Westiegirl: Restarted Day 1 Under my Belt!
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Isobel1965
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Westie - where are you, darling???
I'm in the same boat as you so SSing again for a few days - aaargh!!!!
Why do I think that once I get below 11 stone, that gives me carte blanche to eat for England???? DOh!
We'll crack it, babes - failure is not an option!!!!
I'm in the same boat as you so SSing again for a few days - aaargh!!!!
Why do I think that once I get below 11 stone, that gives me carte blanche to eat for England???? DOh!
We'll crack it, babes - failure is not an option!!!!
westiegirl
Gold Member
Hi Heidi and Isobel
Thanks for your messages. I'm here! First day I've been able to get on a computer with an internet connection for almost a week! I'm back in Edinburgh preparing for the wedding on Saturday so it's been hectic!
Just having a little down time and will be doing a "potted" update of my thread.
Hope you are both well. Going back to SSing is the pits, but needs must! I know what you mean Isobel, I've been giving myself carte blanche recently - this week I'm getting serious though!
Thanks for your messages. I'm here! First day I've been able to get on a computer with an internet connection for almost a week! I'm back in Edinburgh preparing for the wedding on Saturday so it's been hectic!
Just having a little down time and will be doing a "potted" update of my thread.
Hope you are both well. Going back to SSing is the pits, but needs must! I know what you mean Isobel, I've been giving myself carte blanche recently - this week I'm getting serious though!
westiegirl
Gold Member
What a Week!
Hello all, what a busy week I've had.
Worst of all I've had to do it all without Minimins as I've been internet-less *hyperventilates*.
Thursday night SSing went out of the window (again) when I had a meal with my parents and my brother, sitting round the table and chatting and laughing and drinking wine. It was the first time we had all sat together since our move. I've been hiding in my room at meal times as you know I've found SSing hard the second time around.
Of course this lead to an oh well, I might as well eat as I'm not going to SS for one day as I'll be eating on the hen night. So whilst travelling on Friday I did eat, but the best I can describe it is "chaotic". Before SSing I was a very chaotic eater and the trouble with food packs is that they don't teach you how to eat properly. Management does that, but I didn't do a very good job of that did I?
It was 7pm by the time I got back to my old flat and I went to meet my LLC after her group meetings at 9pm. We had a chat and I realised how big a deal that the wedding is going to be. I keep saying to people, look at me, I've moved on, I'm fabulous and strong (like a bull), I've changed my life around and made major changes (well except to those closest to me and know me best) but in truth I'm petrified about seeing the ex on Saturday. The last time I saw the majority of the people who will be at the wedding I was 16 1/2 stone. I'm not an extrovert so the thought of everyone looking at me and commenting is scaring the bejesus out of me. I just don't want that much attention! OK, maybe I'm being a bit arrogant here afterall it will be the brides big day, but I do know that even without people commenting too much they will be thinking it! I guess I'm in conflict between the perfectionist in me and the wallflower. Part of me wants to be so perfect that it's all so effortless (but life ain't like that, is it?) and I wonder whether what I'm doing by eating and sabotaging myself is that the other part wants to be fat again so that people will see me as they've always seen me and I'll just be "the same old Sarah" without drawing attention to myself.
Weird eh? Go figure! If this is the case and I've worked it out, why the hell can't I do something about it? Stress I suppose does weird stuff doesn't it!
Saturday was the hen day and we had a great time. We went to play bingo in the afternoon. But it was all electronic touch screens nowadays (my dabber was redundant ). It was a laugh and our table was quite lucky, but I did make a loss!
We had cocktails followed by a lovely meal in the evening, then more drinking and dancing. A great night was had by all and we finally rolled home about 4.30am.
The hen and another friend stayed with me at my mum's house and we didn't get up until 12pm on Sunday. When they left at 2pm I went to Tescos and bought some food for the evening and got some packing boxes. The food choices were a mixture of good and bad - lasagne and salad for tea but with choc pudding and choc bars and biscuits to snack on. Doh! Mind you I did make myself feel slightly ill and couldn't eat everything! That's good in lots of ways but oh so bad too!
