Westiegirl: Restarted Day 1 Under my Belt!
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westiegirl
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Heidi, wise one. I have briefly read your reply and it makes sense but I haven't had a chance to digest it. I have printed it I am taking it to bed with me to go over properly. Thanks for taking the time!
Karen, doing much better today so I will update the details shortly.
Isobel, thanks hun. It means a lot that you stopped by and said hello. Hope you are OK today!
Janeylouise, thank you for your positive comments. I'm glad I'm an inspiration. I have lost 6 stone since January and whilst it did seem daunting at first, once you are in the swing of it the time flies and the momentum just takes over. Just don't stop till you're done - I'm finding it hard to refind my mojo - it would have been better to complete the journey properly!
Dom, hey babe, long time no speak! Hope you are doing well in life at the moment. I apologise for not being in touch more often. Thanks for your thoughts and sending you love and hugs too!
Karen, doing much better today so I will update the details shortly.
Isobel, thanks hun. It means a lot that you stopped by and said hello. Hope you are OK today!
Janeylouise, thank you for your positive comments. I'm glad I'm an inspiration. I have lost 6 stone since January and whilst it did seem daunting at first, once you are in the swing of it the time flies and the momentum just takes over. Just don't stop till you're done - I'm finding it hard to refind my mojo - it would have been better to complete the journey properly!
Dom, hey babe, long time no speak! Hope you are doing well in life at the moment. I apologise for not being in touch more often. Thanks for your thoughts and sending you love and hugs too!
westiegirl
Gold Member
Busy Busy Bee
My my, another busy day in my world. Actually I like it better that way!
Ex-FM has today and tomorrow off work and I had promised her I'd take her to Ikea. We met at 11.30am and started with a coffee and a catch up. Miss her loads. I'm glad her new flatmate is working out OK but both of us feel the gaping hole where we could just chill together. Still, I know good friends will always be good friends, no matter the distance. We took her purchases back to the flat before heading to the local shopping centre for a trip to the travel agent. WE'VE BOOKED OUR HOLIBAGS!!!!! I'm so excited! I haven't been on holiday for almost 4 years and I'm desperate for a break. We're going to Menorca for a week on 9th October. Only 4 weeks to go. Yeah! We both intend to just chill for the week, lots of trashy novels by the pool, good food and a bit (!) of drinking. Heaven!
The other good news is that the trip to wales is FINALLY booked! We move a week on Thursday!
So here's my schedule:
13th Sept - estate agent visits to put house on market
16th Sept - make-up trial for wedding
21st Sept - move to Wales
29th Sept - back to Edin for hen night
2nd Oct - supervise furniture removals
6th Oct - pre wedding haircut
7th Oct - wedding
9th Oct - go on hols
16th Oct - back from hols
17th Oct - back to Wales
18th Oct - travel to Essex
19th Oct - recruitment day in Essex
20th Oct - back home and start to organise new flat and new life!
Blummin 'eck, do you think I've got a busy month ahead? I love it when a plan comes together though. It's busy but I love it! As long as I know what I'm doing I'm OK. I just hate being in limbo. Thank goodness I can sort some things out now.
Finally - SSing. The girl done good! Today I have had 4 foodpacks, almost all my water quota and a minimal amount of hunger. I must admit I have had a few cups of tea with milk and some coke zero, but NO FOOD AT ALL! I decided that I would take it hour by hour and that's what I intend to do for each day that comes. Mind you I better get serious about sticking to SSing. It will be my first "skinny" holiday, and it will only be a "skinny" holiday if I stop messing about and pay attention to the job at hand! Mind you, when I go on holiday I don't think I'll be SSing. I am looking forward to it though. The timing is perfect. It feels like I will be drawing a line under all the stress of the old life and mark a start to the new.
Shoehorn, shoehorn, shoehorn!
My my, another busy day in my world. Actually I like it better that way!
