Westiegirl: Restarted Day 1 Under my Belt!
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Summerskye
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chicken on a mission
Restarting to lose 4stone
How are you getting on Sarah?
westiegirl
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Hi Guys
I am very touched by your responses and would like to say thank you one and all!
I am having a manic week and have only just (at 11.10 pm) found time to get on my PC since Monday!
I was in Harlow in Essex all day Tuesday (left my house at 4.30 am and returned at 8.45 pm so a very long day!). Wednesday and today have been taken up by training my replacement at work and consequently I have been unable to get on here! Was my last day at work today and I was very emotional all day - I am going to miss my workmates so much! Got some lovely cards and a good collection (which I intend to spend on vodka lol!) Came home and barely had time for a foodpack before it was time to go to my LL meeting! Man, I am so hyper now I can't sleep. Oh well, as they say, you can sleep when you're dead!
Management is a lost cause for me at the moment. Went back to SS on Monday with no problems. Today has been another matter altogether though! I am not meant to eat at all but this evening I stopped in Tescos after my LL meeting and bought a bingeworthy amount of "bad" food, of which I have consumed a great deal (including numerous chocolate biscuits and bars, 2 packs of cold meat and 2 slabs of cheese!). Ummm what was that about? I have to say I didn't even enjoy it and now I feel ill and slightly dizzy!
I think I'm supressing my feelings again - still so much on my plate including 2 perceived rejections this week. I'm not up to explaining the details here and now but if I'm not gonna put a downer on the weekend I might take the opportunity to chat with you girlies at VFBC (don't worry I'm not going to be morose - I'm ready to party!). I just think it might be valuable to get some other points of view from some people who I know will understand. Pam (SportySpice) has already given me a perspective on 1 "rejection" and I thank her for that! I am also aware of how much I have to do in the next week - a weekend on the toon, followed by packing up all my stuff to move out of my flat next Thursday. OMG - how am I going to physically do it all. Girls, this weekend I want to just cut loose, please don't let me stress about the upcoming move - I know you can help me relax! (Sorry, God I sound needy and weak - don't mean too, I think I'm just tired!).
So, where do I go from here foodwise? Well I have told my LLC that I intend to have a "normal" weekend. I didn't exactly spell out that I intended to drink alcohol but I think she might have got the gist! As to food, I'm not sure what to do! I would sure appreciate some advise from those more experienced than me. I mean this especially to Sharon who I know has taken many "breaks" just to be normal and has still lived her life and sucessfully lost 6 stone. I think this is where being such an adaptive child and following the programme to the letter has become my undoing. My rebellious child is trying to take over and my adult doesn't know how to cope. Aarrrrrgghhhhhhhhhh. I still have a lot on my plate but I guess 1 weekend of good times with some good pals isn't going to be the end of the world is it? I sometimes think I stress too much! I will deal with going back to SS when I return from the toon. Once I have packed and moved from my flat things will settle down and I will find myself on a more even keel. Then I will be able to concentrate on losing the last few pounds and then starting management again - this time for the right reasons and do it properly. I have read so many threads on here about the hardship people have if you don't do it properly. Don't know why I thought I would be any different!
Anyway, I have rambled enough for 1 night. Have some bits and pieces to do before I go to bed and then a good nights sleep, a bit of a lie in then catching the train to VFBC. Yeehah! My only problem now is what to pack? I have bought so many new clothes recently that I want to bring them all! Decisions, decisions! I will deal with that in the morning. Will try and send an email to you Isobel tomorrow morning, just to sort details for tomorrow night and I will have my mobile so will probably text you too!
Night, night x
I am very touched by your responses and would like to say thank you one and all!
I am having a manic week and have only just (at 11.10 pm) found time to get on my PC since Monday!
I was in Harlow in Essex all day Tuesday (left my house at 4.30 am and returned at 8.45 pm so a very long day!). Wednesday and today have been taken up by training my replacement at work and consequently I have been unable to get on here! Was my last day at work today and I was very emotional all day - I am going to miss my workmates so much! Got some lovely cards and a good collection (which I intend to spend on vodka lol!) Came home and barely had time for a foodpack before it was time to go to my LL meeting! Man, I am so hyper now I can't sleep. Oh well, as they say, you can sleep when you're dead!
