyone just popped on to say your stories are all great and inspiring.
Thanks
Katie xx

 

[MinnieMel]

Hi Sal,

How are things? I hope you have a wonderful Tuesday.

I will be avoiding the sun after today's exposure.

I can tell already despite my bringing CD, MAM, Bars and porridge with me and trying to stick to 810/1000 type meals, that I am going to have some serious regain to lose when I get back. As Beck would tell us to say, "Oh well."

Later,

Mel

 

[*Shanny*]

Hi Sal,

It sounds as if Lily gave you a sensible explanation for the big jump. Keep in mind that 8 pounds of Shanny's 14 pound gain faded fast... i am sure yours will, too.

I hope you do well on the 21 hour shift (that sounds crazy).

MM

Yep very true Mel... Lol x

 

[Surfhunny]

I hate these 21 hour shifts, it's a total nightmare for food planning. So here's what I've decided:

Breakfast at 10:30 - bar

Lunch at 1pm - shake

Tea at 5pm - shake

But that leaves me with 15 hours without anything so later on at midnight I'll have my chicken and I'll have tomorrows cottage cheese in the early hours if I need it.

That seems like an awful lot of food but it's the only way. It's hard to do these shifts as it is without being on day 2 and not yet in ketosis I'm dreading it!! The others always get junk good to eat. So I'll have to try my very hardest to avoid it.

I've already decided to give Easter a miss this weekend, my Easter egg will stay in the kitchen, I want to lose weight more than I want the chocolatey treats. I'm happy to do it!!

I want this weight gone ASAP!!!

 

[Surfhunny]

Well so much for today's plan, I've had my bar early because I'm so hungry!! Can't wait to get back into ketosis so all this stops. I want this 8lbs gone ASAP so I can start making my way towards 13st and then I think might go crawling back to my CDC, I think I need the extra support to shift that last stone and start up the plans.

 

[*Shanny*]

Well so much for today's plan, I've had my bar early because I'm so hungry!! Can't wait to get back into ketosis so all this stops. I want this 8lbs gone ASAP so I can start making my way towards 13st and then I think might go crawling back to my CDC, I think I need the extra support to shift that last stone and start up the plans.

Morning sal that's fine if u had to have your bar early.. keep drinking your liquids.
I hope today goes well for ya, and yes wise words about seeing your CDC again.. for the support and also to move up the plans too.!

Hope your day goes smoothly for you.. x

 

[great things]

a 21 hour shift (wrote shi t then lol) is like a full day's food. use it as your day's food. i'm on day 2 and it's going ok. not feeling as miffed off as i did yesterday so the grumps have basically gone!

 

[Surfhunny]

Aaaaargh I just couldn't do it!!! Bloody diet out the window tonight I was a bit silly to think I could manage a 21 hour shift on CD but not in ketosis!! I was so so hungry I've ended up having a bit of a bingette!!

Still never mind tomorrow is a new diet day, I'm a bit cross with myself for giving in but it's not the end of world, I can have a good stab at it tomorrow and be in ketosis by the weekend!!

I'm not going to beat myself up sh!t happens I'm going to get right back on plan tomorrow. Only 9 hours left at work then home to bed!!

 

[great things]

You'll do it Sally but a 21 hr shift is a bit extreme. I know that I couldn't have even attempted ss in those conditions! It's not the average 'day' is it!

 

[*Shanny*]

Morning sal I hope u have a day off today?

How did it work out with your meals ?

Shanny x

 

[old_user45]

Hope you've recovered after that monster shift!! Is 21 hours even legal?! x

 

[Surfhunny]

This is going to be a long rambly post because i need to get my head straight!!

All night last night I managed to convince myself I'm okay as I am, I don't need to diet, I'm fit and healthy and I can buy clothes in normal shops. I decided I'm not torturing myself any more with CD.

BUT, today after attempting to do 1 day of SW I've changed my mind again. I wish I hadn't strayed off CD last night. I really don't think it was a good idea to try and do a 21 hour shift on SS I should've tried a higher plan but I resorted to chocolate crisps and potato wedges like a big idiot!!!