Monday was furniture removal day. Got up at 6am to pack up the last bits and pieces and tidy up before the removal guys came at 9am. It took until 12.30pm and I had nowhere to sit! After that I had to wait for a local charity to come to take away the unwanted furniture. They didn't arrive until 3pm and I had to sit on the staircase as it was the only carpeted area that I could sit and read my book. What a waif I felt! Finally closed up everything and went to my old flat where I am living out of a suitcase but in relative comfort!
I have been SSing since Monday, which I'm pleased about. Monday night I had a bit of a mental crisis. I have had no bathroom scales all weekend and as I have been eating I feel as huge as a house! I was really concerned that I wouldn't be able to fit into my bridesmaid outfit on Saturday morning. Imagine the embarrasment!! So I've picked it up from the bride and I tried it last night. It fits, phew! The top half has always been a little snug and breathing was a bit of an effort so I'm hoping that by SSing all week I'll be OK. At least if there's no extra room in it I won't be able to eat much of anything at the reception!
This morning I had a bit of a lie in (and man was it good!), but I still woke up craving food, even though I know I have to do this properly all week. Felt really down on myself and was quite disappointed but I'm beginning to see the pattern of when I eat. I thought it was when I was bored but I think it's more when I'm tired and scared! If I'm not occupied I dwell on things which is when I use food to hide those feelings. This morning I was still not awake properly and once I was up, had a coffee and got moving I felt much stronger! But I can begin to see what's happening, for example now I am feeling some cravings but I'm not hungry. By writing down these things here I'm having to confront them and I want to go away and eat something. That means I'm distracting myself and pushing the feelings down again! I weighed myself this morning on FMs mechanical scales and as they are difficult to read all I can say is that I am under 11 stone (probably 10stone 11). Now when I went into management I weighed 10 1/2 stone (I didn't weigh as little as I wanted to) but in the grand scheme of things I'm under a lot of stress at the moment and am only a few pounds over where I was. It's 2 months since I started eating and whilst I mentally feel like I've failed, I haven't really have I? In 2 months I could have easily put on 2 stone, not 7lbs. I need to listen to what you girls say and cut myself some slack don't I? When I did SS originally my life was settled and I did it easily BUT I've gone through some major life changes and although I've yo-yoed a bit, eaten chaotically and weigh slightly more I feel I've learnt a lot. That's nothing to be sneezed at is it?
Well, I think I might have to do some of my ponderings later - gotta go and catch a bus as I'm meeting my old workmate (who you may know as sportyspice) for coffee when she finishes work at 2 pm.
Hello all, what a busy week I've had.
Worst of all I've had to do it all without Minimins as I've been internet-less *hyperventilates*.
Thursday night SSing went out of the window (again) when I had a meal with my parents and my brother, sitting round the table and chatting and laughing and drinking wine. It was the first time we had all sat together since our move. I've been hiding in my room at meal times as you know I've found SSing hard the second time around.
Of course this lead to an oh well, I might as well eat as I'm not going to SS for one day as I'll be eating on the hen night. So whilst travelling on Friday I did eat, but the best I can describe it is "chaotic". Before SSing I was a very chaotic eater and the trouble with food packs is that they don't teach you how to eat properly. Management does that, but I didn't do a very good job of that did I?
It was 7pm by the time I got back to my old flat and I went to meet my LLC after her group meetings at 9pm. We had a chat and I realised how big a deal that the wedding is going to be. I keep saying to people, look at me, I've moved on, I'm fabulous and strong (like a bull), I've changed my life around and made major changes (well except to those closest to me and know me best) but in truth I'm petrified about seeing the ex on Saturday. The last time I saw the majority of the people who will be at the wedding I was 16 1/2 stone. I'm not an extrovert so the thought of everyone looking at me and commenting is scaring the bejesus out of me. I just don't want that much attention! OK, maybe I'm being a bit arrogant here afterall it will be the brides big day, but I do know that even without people commenting too much they will be thinking it! I guess I'm in conflict between the perfectionist in me and the wallflower. Part of me wants to be so perfect that it's all so effortless (but life ain't like that, is it?) and I wonder whether what I'm doing by eating and sabotaging myself is that the other part wants to be fat again so that people will see me as they've always seen me and I'll just be "the same old Sarah" without drawing attention to myself.