Management is a lost cause for me at the moment. Went back to SS on Monday with no problems. Today has been another matter altogether though! I am not meant to eat at all but this evening I stopped in Tescos after my LL meeting and bought a bingeworthy amount of "bad" food, of which I have consumed a great deal (including numerous chocolate biscuits and bars, 2 packs of cold meat and 2 slabs of cheese!). Ummm what was that about? I have to say I didn't even enjoy it and now I feel ill and slightly dizzy!
I think I'm supressing my feelings again - still so much on my plate including 2 perceived rejections this week. I'm not up to explaining the details here and now but if I'm not gonna put a downer on the weekend I might take the opportunity to chat with you girlies at VFBC (don't worry I'm not going to be morose - I'm ready to party!). I just think it might be valuable to get some other points of view from some people who I know will understand. Pam (SportySpice) has already given me a perspective on 1 "rejection" and I thank her for that! I am also aware of how much I have to do in the next week - a weekend on the toon, followed by packing up all my stuff to move out of my flat next Thursday. OMG - how am I going to physically do it all. Girls, this weekend I want to just cut loose, please don't let me stress about the upcoming move - I know you can help me relax! (Sorry, God I sound needy and weak - don't mean too, I think I'm just tired!).
So, where do I go from here foodwise? Well I have told my LLC that I intend to have a "normal" weekend. I didn't exactly spell out that I intended to drink alcohol but I think she might have got the gist! As to food, I'm not sure what to do! I would sure appreciate some advise from those more experienced than me. I mean this especially to Sharon who I know has taken many "breaks" just to be normal and has still lived her life and sucessfully lost 6 stone. I think this is where being such an adaptive child and following the programme to the letter has become my undoing. My rebellious child is trying to take over and my adult doesn't know how to cope. Aarrrrrgghhhhhhhhhh. I still have a lot on my plate but I guess 1 weekend of good times with some good pals isn't going to be the end of the world is it? I sometimes think I stress too much! I will deal with going back to SS when I return from the toon. Once I have packed and moved from my flat things will settle down and I will find myself on a more even keel. Then I will be able to concentrate on losing the last few pounds and then starting management again - this time for the right reasons and do it properly. I have read so many threads on here about the hardship people have if you don't do it properly. Don't know why I thought I would be any different!
Anyway, I have rambled enough for 1 night. Have some bits and pieces to do before I go to bed and then a good nights sleep, a bit of a lie in then catching the train to VFBC. Yeehah! My only problem now is what to pack? I have bought so many new clothes recently that I want to bring them all! Decisions, decisions! I will deal with that in the morning. Will try and send an email to you Isobel tomorrow morning, just to sort details for tomorrow night and I will have my mobile so will probably text you too!
Night, night x
Isis
Ancient Egypt Nut!
Sarah hun,
If you're still up. I'm really looking forward to seeing you again tommorow. Just been reading your thread and how things have been going in your world.
I'm sure we'll all have a blast this weekend but you know we are all there for every one of us to dump, spill, moan, confide and get support as well, so please do it if you fell the need. I know I will because you're all such a great bunch of women and the advice is so sound.
Lacey...xxx
If you're still up. I'm really looking forward to seeing you again tommorow. Just been reading your thread and how things have been going in your world.
I'm sure we'll all have a blast this weekend but you know we are all there for every one of us to dump, spill, moan, confide and get support as well, so please do it if you fell the need. I know I will because you're all such a great bunch of women and the advice is so sound.
Lacey...xxx
westiegirl
Gold Member
Thanks Lacey
I'm still here. I'm feeling so much more relaxed just spending a bit of me time on here and catching up. Thank you for your support! I feel the same as you about my friends on here - there's always a wise word on offer. Thank goodness I searched the internet when I started LL and found you all!
I'm so looking forward to seeing you too. This time I won't just be drinking fizzy water either! We will have a blast!
I'm still here. I'm feeling so much more relaxed just spending a bit of me time on here and catching up. Thank you for your support! I feel the same as you about my friends on here - there's always a wise word on offer. Thank goodness I searched the internet when I started LL and found you all!
I'm so looking forward to seeing you too. This time I won't just be drinking fizzy water either! We will have a blast!
