The journey continues!

[Little-Miss-Perfect]

Well done Rach. Was your mum ok with you just having turkey and broccoli? Or was she still pushing?
Yeh I skipped the hungry thing in beck too. I've decided to keep re reading the book until I refeed then start it day by day. Alot of what I'm reading is sinking in tho xx

 

[cybill]

Yeah, Mum was still doing the feeding thing, but didn't push it so much, which was great; hopefully it's slowly sinking in for her. I'm just feeling so much better that I've addressed it with her and am actually doing what's right for me! And sooooooo determined to get to that next balloon really soon - although normally I go out when I'm at work and buy the balloon - I'm not sure I fancy trying to bring it home attached to the bike!

 

[notsoskinnymarge]

Yeah, Mum was still doing the feeding thing, but didn't push it so much, which was great; hopefully it's slowly sinking in for her. I'm just feeling so much better that I've addressed it with her and am actually doing what's right for me! And sooooooo determined to get to that next balloon really soon - although normally I go out when I'm at work and buy the balloon - I'm not sure I fancy trying to bring it home attached to the bike!

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Awwwww, Please Cybil ??
hehehehe

 

[Toots]

Yay - 6.5 lbs - amazing stuff - well done

xxx

 

[Miss Mac]

Well done on getting through your mums dinner, pleased to hear she didnt push the food too much. You with your big number 7 balloon on a bike would have been great to see.....awww go on!!! hehe..x

 

[cybill]

OK, Day 13 Beck - overcoming cravings. This is a good one for me to read, as this is something I've given in to, a lot through February and March, but still a little in April. The last week I've been pretty good with this, and I think the difference is that I've made the choice that I'm not giving into sweet things. Reading the Beck day today resonates with that. When my mindset is - well it's OK to just have a taste... I'm not very good at stopping at just a taste, and then I get myself into that downward spiral where I feel cross with myself, guilty, out of control, failing etc. But at the moment, where I'm staying strong, it's getting easier each day to resist the cravings. So now trying to get that really embedded in my head, that saying no to a craving for chocolate or biscuits (my weaknesses) is not going to kill me. The discomfort of sitting there craving something is much better than the discomfort of actually eating it and then feeling rubbish. I just need to try and connect this in my brain!

The phrase on the book - 'once I stop giving in to cravings and they become weaker and less frequent dieting will be easier' - it's so true! Now I need to find a way to stay in this zone, so that I can make use of all this great energy and strength. I think this book really is helping me, as I've not managed to stay strong for two weeks in a long time.

Right, time to go to bed, and pack my bag so that I'm ready to cycle into work tomorrow morning

 

[precious]

Wow just been reading through the last few pages of ur diary truly inspirational really enjoyed reading it...your doing so so well and so proud of you Hun.. It's determination like this which makes everything so worth it..

You will reach goal in no time chick.. And that number 7 balloon is in sight..

Have a lovely day lovely..x

 

[ladygaga]

Congratulations on the amazing loss Rachel...you are such an inspiration. Just like the others have said would have loved to see that balloon on your bike tho!!!! hehehe. Hope you get the balloon ready for the weekend as you'll be crashing through that landmark within no time honey. Keep strong xxx

 

[Sage-femme]

Hey Hun need to catch up on the diary really but slim read through some and 1. Well done on getting so close to your 7 balloon and to overweight!!!! You've done amazing! 2. What's all this beck stuff about? Lol xxx

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[cybill]

Thanks everyone really hope I shed these next 2 lbs soon, maybe it will be this week and I can get the balloon at the weekend! Given I managed to get a queue behind me coming home tonight on my bike, without a balloon, I think I'd get hooted off the road if I had the balloon (that is if I could stop giggling and actually cycle with it!)

The Beck book is a 'diet companion' book I guess, based on Cognitive Therapy it is intended to help you change the way you think about food / yourself etc, to be more like a thin person. Here's a link to it on Amazon:
The Beck Diet Solution: Train your brain to think like a thin person: Amazon.co.uk: Judith S. Beck: Books
I've been finding it really helpful, just to keep plugging away at it, and I'm following all the exercises (well, all those that work with a VLCD) to help me change the way I think. For me, in some ways the easy bit is losing this weight (although this bit is hard!), the bit I'm more worried about is how to make sure I don't ever have to do this again and actually find a way to live, be happy, be healthy and not be fat. From what I've read, this book might be the thing that helps give me the confidence to do that. Anyway, I'm giving it a go, and to help make sure I follow through, I've been writing it in my diary - as a sort of accountability thing really.