I'm a little bit worried though. I feel guilty for what I've eaten today..... Normal sized portions of normal food, feels like a binge to me! That thought worries me because I'm pretty sure that's not normal!!!

I wish I could get my head together!!! I'm tired and my mind is in hyperdrive and I'm not thinking straight.... I need to do CD, I've proved it's the only diet that works for me so it's what I have to do, if I was happy with the way I am then I wouldn't feel guilty, I wouldn't constantly be comparing myself and my losses to other peoples, I'd just be accepting, so I'm not happy, I need to get to 12st and the only way I can do it is with CD.

As of now (not tomorrow or the next day) I'm back on CD, I'm going to need a lot of babysitting until I'm back into ketosis because until then I'm very vulnerable to falling off the wagon. Please, please will you help me? Just keep on at me to stay focussed!

 

[bella16]

I can do that for you hon, I'm struggling today :-( I keep trying to convince myself that one bit of food (anything) will be ok, but this time my OH is being amazing and is refusing to let me eat anything :-(
CD is an amazing diet, and you have lost a really good amount of weight, and you looked amazing in your dress! You can do it, you have done it before and you will do it again! Now as my mum would say......"buck up your ideas and get on with it" honestly just think about what you really really want to get out of this whole journey and aim for it.
You CAN and you WILL do it x x

 

[Surfhunny]

Thank you Bella you're right! I love CD and once I'm back in ketosis it'll be plain sailing again, just need to get back into the pink!! First little challenge to get back under the 200lb mark

 

[Lily]

All night last night I managed to convince myself I'm okay as I am, I don't need to diet, I'm fit and healthy and I can buy clothes in normal shops. I decided I'm not torturing myself any more with CD.

Been there, been there! Got the T-shirt in various sizes. It's amazing how we can tell ourselves what we want to hear, isn't it?

BUT, today after attempting to do 1 day of SW I've changed my mind again. I wish I hadn't strayed off CD last night. I really don't think it was a good idea to try and do a 21 hour shift on SS I should've tried a higher plan but I resorted to chocolate crisps and potato wedges like a big idiot!!!

I'm a little bit worried though. I feel guilty for what I've eaten today..... Normal sized portions of normal food, feels like a binge to me! That thought worries me because I'm pretty sure that's not normal!!!

You didn't feel guilty because of what you ate. You felt guilty because deep down, you knew that the decision to do SW wasn't really planned. It wasn't a plan, it was a whim. A flight of fancy. A plan is something you have in place for next week or next month. It isn't something you suddenly magic up just because you fancy the idea of eating. I know this, of course, because I've done it myself, several times. :sigh:

I wish I could get my head together!!! I'm tired and my mind is in hyperdrive and I'm not thinking straight.... I need to do CD, I've proved it's the only diet that works for me so it's what I have to do, if I was happy with the way I am then I wouldn't feel guilty, I wouldn't constantly be comparing myself and my losses to other peoples, I'd just be accepting, so I'm not happy, I need to get to 12st and the only way I can do it is with CD.

As of now (not tomorrow or the next day) I'm back on CD, I'm going to need a lot of babysitting until I'm back into ketosis because until then I'm very vulnerable to falling off the wagon. Please, please will you help me? Just keep on at me to stay focussed!

Hun, your head is 'together', honestly. It's just that your body chemistry is all confused because you came off the plan at the weekend - and however much you tell yourself that you're determined to get back on track, getting back into ketosis often isn't easy. It's hard to do at the best of times - let alone when you've got to do a 21 hour shift!

The good news is that now you've done that shift, you can concentrate on yourself better. Treat yourself gently! The great thing about what's happened is that you can learn from it. You'll know what to do if this situation comes up again - you'll know that you'll need to do at least 810 to get through it. Or at least plan to have more shakes than you did!

