The Secret Diary Of A Fat Girl..Has Her Mojo Back.. And It's here To Stay!

Thanks hun... ok, silly me has just burst into tears.. I don't have any support here, it just feels like me fighting and no one egging you on, people know that I'm doing this and yet after loosing nearly 5 stone, no one has said such as a well done or anything, or even remarked that I've changed..

You're right I do put so much pressure on myself, maybe that's why I feel like I'm failing.
 
oh hun i am sorry you have no support there, i am here for you as are the other girls. maybe people are afraid to mention it?? its only lately friends have started saying anything to me, its took along time, but at the end of the day its how we feel ourselves. You know you have 5 stone gone and thats whats important, your health will of improved so much since you started this. I went through a stage of stressing about everything, and now i have relaxed again, ,my weight has started moving!! Are you on fb or anything? i could add you and if you ever needed a one to one we could chat there!
 
Hi Bunny

I am so sorry to hear you have no support. We all think you are doing a fantastic job and you have been so welcoming to me. I think its amazing nobody has said anything to you about your loss so far, but maybe like Rach said, they feel a bit funny about saying anything. Nowt as strange as folk......
 
Rachgleeson said:
oh hun i am sorry you have no support there, i am here for you as are the other girls. maybe people are afraid to mention it?? its only lately friends have started saying anything to me, its took along time, but at the end of the day its how we feel ourselves. You know you have 5 stone gone and thats whats important, your health will of improved so much since you started this. I went through a stage of stressing about everything, and now i have relaxed again, ,my weight has started moving!! Are you on fb or anything? i could add you and if you ever needed a one to one we could chat there!
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I never expected any whoops whoops from you know, just a 'how are you doing' or some sort of interest... nevermind...I'm just an emotional mess at the moment lol!



alongwaytogo said:
Hi Bunny

I am so sorry to hear you have no support. We all think you are doing a fantastic job and you have been so welcoming to me. I think its amazing nobody has said anything to you about your loss so far, but maybe like Rach said, they feel a bit funny about saying anything. Nowt as strange as folk......
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Thanks hun, I've just let things get to me a lot lately, I'm really not so sensitive about things...damn hormones and everything lol! I bounce back quick :D
 
Today is my last day of doing whatever food/diet dance I've been doing..I've been on the Xenical,eating in the rules but also eating weirdly..anyway, I decided I would have a mars bar today, so I went to the shop and bought one, haven't had one for months, and it tasted OH SO GOOD! :)

I also had a few hobnob biscuits. That's all I've eaten today..haven't had dinner yet and it's nearly 9pm..not sure what I want, I'll grab something... new start tomorrow!..no more pissing around ;-)
 
We all get emotional at times, and you have had a lot to contend with lately. Once again your being tough on yourself, am i going to have to come over and kick some butt lol!!

So what are you starting tomorrow? one of these low cal ones is it? i really hope it works for you.
 
Oh bunny, so sorry to feel you are having a hard time. I agree the pressure and negative thinking won't help and tends to lead to over eating or eating the wrong type of foods. I hope we can support you on here and make you feel a bit better.

Good luck tomorrow, hope you have a great day x x x
 
Rachgleeson said:
We all get emotional at times, and you have had a lot to contend with lately. Once again your being tough on yourself, am i going to have to come over and kick some butt lol!!

So what are you starting tomorrow? one of these low cal ones is it? i really hope it works for you.
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It's oki Miss kick ass lol! I'm in a much better mood :)

I was going to switch this week however a change of plan, so I'm sticking as I am this week.

Took youngest to docs this morning, his eardrum is deflated and sore, he's got a nasty virus. Called into Argos and they're got loads of Cars 2 stuff out, my youngest wants it ALL lol! His birthday is september. Eldest went back today, he hasn't come home yet, it's been odd without him!
 
Gemma79 said:
Oh bunny, so sorry to feel you are having a hard time. I agree the pressure and negative thinking won't help and tends to lead to over eating or eating the wrong type of foods. I hope we can support you on here and make you feel a bit better.