 

[cybill]

OK, so Beck day 14. (In theory I would have done these 14 days before starting the diet... but hey ho, I went for 6 months diet first ) Today's one is about planning, and I now have to start writing down in the evening everything that I'm going to eat the following day, so that I can then tick it off my list.
Hmm, so I will have to properly plan if I'm going WS or TS. Part of me feels foolish, like this feels silly, but I have a feeling that in the long run, this level of planning may prove useful.

OK, so tomorrow, I will have a strawberry shake for breakfast, a mushroom soup for lunch and a choc orange bar for dinner. I will have 4 litres of water, a bottle of coke zero at work and a large glass of Dr Pepper Zero.

 

[Miss Mac]

That book definitely seems to make a lot of sense. I found that when I had a weekend off, planning what I was going to eat helped me only eat the things I was allowed. I tried to do the same with aam last week too which did make me stick to what I was allowed but unfortunately on that occassion, it didnt stop me putting on weight!

I also agree with the craving thing too, I think the longer you can go without giving in then the easier it becomes. Its like once you 'crack', it opens the floodgates!!
I also have a thing for 'unopened' things.....I could have an 'unopened' multipack of lets say my favourite crisps and not be tempted, but once they are open, I would really struggle. A half eaten easter egg, I would need to eat the rest, But I currently have two unopened ones that I really am not bothered about

 

[notsoskinnymarge]

OK, so tomorrow, I will have a strawberry shake for breakfast, a mushroom soup for lunch and a choc orange bar for dinner. I will have 4 litres of water, a bottle of coke zero at work and a large glass of Dr Pepper Zero.

I have been lurking on the Atkins forum, and they have a thread listing what they are going to eat that day
It does make lots of sense

I also have a thing for 'unopened' things.....I could have an 'unopened' multipack of lets say my favourite crisps and not be tempted, but once they are open, I would really struggle. A half eaten easter egg, I would need to eat the rest, But I currently have two unopened ones that I really am not bothered about

That me too .
Easter egg in the fridge is absolutely fine, because its not open. I was going to open it, just to get the cup out.... but decided a cold cup was a better option

 

[cybill]

I also agree with the craving thing too, I think the longer you can go without giving in then the easier it becomes. Its like once you 'crack', it opens the floodgates!!
I also have a thing for 'unopened' things.....I could have an 'unopened' multipack of lets say my favourite crisps and not be tempted, but once they are open, I would really struggle. A half eaten easter egg, I would need to eat the rest, But I currently have two unopened ones that I really am not bothered about

You're so right about the resistance, now that I'm starting to properly resist things again, it's so much easier than when I'm thinking maybe I will, maybe I won't. Now I'm back to - no, there's no question for me to dwell on, think about or change my mind on. Just got to try and stay in this zone!

I totally agree about the unopened. I have a bag of little packs of milky way stars in the cupboard for our daughter. They're fine where they are. But if I give her a pack and she only eats some of them, those last few stars seem to call to me! It's crazy. Glad to know we're not alone though Just got to keep building that resistance muscle, and I need to keep reinforcing that it's OK to not give in to those calls!

 

[cybill]

Beck day 15. Now I have to write down what I've actually eaten.

Well, this is what I wrote down yesterday:
I will have a strawberry shake for breakfast, a mushroom soup for lunch and a choc orange bar for dinner. I will have 4 litres of water, a bottle of coke zero at work and a large glass of Dr Pepper Zero, and I stuck fairly closely to it, although I swapped my bar at dinner for an Asda measure up bar, and I had a can of Coke Zero at home instead of the Dr Pepper. I also added in a snack, I ate a peperami and a thin slice of cheese.

I'm reasonably happy with that, as it was within the diet plan. The snack I had when I got home from work. I guess it wasn't actually hunger though, I was tired and thirsty after my cycle home from work. It had taken me an hour as I had been fighting against the wind most of the way home.

Ah well, anyway, my plan for tomorrow is:
Banana shake for breakfast, thai chicken soup for lunch and a choc orange bar for dinner. I will have 2 large glasses of Dr Pepper Zero as well as 4 litres of water (all lined up in the fridge ready ) and if I need it I will have a slice of cheese.

