Blergh! - FatFairNForty(ish) - my diary

[jane]

i agree with all the previous callers, though a bit embarrassed to be included in one of the posts.
I think Jennie is essentially a nicer kinder person than me.

Also wanted to add to Kazbro that I love your Avatar.
It is dreadful, gruesome & in extremely bad taste & I love it & can't help watching it.

 

[Redpam]

Of course you deserve to be included Jane. Your diary makes compulsive reading.

 

[kazbro]

i agree with all the previous callers, though a bit embarrassed to be included in one of the posts.
I think Jennie is essentially a nicer kinder person than me.

Also wanted to add to Kazbro that I love your Avatar.
It is dreadful, gruesome & in extremely bad taste & I love it & can't help watching it.

jane i think all cd`ers at one time or another have been in that situation on my avatar :giggle:

thank god for dulcolax and movicol:giggle:

 

[FatFairNForty(ish)]

lol, good grief... I step away from the pc for a few hours and come back to find an inordinate amount of cheek-flushing commentary! Thank you all... and Jane... you should listen to them! Your diary is just SO ace! I love reading it! I can 'see' and 'feel' it just as if it's happening to me! So there! lol

Right then, time to update...

Last night, chatted to S quite late on, and decided to plough into my work then! Madness or what!! I finally switched off around 2am having done ALL my pc-based work - agendas, minutes, letters, quarterly newsletter, spreadsheets.. :blah: :blah: :blah:

Went to bed, inserted ear plugs and was out cold (very cold as it happens!) until the damn dog barked incessantly and beat the ear plugs!! It was only 6.30am and I was shattered! But, I'm sure you all know what it's like! - I was awake, cold, tired and grumpy with the mutt! So I got up, got dressed and sent S my standard 'Good morning' message (he always asks me to the night before.. lol) and then got stuck in to some housework... vacuumed downstairs.. did my washing ... tidied up papers on the kitchen table (will I EVER get 'round to clearing it off again I wonder... hmm.. perhaps when I start eating meals again I might.. lol)

Couple of texts to and from S, not many and to be honest, I was a bit grouchy so was 'quiet' for me! lol Sister rang me - we had a right natter about the carnival and how disapointed everyone was... bless... and we talked about our fast approaching trip

This time next week I shall be lazing in (hopefully) glorious sunshine, dipping my tootsies (all 8 of 'em, lol) in the crystal blue caribbean water... and wondering how long 'til my next pack!

I think she rang because I sent her an email late last night moaning about the fact that it's raining out there and the forecast ain't good! She told me she'd been chatting with one of her mates out there and they said there were showers and thunderstorms because it is so hot!! Yeeeharr!! Gimme some of that heat!!!!!!! I'm all factored up! lol Bottles of Factor 20 down to 2! lol I intend to bake my tired bones and saggy bits! lol Hmm.. wonder how I will get a proper tan - eww.. might have to do some, shall we say, um., 'rearranging' of flesh every now and again! lol Nasty! :giggle: :giggle:

Well, let's face it , I ain't EVER gonna be Bo Derek or Raquel Welsh (showing my age there!)... but I intend to relax and have a lovely time and be warm without my leccy blanky! Oh, talking of which, I might just nip up and put that on! lol

Where was I? Oh yes.. drifting off into dreams of this time next week.. lol

So, up and at 'em this morning and THEN boss 1 rang, he was concerned whether I ought to be going in today but as soon as he realised I was determined to do so, he added a couple of items to my already pretty huge list... lol

I didn't mind, I love my job (singular! see! lol already used to it!)... and have to admit, by the time I got there and sat back at my desk, there was a comforting familarity about it!

I am sitting here now, soup just drunk, and about to make a muffin for pudding, feeling pretty pleased with what I got done today.

First stop (en route to job) was the post office - sent off important form for Sarah's student loan stuff... then put a few quid in Zoe's bank so her lenses will be paid for this month! Then off to the orifice..

I'd forgotten it was half term- bliss - totally peace and quiet - so I loaded up the first floppy full of work and started to print out the master copies...

