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FatFairNForty(ish)
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Ailsa just came over with my 5 weeks worth of packs!! She was passing by and it made sense - so... not surprisingly, this week I lost a measly 1.4lbs... but that's ok as I've been having AAM AND not been burning calories as been doing nothing all flipping week! Just goes to show, that sitting around doing nowt and having about 800 calories a day ISN'T a good way to lose weight! I clearly need to move more to not gain even on such a low energy intake!
So... no more AAM now until holiday with sis... and just going to have fish, chicken and fresh salad and veg (plus packs too of course!)
I'm not sure what to do this evening - it's 8pm and I'm bored now. Nothing decent on telly. Don't want a bath. Don't want an early night. Hmm... there's only SO much mah jong I want to play... oh.. Ailsa took pic of me in my new Debenhams top! She likes it too! I've whacked it on the bottom of this post. I thought it was a real bargain for £20! It's not a good pic as it's blurry but you'll get the gist.
So... no more AAM now until holiday with sis... and just going to have fish, chicken and fresh salad and veg (plus packs too of course!)
I'm not sure what to do this evening - it's 8pm and I'm bored now. Nothing decent on telly. Don't want a bath. Don't want an early night. Hmm... there's only SO much mah jong I want to play... oh.. Ailsa took pic of me in my new Debenhams top! She likes it too!
I've whacked it on the bottom of this post. I thought it was a real bargain for £20! It's not a good pic as it's blurry but you'll get the gist. Attachments
FatFairNForty(ish)
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loving the top, esp the colour !! as you know i love tuquoise
hope the Korma finds its way to its destination - a man's heart that is
enjoy your relaxing "nothing" evening hun
xxxxx
thanks Cheryl
Sadly I won't be seeing S tonight - despite saying he will call he hasn't, instead he sent me a text saying that little 'un isn't settling well (that's a first as he has always told me that the lad is a dream and is out like a light once in bed!) so a visit is looking 'decidedly iffy' - man speak for 'I don't want to see you tonight, get the hint!!' and that he will call me 'when he can'. So, major feeling of being fobbed off but hey, it wasn't MY suggestion to go there in the first place so I'm trying not to feel bad about it.
My immediate response was to text back and offer to drop the food off and not go in but after sending that text I thought about it and felt that was being too intense so I sent another saying on second thoughts, not to worry about it, my turning up might disturb the little 'un so food will be despatched to bin and I'll speak to him later sometime. Hopefully that will help him not to feel any kind of 'pressure' from me.
Must admit though, it peeves me as I would like to see him, I bet he's tired though and I know he wants to chat with his other son about his trip as he's home now so they will nattering for Britain.. lol He's a very good father.
So, off to bed it is then! I really must stop getting my hopes up about S, it's not good for me, and there is far more to life than one bloke! I need to get out again and DO something! Don't think I can hack being off work all week again and I know I'll probably not see S now until, well, who the hell knows! One things for certain though, if I don't see him before the weekend then we are highly unlikely to see one another before I go on holiday! Hmm. NOT liking this at all! lol
Poor soul is tired though.
Even so... blimey... this is a real seesaw of thoughts!
Ergh! Right - bed and dvd or book it is!
Early start tomorrow taking Zoe to work...her trial week - and agreed to bring her home very late Friday night (which will be exhausting) but am spending Saturday getting waxed and hair done ready for hols!
At least I get to see my best mate tomorrow so that's something to look forward to!
Desperately need an optimisim injection! Blah! lol
SHAZA
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OMG FFF
You look really amazing in your new debenhams top (bargain or what) You are so slim now. When I met you in Birmingham it was my second week on CD and I cant believe the difference in you now
I love turquoise its very flattering to fair haired peeps like me and you. I wear turqoise for confidence so maybe thats why you picked it !!!!! (bit deep there but I am very spiritual you know)
Well done on your weight loss this week, I am going to nag again (sorry here we go) its better to just loose a little bit and rest yourself and get on top form ready for your hols rather than running around and getting faint and dizzy again
Sorry to nag but you know I am right. You sound bit bored so play your game until bedtime.
