aaah! i've missed loads, lol.
bron, your post was exactly what i would have said m'dear. very wise lady. i know you've kinda made peace with it now, and i don't want to drag you through it again, but FOLLOW YOUR HEART! i truly believe that when you find the right person for you (and you will know when you have) that you would follow them to the ends of the earth. your family and friends will never begrudge you your happiness and their love is unconditional. they will always be there for you. plus, if you can manage a long distance relationship with your bloke, can you not manage one with your family?
perhaps now it's time to take a very scary step, but one that could ultimately be the best thing that ever happened to you. you'll never know unless you try. don't regret the things you do - regret the things you don't do. i don't want to trivialise such a massive thing, but you don't want to spend your life wondering what if?
plus you know that if things don't work out, however devastating that may be, that you'll always have your wonderful family to turn to
sorry, i just did exactly what i didnt want to do, and dragged it all up again! i just think it's incredibly romantic. i'm a great believer in soulmates and if you've found yours, you should go for it!
hope you have an amazing time, and do what makes you happy - you fully and completely deserve it!