8 hours later and ALL the printing (bar 1 doublesided sheet x 600 copies) is done, ready for collation, and I am chuffed about it! I have to collect coloured paper for the remaining page and will print that out tomorrow some time - or early Monday (haven't decided yet.. lol.. Minutes and agendas all done, 100's of copies made, half a rain forest decimated in the space of 1 day! Brought some of it home to shove in envelopes.. and collate a couple of them.. doing that tomorrow daytime as too pooped to do any more tonight.

Had a bit of a dizzy moment again - in fact, more than once, but am putting that down to the late night! So, not going to be up late tonight.. really can't stay awake. S has rung to say he is in Notts now beginning his stockcheck up there and he will 'try' to call later. lol

I'm too tired to worry about whether he does or not (although of course, I would love him to!)... but I know how stocktakes are... nightmares! He has a heavy weekend ahead too... but... I really am hoping he will want to see me Sunday evening.. or Monday at the latest. If not then I won't have seen him for over a week and won't again for another month almost! Hmmm. Well, whatever.. we'll see what happens eh! lol

In any case, I feel pleased with achieving all the essential work done AND boss very pleased so mega-brownie points from him (although I don't think he will be happy I worked so late as he is worried about me). Still, done now I'll go in again tomorrow when I can be bothered.. lol...

Paid by ex-boss today - really pi$$ poor wage packet but then, what did I expect! lol Still, something is better than nothing and we both know where we stand now! S told me he was quite surprised. .lol, I sent him a copy of my vitriolic reply to ex boss... hee hee hee... he told me that he was surprised at the switch.. and I just said.. well, he was wrong and out of order and I knew I was in the right! lol

I stand my ground basically - and say it as it is - sometimes I am way off beam and out of order and if I am I apologise, but I am only really stroppy when I feel an injustice has occurred!

Well, empty house again, but with radio on and the dog finally stopped leaping all over me with such a great welcome, lol. I'm off to have a choc-mint muffin, put me blanky on, run a bubble bath and look forward to slipping into a deep comatose state for the next 12 hours a least! lol

Ooh - forgot to say.. Sarah was interviewed by Channel 4 yesterday about her views on young women wanting to be 'stop at home' wives.. It was lovely to hear her upbeat and enthused Will let you know if she makes it to the programme! lol

Has Big Brother actually started now? I meant to have a look but haven't even switched the telly on... off to maybe play a game or 2 before the muffin... lol OH, AND I MUST go out and get the jobs paper!!! Might do that before getting comfy and warm.. lol T'ra for now xxxx

 

[mindless]

Bo Derek ? - now if you plaited your hair, I could see the resemblance

As for feeling good about work, there is no doubt, achieveing loads is the best 'feel good factor' out

Was getting jealous already of you about next week - even made me get all vain and go to the 'Stand Up Tanning Salon' for a 6 minute blast. (only £2 - next week can get Senior Citizens discount no doubt )

So I sit here with a whiff off singed stuff and what I am sure is a barbequed sausage and a big smile

Daughter does 12 mins -- HOW THE HELL!!!! -- the heat is amazing.

I am sure you will make the most of the time off (how many bottles of Factor 20 to 2 do you have?) and with those little dizzy spells, you'll just have to lie down eh?

 

[pandora]

hi hun, thought you'd been abit quiet here today !
glad to hear you are keeping yourself occupied, but just be carefull, cos like your boss i too am worried about you.
damn that pessky dog for waking you up , you need super dooper stength ear plugs then !!! hope you get a good sleep 2nite, all snug in yer blankie
xx

 

[westiegirl]

Phew, finally caught up!!!!

For goodness sakes, will you make sure that you don't burn out again. You're meant to be resting and your resting would exhaust any normal person in 5 minutes!!

Have a good day and I'll catch up again later!

 

[pandora]

morning hun,
after yesterdays busy activities Dr Kempton prescribes a day of rest, so do as she says
catch up later, off to bed now
xx

 

[FatFairNForty(ish)]

Was getting jealous already of you about next week - even made me get all vain and go to the 'Stand Up Tanning Salon' for a 6 minute blast. (only £2 - next week can get Senior Citizens discount no doubt )

You old tart! lolol Get you! Tanning Salon,

I am sure you will make the most of the time off (how many bottles of Factor 20 to 2 do you have?) and with those little dizzy spells, you'll just have to lie down eh?

