I am a disgrace.
I am so embarrassed and disgusted in myself.
I managed to get back on plan yesterday morning and it was all going so well until last night, when I binged yet again on more chocolate and crap.
Have also been to Costa this morning (won't bore you all with what I had, it wasn't good!), because I've had an early start and "needed something to keep me going". It's just an excuse really.
I've never ever been able to get back on plan after falling off the wagon. Not until after official weigh in anyway. So I don't know why I was kidding myself that this time could be any different. I just massively failed as always!!
Feeling like such a let down to myself and to everyone else who reads my diary and posts on my IG. The support is incredible but I just cannot seem to find the motivation or willpower to turn things around after a slip up and get back "on it".
I am so disappointed that I have let things get so bad this week. If I'd gotten back on it on Saturday when I said I was going to, then I could still have been looking at a loss tonight. But instead, it will be a gain. And a big one at that!! My scales were 11st 1lb this morning, so that is 3lb on since last week. But that is before I have consumed anything today. I genuinely think it will be about 5 or 6lb on tonight.
Absolutely disgusting...