Good luck tomorrow, hope you have a great day x x x
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Thanks hun, I don't know why but my habits have changed that much I don't reach for bad things for the sake of it anymore... I only reach for them if I really want them, and the last week I've done that 2 or 3 times in a whole year, and they were an ice cream and a mars bar, and skittles (in the rules) what annoys me is, I eat no fish, meat, bread, pasta i've been living on rice, fresh veg meals any my body is just not playing ball...nevermind... I'm over it :)
 
So I weighed this morning and it showed an sts..then I went to the toilet, finished getting ready and weighed again, literally 10 mins after, and It showed a 1lb loss..so I've chosen to accept the 1lb loss.

It's totally crap, think thats 3 weeks on the trot now, I'm not sure.. the weeks seem to fly by. I admit I've had a mars bar and ice cream, but the rest has been in the rules and barely any fat, so I don't know what's up with my body, it's just got stuck somehow. :(

So I was going to make a few changes this week, however I've decided against that, I just carry on for this week and see what happens.

I've booked up with a cdc and she's coming to me next wednesday. She's sending me out the form to get a siggy from the doctor. You need a siggy now for all the plans. So once that form comes, I'll be going to explain things to my doctor, hopefully she will sign it and I will start cd next wednesday.

I'm not sure what plan I will be (if I can start) i'll then have an extra weigh in a week, monday and wednesday.

I've got my docs check in 2 weeks, going by todays loss i've lost 1kg, that's not good enough, so to continue with Xenical for next month I need to loose 4lbs by the 26th of this month (which is totally do-able, that's if my bod plays the game)

The plan is to convince the doctor that I will be using cd along with Xenical (will still be eating food on the the higher plan) that way she should still give me the Xenical, which I will keep and use for re feeding...

If she won't sign my cd form, then I'll have to continue with Xenical and go a different root..but we'll see, I think my body just a good kick up the ass, and rebooting, and cd should give me that.

So even though my 1lb loss is crap, and I still feel crap about the last few weeks, I'm really, really ok with things because I know once I get on cd, things will be different :)

Right...must to do some jobs and get off this laptop, christ my broadband is so slow today!
 
A loss is a loss on whatever shape it comes!

1 off and everyone shruggs! How would you feel if it was 1 on?! I'm guessing a lot worse! Come on hun credit where it's due!! Well done!!

So does your doc expect a 3kg loss each month then?!

So your planning a cd conversion!! Let us know how you get on :)

And well done again!! Xxx
 
Mizkirsty said:
A loss is a loss on whatever shape it comes!

1 off and everyone shruggs! How would you feel if it was 1 on?! I'm guessing a lot worse! Come on hun credit where it's due!! Well done!!

So does your doc expect a 3kg loss each month then?!

So your planning a cd conversion!! Let us know how you get on :)

And well done again!! Xxx
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This pissy doctors that i have to see now as the nice went on maternity leave (how rude of her when I need her lol!) likes a 2kg-3kg loss a month, so like 4-5lbs.. don't see it happening this month, oh well balls to her lol!

alongwaytogo said:
Well done for the 1lb loss. Glad to hear you sounding more chipper x
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Thanks hun :) xx
 
I suppose I'd better crack on, I'm having my final touch of colours put throught this morning, I had to have it done in 2 stages, I've been to she shop and got a few mags... trying not to buy much food this week, and comes next wednesday I'm not going to be needing it, and the kids don't like my food...I'll probably empty my cupboards of all my goodness eats lol!

So I think I'm getting a bit of a virus or something (my eldest wasn't right he other day and my youngest hasn't been right since last week) my stomach is so not right!!!
 
hair is finally done,i love it! It feels being blonde after being so dark for years, it was worth it though and I feel better in myself. For some reason the ickyness has passed..it wasn't a side effect just didn't feel good at all... strange it's gone now though :)

I'm exhausted! I have the cd form come today so I'm going to try and get in with the doctor asap to get a siggy...fingers crossed I get one!
 
Just a thought bunny but you said on a different thread that you didn't think the doc would sign it. You could always get a private prescription from an online doc
 
Have you done tfr before? xx
 
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