It's weird, with it being bank holiday tomorrow it feels like Saturday and that I should be doing my weigh-in. I'm really hoping by the time we get to Saturday that I might have shaken these last 2 lbs to get to 7!

 

[notsoskinnymarge]

Beck day 15. Now I have to write down what I've actually eaten.

Well, this is what I wrote down yesterday:
I will have a strawberry shake for breakfast, a mushroom soup for lunch and a choc orange bar for dinner. I will have 4 litres of water, a bottle of coke zero at work and a large glass of Dr Pepper Zero, and I stuck fairly closely to it, although I swapped my bar at dinner for an Asda measure up bar, and I had a can of Coke Zero at home instead of the Dr Pepper. I also added in a snack, I ate a peperami and a thin slice of cheese.

I'm reasonably happy with that, as it was within the diet plan. The snack I had when I got home from work. I guess it wasn't actually hunger though, I was tired and thirsty after my cycle home from work. It had taken me an hour as I had been fighting against the wind most of the way home.

Ah well, anyway, my plan for tomorrow is:
Banana shake for breakfast, thai chicken soup for lunch and a choc orange bar for dinner. I will have 2 large glasses of Dr Pepper Zero as well as 4 litres of water (all lined up in the fridge ready ) and if I need it I will have a slice of cheese.

It's weird, with it being bank holiday tomorrow it feels like Saturday and that I should be doing my weigh-in. I'm really hoping by the time we get to Saturday that I might have shaken these last 2 lbs to get to 7!

I really like this idea of writing down what you are eating the day before. But sometimes I dont know what I fancy until that day
Then do you write down what you have actually eaten after the event ? And compare ?

Maybe I should try this to see how I go... it might help me on my AAM days :hmm:

 

[cybill]

Hi Marge,
Yes, the idea is that as you go through the next day you tick off the things that you ate, you cross out the things that you didn't and you add in the things that you ate that weren't on the original list. I think the idea behind it is to help you understand your behaviour, and also to think a bit more before just shoving food in.

I decided that I would try and follow as many of the things in the book as I can; trying to give myself the best possible chance of retraining my brain and how I think about food / eating.

It seems to be helping me today. For some reason today I feel like I want to eat everything I even think about / see, which is really annoying. As I'm writing down everything I eat, so far it's stopped me from eating any of my daughter's cereal or banana this morning, my husband's chocolate easter egg that I spotted in the fridge, a biscuit when my friend & daughter ate one this morning, and some chocolate this afternoon when I'd got my daughter to sleep. Not quite sure why it's so on my brain today, but I'm really pleased that I've resisted it all so far. Now to get busy and distract myself from food for the next couple of hours. Think it's time to do some sewing

 

[ladygaga]

Keep up the grand work Rachel. This Beck plan sure sounds interesting....may look into that when nearer goal. Hope you have a nice weekend x

 

[cybill]

Beck day 16 - this one's about preventing unplanned eating. Hmmm, this is a good one for me, as I've had more WS days than I really planned recently, and quite a few times, particularly a few weeks ago I had more than the low carb stuff I intended.

So today I need to make some rules - I think I will make a set for while I'm on Exante, and then do this again when I start to return to eating food regularly.

My Exante rules (rules which I am going to stick to, and not give myself the option of deciding on the day).
1 - I will have 3 packs with a maximum of 1 bar a day (some days I've been having 2 bars, and I know I start to get hungrier when I do this)
2 - I will drink 4 litres of water a day
3 - I will not eat any chocolate, biscuits, bread or crisps (no matter how loudly they call to me)
4 - I will stick to low carb when I have a WS day and not try and stretch the boundaries


Hopefully if I can embed these in my brain it will stop me thinking I can make it up as I go along.

I'm going to give myself credit for today, as I made it through the rest of the day without eating other food too, except for another thin slice of cheese.

Really hoping for that last 2lbs to have disappeared by tomorrow's weigh-in, as I want to go and get that next balloon!

 

[precious]

Hey cybil... Love ur name reminds me of faulty towers lol...

You are doing absolutely fantastic I love reading ur diary ... I know u will ace it tomm for u wi.. And can see u with you new number 7 balloon... Well deserved well n truly...

All th very best with ur wi tomm I know u will have a fab result

Hugs x