I have one bottle of each and sis uses factor feck all I think but she has a different skin type to mine so don't anticipate using her stuff! lol

This time next week.. lol (this is something I'm gonna keep saying.. lol) I shall be mainly wearing SUMMER CLOTHES and a big chilling out kinda smile... :giggle:

hi hun, thought you'd been abit quiet here today ! glad to hear you are keeping yourself occupied, but just be carefull, cos like your boss i too am worried about you.

I'm ok - honest

damn that pessky dog for waking you up , you need super dooper stength ear plugs then !!! hope you get a good sleep 2nite, all snug in yer blankie xx

I sat up and watched Big Brother but honestly - what a bunch of squealers and screamers and remind me someone.. HOW old are those twins? 5 ? 6? I mean - come on... I can see someone in a seedy 'adult' industry getting VERY excited about those two as they cavort around the place in children's clothes! Sorry, but, at 18 they really shouldn't be jumping on all the furniture and behaving like 5 year olds.. I know for some it might be endearing - not for me though - just VERY irritating.. lol Not sure what to make of the 60 year old WI representative, lol, she makes me think that that's how MY mother would be in that setting.. lol lol

I like the welsh girl... she's about the most 'normal' of the bunch.

Anyway... at least I won't be able to get addicted to it this time as will be away for lots of it... lol

Phew, finally caught up!!!!
For goodness sakes, will you make sure that you don't burn out again. You're meant to be resting and your resting would exhaust any normal person in 5 minutes!!

:giggle: sorry... lol

Have a good day and I'll catch up again later!

morning hun,
after yesterdays busy activities Dr Kempton prescribes a day of rest, so do as she says catch up later, off to bed now xx

Good morning

As much as I'd love to dake the Drs orders.. lol.. I DO have to just nip into the office and pick up some cheques and go to the post office and bank.. and appt with Nurse at 11.40 but after that I have NOTHING planned so will TRY to sit and fall asleep in front of telly - ok? lol

The dog woke me again this morning - 6.30!! One of my ear plugs was out! Dunno when that happened and can't find it so am beginning to wonder if I dreamt about eating and thought it was a licorice torpedo!

No word from S last night, but then, I didn't expect there to be... texted this morning and he replied and then sent another a bit later.. but no call as yet.

I don't quite know how to broach the subject about the Genesis gig... should I ask him if/when I see him next?

I think I'll just ask him outright - "Does the invitation to see Genesis with you still stand?" and let him just tell me. But will ask him when/if we see each other as face to face things are always best!

I've no idea if I shall see him again ... I so want to.. but at the same time, this week has been very hard.. and he even called me 'mate' the other night.. where he used to call me 'poppet'. He's still signing his texts xxx but that doesn't mean anything.

Lord, I am very tired today. I know why I did so much yesterday - it was a significant date. 21 years ago yesterday I married my first husband. Also I want to get everything done before I go away and don't want to let anyone down. No loose ends = more relaxed holiday

Ah well... I've been doing work since I got up and now had a lovely hot shower so will dry, dress, might have a muffin, do a bit more work (postal stuff) then nip to post office, stationary shop to pick up paper etc, then office, print the final page I need, pick up the other stuff I need to send out and then come home and collapse in a heap! lol

I went out last night and despite going to every single outlet in the town I couldn't get a jobs paper anywhere - everyone was totally sold out! Probably just as well really as I'm going to be off so not a lot of point I guess in applying now until I get back. Ialso bought some more chicken and had a pick of that before bed - probably only 50 cals worth, and not sure why I did., just felt like it I guess. Gave some to the dog (as always) but not sure whether to give him the rest of it or not. lol Think I will as I did say I would SS this week now...

I got an email from boss 1 saying thank you for deciding to give up job 2 and not job 1. Now I feel mixed about that., good because it's a sweet thing for him to have said, and bad because I am still looking for another job!

I can't do the 2 job thing though so there is little option for me... UNLESS I can earn money doing something from home! Hmm.. that's not gonna happen.. lol.. I would end up on here all day! lol

I tried to sort out the email problem at work to find it's the ISP not my fault at all! Yippee for me, but not for email as it is totally scuppered! Must remember to let boss know!

Right - off to plough into my list for today and try and get it all done by midday!