Weird eh? Go figure! If this is the case and I've worked it out, why the hell can't I do something about it? Stress I suppose does weird stuff doesn't it!
Saturday was the hen day and we had a great time. We went to play bingo in the afternoon. But it was all electronic touch screens nowadays (my dabber was redundant
). It was a laugh and our table was quite lucky, but I did make a loss!We had cocktails followed by a lovely meal in the evening, then more drinking and dancing. A great night was had by all and we finally rolled home about 4.30am.
The hen and another friend stayed with me at my mum's house and we didn't get up until 12pm on Sunday. When they left at 2pm I went to Tescos and bought some food for the evening and got some packing boxes. The food choices were a mixture of good and bad - lasagne and salad for tea but with choc pudding and choc bars and biscuits to snack on. Doh! Mind you I did make myself feel slightly ill and couldn't eat everything! That's good in lots of ways but oh so bad too!
Monday was furniture removal day. Got up at 6am to pack up the last bits and pieces and tidy up before the removal guys came at 9am. It took until 12.30pm and I had nowhere to sit! After that I had to wait for a local charity to come to take away the unwanted furniture. They didn't arrive until 3pm and I had to sit on the staircase as it was the only carpeted area that I could sit and read my book. What a waif I felt! Finally closed up everything and went to my old flat where I am living out of a suitcase but in relative comfort!
I have been SSing since Monday, which I'm pleased about. Monday night I had a bit of a mental crisis. I have had no bathroom scales all weekend and as I have been eating I feel as huge as a house! I was really concerned that I wouldn't be able to fit into my bridesmaid outfit on Saturday morning. Imagine the embarrasment!! So I've picked it up from the bride and I tried it last night. It fits, phew! The top half has always been a little snug and breathing was a bit of an effort so I'm hoping that by SSing all week I'll be OK. At least if there's no extra room in it I won't be able to eat much of anything at the reception!
This morning I had a bit of a lie in (and man was it good!), but I still woke up craving food, even though I know I have to do this properly all week. Felt really down on myself and was quite disappointed but I'm beginning to see the pattern of when I eat. I thought it was when I was bored but I think it's more when I'm tired and scared! If I'm not occupied I dwell on things which is when I use food to hide those feelings. This morning I was still not awake properly and once I was up, had a coffee and got moving I felt much stronger! But I can begin to see what's happening, for example now I am feeling some cravings but I'm not hungry. By writing down these things here I'm having to confront them and I want to go away and eat something. That means I'm distracting myself and pushing the feelings down again! I weighed myself this morning on FMs mechanical scales and as they are difficult to read all I can say is that I am under 11 stone (probably 10stone 11). Now when I went into management I weighed 10 1/2 stone (I didn't weigh as little as I wanted to) but in the grand scheme of things I'm under a lot of stress at the moment and am only a few pounds over where I was. It's 2 months since I started eating and whilst I mentally feel like I've failed, I haven't really have I? In 2 months I could have easily put on 2 stone, not 7lbs. I need to listen to what you girls say and cut myself some slack don't I? When I did SS originally my life was settled and I did it easily BUT I've gone through some major life changes and although I've yo-yoed a bit, eaten chaotically and weigh slightly more I feel I've learnt a lot. That's nothing to be sneezed at is it?
Well, I think I might have to do some of my ponderings later - gotta go and catch a bus as I'm meeting my old workmate (who you may know as sportyspice) for coffee when she finishes work at 2 pm.