Ex-FM has today and tomorrow off work and I had promised her I'd take her to Ikea. We met at 11.30am and started with a coffee and a catch up. Miss her loads. I'm glad her new flatmate is working out OK but both of us feel the gaping hole where we could just chill together. Still, I know good friends will always be good friends, no matter the distance. We took her purchases back to the flat before heading to the local shopping centre for a trip to the travel agent. WE'VE BOOKED OUR HOLIBAGS!!!!! I'm so excited! I haven't been on holiday for almost 4 years and I'm desperate for a break. We're going to Menorca for a week on 9th October. Only 4 weeks to go. Yeah! We both intend to just chill for the week, lots of trashy novels by the pool, good food and a bit (!) of drinking. Heaven!
The other good news is that the trip to wales is FINALLY booked! We move a week on Thursday!
So here's my schedule:
13th Sept - estate agent visits to put house on market
16th Sept - make-up trial for wedding
21st Sept - move to Wales
29th Sept - back to Edin for hen night
2nd Oct - supervise furniture removals
6th Oct - pre wedding haircut
7th Oct - wedding
9th Oct - go on hols
16th Oct - back from hols
17th Oct - back to Wales
18th Oct - travel to Essex
19th Oct - recruitment day in Essex
20th Oct - back home and start to organise new flat and new life!
Blummin 'eck, do you think I've got a busy month ahead? I love it when a plan comes together though. It's busy but I love it! As long as I know what I'm doing I'm OK. I just hate being in limbo. Thank goodness I can sort some things out now.
Finally - SSing. The girl done good! Today I have had 4 foodpacks, almost all my water quota and a minimal amount of hunger. I must admit I have had a few cups of tea with milk and some coke zero, but NO FOOD AT ALL! I decided that I would take it hour by hour and that's what I intend to do for each day that comes. Mind you I better get serious about sticking to SSing. It will be my first "skinny" holiday, and it will only be a "skinny" holiday if I stop messing about and pay attention to the job at hand! Mind you, when I go on holiday I don't think I'll be SSing. I am looking forward to it though. The timing is perfect. It feels like I will be drawing a line under all the stress of the old life and mark a start to the new.
Shoehorn, shoehorn, shoehorn!
sarahjj
Full Member
Morning Sarah!
Good for you girl - getting a plan and writing everything down helps! Now you can see what you've got coming up and where you have to watch out for potential 'slip-ups' (not that you're going to have any!
)!!!!!
Glad to hear the move is sorted, that must be such a huge weight off your shoulders! Now to just be there and be un-packed!
Ssing is going well by the looks of it! Good on you! keep it up, you know you're worth it!
Love Sarah x
Good for you girl - getting a plan and writing everything down helps! Now you can see what you've got coming up and where you have to watch out for potential 'slip-ups' (not that you're going to have any!
)!!!!! Glad to hear the move is sorted, that must be such a huge weight off your shoulders! Now to just be there and be un-packed!
Ssing is going well by the looks of it! Good on you! keep it up, you know you're worth it!
Love Sarah x
Isobel1965
Gold Member
Oooohoooohoooooh - it's all go for you, innit, babes??? A right busy little bee, you are!! And I couldn't be happier for you, hun - but I'm v v jealous about your hols teeheee!!!!
I can just imagine what a fantastic time you'll have - make sure you get some more mini skirts - your gorgeous sexpot black and white one might be too hot to wear out there! lol
love ya, sweetie!
I can just imagine what a fantastic time you'll have - make sure you get some more mini skirts - your gorgeous sexpot black and white one might be too hot to wear out there! lol
love ya, sweetie!
Karen1972
Gold Member
Oh Sarah i'm so pleased things are looking up for ya hun!! Your month ahead sounds fabulously exciting - i love being really busy too!!!
You did your first day which is always the hardest so hang on in there ok? Just imagine your ex's face when he sees you looking all slim and gorgeous in your beautiful perfectly fitted bridesmaids dress - and also think how much it'll piss his g/f off too when she sees his jaw drop to the floor!!! If that ain't enough to keep you away from food babe i don't know what is?!?!?!?!?!
Plus you wanna have a good holiday so make sure you get right down in your weight so you have a few pounds to play with when your out there!!
Well done honey!