Oh and Dr Kempton.. thank you honey xxxx

Oh, and,.. lol.. I got on my scales this morning (not sure how much they differ from Ailsa's though) and they read 12stone 12!! Now, I'm not excited about being in the 12's YET as I don't know if I am., BUT,... of they tell me anything under 12 9 by the time I go on holiday next Weds THEN I will know I am as I was 13stone 1 on Ailsa's on Monday night

 

[kazbro]

morning

if s dont go to genesis with you i will
saw them live at knebworth in 1992 i think it was
yikes so many years ago blimey cant believe how time flys

you so need this holiday maybe you can relax and chill out
nice of boss 1 to e-mail you. dont feel bad about looking for another job
by the sounds of it you have always put everyone lese 1st now its time to do what you want to do

and a big :clap::clap::clap::clap::clap: for getting to the 12`s
i`m sure your scales cant be much out from cdc`s and even if they are your are still almost there

have a great day and dont wear yourself out
kaz

 

[FatFairNForty(ish)]

cheers Kaz

things have moved on apace.. lol

S rang (unsolicited - and I hadn't texted for about 2 hours.. lol so mebbe he was missing me eh? lol) and we had a nice chat and he suggested that we could maybe meet up briefly early evening.... (he knows I have to go and fetch Zoe tonight and he has to go oop north too.. ) for a short while. He asked if I'd got his text last night that he sent me around 10pm asking if I was awake! NO!!!!! lol I was fizzing about O2... he hadn't recieved my text saying I was watching Big Brother etc and I hadn't got his which would've prompted our normal 'goodnight' phone call. He assumed I was asleep so didn't call me! Ergh! lol He told me about his meetings this afternoon but said to please text Now there's an invitation I don't need twice! lol

Anyway, his call put a smile on my weary face and I carried on doing the things I had to. I got to the staitioners to find they didn't have the paper I ordered so the newsletter this quarter is going to now have a very girly purple cover! lol I don't care - I won't be here to hear the moans!

Got to the office and had time to do a couple of bits (so glad I spent so long there yesterday) and printed one side of final page... going to go and do the other side early Monday I think... or perhaps tomorrow afternoon if bored...

Went to see the nurse to find that my BP is low (she says that could be causing my dizzy spells) but she was concerned that my resting pulse was low too... 56 this time and 42 last time... I didn't push the point but I dunno what that means... lol.. she said a normal resting pulse rate is about 70 I told her it's coz I was thinking of Tobago and therefore extra chilled out... lol

Anyway., home now and about to have soup. (I adore this spicy tomato!!) . I had a tiny bit of the chicken and gave the rest to the dog! Might cook Zoe a shepherds pie and a spare for S and his boys (in case I do see him - and if I don't I'll freeze it!) lol

OR, I could de-poo the lawn and cut it as it's getting dangerously high again and if I don't it's going to be a forest when I get back (and weather forecast is pants for the weekend again) and I don't have a strimmer!(well, I do, but neither of them works!)

(Or I might pay someone £20 to do it when I get back!) lol

Am having a chat on msn with my mate Kevin in the states... bless him, he's just got up and is off to work in a few minutes.

I keep yawning! lol Must need some more sleep eh! lol

 

[FatFairNForty(ish)]

blimey, it's already 7.30pm and I'm whacked! Fairly busy kinda day and feeling quite sad at the moment... there is a reason.. will get to that in a mo.

Got a text from Zoe to say could I pick her up at 3 instead of 10pm! lol So, cheques will have to be banked Monday now as busy being de-furred and hair having mega-treatment tomorrow too! (pre-holiday pampering and preening ya see )

So, off I drove - made it in record time - and she was ready on time and we got back home by 4.15! Brilliant! Dropped her at her fellas and came home and did her washing (that's hanging on the line as I type, lol) and had a muffin and then steamed into some serious shepherd pie cooking. LOL I made loads of it! One 'family' sized dish, 2 double portion freezer dishes and 2 single portion freezer dishes. All done, labelled and sitting in fridge. Tidied kitchen a little, sat in the garden too in the lovely sunshine. Had to beg some milk from my friend (for the mash) and then she came over and we sat out in the sunshine together catching up on all our news. It was very relaxing.