Maintainer
** Chief WITCH **
hello Sarah,
I've been reading your diary and can relate to so many things you talk so openly about.
Before I attempt to give you any advice, let me first say that I'm a newcomer to the site (although have been maintaining after losing my weight for nearly 3 years now), and have NO experience with VLCDs or getting one's head around eating after a long spell of not eating proper food.
That out of the way, here goes:
When you're having the foodpacks, all the food thought is taken out of your day. You know exactly what you will and can eat and when you'll have it. How about applying that to a "food" day?
Like you, I love papers and organising, and each week before going to the supermarket I work out each and every meal for the forthcoming week and enter them on a chart. I only buy those food items required for the week. I tend to prepare my meals before I'm hungry, so that when hunger attacks, there's food, all ready, or just 15 mins to prepare.
After almost 3 years of course I can take the foot of the pedal somewhat as I pretty much know now how far I can push it without regaining weight BUT I still find this the safest method. Planning. Planning and more planning.
Might that work for a VLCD person learning to "eat" again?
I've been reading your diary and can relate to so many things you talk so openly about.
Before I attempt to give you any advice, let me first say that I'm a newcomer to the site (although have been maintaining after losing my weight for nearly 3 years now), and have NO experience with VLCDs or getting one's head around eating after a long spell of not eating proper food.
That out of the way, here goes:
When you're having the foodpacks, all the food thought is taken out of your day. You know exactly what you will and can eat and when you'll have it. How about applying that to a "food" day?
Like you, I love papers and organising, and each week before going to the supermarket I work out each and every meal for the forthcoming week and enter them on a chart. I only buy those food items required for the week. I tend to prepare my meals before I'm hungry, so that when hunger attacks, there's food, all ready, or just 15 mins to prepare.
After almost 3 years of course I can take the foot of the pedal somewhat as I pretty much know now how far I can push it without regaining weight BUT I still find this the safest method. Planning. Planning and more planning.
Might that work for a VLCD person learning to "eat" again?
Hi Maintainer,
we need to hear from girls like you, its great to hear how you have maintained and yuor tips for coping and staying slim.
sarah,
great to hear from you, you are doing so well, you are so new to this and like you say have only fluctuated by a few lbs , the evidence suggests that you are actually doing very very well, i know you need to build confidence but just imagine when the dust settles , you are SO going to get this licked!!!
Will want to see photo of you in dress, heard so much about it!!! have a fantastic time and forget your ex, hes just that , an EX!!!! past , gone and forgotten, its the future you need to focuse on, because boy will it be a good one!!!
Take care
we need to hear from girls like you, its great to hear how you have maintained and yuor tips for coping and staying slim.
sarah,
great to hear from you, you are doing so well, you are so new to this and like you say have only fluctuated by a few lbs , the evidence suggests that you are actually doing very very well, i know you need to build confidence but just imagine when the dust settles , you are SO going to get this licked!!!
Will want to see photo of you in dress, heard so much about it!!! have a fantastic time and forget your ex, hes just that , an EX!!!! past , gone and forgotten, its the future you need to focuse on, because boy will it be a good one!!!
Take care
chicken on a mission
Restarting to lose 4stone
What strikes me Sarah is how hard you are on yourself.
If you look at my maintainence diary you'll see that, unlike with ssing, I am falling off the wagon on a daily basis but it doesn't mean I have had a bad day.
The difference is that I treat myself like a friend and I wouldn't dare treat a friend the way you are treating yourself
Now come on, time to think about what you would be advising any one of us and try to quit this 'it has to be perfect' attitude because you are continually setting yourself up for a fall.
Life isn't perfect. Life is a complete **** sometimes but think about what slim people do. They make choices all the time and not all of them are low fat completely healthy ones. The difference is that one meal in a day doesn't make for a bad day or week. You have a blip or a planned unhealthy choice and you try to adjust for it to compensate. You must be pretty damn good at that otherwise you could have stuck on 2-3 stone in 2 months. Right?