You did your first day which is always the hardest so hang on in there ok? Just imagine your ex's face when he sees you looking all slim and gorgeous in your beautiful perfectly fitted bridesmaids dress - and also think how much it'll piss his g/f off too when she sees his jaw drop to the floor!!! If that ain't enough to keep you away from food babe i don't know what is?!?!?!?!?!
Plus you wanna have a good holiday so make sure you get right down in your weight so you have a few pounds to play with when your out there!!
Well done honey!
Hi Sarah,
I agree with Heidi with regards to all of her post, I just loved her spin on the old boy friend!!!
What a brill way to look at it..."Sloppy Seconds"
Love Mini xxx
MandyB2
Moderator/CD Counsellor
Hi Hun, just wanted to say hi and that I'm so pleased the plans are coming together at last. You'll love Menorca, I went in May and it's lovely I'm off to Crete for a week next Tue and I can't wait. Like you I'm having an up and down ( more like a rollercoaster) time at the mo, and I am meeting myself coming back most of the time!!!!!! I've lot's of issues that I'm trying to deal with and it's a big, big struggle.. I know just where you're coming from with the guilt thing!!! it rules my everyday existance!!!!! If we keep working on it I'm sure we'll overcome, or maybe even just learn to live with, our Demons one day.. remember you're not on your own with this one.. we can support each other here 'cause we know the score!!
Hope you're having a good day today....
Much love as always xxxxx
. You'll love Menorca, I went in May and it's lovely I'm off to Crete for a week next Tue and I can't wait. Like you I'm having an up and down ( more like a rollercoaster) time at the mo, and I am meeting myself coming back most of the time!!!!!! I've lot's of issues that I'm trying to deal with and it's a big, big struggle.. I know just where you're coming from with the guilt thing!!! it rules my everyday existance!!!!! If we keep working on it I'm sure we'll overcome, or maybe even just learn to live with, our Demons one day.. remember you're not on your own with this one.. we can support each other here 'cause we know the score!!Hope you're having a good day today....
Much love as always xxxxx
westiegirl
Gold Member
Hello guys, I'm on here avoiding the lovely food in the fridge downstairs as my mum and dad have been shopping this afternoon. Not sure whether it's actually the sight of the food or the conditioned response of this being my danger time!
Sarah, thanks babe - it is a great weight off my mind to know the move is coming together. Besides once the furniture is all picked up at my mum and dad's on the 2nd i'll still be here in edinburgh without anything so i'll have no choice but to ss!
Isobel, holiday shopping is a great idea. FM and I are going to fit in a shopping trip after the hen night when I'm here and at a loose end! The black and white one might be slightly heavy as you say, so new short skirts here I come! There's so many lovely ones in the shops at the moment!
Karen, you are right about ex's jaw dropping and I can't wait to see new g/friend's reaction too. I was a well established member of his family and they still treat me that way (I even got a fantastic bouquet of flowers delivered from his mum and dad for my birthday in august!). It will certainly make her feel insecure. Strike one to me!
Mini, thanks for your message. It has made me smile and I feel really valued that you took the time to reply to me. Sloppy seconds is quite a vision isn't it. That's something I ain't. Thank you!
Bless you Mandy! Sorry to hear that you're still going up and down on that rollercoaster called life! We will prevail! Lucky you going on hols Tuesday. I'm really excited about mine and it's still a few weeks away yet. I can't imagine how hyper I'll be when it is just a few days away! Where do we get this guilt thing from do you think? Is it because we are women? I don't seem to know any men who suffer the guilt thing as much. Most of them have no problem sitting on their bottoms doing nothing! Or that just my experience? I'm not even a wife or a mother, which I imagine adds even more guilt! Maybe I should just be grateful for my single existence!
Sarah, thanks babe - it is a great weight off my mind to know the move is coming together. Besides once the furniture is all picked up at my mum and dad's on the 2nd i'll still be here in edinburgh without anything so i'll have no choice but to ss!
Isobel, holiday shopping is a great idea. FM and I are going to fit in a shopping trip after the hen night when I'm here and at a loose end! The black and white one might be slightly heavy as you say, so new short skirts here I come! There's so many lovely ones in the shops at the moment!
