Where do I start? I have not been able to motivate myself to get on here! I am really not myself at the moment. I am struggling so much and my head is on another planet!
I can't really put what I'm feeling into words so I haven't!
My diet is right out the window at the moment and I'm in danger of going into meltdown foodwise. I have binged every day and tbh I haven't really cared at the time. Later though the recriminations start and I beat myself up big time.
I have sat most evenings wondering where I go from here and what I can do to help myself. I have every self help book on the planet and I have dug out the ones on overcoming binge eating and have started to read them. I am now keeping food eating records and intend to follow the advise and see if I can overcome my problem! I think that the trouble in my past is that I want "easy fixes" and I know deep down that I can't solve my problems that quickly. I have loved doing LL but I don't think that it has solved my food issues. The counselling part was useful for the first 100 days, but after that I think the counselling in the development and management stages are not structured enough to address the individual issues. Even after only a few days of my food diary the patterns are emerging in terms of what my triggers are. I have already realized:
1. If it's there, I'll eat it
2. If it takes more than 2 minutes to prepare (ie rip open the packet) I don't want it
3. PMS is a MAJOR factor
It's all very well knowing these things but I hope that by REALLY using my self help books I can "cure" myself (don't worry I'm not naive enough to know I'll ever be cured!). I do realize now that this will be a long process and will probably take the rest of my life!
Does anyone else have an issue with PMS? I have not had it so bad for a long time. Perhaps there is a bit of sense to PMS being helped by diet. Mine is so rubbish at the moment and I'm feeling horrible! My breasts are really tender and I am feeling so down on myself. I'm feeling ugly because I know I have put some weight back on again. In fact I know that this will sound silly but I am worried about the VFBC meet up in Newcastle because I feel like I've failed. I'm such a perfectionist and I know that all my lovely mates on here have never and would never judge me on the way I look and that I've put more weight on. It's only me that's putting the high standards on myself! I hate being such a perfectionist!!!! I need to get a reality check and get myself out of this slump and look forward to my trip in January!
Right, I've given myself a slap. Going Xmas shopping now. Buck up girlie!
Hi Sarah,
If losing weight and getting rid of old demons were so easy then we would not be struggling like we do.
None of us got here over night...we have accumulated our battle scars down the years and coped the best we could under the circumstances just as you are doing now...such is life.
None of us are perfect and we all come to this diet journey and tackle it the best way that we can...
We are all so very unique and while we do tend of course to compare ourselves to others which is only natural, the reality is we really can't...
Some of us can lose weight and follow the diet to the letter and get to goal and stay there...
Some of us can lose weight and follow the diet to the letter and break it and spend twice as long trying to get back on the diet again...
Some of us can lose weight and follow the diet to the letter and fall off the wagon as life has a habit of getting in the way of things...the diet becomes the last thing on the list and so gets shelved again along with the rest of goals...
Some of us can lose weight and do the diet by our own rules and still achieve and get to goal...
Some of us can lose weight and regain it all or some of it but keeping coming back and keep on trying for we know that we are bound to figure it all out in the end...
Some of us can lose weight and break the diet and fall off the wagon and get so dishearted with the weight gain that we never want to ever do another diet ever again...
Some of us can lose weight and fall off the wagon before the day or week is out and restart again every Monday...
Some of us can lose weight and fall off the wagon and before the week is out have a new diet ready to try that is going to promise the magic quick fix that will give the results and we will all live happy ever after...
I think we all have to explore ourselves and keeping a food diary and seeing what our triggers are is a very good way to get to know ourselves.
We also have to write a list of pro's and con's to being fat and being slim and get to know what it is we want out of life.
Instant processed foods contain a lot of sugar and chemicals that do play havoc with the body chemicals and sugar is known to leach vitamins out of the body along with other minerals and do give you bad PMS and lead to more sugar cravings...so that you get caught back in the cycle of cravings.
Properties of Sugar
Sugars in their refined form leach various vitamins, notably of the B group and minerals such as calcium and magnesium out of the body in order to make use of this refined chemical.
It is absorbed into the bloodstream too quickly which make the pancreas produce too much insulin which removes too much blood sugar. So eating too much sugar actually causes low blood sugar, as well as leaching out B complex vitamins and encouraging the body to excrete chromium - a mineral linked to diabetes and arteriosclerosis. The initial energy boost is quick but so is the let down leading to a craving for another boost. Complex carbohydrates are digested far more slowly and allows the pancreas to respond more slowly giving a more even blood sugar
Source:
Pure, White and Deadly
Sarah, at the end of the day you are with friends who understand where you are coming from and while we would all love to be at goal and never to have a weight problem or problems as far as food concern...I think for me I have accepted that for now I am a work in progress...
And at times I could easily dig a big hole and just bury myself in it out of embarrassment that I am still struggling on and off so much.
We have to claim our achievements and focus on the victories and never give up trying.
WE are all more than our weight or diet...go to the VFBC meet up in Newcastle if you can for this is a time for you to be with friends and have a good time.
Love Mini xxx
I just wanted you to know that you are not alone...