By the way have you tried that lovely sparkly very bright turquoise eyeshadow ~ would go lovely with your top I will root mine out and post the name of it (dont worry only cheap but very vivid turqoise and sparkly ~ very nice)
luv luv
You look really amazing in your new debenhams top (bargain or what) You are so slim now. When I met you in Birmingham it was my second week on CD and I cant believe the difference in you now
I love turquoise its very flattering to fair haired peeps like me and you. I wear turqoise for confidence so maybe thats why you picked it !!!!! (bit deep there but I am very spiritual you know)
Well done on your weight loss this week, I am going to nag again (sorry here we go) its better to just loose a little bit and rest yourself and get on top form ready for your hols rather than running around and getting faint and dizzy again
Sorry to nag but you know I am right. You sound bit bored so play your game until bedtime.
By the way have you tried that lovely sparkly very bright turquoise eyeshadow ~ would go lovely with your top I will root mine out and post the name of it (dont worry only cheap but very vivid turqoise and sparkly ~ very nice)
luv luv
FatFairNForty(ish)
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thanks Shaza
Nag away sweetheart.. but I am stir crazy and fed up. Perhaps some games will do it.. but I wish I didn't feel so blah about not seeing/speaking to S! Not sure WHY I feel as I do but I don't like it!
I am tired and boss of job 1 just rang me to try to arrange when we could meet in the office so I told him I'll call him Weds and let him know... really don't want to talk to him right now and it's almost 9pm for goodness sake!! WHY is he ringing me at this time of night! ARGH!
If not heard from S by 10 am going to send goodnight message and put ear plugs in and try to go to sleep. HAVE to sleep tonight as long drive in the morning.. oh.. better get directions off the net again!! Oh well, that'll kill another 10 minutes! BORED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Nag away sweetheart.. but I am stir crazy and fed up. Perhaps some games will do it.. but I wish I didn't feel so blah about not seeing/speaking to S! Not sure WHY I feel as I do but I don't like it!
I am tired and boss of job 1 just rang me to try to arrange when we could meet in the office so I told him I'll call him Weds and let him know... really don't want to talk to him right now and it's almost 9pm for goodness sake!! WHY is he ringing me at this time of night! ARGH!
If not heard from S by 10 am going to send goodnight message and put ear plugs in and try to go to sleep. HAVE to sleep tonight as long drive in the morning.. oh.. better get directions off the net again!! Oh well, that'll kill another 10 minutes! BORED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FatFairNForty(ish)
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Sorry - crossed posts with you Karen..
Cheryl - I know!!!
I'm driving myself nuts here!!! Am RUBBISH with blokes... help!!!!
Karen - thank hun. I love the new top, I'm not stopping until comfortably in size 14 tops AND bottoms in all items of clothing - about 11.5 stone I think - although maybe not as low as that... I dunno
Hell Karen, I can't even flippin decide what to do about texting someone at the moment - HELP!!
Cheryl - I know!!!
I'm driving myself nuts here!!! Am RUBBISH with blokes... help!!!!
Karen - thank hun. I love the new top, I'm not stopping until comfortably in size 14 tops AND bottoms in all items of clothing - about 11.5 stone I think - although maybe not as low as that... I dunno
Hell Karen, I can't even flippin decide what to do about texting someone at the moment - HELP!!
sorry to hear the parade was a wash out
would have been interesting to see how hot you got with 4 layers of everything
Been pretty grim all round
Weather that is - just watched the soddin weeds grow in front of my eyes
Mind you did get to see my Team - Deby County win the Play-Offs so go to the Premiership next year
Nothing that your sister could do about it - she should be proud of the work she did
There aren't many who put themselves out to organise such things - must be a family trait
Soz the last post was so brief - started off a DVD to while away the soggy day and so just wanted to pop some words down - and being a man - only left half the story told so to speak
By the way - well done on the loss - a loss is a loss and you have had less whilst SSing so reckon thats pretty good on AAM week
Keeps coming off and am sure next monday will reveal even more losses - hope mine does as well
Karen1972
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OK chick calm down, i know i'm probably the worst to give advice on dating but seriously wait for him to contact you next....
You are too much like me - very intense.... blokes find it suffocating so you really gotta let him make the next move.
I know exactly how you're feeling ((((((hugs)))))
You are too much like me - very intense.... blokes find it suffocating so you really gotta let him make the next move.