Karen, you are right about ex's jaw dropping and I can't wait to see new g/friend's reaction too. I was a well established member of his family and they still treat me that way (I even got a fantastic bouquet of flowers delivered from his mum and dad for my birthday in august!). It will certainly make her feel insecure. Strike one to me!
Mini, thanks for your message. It has made me smile and I feel really valued that you took the time to reply to me. Sloppy seconds is quite a vision isn't it. That's something I ain't. Thank you!
Bless you Mandy! Sorry to hear that you're still going up and down on that rollercoaster called life! We will prevail! Lucky you going on hols Tuesday. I'm really excited about mine and it's still a few weeks away yet. I can't imagine how hyper I'll be when it is just a few days away! Where do we get this guilt thing from do you think? Is it because we are women? I don't seem to know any men who suffer the guilt thing as much. Most of them have no problem sitting on their bottoms doing nothing! Or that just my experience? I'm not even a wife or a mother, which I imagine adds even more guilt! Maybe I should just be grateful for my single existence!
westiegirl
Gold Member
Just Chillin'
Didn't sleep well last night, so much going on in my head and how much there is to organise. As I said in yesterdays post, I printed off Heidi's reply to my post and read it before bed. Heidi, I really feel like you have given me some valuable comments. It made a lot of sense and in the dark, whilst I couldn't sleep and couldn't get up and potter around (parents and dogs all asleep) I actually began to digest the concept of EVENT + RESPONSE = OUTCOME. Umm, very profound I know, but thank you Heidi! Sitting at the breakfast table this morning my mum was talking about how stressed she felt and how she had a very bad day yesterday because she was angry with the people who bought the cafe and the subsequent delays they caused. I said to her but you couldn't control what happened, only how you respond to it (yep, you got it EVENT + RESPONSE = OUTCOME!). Fantastic, Heidi, you are sending positive ripples through my family!
Even with a lack of sleep I am having a nice chilled day so far today. Makes a change!
Helped my Mum and Dad tidy the house this morning as the estate agent was coming to measure up at 2pm. Keeping busy is good and it's not a stressful busy either.
Ex-FM came to visit this afternoon and we spent a lovely few hours walking the dog. We went to Roslin Village and Rhosslyn Chapel (the location from the Da Vinci Code). Didn't go in the chapel - £7 for adults. Before the film came out it used to be free! The dog had a lovely walk in the country park there and is now curled up in a ball at my feet, absolutely pooped. Thank goodness for that! We had a nice coffee in the visitor centre cafe and it was nice just to spend some time together.
SSing has been good so far today. Still a little low on the water and I've had milk and coke zero, but it's better than eating! As I mentioned earlier I am having a difficult half hour, but I think the cravings are passing. Thank goodness for Minimins! You guys are the best! Mind you I still have a whole evening to get through though! I have a chocolate pack chilling as ice cream in the freezer which I will have shortly. I also have a load of stuff that I've recorded to watch on video, so I might just do that. I guess I could also read a book (forgotten how to do that and I miss it loads!). Oh the infinite possibilties to end a relaxed day!
Best make the most of it as I will have to start the mega sorting tomorrow!
Didn't sleep well last night, so much going on in my head and how much there is to organise. As I said in yesterdays post, I printed off Heidi's reply to my post and read it before bed. Heidi, I really feel like you have given me some valuable comments. It made a lot of sense and in the dark, whilst I couldn't sleep and couldn't get up and potter around (parents and dogs all asleep) I actually began to digest the concept of EVENT + RESPONSE = OUTCOME. Umm, very profound I know, but thank you Heidi! Sitting at the breakfast table this morning my mum was talking about how stressed she felt and how she had a very bad day yesterday because she was angry with the people who bought the cafe and the subsequent delays they caused. I said to her but you couldn't control what happened, only how you respond to it (yep, you got it EVENT + RESPONSE = OUTCOME!). Fantastic, Heidi, you are sending positive ripples through my family!
Even with a lack of sleep I am having a nice chilled day so far today. Makes a change!