I hope that you can find it in yourself to show you some compasion because you don't deserve the beating up you are giving yourself
Consider yourself slapped and hugged at the same time
If you look at my maintainence diary you'll see that, unlike with ssing, I am falling off the wagon on a daily basis but it doesn't mean I have had a bad day.
The difference is that I treat myself like a friend and I wouldn't dare treat a friend the way you are treating yourself
Now come on, time to think about what you would be advising any one of us and try to quit this 'it has to be perfect' attitude because you are continually setting yourself up for a fall.
Life isn't perfect. Life is a complete **** sometimes but think about what slim people do. They make choices all the time and not all of them are low fat completely healthy ones. The difference is that one meal in a day doesn't make for a bad day or week. You have a blip or a planned unhealthy choice and you try to adjust for it to compensate. You must be pretty damn good at that otherwise you could have stuck on 2-3 stone in 2 months. Right?
I hope that you can find it in yourself to show you some compasion because you don't deserve the beating up you are giving yourself
Consider yourself slapped and hugged at the same time
westiegirl
Gold Member
Hi Maintainer, thanks for your wise words. It is really good to see someone maintaining for so long. I am a bit like you and I have lists for lists (my ex-FM calls it anal!). The recent problem is that I have been living out of a suitcase since 1st September so organisation has gone out the window. That's possibly half the reason I feel so out of control - I am a bit of a control freak! When all this is over and I'm back in Wales I think things will get better!
Thanks Heidi, wise words, as usual! I
thought I made the ex my past (I have actually) but this weekend is just a very unusual set of circumstances and tbh I really don't know how I'll react when I see him and new girlfriend on Saturday. I think that is what scares me most. In all other aspects of our relationship I am "so over him" but this is a situation not of my making and the past is being thrust in my face again. When I've been feeling most in control this week it's when I've been organising my holiday. That's what I'm trying to focus on at the moment - so much stress for 1 day - you'd think I was the bride!!!!
Chicken, you are so right. I am my own worst critic and I do beat myself up daily! I do need to treat myself better. I would never consider talking to people on here the same way I talk to myself would I? Besides Mini and Pierce would chuck me out. Reprimand duly noted and the hug makes the slap much less painful!!!
Boofaloo, I'm sure that when you start maintaining you will have just as many challenges but with all the support on here, like me, you will find a way to rise to them!
Thanks Heidi, wise words, as usual! I
thought I made the ex my past (I have actually) but this weekend is just a very unusual set of circumstances and tbh I really don't know how I'll react when I see him and new girlfriend on Saturday. I think that is what scares me most. In all other aspects of our relationship I am "so over him" but this is a situation not of my making and the past is being thrust in my face again. When I've been feeling most in control this week it's when I've been organising my holiday. That's what I'm trying to focus on at the moment - so much stress for 1 day - you'd think I was the bride!!!!
Chicken, you are so right. I am my own worst critic and I do beat myself up daily! I do need to treat myself better. I would never consider talking to people on here the same way I talk to myself would I? Besides Mini and Pierce would chuck me out. Reprimand duly noted and the hug makes the slap much less painful!!!
Boofaloo, I'm sure that when you start maintaining you will have just as many challenges but with all the support on here, like me, you will find a way to rise to them!
westiegirl
Gold Member
Still SSing
Have had a fairly decent 24 hours. After my last post I went to meet Pam and we had a lovely chat. She's going through a very difficult time at the moment and can't get back to SSing either so I'm sending her huge hugs and I miss her loads!
We sat and chatted for hours and it was nice to talk to someone who understands you totally. I drank copious amounts of black coffee and fizzy water, but we did toast our friendship with a JD and diet coke for me and a tia maria and diet coke for her. I'll barely be in ketosis before the weekend so it's not going to make a difference. BUT the big difference is that I felt in total control. I made an adult decision to have 1 drink and no more. True to my word I didn't drink anymore and I didn't use it as an excuse to think, oh well, I've blown it now and stuff my face. I went home and had my packs - nothing more, nothing less! I feel so proud. Day 3 over and done with. I usually cave in the evening on day 3! If I can get through today I think I will have cracked it!