I know exactly how you're feeling ((((((hugs)))))
FatFairNForty(ish)
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thanks Mindless but I don't have another weigh in for 4 weeks (packs for 5 weeks - think my maths is iffy) ...
scary stuff!Might get on my scales NOW and then note the diff between them and Ailsa's ones and then weigh weekly on those, well, next week and then not again until at Ailsa's again!...
cah-ching
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Ailsa just came over with my 5 weeks worth of packs!! She was passing by and it made sense - so... not surprisingly, this week I lost a measly 1.4lbs... but that's ok as I've been having AAM AND not been burning calories as been doing nothing all flipping week! Just goes to show, that sitting around doing nowt and having about 800 calories a day ISN'T a good way to lose weight! I clearly need to move more to not gain even on such a low energy intake!
So... no more AAM now until holiday with sis... and just going to have fish, chicken and fresh salad and veg (plus packs too of course!)
I'm not sure what to do this evening - it's 8pm and I'm bored now. Nothing decent on telly. Don't want a bath. Don't want an early night. Hmm... there's only SO much mah jong I want to play... oh.. Ailsa took pic of me in my new Debenhams top! She likes it too!
Lovely top, it sets off your blonde hair nicely.
jane
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Love the top.
agree with the poss of W/I on your own sales but compensating for how they differ from Ailsa's.
also 1 1/2lbs is a fine loss.
Glad that the weather was SO bad. Having the carnival canceelled by such extreme conditions makes it much easier for all to bear than if it ahd been a marginal decision. Also there's no personal comeback for your poor stressed sis as the cancellation was out of her hands.
lets just hope everyone can bolster their disappointment & beging to thinkabout next year!
Did you consider that S's boy might realy be slow to settle & he's not trying to fob you off?
night night
agree with the poss of W/I on your own sales but compensating for how they differ from Ailsa's.
also 1 1/2lbs is a fine loss.
Glad that the weather was SO bad. Having the carnival canceelled by such extreme conditions makes it much easier for all to bear than if it ahd been a marginal decision. Also there's no personal comeback for your poor stressed sis as the cancellation was out of her hands.
lets just hope everyone can bolster their disappointment & beging to thinkabout next year!
Did you consider that S's boy might realy be slow to settle & he's not trying to fob you off?
night night
Hi Jen,
I have to say you look bloody fantastic.
Just finished catching up with your thread. I've got everything crossed for you that things progress well with S.
Hope everything went well with Zoe today, I imagine it must feel pretty strange for you to have her live away. ((hugs))
Look after yourself, sounds like the holiday couldn't come at a better time.
Take care
Kitty xxx
I have to say you look bloody fantastic.
Just finished catching up with your thread. I've got everything crossed for you that things progress well with S.
Hope everything went well with Zoe today, I imagine it must feel pretty strange for you to have her live away. ((hugs))
Look after yourself, sounds like the holiday couldn't come at a better time.
Take care
Kitty xxx
FatFairNForty(ish)
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What a day! Tuesday 29th May 2007
Well... (big deep intake of breath..)... today has been a funny old day full of ups and downs .... hope you're comfy coz I have a feeling this could be another of my very dull dronings! lol
Firstly let me backtrack to last night... S was NOT fobbing me off, his son WAS difficult to settle - he thinks he has a back tooth coming through.. (It's been such a long time since I had any dealings with 3 year olds that I've forgotten all this stuff!! So, for those WITH 3 year olds (esp boys) PLEASE help! ) He texted me to say he was still on the phone to his older lad (at 9.30pm) so I replied very cheerfully and told him to simply text me 'are you awake' and we would take it from there. Glad I did that. At just after 10 he did just that and then called me, but I was on the phone to my Sarah. Oh dear.
She had just heard that her best mate wasn't going to be seeing her on her birthday after all and that meant 3 of her other pals couldn't get there as they were all car-sharing! She was gutted. Also, a lad she's been 'seeing' has gone awol so she's upset about that.. plus.. she has money problems whilst her peers all have wealthy families who pay their rent for them...
I feel so inadequate at times.
We talked until she was all cried out and she promised to ring one of her friends that's on campus and he came over and gave her a big hug and a listening ear.
S rang in the midst of this and said he would call back. He did and we had a fairly brief conversation but it ended nicely enough and he told me his plans for today (Tuesday). It's been (and continues to be) a very heavy day for him... in fact, this whole week is going to be very tough for him...
So that was last night.