And credit where Beck credit is due - you realised pretty quickly that your new plan wasn't a plan at all, right? You're already heading down the right track, before any real and lasting damage got done. :clap: :clap: :clap:

 

[Surfhunny]

Oh Lily you are so wise, and absolutely right!! And about the plan, SW was definitely a whim, in fact it was a bloody cop out!!

 

[Lily]

Oh Lily you are so wise, and absolutely right!! And about the plan, SW was definitely a whim, in fact it was a bloody cop out!!

Not that wise. I can write this stuff - pity I'm useless at taking my own advice though.

 

[old_user45]

I agree with everything everyone else has said. You gave it a go, and as least you did SW not 'normal eating' (which in most of our cases is anything but normal!!) so were still in the 'diet frame of mind', and well done for being so aware of yourself, what you need, and how you're gonna get it, that you realised after just one day that it's CD you really need. I've done similar before and kidded myself for months that the 'other diet' is working for me, before coming crawling back!!

Chin up, stomach in, tits out. Hold your head high, get the look of steely determination in your eye. Look yourself in the eye (a mirror might help!!) and tell yourself where you want to be, why you want it, and how you ARE gonna do it (not MIGHT!). Then tonight, not tomorrow, take at least one small step towards it. Even if it just drinking another glass of water, having a shake or just not eating that biscuit/chocolate/bag of crisps. Baby steps make any change or decision a million times easier.

You can and will do this Hun, and we'll all love watching you get there.

 

[great things]

sally you are so more together than you think. i think that you are more organised and when you get down to you ideal you will be able to maintain it. i'm not as ready as you so i bounce up and down but it's a control for me. to attempt ss was great but as you said maybe a higher plan that day with the number of hours would have been better. don't punish yourself. think of it as a learning curve. you've learnt from it which is fab! i'm struggling on ss+ and have been a bit dizzy today but i think it's been lack of water. i was out walking the dog with emily and she was dawdling and i wanted to get home so i could have a drink as i knew i needed one but it took ages and i was going dizzy like no-ones business. i've had a small amount more than i should have today on ss+ as after my 4th cd i was still needing. so i had a cottage cheese tub. still, feel fine about this as i felt that it was needed. i'm refusing to feel guilty about having it. i did do zumba but i'm taking all my exercise really down low.

bought a pair of lime green cargo trousers at the zumba training! i love them. here's the trousers.....

GREEN 'Convertible' Zumba Cargo Pants- SIZES XS-XXL! | eBay UK

and i bought a pair of black from the uk zumba shop (not ebay but these are what they look like)

Zumba Highlighter pants BLACK AND GREEN X SMAL UK STOCK | eBay UK

they're very comfortable. not a size xs though lol.

 

[Surfhunny]

Thank you everyone, I need a big kick up the bum!!! I've looked after myself today! I cut the grass, pulled out dandelions, sat in the sun for a while. Had a lovely long bath with bubbles and face mask, exfoliated and fake tanned all just to try and feel better!!

I'm tired again now, laid in bed watching tv, I'm ready for tomorrow, bar for breakfast, shake for lunch and k-spag bol for tea. Been talking to Shanny and I'm going to SS only, until I get rid of my 8lb gain, then I'll go back to SS+. I'm going to avoid exercise for another little while just until I'm back into the 13's again. Then hopefully I'll be ready to go back to zumba and I can go back to the gym then too. Once I'm back in the 13's I don't mind if my losses are slower, I need to tone my wobble!

I feel much happier with my decision to carry on CDing, but I need to get through the next few days, so I can get into ketosis.

Back on the 5-htp again as of tonight, I forgot last night, too busy to remember it. Reading Jillian Michaels Winning By Losing and retracing my Beck steps, I'll carry on with 100 Days once I'm firmly back on track!

Nikki I'm always dizzy on SS, usually when I get up too fast. My blood pressure drops, postural hypotension! It's worse if I haven't had enough to drink. I love the black bottoms they look comfy!! Looking forward to getting back to zumba. What did your instructor say when she saw your instructors top?