Zoe came home and has thoroughly enjoyed her dinner - lol, I must admit, it smelt yummy and didn't look bad at all! Oh well, another few months and I'll be able to have some of it again too Something to look forward to eh?

I have done as S asked, and sent texts throughout the day - inane drivel really, all light-hearted and upbeat stuff.. I hadn't heard from him since that 10.30am phone call until just now... (8pm). He rang to say that his best friend's wife has been given a devastating prognosis. (I had guessed she might from his early conversations about her) and he (best friend) had had a breakdown so S has spent all afternoon with him and is only now driving home. He sounds so tired and so down. It is terrible news... they have a 1 yr old baby and are deeply in love with one another. Devastating.

S said he hasn't read any of my messages so has no idea what I've said and rang to tell me he was ok and that he's going to play loud music as he drives and try to clear his thoughts. Bless him, I just want to hold him close and tell him it'll all be ok, but it won't. Life simply isn't fair. So, I feel sad... sad for his best friend, sad for his best friend's wife, sad for the lack of a future for them and their child which has all of them in it but to be honest, I feel terribly sad for S. This is foreign territory to him, he has never 'lost' anyone close nor really had much experience of death and it is a massive shock to his system too.

He has such a good heart, I'm sure it's making him take stock of his own life and what's important to him, and how he might feel if it was his ex or one of his kids... you know the kind of stuff that flies around your head at such times.

I hope he gets home safely, I have no expectations of him other than I know he will call me when he is ready and able.

I wish I could change how things have gone today for all of them, but I can't. All I can do is hopefully help S support his friend & family. That's if he wants me to. Poor love. What a dreadful day for them all.

We're so lucky to be alive and have hopes and dreams and things to look forward to - even if it is as simple as eating shepherds pie!

So, am going to take myself off and give Zoe a hug and tell her I love her, then I'm going to get the washing in, get changed into warmer clothes and perhaps write some letters to friends I've not seen / spoken to recently. Might ring my nana actually - hmm... yep will do that first.

Sorry to be maudlin but news like this kind of makes you stop in your tracks...

normal service will be resumed tomorrow (how lucky am I to be able to say that! Definitely a 'count your blessings' feeling right now.)

 

[IreneH]

You are so right. We need to count our blessings. There's always someone worse than we are no matter what. So sorry to hear the news about S's friend and his family.
Irene xx

 

[westiegirl]

Hi hun, what sad sad news for S. He will talk to you when good and ready and that will help him immensely because you will just be there for him and support him. I think he knows that neither of you need to say much and that you will just be there for him.

Yes, you are right about these things making us take stock of our lives as we tend to get bogged down in the mundane and blow such small things out of proportion - I know I do!

Take care of yourself too though and sending you all my love, hugs and support.

:sign0168:

 

[Redpam]

I am so sorry about S's Sad news. As you say it really makes you want to count your blessings.

As my lovely Mum says when her arthritis pain is really bad "Theres always someone worse off than me*

Hugs

Pam x

 

[sonkie]

Awww poor S ....hope he can open up to you so you are able to help and listen to him.....!
It sure puts your life in perspective when you hear news like this, and with a baby too.

 

[FatFairNForty(ish)]

well, another day looms large!

Last night I busied myself with more work and was about to go to bed when S rang. We talked for ages and he said that come hell or high water, no matter what life throws at us tomorrow (Sunday) that as soon as he has dropped the boys off he will be 'beating a path' to my door. The stock take he was due to do last night is happening either tonight or Monday now. He was adamant that we make firm plans to see one another before I go on Wednesday morning.

I'm going to see how it goes and then suggest that we go out Tuesday evening for an hour as a sort of 'bon voage - start to my hols' kinda thing. He'll probably have loads of work on, plus we don't know how his mate will be,.. so no breath held just in a thought bubble right now.

Sat up with Zoe and watched telly until I couldn't keep my eyes open. lol Woke up very early and have cleared up the decimation that Zoe and her fella produced in the kitchen as I slept, lol... at least the shepherds pie went down well! lol

Off to Asda to do some last minute holiday shopping now and get photos printed out to take with me.

