hi all, well done beth on the date ............ can't wait to hear all about it.
Roziee glad you're back and I'm sure you will pull it back and if not then you're well on your way to sorting it for the week after.
well I've been out for tea tonight to taybarns, not sure if any of you have been before but for those that haven't it's an all you can eat place, they have a lot of salad and grilled meats and stuff like that, I'm on a red day so had a lot of salad and lots of meat and veg, I did have a few treats and decided to flexible syn.
when I've been before I've ate everything in site and ate until I was so stuffed that I could barely move and was uncomfortable.
Today I choose what was available and what I liked within the plan and anything over and above I've counted as flexible syns (i have added them up and it was a whopping 86) however for the first time I have felt controlled and comfortable around food that normally sends me out of control, I haven't felt that i was holding myself back but I ate what I wanted without going mad and feeling guilty and then beating myself up over it.
I ate till I was full and normally I would have went back for a second dessert but I didn't feel the need to.
I actually feel free and finally feel like
I can achieve this, I feel that I am in control of my food and it's no longer controlling me and it feels good.
So back on the plan tomorrow and if today has slowed or halted my weight loss for next weigh in then so be it, I'm in this for the long haul, it's taken 35 yrs to get to this size and I didn't put weight on every week so I don't expect to lose every week.
I'm actually quite proud of myself I feel as if I've turned a corner and I've found the right path