The plan for the wedding is that I am travelling to the borders tomorrow afternoon and staying near to the bride and grooms in one of their friend's house 's (with the other bridesmaid). Margaret wants to cook us a meal in the evening so I will SS all day and eat a little in evening. I think the excuse of "fitting into my tight dress" will be totally understood by one and all and I shouldn't get too many questions. They all know how much weight I've lost so I shouldn't have to go into too much detail about the "bonkers diet"!
Saturday morning I intend to stick to foodpacks and I doubt I'll drink too much water either - don't want a big water bloated belly! Wedding is at 1pm and the meal is afterwards in a nice hotel. Will partake in the meal but I doubt I will eat much (dress is not forgiving!).
The evening do is in the bride and grooms house and they will be supplying a buffet. I might actually eat something then! I can't even be sure I won't stuff my face!!! Sorry! Buffets are my downfall and I don't think anyone will mind too much if I don't use this opportunity as a learning experience to control myself around buffets!
Well, this is the plan and I'm feeling much stronger today so I hope I can stick to it!
Last night I finished the book I was reading. It's called "The Perfect 10" by Louise Kean and I found it very thought provoking. It's about a girl who loses a significant amount of weight and the tag line is "what happens when your dreams don't fit". Lots of the personal recollections were quite painful to read as it was like she had written them for me and I did almost cry a number of times when I remembered feeling exactly the same way. However the epilogue of the book is more positive and very insightful and I am taking on board the message that it gives about not having to be perfect. I would love to write out a paragraph of it here but I'm not sure about copyright laws so I won't. I do recommend it as a good read though!
Have had a fairly decent 24 hours. After my last post I went to meet Pam and we had a lovely chat. She's going through a very difficult time at the moment and can't get back to SSing either so I'm sending her huge hugs and I miss her loads!
We sat and chatted for hours and it was nice to talk to someone who understands you totally. I drank copious amounts of black coffee and fizzy water, but we did toast our friendship with a JD and diet coke for me and a tia maria and diet coke for her. I'll barely be in ketosis before the weekend so it's not going to make a difference. BUT the big difference is that I felt in total control. I made an adult decision to have 1 drink and no more. True to my word I didn't drink anymore and I didn't use it as an excuse to think, oh well, I've blown it now and stuff my face. I went home and had my packs - nothing more, nothing less! I feel so proud. Day 3 over and done with. I usually cave in the evening on day 3! If I can get through today I think I will have cracked it!
The plan for the wedding is that I am travelling to the borders tomorrow afternoon and staying near to the bride and grooms in one of their friend's house 's (with the other bridesmaid). Margaret wants to cook us a meal in the evening so I will SS all day and eat a little in evening. I think the excuse of "fitting into my tight dress" will be totally understood by one and all and I shouldn't get too many questions. They all know how much weight I've lost so I shouldn't have to go into too much detail about the "bonkers diet"!
Saturday morning I intend to stick to foodpacks and I doubt I'll drink too much water either - don't want a big water bloated belly! Wedding is at 1pm and the meal is afterwards in a nice hotel. Will partake in the meal but I doubt I will eat much (dress is not forgiving!).
The evening do is in the bride and grooms house and they will be supplying a buffet. I might actually eat something then! I can't even be sure I won't stuff my face!!! Sorry! Buffets are my downfall and I don't think anyone will mind too much if I don't use this opportunity as a learning experience to control myself around buffets!
Well, this is the plan and I'm feeling much stronger today so I hope I can stick to it!
