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Fred/Dick is pecking away at me today...struggling

Hi again,

I'm struggling today. Thoughts of 'treating myself' are in my mind. I'm pushing them away but they keep coming back.

I feel very tired, a bit down (thanks Andy Murray) and my tummy troubles of last week are still present. Talk about loose aboot this hoose!!!!!!!!:D

I am going to have a M& P porridge now, hopefully by eating something from a spoon and out of a bowl will help, plus I am going to read a few chapters of Beck to see if that will help. I keep telling myself that I want and need to do this for the wedding in July, also, what is the point of spending nigh on £4,000 on having my upper/lower eyes sorted out if I am going to still be overweight and ugly?

I have been so positive and 'up' for 14 days, so I was bound to hit a wall at some point. Just got to dig in, perhaps have an early night after Dancing on Ice and tomorrow is a new day.......right?

xxxx
 
:hug99: I`m sorry to hear you`re feeling low hun x

Please don`t make derogatory (sp?) remarks about yourself!! You are neither overweight or ugly! *slaps wrists* :p

How about treating yourself to a new top or some new trousers or something? We all need little treats to keep us going, Don`t we? ;)

Xx
 
Tread carefully Chels, Dick is up to no good... this is about the point where I fell and had those two binge evenings, 14 days in? It took me a week to undo the damage and get back into the zone, so please don't do what I did - I can tell you right now it was in NO WAY worth it. Stay strong and don't listen t those voices in your head... treat yourself with a mag, a bubble bath, a visit to a friend, but NOT with food. Make a list of why you're doing this, and think about the lovely slim and confident you that's just around the corner.

Big hug... I know you can do it.

xxx
 
Chels -- Beauty is only skin deep, but ugly cuts clear to the bone. You are truky beautiful human being, and it is just "January" talking. Dancing on Ice, is just the ticket! and, I suspect that poor Andy is more bummed than you are about his match today.

MM
 
Thanks SS & KC. I've just been looking at the Inspirational photo slide show and the results are incredible and a very much-needed reminder of what I want to achieve. So many of those people had much more than me to lose and they kept at it and their happy faces in the 'after' photos says it all.

Thanks for the advice Katy about Day 14 and how not to deal with it lol. You are back with it now though, so well done for that.

I am looking forward to work tomorrow :eek: and being back in the security of my daily 9-5.30 routine.

Hope you are all going well and thanks again.

xx
 
Glad you`re feeling more positive x :hug99: x
 
Yw, Anytime x
 
hey hon
just popping by to say your doing so well.. and wanted to send lots of positive vibes your way for the week ahead.. Along with lots of hugs!!
Your doing so well especially when you were around temptations at your daughters and at starbucks doing..
Keep your chin up its all worth it and your doing fab dont ever forget that xxx
 
Hope you kicked that Dick character out and had a lovely, chilled-out evening... sending stay-strong Monday thoughts!

xxx
 
Day 16 - Tennis, trousers and tuna!!

Katycakes said:
Hope you kicked that Dick character out and had a lovely, chilled-out evening... sending stay-strong Monday thoughts!

xxx
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Lol, managed to kick Dick where it hurts.........sort of. I caved in and had a second small tin of tuna which, under the circumstances, I was pretty pleased with. I just came over very tired, low, doubting, etc. etc.

I think there were a couple of triggers:

Firstly, why do I get so excited when I think that a Brit might actually win anything. I got very hyped up yesterday morning when Andy Murray's match was about to start. By the beginning of the 2nd set I was that fed up, I could tell that he was going to lose and set up my ironing board in disgust!! I know I shouldn't get so emotional about it.....after all its only a game..right?
After the ironing I got ready to walk down to the shops to get the Sunday papers. I put on a pair of trousers that I usually wear to work and they felt no different to how they have been doing and that was disappointment number 2. That allowed a small crack to appear which Dick spent the next six or seven hours or so trying to muscle his way through.

The daft part was, although around the waist the trousers felt the same, when I actually looked and felt other places, they were baggy. If I'd done that in the first place then I'd probably have been ok.

The really stupid part is that I put them on this morning and................they are loose, everywhere. I could have blown it big time and for nothing. What a difference a day makes clothing wise.

I'm back in the relative safety of work. Never in a million years would I have thought that I would be pleased to wake up to a Monday morning and work :D

Thank you all for your wonderful support and kind words. If it wasnt for you guys I might not be here today. I might have been in a carb-induced coma xxxx
 
Lol Chels, you are stronger than you think. Glad Dick got such short shrift... ha. That'll teach him. Poor old AM, I'm not a sport fan really but do feel for him. Understand that disappointments like that can dent our moods, too.

Today's a new day... Loving your positive attitude, need to hear all that today... your determination rubs off on us, y'know!

Yay to the loose trousers, too.

xxx
 
Glad to see you stayed strong, well done..... have a good day xx
 
Like Mother, like daughter -- you two are so upbeat! It's wonderful.

MM
 
Thanks Mel, one day at a time but all good and positive at the moment :D

My lovely minis friends cheer me up too, so thank to you and all the others for being fab xx
 
Just caught up Chels, well done on dealing with your daughter's FIL, what a pain!! I admire the way you coped with all that. Brilliant on the trousers fitting better too, stay strong, we are all relying on you to keep us sunny side up! xx
 
Hi Chels,

Thank you and Jess for welcoming comments in your diaries.

I loved what you wrote about your mother's figure and 50's dresses. I love vintage clothing and clothes have actually been "sized up". A 1950s size 12 dress would be more like a 6 today! And, the measurements have been reworked as we are thicker waisted and and have heavier legs. So, sad.
Kez wrote in her diary that her Wedding Dress which she thought was a possible 14/16 did not fit her size 12 friend. It wouldn't close in the back. I was wondering if it was possibly "vintage".

In 2008, when I got back down to 133 pounds -- which is what I weighed when I stepped off the plane to move to the UK in 1994 -- not all my clothes from then (that I had saved) fit me. They were all US size 8s... I was wearing new US size 8s and they were bigger! So, in 13 years -- clothing was "sized up" again.

We are lying to ourselves, me thinks.

MM
 
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