i wish i cleaned when i needed to sort stuff. i just read and sleep and watch films. i have taken pain killers for my back and am feeling a wee bit floaty and funny... i took them after my shake and none of the previous tummy aches... and i must remember not to dance. at least i only have to take them post dancing these days...
it's the end of day one again. i have managed but not without struggle. it would be so easy to give up and not bother.
tyn. if you want to go mad for a bit, then do so. you are well within your right. laughing is good. hysterical laughing is good, laughing while crying is good, laughing because you don't know what else to do is good, but best of all is the smile when you remember something your mum did that made you laugh. and you'll get there. you'll feel guilty because for a second you'll forget. and when you get to that point you know that you'll make it. so if you are laughing babes, you and your family will be fine.
as for what you said earlier about whether you were going back to uni or not, really think about it. if you don't go back, or if you take a year out, then those doctor ambitions of yours will be that little bit further away. obviously now isn't the time to bog yourself down with such things, but i find that getting back into something, having something to really work at, having a purpose really helps me...
am thinking of you babes.
abz xx