Then its waxing and hair all day so you'll have some peace and tranquility on here! lol No plans for this evening - probably start packing as have to pack not only for hols but Dublin too! PLUS I have even less time as Zoe has to be back at work for 10am Weds so that's going to be an early start! Catch up with you all later xxx

 

[jane]

cheers Kaz
Went to see the nurse to find that my BP is low (she says that could be causing my dizzy spells) but she was concerned that my resting pulse was low too... 56 this time and 42 last time... I didn't push the point but I dunno what that means... lol.. she said a normal resting pulse rate is about 70 I told her it's coz I was thinking of Tobago and therefore extra chilled out... lol
great answer. does sound a bit slow but saying 70 is normal is a bit rigid. lots of people have much lower resting heart rates. elite athletes often do but other normal mortals too. Having said that yours does sound a bit too slow & as she said no wonder you feel a bit dizzy.

OR, I could de-poo the lawn and cut it as it's getting dangerously high again and if I don't it's going to be a forest when I get back (and weather forecast is pants for the weekend again) and I don't have a strimmer!(well, I do, but neither of them works!)

(Or I might pay someone £20 to do it when I get back!) lol

that's abetter idea. let someone else poo & mow all at the same time...it composts better mixed up anyway!
I keep yawning! Lol Must need some more sleep eh! lol

A couple of years worth probably Jennie

Had to beg some milk from my friend (for the mash) and then she came over and we sat out in the sunshine together catching up on all our news. It was very relaxing.
This thing you describe as 'Sitting' we normals do it on a daily basis, often for lengthy periods of time.

Perhaps, if you'd like to get the hang of it you could work your way up. say 10mins today,15 tomorrow etc.
As a life long devotee to the sitting-&-relaxing cult I can manage 12hrs at a stretch but that's because I've trained hard for years. Please don't expect to be able to achieve this level of indolance over night. It takes time & real determination to get to these heights of true sloth.


I have done as S asked, and sent texts throughout the day - inane drivel really, all light-hearted and upbeat stuff.. I hadn't heard from him since that 10.30am phone call until just now... (8pm). He rang to say that his best friend's wife has been given a devastating prognosis. (I had guessed she might from his early conversations about her) and he (best friend) had had a breakdown so S has spent all afternoon with him and is only now driving home. He sounds so tired and so down. It is terrible news... they have a 1 yr old baby and are deeply in love with one another. Devastating.

Oh No,oh No.

S said he hasn't read any of my messages so has no idea what I've said and rang to tell me he was ok and that he's going to play loud music as he drives and try to clear his thoughts. Bless him, I just want to hold him close and tell him it'll all be ok, but it won't. Life simply isn't fair. So, I feel sad... sad for his best friend, sad for his best friend's wife, sad for the lack of a future for them and their child which has all of them in it but to be honest, I feel terribly sad for S. This is foreign territory to him, he has never 'lost' anyone close nor really had much experience of death and it is a massive shock to his system too.

He won't be seeing it like that. He'll just be trying to prop friend up,you prop him up.
sometimes I feel we're all like dominoes staning on end waiting for life to knock us over & not knowing how many other dominoes we'll take down as we fall.
( hmm ,sorry J posibly not the most helful thing I've ever typed,but I think YKWIM)
He has such a good heart, I'm sure it's making him take stock of his own life and what's important to him, and how he might feel if it was his ex or one of his kids... you know the kind of stuff that flies around your head at such times.

I hope he gets home safely, I have no expectations of him other than I know he will call me when he is ready and able.

I wish I could change how things have gone today for all of them, but I can't. All I can do is hopefully help S support his friend & family. That's if he wants me to. Poor love. What a dreadful day for them all.

We're so lucky to be alive and have hopes and dreams and things to look forward to - even if it is as simple as eating shepherds pie! Yup

So, am going to take myself off and give Zoe a hug and tell her I love her, then I'm going to get the washing in, get changed into warmer clothes and perhaps write some letters to friends I've not seen / spoken to recently. Might ring my nana actually - hmm... yep will do that first.

Sorry to be maudlin but news like this kind of makes you stop in your tracks...

normal service will be resumed tomorrow (how lucky am I to be able to say that! Definitely a 'count your blessings' feeling right now.)

well, another day looms large!