This morning.... Zoe came in and woke me (as I had my ear plugs in) and we loaded the car up and left at around 8am.
I had just pressed the button to send my normal "Good morning" text to S when one arrived from him! I almost cried - it was so thoughtful. He said he hoped today would be ok and that he knew it would be hard and that it would be happy for Zoe but sad for me and said to stay strong xxx. I thanked him in return and told him we were shortly on our way.
Oh, last night I asked him (again) if he minded my inane texts, lol, and he was absolutely adamant, NO, he loves getting them and 'they always make me smile'. So I feel ok about sending a few in the day.. lol...
Anyway... we set off, first stop petrol - this also meant hot cornish pastie for Zoe plus a bag of 'supplies', a top up for her mobile (so she can keep in touch with me AND her fella), and a full tank of fuel. We made great time - the roads were pretty empty! Got to the place by 9.15am and had a lovely welcome from a girl called Claire who showed us to Zoe's room (not as bad as I thought it might be.. lol) and then offered to sit and have a chat with us... we unloaded the car, met the General Manager and one of the chefs, and I decided not to hang around. Zoe and I were both getting a bit emotional so I felt it best to let her settle in as she was due to start her first shift at 10.
She walked me to the car and I could see she was struggling. We had the most massive hug and she whispered to me 'take me home with you', I said no, smiled at her and said this was the start of a very exciting part of her life and that she would be fine and I'd see her Friday night.
We hugged and kissed goodbye and waved until out of one another's sight... then I drove a bit and then parked up and sobbed. My baby is all grown up and gone now. I am so proud of her. I know she's only an hour away, but it might as well be a million miles right now. Tonight will be the hardest for her.
I rang my mate Zoe (when I'd stopped crying) and told her I was on my way! She asked if I was ok, which triggered the old waterworks again, lol. I got to her place in good time and had a mega hug and we had a really good natter. She was shocked that I had lost more weight, lol, but very happy too. We talked about everything - no secrets for us - we'd already talked about S.. she was very positive and said if I ever have PWFH feelings again to ring her and she'll inject a reality shot! lol It was so good to see her again and I had a soup pack whilst there.
I then decided to surprise my mum (she lives about 30 miles from Zoe). I took the wrong turn and ended up sitting in traffic on the M10! NOT happy! Got off at Hemel and drove the 'scenic route' to mums!! It was worth it though - she was really surprised and thrilled to see me. She told me that I have changed so much she hardly recognised me! She looks so tired and so little (short) now. Edward (my step dad) didn't know who I was, even when told, he simply couldn't place me at all. It's heart breaking. I told him I'd see him again next week, but I know that within 1 minute he will have forgotten I ever went. I'm glad I went though - but it was getting close to their lunchtime so I didn't stop very long.
On the way home I was determined to avoid the M1 at all costs! Well, I managed that alright... but I also managed to miss my turn off and ended up sitting on the M25 for miles at about 2mph and then finally getting off and turning back and THEN picked up the A1 !! (I'm SO crap at navigation! Perhaps one of these sat nav things might save me some time and fuel!... nah... more fun this way!).
On the way up the A1 I had a text from my bra lady! Yippee - she's coming here in about half an hour with my new red bra... it's a freakin 36!!!! lol Unbelieveable!!
After talking to her I rang an old friend of mine who lives just off the A1 near Biggleswade and, as he was home, I nipped in there for a few minutes (and to use his loo!) lol
He is off with a bad back - he needs 2 discs removing (OUCH!).. he's dead cheeky though and texted me t'other week with a blokes email addy and phone number and said 'this man is perfect for you - contact him!'. So, I took him to task about it today and called him a cheeky wotsit! It had NEVER occurred to him that I might have met someone! lol So I told him about S, and said I wouldn't be contacting this other chap and anyway... he sounded a geeky boring bloke and how on earth did he think we would be a perfect match!???
Well, he really was funny - he simply said - well Jen, he's quiet and shy and you're fiesty and extrovert... thought you would compliment one another! LOL I just laughed. Told him 'thanks but no thanks' and if things didn't pan out with S I would let him know! lol
Honestly! Men! I asked him what had he told this bloke about me? I just roared when it turned out ALL he had said was.. "she used to be really big, now she's slim-ish, she's sort of blonde and fiesty" and that was it! Poor sod. Not a lot to go one but then he described this poor chap as "shorter than me (not hard as Si is about 6 ft 4) and skinny, shy and quiet but drives a merc and a big black motorbike and is minted" .