Helped my Mum and Dad tidy the house this morning as the estate agent was coming to measure up at 2pm. Keeping busy is good and it's not a stressful busy either.
Ex-FM came to visit this afternoon and we spent a lovely few hours walking the dog. We went to Roslin Village and Rhosslyn Chapel (the location from the Da Vinci Code). Didn't go in the chapel - £7 for adults. Before the film came out it used to be free! The dog had a lovely walk in the country park there and is now curled up in a ball at my feet, absolutely pooped. Thank goodness for that! We had a nice coffee in the visitor centre cafe and it was nice just to spend some time together.
SSing has been good so far today. Still a little low on the water and I've had milk and coke zero, but it's better than eating! As I mentioned earlier I am having a difficult half hour, but I think the cravings are passing. Thank goodness for Minimins! You guys are the best! Mind you I still have a whole evening to get through though! I have a chocolate pack chilling as ice cream in the freezer which I will have shortly. I also have a load of stuff that I've recorded to watch on video, so I might just do that. I guess I could also read a book (forgotten how to do that and I miss it loads!). Oh the infinite possibilties to end a relaxed day!
Best make the most of it as I will have to start the mega sorting tomorrow!
HI sarah,,
great news about all the dates you have , that will help you "get your ducks in a row"!!! we all feel better when we can do that.
would love to take credit for wise words, EVENT + RESPONSE = OUTCOME, but that will have to go to my LLC who throws it at me on a regular basis, it has really helped me and i have spouted it too my kids as well, my DH isnt quite ready for such logical thinking yet but i have high hopes that one day he may stop "hunting wooly mamouth" long enough to embrace a bit of "holistic " thinking!!!
you do sound so much ,more positve and thats great, what a great future you have infront of you, go and knock em dead!!!
great news about all the dates you have , that will help you "get your ducks in a row"!!! we all feel better when we can do that.
would love to take credit for wise words, EVENT + RESPONSE = OUTCOME, but that will have to go to my LLC who throws it at me on a regular basis, it has really helped me and i have spouted it too my kids as well, my DH isnt quite ready for such logical thinking yet but i have high hopes that one day he may stop "hunting wooly mamouth" long enough to embrace a bit of "holistic " thinking!!!
you do sound so much ,more positve and thats great, what a great future you have infront of you, go and knock em dead!!!
westiegirl
Gold Member
Progress..........Of a Sort
Interesting evening, with some "adult" choices - I think, although I'm not always sure it's my adult that makes the choices, just my child pretending to be grown up!
I have realised that it is PMT time starting and I have been having cravings since coming home from my long walk. I had my packs and a cup of tea (with milk). All well and good, had another pack, still fine. Then I had a penguin biscuit - just the one mind you - with a coffee. That's better than I have been recently, but the demons still kept calling my name. The chatterbox was getting louder and louder, so what did I do? I asked my mum if I could share a meal with them. They were having fish, chips and peas. I don't like fish so I adapted the meal and had turkey breast, salad and (literally) half a dozen chips. Ok, I had a bit of coleslaw with it and followed it by a choc ice but even so....
I am quite proud that I was upfront with my mum and dad, made a healthy meal choice and sat down at a table instead of chucking 6 chocolate bars down my neck in secret without tasting them! I even refused the small glass of wine that was offered to me. That just exacerbates my cravings - something I don't need!
I am still very hungry and I am wondering if it is a physical thing rather than just mental. I am on day 2 of abstinence and have had a very active couple of weeks, culminating with at leasr a good 5 mile trek today. When you are used to sitting for 9 hours behind a desk that is a big change. I'm not trying to make excuses for myself because I feel quite proud of the way I have dealt with the feelings but it is something that I am not used too. Could be why I am finding it harder to remain abstinent this time (asides the life changing circumstances of course!).
Food for thought, excuse the pun!
Interesting evening, with some "adult" choices - I think, although I'm not always sure it's my adult that makes the choices, just my child pretending to be grown up!