Last night I finished the book I was reading. It's called "The Perfect 10" by Louise Kean and I found it very thought provoking. It's about a girl who loses a significant amount of weight and the tag line is "what happens when your dreams don't fit". Lots of the personal recollections were quite painful to read as it was like she had written them for me and I did almost cry a number of times when I remembered feeling exactly the same way. However the epilogue of the book is more positive and very insightful and I am taking on board the message that it gives about not having to be perfect. I would love to write out a paragraph of it here but I'm not sure about copyright laws so I won't. I do recommend it as a good read though!
Isobel1965
Gold Member
Darling - I'm sitting here trying to reconcile the image I have with you dancing your heart out in Buffalo's with the woman who says she's worried about the wedding.
You have an amazingly magnetic aura around you, sweetheart - you dance like no one is watching!
That makes people swarm around you like moths round a flame!
You go to that wedding and enjoy yourself - you deserve all the adulation you will receive - think only of yourself and your friends who you're going to be celebrating with.
I can quite understand you will feel horrid about seeing the ex again - but have you seen that Mastercard advert, when it says - the look on your ex's face? Priceless!! It will be like that, my friend. He will be gobsmacked and his gf will be green with envy when she sees you sashay around the place, having the best time of your life!
The best revenge is always to live a good life!
I'm thinking of you, darling - I know that you will have a fabulous time and I want to hear all the details about the dozens of blokes who want to pull you!!!!!!!!!!
GO KNOCK EM DEAD, KIDDA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lots of love
You have an amazingly magnetic aura around you, sweetheart - you dance like no one is watching!
That makes people swarm around you like moths round a flame!
You go to that wedding and enjoy yourself - you deserve all the adulation you will receive - think only of yourself and your friends who you're going to be celebrating with.
I can quite understand you will feel horrid about seeing the ex again - but have you seen that Mastercard advert, when it says - the look on your ex's face? Priceless!! It will be like that, my friend. He will be gobsmacked and his gf will be green with envy when she sees you sashay around the place, having the best time of your life!
The best revenge is always to live a good life!
I'm thinking of you, darling - I know that you will have a fabulous time and I want to hear all the details about the dozens of blokes who want to pull you!!!!!!!!!!
GO KNOCK EM DEAD, KIDDA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lots of love
Karen1972
Gold Member
Hey Sarah
Glad you're feeling more in control, and you are doing amazingly well my darling!!! ENJOY the wedding and especially the look on ex's face - he will be gobsmacked at the transformation in you and what a stunning dress you have to show off in!!!
Enjoy the attention, adoration, amazement, wonder that you get from people - you have achieved an amazing thing with your huge weight loss BE PROUD
Love ya, can't wait to hear all about it!!
Luv,
Glad you're feeling more in control, and you are doing amazingly well my darling!!! ENJOY the wedding and especially the look on ex's face - he will be gobsmacked at the transformation in you and what a stunning dress you have to show off in!!!
Enjoy the attention, adoration, amazement, wonder that you get from people - you have achieved an amazing thing with your huge weight loss BE PROUD
Love ya, can't wait to hear all about it!!
Luv,
westiegirl
Gold Member
Isobel, what lovely kind words. You have cheered me up no end! I wish I could write more to you but this is a very quick post. Groom's little sister has just arrived and I about to drive us down to the borders.
I have been waxed, manicured and spray tanned . I am ready as I will ever be!
I am unlikely to get on here before my hols as I go late afternoon on Sunday. I will knock em dead tomorrow (altho not literally even if I am thinking it!!!).
I'll see you when I get back, sometime w/c 16th October.
Thanks one and all who are supporting me through this - I'll post the photos when I'm back!
Like jelly tots!
I have been waxed, manicured and spray tanned
. I am ready as I will ever be!I am unlikely to get on here before my hols as I go late afternoon on Sunday. I will knock em dead tomorrow (altho not literally even if I am thinking it!!!).
I'll see you when I get back, sometime w/c 16th October.
Thanks one and all who are supporting me through this - I'll post the photos when I'm back!
Like jelly tots!
Isobel1965
Gold Member
Hey girl - spill the beans!!! How the devil are you??? We've missed you!