Hi sarah,
hope you are enjoying your normal week and the "voices" are leaving you alone, if so then that was an adult decision and you are doing the right thing. hope you had fun at your meet, will there be photos??
i am back on SS until 15 september as i want to see 10, 7 on the scales!! day one nearly over!! 19 to go!!
Love heidi x
hope you are enjoying your normal week and the "voices" are leaving you alone, if so then that was an adult decision and you are doing the right thing. hope you had fun at your meet, will there be photos??
i am back on SS until 15 september as i want to see 10, 7 on the scales!! day one nearly over!! 19 to go!!
Love heidi x
westiegirl
Gold Member
Thanks Heidi
I've had a really nice weekend at the VFBC with the girls in Newcastle. Acted like a normal person (if that includes drinking copius amounts of alcohol and dancing and singing like a loon!) and tbh I feel so much better for it!
I feel commited to go back into abstinence for another few weeks to get to the goal where I should have done the first time. Meeting up with everyone has filled me with a renewed sense of purpose and I know I can do this. Had a nice breakfast in the hotel this morning but since then I've been back on the packs. I think I've caught a throat infection and my flatmate said to me this afternoon why don't you start at the end of the week when you feel better, but my mind is made up and I'm really going for it now.
Putting it off will just make it longer till I'm in ketosis so as far as that goes, the sooner the better. If I start now I'll be in ketosis by the weekend.
Glad you have made a similar decision that feels right for you. We will get there! Will you start management again from scratch when you get to goal? I'm going to, and this time I'm going to do it properly! If I follow things through then I'll be "normal" by Christmas!
We can do this together!
I've had a really nice weekend at the VFBC with the girls in Newcastle. Acted like a normal person (if that includes drinking copius amounts of alcohol and dancing and singing like a loon!) and tbh I feel so much better for it!
I feel commited to go back into abstinence for another few weeks to get to the goal where I should have done the first time. Meeting up with everyone has filled me with a renewed sense of purpose and I know I can do this. Had a nice breakfast in the hotel this morning but since then I've been back on the packs. I think I've caught a throat infection and my flatmate said to me this afternoon why don't you start at the end of the week when you feel better, but my mind is made up and I'm really going for it now.
Putting it off will just make it longer till I'm in ketosis so as far as that goes, the sooner the better. If I start now I'll be in ketosis by the weekend.
Glad you have made a similar decision that feels right for you. We will get there! Will you start management again from scratch when you get to goal? I'm going to, and this time I'm going to do it properly! If I follow things through then I'll be "normal" by Christmas!
We can do this together!
westiegirl
Gold Member
I took my inspiration from Sharon (SummerSkye) she was doing the same after she left the hotel yesterday. She does it whenever she has a break and has done fabulously well (she looks gorgeous too!). There's no point in delaying it and making excuses is there! That would be what my "fat girl" thought. Typical crooked thinking of "oh well, you've blown it now.....". Besides I had such a great time and the attention for a single girl like me was great - no way I'm going back to where I was 
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Hi Sarah,
sounds like the break has done you good!!
I had a good couple of days so far but not strictly SS, I did have a salad and prawns last night because I "Chose" to , it was lovely and while I ate it I thought to myself that I was enjoying it and giving my body good things instead of all the crap I had slipped back too, I am going to take each day as it comes and be the best I can be for that day, that may mean a couple of days ssing and then a meal or it may mean doing a week one on some days, I have realsied I have slipped back to trying to be "perfect" again and as I am no where near this I am piling on the pressure (of which I have plenty of external stress!!) for no good reason and this just makes it all worse.
A massive vicious circle and I want out, so I am going to try to be Adult and base each days decisions on food on the here and now and make choices which I can live with in order to keep the other ego states at bay and have a clear head!!!
i have lost 2lbs since I last weighed so that tells me I am doing something right, I also have tried to up the water again as I slipped back to 2 litres and I think its not enough!!
Good luck to you and I hope you can acheive your goal, but most of all be happy. let me know how it goes.
love Heidi x
sounds like the break has done you good!!
I had a good couple of days so far but not strictly SS, I did have a salad and prawns last night because I "Chose" to , it was lovely and while I ate it I thought to myself that I was enjoying it and giving my body good things instead of all the crap I had slipped back too, I am going to take each day as it comes and be the best I can be for that day, that may mean a couple of days ssing and then a meal or it may mean doing a week one on some days, I have realsied I have slipped back to trying to be "perfect" again and as I am no where near this I am piling on the pressure (of which I have plenty of external stress!!) for no good reason and this just makes it all worse.