Last night I busied myself with more work and was about to go to bed when S rang. We talked for ages and he said that come hell or high water, no matter what life throws at us tomorrow (Sunday) that as soon as he has dropped the boys off he will be 'beating a path' to my door. The stock take he was due to do last night is happening either tonight or Monday now. He was adamant that we make firm plans to see one another before I go on Wednesday morning.

the more I hear of S the more I like the sound of him. Thoroughly decent Human being is a phrase that come to mind.Also not as impulsive as you...which mayn't be a bad thing either

I'm going to see how it goes and then suggest that we go out Tuesday evening for an hour as a sort of 'bon voage - start to my hols' kinda thing. He'll probably have loads of work on, plus we don't know how his mate will be,.. so no breath held just in a thought bubble right now.

Then its waxing and hair all day so you'll have some peace and tranquility on here! lol No plans for this evening - probably start packing as have to pack not only for hols but Dublin too! PLUS I have even less time as Zoe has to be back at work for 10am Weds so that's going to be an early start! Catch up with you all later xxx

So no time to practise the S-&-R techniques that i mentioned earlier!

 

[FatFairNForty(ish)]

Sunshine!! Yayy!!!

Good morning!

lol Jane - I will try and practise the S & R techniques whilst on holiday and that will be a good basis for further practice when I get home lol

Yesterday was fairly busy... dashed off to Asda for 8am to buy another cozzie (decided if really going to swim every day in Tobago I need more than one cozzie) so got that, and another 10 pairs knickers.. lol.. cotton "shorts" in - wait for it - size 12 -14!!! If it wasn't for this hideous 'apron' of skin they would look good! Regardless, I like them, and they are cotton, and I figured if I took oodles of pants then less chance of running out of clean ones! (not sure I'm going to feel much like doing laundry whilst away, however, sis says she always does hers on the last few days so none to do when she gets home... so perhaps.. I could ask her to do mine too!

So - back to yesterday - oh yes.. Asda... got pants, cozzie, shampoo, deoderant, ladies items as TOTM due sometime whilst away (good! the heat will help my belly ache!), milk for Zoe and mozzie repellent. I've also started to take my antihistamines and am going to drink a mug of hot marmite each day now and take a jar with me (marmite or twiglets apparantly repel mozzies! as I can't do the twiglets I've plumped for the marmite - just as well I like it! lol)

Not started thinking about packing yet - suitcase is in my room but I need another one, must ask my mate if I can borrow hers.. lol.. bit short notice but hey - if not will nip to Argos and get a cheapy one.. Zoe has to pack all her stuff up too! My poor car will go into shock! lol

After Asda S rang and we had a brief chat (he was driving and so was I - both have hands free though ) , I went and got waxed and plucked and toenails painted... my feet aren't the prettiest (see pic) but at least they have painted nails.. lololol....

Then it was off to the post office and hairdressers... ah I love having my hair done! Sooooo relaxing.. so Jane - lots of S & R! Started at 10.30am got out at 3.30pm! lol A whole flipping day of S & R! (albeit enforced - and I did ask if I could sit out in the sunshine with my foils on... but they said no lol )... that done, trip to co-op for basic food provisions for Zoe (having texted her and asked what she wanted)... then, and you won't believe THIS!... to McDonalds to pick up lunch for her!!! I almost threw it at her when I got home, lol, told her to eat it out of my sight and make sure she threw the rubbish in the bin right away! lol

Then I had to decide what to do with the remainder of the day/evening.

So, I donned my bikini and took a deep breath and laid in the garden on my sunlounger... only for a few minutes - lawn was terribly distracting.. as too were the patio weeds... so...

I started to de-poo but gave up after a couple of scoops... and then cut the grass... it was very hard work but this morning I know I'll do loads of S & R today in the garden

Also managed to clear about 1/2 the patio weeds, that was really tiring and I sort of broke the patio knife.. lol... I felt odd wearing a bikini but it was very liberating! I told Zoe to warn me if anyone was due to come to the house.. lol.. me in bikini is NOT for public viewing - and Iwas very concsious that my neighbours could see me (if they watched from their bedroom windows) but figured - what the hell. It could've been worse! I could've been topless! LOLOLOL

I did take the odd break to lay in the sun.. and I think I nodded off at one point!

Texting with S throughout the day - but he has his sons this weekend so communications are greatly reduced (although he still says to keep texting! lol).

