Morning diary. I am slinking back in here with my tail between my legs. As you can probably tell by my absence, I was totally off plan this weekend. And I am now feeling totally disgusted and ashamed of myself.
I woke up on Saturday morning, and genuinely felt like I was ready to draw a line and start afresh. I went to the Metro Centre for the afternoon with my mam, and even stuck to plan when we popped into a coffee shop for a little pitstop. My mam had a huge, still warm, fruit scone. I had a banana and a rocky road HiFi Light, with my black tea. But then it all went downhill from there. By the time I got home I was absolutely starving, and made myself a ham and cheese toastie. Wasn't actually too bad, except for the fact it was on white bread. But then that sent me into a whirlwind of scoffing anything and everything in sight. Had multiple packets of crisps, biscuits, HiFi bars, chocolate. And then got a chinese and had a few drinks later on Saturday night with Warren!
Yesterday was equally (if not worse) as bad! Woke up craving chocolate, so low and behold I went and ate a bloody share packet of malteasers AND mini eggs whilst watching the Hollyoaks omnibus. Safe to say I did NOT share them. Also scoffed more crisps, HiFi bars, and other general rubbish. Ate almost a full packet of Weight Watchers chocolate digestive biscuits!!! And then for tea we went to the chippy - greedy guts here had jumbo sausage, chips, curry sauce and some popcorn chicken. And when I came home I ate 4 creme egg biscuits and a packet of skittles. OMG!!!!
I feel like an absolute whale. And I am so embarrassed and disgusted writing that down. The worst of it is, when I weighed myself on Saturday morning (after Fridays little slip up) I actually had still lost weight! So if I'd just gotten back on it like I said I was going to, then I probably would have been alright. I was 10st 12.5lb last Tuesday, and by Saturday morning I was 10st 9.5lb. I really could kick myself right now, I am so cross with myself for letting this happen. It's been a long time since I've had a weekend binge like this and I feel so guilty for letting it get so bad again. This morning my scales seem to have settled at 11st.
The thing is, I am a massive comfort eater. And although I was on plan at the funeral on Thursday, I don't think things had hit me properly. I stopped at Warren's on Thursday night and woke up in the early hours of Friday morning crying. I think that the last two weeks of trying to be strong and trying to stick to plan no matter what had finally taken their toll. And I just went beserk! Not to mention the fact that it has also been star week, so that probably hasn't helped either.
Well, enough excuses anyway. Trying again today to draw a line and start afresh. Not that it will do much, weigh in is tomorrow! But hey ho. My plan is to eat mainly SuperFree, kind of like a Success Express day I guess. Absolutely no Syns, and may not even have my HEx's as they are just extra calories. Not strictly Slimming World as such, but I need something to give me a boost and try and undo, or at least stabalise, the damage I've caused.
Here goes...
(S) = Speed (SS) = SuperSpeed
Breakfast:
- Raspberries (SS) and Blueberries with Total 0% Greek Yogurt
Lunch:
- Chicken Salad (Chicken (S), Lettuce (S), Carrot (S), Cucumber (S), Onion (S) and Sweetcorn)
Dinner:
- Wholewheat Pasta with either Quorn Meatballs (S) / Quorn Low Fat Sausages (S) and Vegetables (Mushrooms (S), Peppers (S) and Red Onion (S)) in a Spicy Tomato Sauce (Chopped Tomatoes (S) and Crushed Chillies (S)). Topped with Cheese (HExA)
Other:
- Peanut Heaven HiFi (HExB)
Healthy Extra A: 30g Red Leicester
Healthy Extra B: 1 x HiFi