Si's never going to win awards on Blind Date for descriptions now is he?? lol Isn't it odd what men think is important to women (car etc).. I couldn't give a flying fig WHAT anyone drives/rides! Nor how much they have in the bank! (and told him so!)
In any case, it's all irrelevant as I'm NOT interested and am concentrating on S.
Talking of whom... lol... I had been sending my 'twat-nav' reports in to him so he would know what's what and I knew it would probably make him chuckle as he has a dead flashy sat nav thing that basically can identify if there is a leave out of place!! lol I didn't text whilst driving though - way too dangerous!
On the last leg of the journey home I got a call from boss of Job 2. I couldn't believe it! Had I realised it was him I would have ignored the call, but hands free I wasn't looking at the handset! Well, I was very shocked. I hadn't sent the certificate in yet (had to copy it first) but I HAD emailed him on Saturday morning telling him I would post it today and enclose a covering letter (which he didn't know at the time, was to be my resignation). Well. I nearly crashed the damn car. He rang to say that he felt it best if they 'laid me off' as I was going to be off all week and then away until July! Partly I was shocked, partly I was very cross and partly I was relieved. We had a lengthy conversation which ended up with me saying that had he waited until tomorrow he would have had my resignation with the certificate, him apologising, both agreeing that it was best for ME to leave (not for them, he told me that if I could've worked from 10am each day for them it would have been ideal, but not getting there until 12.30 meant that some of the essential admin didn't get done). He said that they couldn't afford to employ me or anyone else full time and he was very sorry as he felt I would have been very good at helping build the business up for them and said that if I wanted to do the odd hour here and there in future for them that they would like that. He also said that they would give me glowing references too. So, it was a really odd discussion. Not wholly appropriate (I don't think) to call someone up who's signed off and tell them - basically - that when they come back of holiday there's no job for them... but hey. He only beat me by 24 hours! lol So, no real damage done and this way it is an amicable parting of the ways and no damage to my reputation nor theirs.
We agreed to call it quits as of Thursday as this makes his financial doings easier as it's end of month. So, that's one loose end tied up but no income and only 3 weeks money into the bank, you know what though - I feel massively relieved.
After that I rang my sis and told her. She was incensed that he had called but I calmed her down (Lordy, if you think I am fiesty! lololol) We agreed it was good that he had really.
Finally I got back to my home town and called in at a friend's office and scanned the certificate and emailed it home - this way boss 2 is going to get my resignation and the cert in his email tonight. Loose end, tied up and knotted and straggly bits cut off! Will probably sleep better for it too!
Sent S a text to say I was home and a brief run down of phone call etc.
Just then the chap who was supposed to come and fix my fence on Saturday showed up! Hurrah! Fence is fixed , garden secure! Just needs a coat of cuprinol and it should last ages!
However... neighbour whose drive the fence lines, came out and moaned! He moaned that whoever had fixed it last had left nails all over his drive which meant he had a puncture which cost him £10 to fix (this was MONTHS ago!) AND he said no-one had permission to work on his property! (They were standing on his drive to fix the fence! (One either side of it!)...
I came out just as he'd appeared and he couldn't see me... so I let him vent and then popped my head round the gap.. I apologised for the previous chap who had fixed the fence and told him he should have let me know right away if there was a problem, and that it's vital to tell me if something to do with my home has an adverse effect on his property.
I gave him a tenner straight away and told him I would have done so immediately had I known. I told him in future he MUST tell me if something bothers him like that again and not to let it fester as I like to think I am a good and considerate neighbour and hate the thought that he was upset with me. He got the message and muttered something about not being the whingey type... lol So, I told him about hols and that if ANYTHING happened at my home that impacted on him, in my absence, that he MUST tell me upon my return!
Flipping heck! It never rains eh???
So, have to go and get cash for fence repair man (spent the cash I got out for him Saturday on new top and lovely warm coat! lol)... and need to keep an eye on neighbours feelings... and bra lady coming (whoopeee).
All that and it was only just 5pm!