A massive vicious circle and I want out, so I am going to try to be Adult and base each days decisions on food on the here and now and make choices which I can live with in order to keep the other ego states at bay and have a clear head!!!
i have lost 2lbs since I last weighed so that tells me I am doing something right, I also have tried to up the water again as I slipped back to 2 litres and I think its not enough!!
Good luck to you and I hope you can acheive your goal, but most of all be happy. let me know how it goes.
love Heidi x
Hiya Sarah
I'm with ya on the normal for xmas thing too!!!
I'm restarting ss'ing today with a plan in mind, detailed it in my diary if ya wanna have a look!! but i feel quite strong and in control which i haven't really for the past couple of weeks so i'm very happy with that!
hope you are doing ok and the move is going good for ya
Gen xx
I'm with ya on the normal for xmas thing too!!!
I'm restarting ss'ing today with a plan in mind, detailed it in my diary if ya wanna have a look!! but i feel quite strong and in control which i haven't really for the past couple of weeks so i'm very happy with that!
hope you are doing ok and the move is going good for ya
Gen xx
westiegirl
Gold Member
Thanks girls for your support.
Just a quickie (ooh-err) and then back to the packing.
No wonder I was feeling rubbish, I went to the doctors today and i've got tonsillitus. Don't know where on earth I could have picked that up from .
I was awake half the night and felt so bad this morning that I can't even swallow anything. It's good in that it means I have no desire to eat on my first day of SSing but is bad in that I can't drink loads of water - it physically does hurt to swallow! I've been given antibiotics and have been gurgling soluable asprin so that should help. This is the last thing I needed this week with the move coming on Thursday ((sighs)), but I suppose these things are sent to try us!
Back to my boxes........
Just a quickie (ooh-err) and then back to the packing.
No wonder I was feeling rubbish, I went to the doctors today and i've got tonsillitus. Don't know where on earth I could have picked that up from
.I was awake half the night and felt so bad this morning that I can't even swallow anything. It's good in that it means I have no desire to eat on my first day of SSing but is bad in that I can't drink loads of water - it physically does hurt to swallow! I've been given antibiotics and have been gurgling soluable asprin so that should help. This is the last thing I needed this week with the move coming on Thursday ((sighs)), but I suppose these things are sent to try us!
Back to my boxes........
MandyB2
Moderator/CD Counsellor
Hi Sarah.. I'm with you with the sore throat thing hun... mines stinging and sore too, and my head and ear are throbbing Just taken some pain killers to see if it helps!!!!! Good job I'm not singing again till the weekend!!!!
Well done on getting back to packs.. I think it's deffinately the right thing for you at the moment, especially with all the upheaval going on around you with the move and everything!!!!
I'm back to packs today.. I've managed to put on 13lbs over the past 2 weeks !!!! and I'm determined to get them back off asap!!!!!! Hopefully I can get close to 11 stone for my hols on the 18th Sept... then it'll be full throttle towards my goal for Xmas!!!!
Try to take it easy and get better soon
Much love xxxx
Just taken some pain killers to see if it helps!!!!! Good job I'm not singing again till the weekend!!!!Well done on getting back to packs.. I think it's deffinately the right thing for you at the moment, especially with all the upheaval going on around you with the move and everything!!!!
I'm back to packs today.. I've managed to put on 13lbs over the past 2 weeks !!!!
and I'm determined to get them back off asap!!!!!! Hopefully I can get close to 11 stone for my hols on the 18th Sept... then it'll be full throttle towards my goal for Xmas!!!!Try to take it easy and get better soon
Much love xxxx
Isobel1965
Gold Member
Hey party-girl!!!!
So sorry you've got a throat lurgy - HOW RUDE IS THAT?!!!!It was probably all that singing to Brotherhood of Man heheheheheeh!
Hope you feel better soon, hun (and you, Mandy!)!!!!!!
lots of love, sweet thang!
So sorry you've got a throat lurgy - HOW RUDE IS THAT?!!!!It was probably all that singing to Brotherhood of Man heheheheheeh!
Hope you feel better soon, hun (and you, Mandy!)!!!!!!
lots of love, sweet thang!