Eventually (about 7pm) I called it a day in the garden and came indoors and had a lovely shower, then pampered my hands - bit of a manicure... and painted nails with clear varnish... sat in bathrobe and it felt very decadent.. lol.. came downstairs and watched telly with Zoe for a bit (more S & R)... we watched Cold Case and as Bones started I could feel my eyes closing so I went to bed! Around 10.30 I texted S to wish him goodnight.. I was so tired, I put in ear plugs and was out for the count!

And so, it's Sunday already - and I have 3 days to pack and sort things out at work, lol... Easy peasy!

I woke up at 6.30, got up and have cut the front border with long-handled shears... it's taken me almost 2 hours and was exhausting but it's a stupidly narrow border and was about 2 foot high and I had to cut it all twice as after first attempt it looked like a very bad hair cut! lol

Wall baskets and hanging basket and troughs all watered whilst not in direct sunshine... now it's gone 9 I'm going to drag the mower to the front and do the wider border but with that (sod cutting any more with those shear) still.. might help the bat wing situation! Oh..I'm wearing a skirt and strappy top! lol Arms look horrific but I just think sod it if others don't like what they see they can look away! Mind you, not much life in the cul de sac as yet... I'll know when they are up as I will hear them all! lol

Going to spray the weeds on the drive and hope they will be dead and shrivelled by my return from hols... and if enough weedkiller in thingy spray doobry.. I'll spray the block paving where the washing line is too... if not might brave the crowds and go get some more...

Once front is sorted out (by 11 I reckon) I'm going to finish off patio de-weeding with my wicked patio knife! lol and THEN I have the entire afternoon to S & R in the glorious sunshine whilst feeling that smug satisfaction of knowing my garden is all in order!

I'm going to go and see matey who did S's garden t'other day and ask him to cut grass and borders and weed back garden flower beds (no flowers as dog digs them up or pees on them!) the day before I come home. I want to come home to see it all as I left it Reckon it will help me keep on top of it when I return and will be nice to not have to face a jungle and moaning neighbours (front has looked terrible) when I am so chilled out.. .lol

Am even thinking of extending dog's kennel holiday by a couple of days so I get some decent kip in before he becomes my wake up call again! lol

On the food front - I had a fab prawn salad yesterday lunchtime... (3.45pm) I know.. not on AAM but I hadn't had any packs and I thought it was preferable to getting myself a Maccy D's too! lol

It was yummy and I wasn't hungry at all - I had some soup and a muffin later and that was it.

Today I've already had a muffin... feeling a bit shaky... lol so.. made me a muffin and 2 pints liquids.. (1 appleade, 1 water) and sat down to eat and come on here!

Sun is calling me... lol... off to do front wide bit with mower and hack the neighbours off... hee hee heee... and spray front weeds...


Oh, Jane.. S really is a thouroughly decent human being. I am very nervous about this evening. I really don't know how things will be left ... but hopefully I shall do by the time I turn in for the night.. he isn't impulsive, lol, and yes, it's a very good thing! lol I missed not speaking to him at bedtime last night - lol silly. But hey, I won't be speaking to him at bedtime for 3 weeks! MY bedtime will be his breakfast time - OOOH... we might then! lololol

Not sure my phone will even work out there.. lol.. he knows about these things as does my sister so I'll sort it out later perhaps.

Lordy, my stomach is churning about tonight! Zoe is going to be out, so he will at least be able to step inside and relax although I don't know what he has in mind... and perhaps he doesn't either.. lol

We exchanged texts this morning though.. he's taking the boys to a local park today - they will have a great time. Perhaps one day, in due course, I might be able to go along too... even if only as a friend...

Who am I kidding? lol I don't want to be just a 'friend' to him.. if I did then I would be dating others... and not thinking about him the way I do.. lol

Ho hum... right... this isn't getting the garden done and is eating into my potential S & R time! hee hee

Catch up later! xxxxxx

 

[pandora]

hi hun,
glad you are having a lovely day in the sun, it sounds lush
just got your pm whilst trying to write this lol !!
not long till you go away now, ohh i wish there was room in your case for me - on second thoughts you'd exceed the weight limit +++++ hehehe
i'm sure tonight will be all you want it to be & you will fly to your holiday on :character00100:
xx