Then I did something that shocked me, I opened the fridge and ate some of that damned chicken korma! Only 1/4 of it, the rest went to the dog. So, an extra 200 cals have been taken in... but no more! I have cleared out the fridge, gave the fencing man the bag of fruit sitting in the cupboard that Zoe forgot to take and have NOTHING snacky or instant in the house now apart from CD packs & bars!
I made a muffin - which was scrummy - and am planning on having my 3rd pack in about an hour.
Got a text from S to say he's still in London in meetings - bless him... so won't see him tonight, but that's ok actually. I know what I want to do tonight. (some work)
I feel loads better for having DONE something today, although am feeling tired again.
Bra lady just rang - she's on her way! Yippeee!! New red bra for me! Hurrah! lol and JUST in time for hols!
Well... I know it's been a long one today, but hey... why use 2 words when 45 will suffice!
thanks Jane...Love the top.
agree with the poss of W/I on your own sales but compensating for how they differ from Ailsa's.
Damn - I forgot! Will do it tonight (thanks for the reminder - I'm rubbish!)
also 1 1/2lbs is a fine loss.
Yeah, I know... just being a miserable mare! lol
Glad that the weather was SO bad. Having the carnival canceelled by such extreme conditions makes it much easier for all to bear than if it ahd been a marginal decision. Also there's no personal comeback for your poor stressed sis as the cancellation was out of her hands.
lets just hope everyone can bolster their disappointment & beging to thinkabout next year!
I agree - it was pretty unavoidable and she wasn't the one to call the end decision but I felt everyone's disappointment too. Still, as she said on the news last night (my sis on telly!! lol) next year will be bigger and better
Did you consider that S's boy might realy be slow to settle & he's not trying to fob you off?
Ahhh, the voice of reason! Yes.. and he was (little 'un) ... and he (S) wasn't... lol
night night
Hi Jen,
I have to say you look bloody fantastic.
Just finished catching up with your thread. I've got everything crossed for you that things progress well with S. Thank you (again)
Hope everything went well with Zoe today, I imagine it must feel pretty strange for you to have her live away. ((hugs)) It was VERY hard driving away...
Look after yourself, sounds like the holiday couldn't come at a better time. Couldn't agree with you more... can't believe it's only a week away! OMG I need to do a list and start packing!!
Take care You too , and thanks again xxx
Kitty xxx
Well... (big deep intake of breath..)... today has been a funny old day full of ups and downs .... hope you're comfy coz I have a feeling this could be another of my very dull dronings! lol
Firstly let me backtrack to last night... S was NOT fobbing me off, his son WAS difficult to settle - he thinks he has a back tooth coming through.. (It's been such a long time since I had any dealings with 3 year olds that I've forgotten all this stuff!! So, for those WITH 3 year olds (esp boys) PLEASE help! ) He texted me to say he was still on the phone to his older lad (at 9.30pm) so I replied very cheerfully and told him to simply text me 'are you awake' and we would take it from there. Glad I did that. At just after 10 he did just that and then called me, but I was on the phone to my Sarah. Oh dear.
She had just heard that her best mate wasn't going to be seeing her on her birthday after all and that meant 3 of her other pals couldn't get there as they were all car-sharing! She was gutted. Also, a lad she's been 'seeing' has gone awol so she's upset about that.. plus.. she has money problems whilst her peers all have wealthy families who pay their rent for them...
I feel so inadequate at times.
We talked until she was all cried out and she promised to ring one of her friends that's on campus and he came over and gave her a big hug and a listening ear.
S rang in the midst of this and said he would call back. He did and we had a fairly brief conversation but it ended nicely enough and he told me his plans for today (Tuesday). It's been (and continues to be) a very heavy day for him... in fact, this whole week is going to be very tough for him...
So that was last night.
This morning.... Zoe came in and woke me (as I had my ear plugs in) and we loaded the car up and left at around 8am.
I had just pressed the button to send my normal "Good morning" text to S when one arrived from him! I almost cried - it was so thoughtful. He said he hoped today would be ok and that he knew it would be hard and that it would be happy for Zoe but sad for me and said to stay strong xxx. I thanked him in return and told him we were shortly on our way.
Oh, last night I asked him (again) if he minded my inane texts, lol, and he was absolutely adamant, NO, he loves getting them and 'they always make me smile'. So I feel ok about sending a few in the day.. lol...