I have realised that it is PMT time starting and I have been having cravings since coming home from my long walk. I had my packs and a cup of tea (with milk). All well and good, had another pack, still fine. Then I had a penguin biscuit - just the one mind you - with a coffee. That's better than I have been recently, but the demons still kept calling my name. The chatterbox was getting louder and louder, so what did I do? I asked my mum if I could share a meal with them. They were having fish, chips and peas. I don't like fish so I adapted the meal and had turkey breast, salad and (literally) half a dozen chips. Ok, I had a bit of coleslaw with it and followed it by a choc ice but even so....
I am quite proud that I was upfront with my mum and dad, made a healthy meal choice and sat down at a table instead of chucking 6 chocolate bars down my neck in secret without tasting them! I even refused the small glass of wine that was offered to me. That just exacerbates my cravings - something I don't need!
I am still very hungry and I am wondering if it is a physical thing rather than just mental. I am on day 2 of abstinence and have had a very active couple of weeks, culminating with at leasr a good 5 mile trek today. When you are used to sitting for 9 hours behind a desk that is a big change. I'm not trying to make excuses for myself because I feel quite proud of the way I have dealt with the feelings but it is something that I am not used too. Could be why I am finding it harder to remain abstinent this time (asides the life changing circumstances of course!).
Food for thought, excuse the pun!
Yes! I feel you are making good progress...
Hi Sarah,
It does sound very in control alright and I feel it is progress and we need to claim every inch of it as we go along.
Heidi does come out with some good stuff and I love reading what the LLers write about on some of the other threads, we can all learn so much from each other...
Sending hugs and love.
Here's to another day of making good choices for yourself.
Love Mini xxx
Hi Sarah,
It does sound very in control alright and I feel it is progress and we need to claim every inch of it as we go along.
Heidi does come out with some good stuff and I love reading what the LLers write about on some of the other threads, we can all learn so much from each other...
Sending hugs and love.
Here's to another day of making good choices for yourself.
Love Mini xxx
chicken on a mission
Restarting to lose 4stone
Hi Sarah
I would really urge you not to eat in secret anymore.
What is the worst that can happen if you are upfront with your parents?
You could get yourself some great support there, you won't have the addtional guilt of hiding from them and best of all you will will be facing up to one of your biggest demons.
Maybe you should try trusting them with your secret?
I would really urge you not to eat in secret anymore.
What is the worst that can happen if you are upfront with your parents?
You could get yourself some great support there, you won't have the addtional guilt of hiding from them and best of all you will will be facing up to one of your biggest demons.
Maybe you should try trusting them with your secret?
HI sarah,
i think you have had a major break through and that decision to eat with your parents sounds like one made in your "adult"!
I do wonder though why you dont give yourself the option to do this every day for now and maybe have 2 packs a day ( if you are still off piste a little!!) and an evening meal, then add the third pack if you have kept to your plan for that day. i do think that one day or even half a day at a time will also be an easier time frame to cope with!! If you think to yourself ," If i choose to i can have an evening meal this eve" then it may not seem like " forever" as it can feel ,i know ,when food nags at you and you want to shut it up!!
Am bit confused as to whether you are "in abstinance" or if you are aiming to get into abstinance ?
if you are already in, disreguard above advice, if not then maybe give it a go, but no "beating up" allowed, be kind to you!!!
have a good day,
i think you have had a major break through and that decision to eat with your parents sounds like one made in your "adult"!
I do wonder though why you dont give yourself the option to do this every day for now and maybe have 2 packs a day ( if you are still off piste a little!!) and an evening meal, then add the third pack if you have kept to your plan for that day. i do think that one day or even half a day at a time will also be an easier time frame to cope with!! If you think to yourself ," If i choose to i can have an evening meal this eve" then it may not seem like " forever" as it can feel ,i know ,when food nags at you and you want to shut it up!!
Am bit confused as to whether you are "in abstinance" or if you are aiming to get into abstinance ?
if you are already in, disreguard above advice, if not then maybe give it a go, but no "beating up" allowed, be kind to you!!!
have a good day,
westiegirl
Gold Member
Life is a rollercoaster!
Haven't been on for a couple of days. Really hit rock bottom a couple of days ago and I don't think I can fully write it down. I don't think I even understand it as nothing specific happened - all in my head.
I will say lots of food was involved and I had a reccurance of low mood like that I had before I was prescribed anti-depressants by the doctor. Silly moo that I am haven't been taking them "regularly" since my move - I lost them somewhere in my "teenage" bedroom. Not a good idea I know, especially combined with PMT!
Did manage to chat to my LLC on Thursday and that was good, but I was in a bit of a state and on the verge of giving up the programme. Some positive strokes from her (which I accepted graciously) and I have started to drag myself up.
Yesterday was a busy day in terms of packing and I am ready to rock n roll. Still quite a lot to sort for my mum and dad to be ready but we've still a good few days yet. Wasn't ready to commit to SSing yesterday but I did eat (mostly) sensibly (a minor blip here and there). Felt OK with it and I am trying not to beat myself up.
Last night I sat down and did some thinking. I thought back to where I was when I started LL in January and what I did that made me so successful. Basically I treated this journey as a "project" and planned every step of the way. I split my packs up into days and bound each one together with an elastic band. That meant I had a days "food" together and I knew where I stood. I also took time to get a minimum of 4 litres of water made up (ie filtered and bottled with flavouring added) on the side and that was what I had to drink that day. I also had a wall planner with my days and a countdown marked so each day I could see my progress and as time went on I could see how far I'd come. Last night I did all this and printed off a calendar for September/October and marked significant dates on it. I also marked when I would be in ketosis and how long until the wedding. Can't stick it on the wall because they'd all been decorated for the house sale but it's on my bedside cabinet where I can see it easily.
I also researched a hormone called ghrelin. My LLC told me about this hormone which has recently been found to be a major trigger in appetite. This is especially so after losing weight and is possibly a reason why so many people regain their weight. Once you start to eat "normally" again your ghrelin levels are increased in a bid for your body to regain the weight as it thinks you have been starved. It can take about 12 months for levels to return to normal, which is why it is quite important to maintain your lower weight for 12 months once reaching target. Ghrelin production is also surpressed after about 7 days on a VLCD so that makes things easier. My LLC used to visualise the ghrelin hormone as the askit powder advert monster, but I've gone for ghremlins (see what I did there!). I don't know the accuracy of the research and I think a lot more needs to be done but the thought of defeating my ghremlins and also taking some of the responsibility away from myself is helping me enormously. I told my LLC I was a total failure but she told me that I wasn't and that I am just struggling against a hormone which I can't control the production of. So I've printed out pictures of gremlins and have stuck them on my calendar and put them in my purse!
Today I have been abstinent all day. I have only had 3 packs so far - going for the 4th shortly but I feel good. I feel like I have something concrete to work with. Of course I have easily managed 3 days of SSing in the last few weeks but no more, so we'll see on Tuesday how I'm doing, but the thought of surpressing my ghrelin by the weekend is a good motivator.
Funny what works isn't it?
Well folks, tomorrow being Sunday I hope to catch up with all you lovely people but now it is time for my last pack. Need to let the dog out and remove my makeup (had a wedding makeup trial today and it's more makeup than I'd usually wear) before going to bed to watch Match of the Day. What a sad bugger I am! So excited as my brother has organised Sky Plus for my new flat. I have no heating, bathroom or kitchen but I have sky and sky sports! (Methinks I might need to re-evaluate my priorities!)
Haven't been on for a couple of days. Really hit rock bottom a couple of days ago and I don't think I can fully write it down. I don't think I even understand it as nothing specific happened - all in my head.
I will say lots of food was involved and I had a reccurance of low mood like that I had before I was prescribed anti-depressants by the doctor. Silly moo that I am haven't been taking them "regularly" since my move - I lost them somewhere in my "teenage" bedroom. Not a good idea I know, especially combined with PMT!
Did manage to chat to my LLC on Thursday and that was good, but I was in a bit of a state and on the verge of giving up the programme. Some positive strokes from her (which I accepted graciously) and I have started to drag myself up.