Anyway... we set off, first stop petrol - this also meant hot cornish pastie for Zoe plus a bag of 'supplies', a top up for her mobile (so she can keep in touch with me AND her fella), and a full tank of fuel. We made great time - the roads were pretty empty! Got to the place by 9.15am and had a lovely welcome from a girl called Claire who showed us to Zoe's room (not as bad as I thought it might be.. lol) and then offered to sit and have a chat with us... we unloaded the car, met the General Manager and one of the chefs, and I decided not to hang around. Zoe and I were both getting a bit emotional so I felt it best to let her settle in as she was due to start her first shift at 10.
She walked me to the car and I could see she was struggling. We had the most massive hug and she whispered to me 'take me home with you', I said no, smiled at her and said this was the start of a very exciting part of her life and that she would be fine and I'd see her Friday night.
We hugged and kissed goodbye and waved until out of one another's sight... then I drove a bit and then parked up and sobbed. My baby is all grown up and gone now. I am so proud of her. I know she's only an hour away, but it might as well be a million miles right now. Tonight will be the hardest for her.
I rang my mate Zoe (when I'd stopped crying) and told her I was on my way! She asked if I was ok, which triggered the old waterworks again, lol. I got to her place in good time and had a mega hug and we had a really good natter. She was shocked that I had lost more weight, lol, but very happy too. We talked about everything - no secrets for us - we'd already talked about S.. she was very positive and said if I ever have PWFH feelings again to ring her and she'll inject a reality shot! lol It was so good to see her again and I had a soup pack whilst there.
I then decided to surprise my mum (she lives about 30 miles from Zoe). I took the wrong turn and ended up sitting in traffic on the M10! NOT happy! Got off at Hemel and drove the 'scenic route' to mums!! It was worth it though - she was really surprised and thrilled to see me. She told me that I have changed so much she hardly recognised me! She looks so tired and so little (short) now. Edward (my step dad) didn't know who I was, even when told, he simply couldn't place me at all. It's heart breaking. I told him I'd see him again next week, but I know that within 1 minute he will have forgotten I ever went. I'm glad I went though - but it was getting close to their lunchtime so I didn't stop very long.
On the way home I was determined to avoid the M1 at all costs! Well, I managed that alright... but I also managed to miss my turn off and ended up sitting on the M25 for miles at about 2mph and then finally getting off and turning back and THEN picked up the A1 !! (I'm SO crap at navigation! Perhaps one of these sat nav things might save me some time and fuel!... nah... more fun this way!).
On the way up the A1 I had a text from my bra lady! Yippee - she's coming here in about half an hour with my new red bra... it's a freakin 36!!!! lol Unbelieveable!!
After talking to her I rang an old friend of mine who lives just off the A1 near Biggleswade and, as he was home, I nipped in there for a few minutes (and to use his loo!) lol
He is off with a bad back - he needs 2 discs removing (OUCH!).. he's dead cheeky though and texted me t'other week with a blokes email addy and phone number and said 'this man is perfect for you - contact him!'. So, I took him to task about it today and called him a cheeky wotsit! It had NEVER occurred to him that I might have met someone! lol So I told him about S, and said I wouldn't be contacting this other chap and anyway... he sounded a geeky boring bloke and how on earth did he think we would be a perfect match!???
Well, he really was funny - he simply said - well Jen, he's quiet and shy and you're fiesty and extrovert... thought you would compliment one another! LOL I just laughed. Told him 'thanks but no thanks' and if things didn't pan out with S I would let him know! lol
Honestly! Men! I asked him what had he told this bloke about me? I just roared when it turned out ALL he had said was.. "she used to be really big, now she's slim-ish, she's sort of blonde and fiesty" and that was it! Poor sod. Not a lot to go one but then he described this poor chap as "shorter than me (not hard as Si is about 6 ft 4) and skinny, shy and quiet but drives a merc and a big black motorbike and is minted" .
Si's never going to win awards on Blind Date for descriptions now is he?? lol Isn't it odd what men think is important to women (car etc).. I couldn't give a flying fig WHAT anyone drives/rides! Nor how much they have in the bank! (and told him so!)
In any case, it's all irrelevant as I'm NOT interested and am concentrating on S.
Talking of whom... lol... I had been sending my 'twat-nav' reports in to him so he would know what's what and I knew it would probably make him chuckle as he has a dead flashy sat nav thing that basically can identify if there is a leave out of place!! lol I didn't text whilst driving though - way too dangerous!