Yesterday was a busy day in terms of packing and I am ready to rock n roll. Still quite a lot to sort for my mum and dad to be ready but we've still a good few days yet. Wasn't ready to commit to SSing yesterday but I did eat (mostly) sensibly (a minor blip here and there). Felt OK with it and I am trying not to beat myself up.
Last night I sat down and did some thinking. I thought back to where I was when I started LL in January and what I did that made me so successful. Basically I treated this journey as a "project" and planned every step of the way. I split my packs up into days and bound each one together with an elastic band. That meant I had a days "food" together and I knew where I stood. I also took time to get a minimum of 4 litres of water made up (ie filtered and bottled with flavouring added) on the side and that was what I had to drink that day. I also had a wall planner with my days and a countdown marked so each day I could see my progress and as time went on I could see how far I'd come. Last night I did all this and printed off a calendar for September/October and marked significant dates on it. I also marked when I would be in ketosis and how long until the wedding. Can't stick it on the wall because they'd all been decorated for the house sale but it's on my bedside cabinet where I can see it easily.
I also researched a hormone called ghrelin. My LLC told me about this hormone which has recently been found to be a major trigger in appetite. This is especially so after losing weight and is possibly a reason why so many people regain their weight. Once you start to eat "normally" again your ghrelin levels are increased in a bid for your body to regain the weight as it thinks you have been starved. It can take about 12 months for levels to return to normal, which is why it is quite important to maintain your lower weight for 12 months once reaching target. Ghrelin production is also surpressed after about 7 days on a VLCD so that makes things easier. My LLC used to visualise the ghrelin hormone as the askit powder advert monster, but I've gone for ghremlins (see what I did there!). I don't know the accuracy of the research and I think a lot more needs to be done but the thought of defeating my ghremlins and also taking some of the responsibility away from myself is helping me enormously. I told my LLC I was a total failure but she told me that I wasn't and that I am just struggling against a hormone which I can't control the production of. So I've printed out pictures of gremlins and have stuck them on my calendar and put them in my purse!
Today I have been abstinent all day. I have only had 3 packs so far - going for the 4th shortly but I feel good. I feel like I have something concrete to work with. Of course I have easily managed 3 days of SSing in the last few weeks but no more, so we'll see on Tuesday how I'm doing, but the thought of surpressing my ghrelin by the weekend is a good motivator.
Funny what works isn't it?
Well folks, tomorrow being Sunday I hope to catch up with all you lovely people but now it is time for my last pack. Need to let the dog out and remove my makeup (had a wedding makeup trial today and it's more makeup than I'd usually wear) before going to bed to watch Match of the Day. What a sad bugger I am! So excited as my brother has organised Sky Plus for my new flat. I have no heating, bathroom or kitchen but I have sky and sky sports! (Methinks I might need to re-evaluate my priorities!)
chicken on a mission
Restarting to lose 4stone
Sarah thank you so much for posting that. I have never heard of Ghrelin so I have some research to do.
Anything I can learn in preparation for when I start maintainance in 3-4 weeks time is a huge bonus for me so thank you
I'm glad you have found your way again and have taken time to examine what made you sucessfull previously so you can adapt it or your thinking to now
As always I wish you all the best for your continued success
Anything I can learn in preparation for when I start maintainance in 3-4 weeks time is a huge bonus for me so thank you
I'm glad you have found your way again and have taken time to examine what made you sucessfull previously so you can adapt it or your thinking to now
As always I wish you all the best for your continued success
chicken on a mission
Restarting to lose 4stone
I just had a quick look on the internet to find out about ghrelin and found this interesting article which is worth a read
Still Hungry?: Science News Online, April 2, 2005
Still Hungry?: Science News Online, April 2, 2005
I just had a quick look on the internet to find out about ghrelin and found this interesting article which is worth a read
Still Hungry?: Science News Online, April 2, 2005
Very interesting!! Thanks for posting that, and Sarah for mentioning it in the first place. I've never heard of this before.
Sounds like you are getting that initial enthusiasm back
Good luck for these few days. You know it'll pass....so just hang on in there 