On the last leg of the journey home I got a call from boss of Job 2. I couldn't believe it! Had I realised it was him I would have ignored the call, but hands free I wasn't looking at the handset! Well, I was very shocked. I hadn't sent the certificate in yet (had to copy it first) but I HAD emailed him on Saturday morning telling him I would post it today and enclose a covering letter (which he didn't know at the time, was to be my resignation). Well. I nearly crashed the damn car. He rang to say that he felt it best if they 'laid me off' as I was going to be off all week and then away until July! Partly I was shocked, partly I was very cross and partly I was relieved. We had a lengthy conversation which ended up with me saying that had he waited until tomorrow he would have had my resignation with the certificate, him apologising, both agreeing that it was best for ME to leave (not for them, he told me that if I could've worked from 10am each day for them it would have been ideal, but not getting there until 12.30 meant that some of the essential admin didn't get done). He said that they couldn't afford to employ me or anyone else full time and he was very sorry as he felt I would have been very good at helping build the business up for them and said that if I wanted to do the odd hour here and there in future for them that they would like that. He also said that they would give me glowing references too. So, it was a really odd discussion. Not wholly appropriate (I don't think) to call someone up who's signed off and tell them - basically - that when they come back of holiday there's no job for them... but hey. He only beat me by 24 hours! lol So, no real damage done and this way it is an amicable parting of the ways and no damage to my reputation nor theirs.
We agreed to call it quits as of Thursday as this makes his financial doings easier as it's end of month. So, that's one loose end tied up but no income and only 3 weeks money into the bank, you know what though - I feel massively relieved.
After that I rang my sis and told her. She was incensed that he had called but I calmed her down (Lordy, if you think I am fiesty! lololol) We agreed it was good that he had really.
Finally I got back to my home town and called in at a friend's office and scanned the certificate and emailed it home - this way boss 2 is going to get my resignation and the cert in his email tonight. Loose end, tied up and knotted and straggly bits cut off! Will probably sleep better for it too!
Sent S a text to say I was home and a brief run down of phone call etc.
Just then the chap who was supposed to come and fix my fence on Saturday showed up! Hurrah! Fence is fixed , garden secure! Just needs a coat of cuprinol and it should last ages!
However... neighbour whose drive the fence lines, came out and moaned! He moaned that whoever had fixed it last had left nails all over his drive which meant he had a puncture which cost him £10 to fix (this was MONTHS ago!) AND he said no-one had permission to work on his property! (They were standing on his drive to fix the fence! (One either side of it!)...
I came out just as he'd appeared and he couldn't see me... so I let him vent and then popped my head round the gap.. I apologised for the previous chap who had fixed the fence and told him he should have let me know right away if there was a problem, and that it's vital to tell me if something to do with my home has an adverse effect on his property.
I gave him a tenner straight away and told him I would have done so immediately had I known. I told him in future he MUST tell me if something bothers him like that again and not to let it fester as I like to think I am a good and considerate neighbour and hate the thought that he was upset with me. He got the message and muttered something about not being the whingey type... lol So, I told him about hols and that if ANYTHING happened at my home that impacted on him, in my absence, that he MUST tell me upon my return!
Flipping heck! It never rains eh???
So, have to go and get cash for fence repair man (spent the cash I got out for him Saturday on new top and lovely warm coat! lol)... and need to keep an eye on neighbours feelings... and bra lady coming (whoopeee).
All that and it was only just 5pm!
Then I did something that shocked me, I opened the fridge and ate some of that damned chicken korma! Only 1/4 of it, the rest went to the dog. So, an extra 200 cals have been taken in... but no more! I have cleared out the fridge, gave the fencing man the bag of fruit sitting in the cupboard that Zoe forgot to take and have NOTHING snacky or instant in the house now apart from CD packs & bars!
I made a muffin - which was scrummy - and am planning on having my 3rd pack in about an hour.
Got a text from S to say he's still in London in meetings - bless him... so won't see him tonight, but that's ok actually. I know what I want to do tonight.
(some work)I feel loads better for having DONE something today, although am feeling tired again.
Bra lady just rang - she's on her way! Yippeee!! New red bra for me! Hurrah! lol and JUST in time for hols!
Well... I know it's been a long one today, but hey... why use 2 words when 45 will suffice!
