Chelsea Lou - The Ventura adventure, not a sinking ship!

[LellyCD]

Morning CHels....yay!!! for the 1lb hunny brilliant news, is that 1½stone?FABULOUS!!
Ok so you had a wobble but you've kept on...big credit to you!! how's the Beck going hunny? still reading.
Not long now hun and you'll be up to 1000 too...great!
Have a lovely weds hunny
xx

 

[Chelsea Lou]

Thank you Shanny and Lelly......your support means so much to me.

I have been reading Beck but not really 'doing' it, if you know what I mean. That is something I really need to address. xxx

 

[Greeneyes11]

Well done on the 1lb loss Chels, excellent news........ hope you are feeling better today and are back to your normal chatty, funny self!!

 

[Chelsea Lou]

Thanks GE. Don't you mean abnormal, chatty self

 

[Greeneyes11]

Ha ha, thats sounding like the normal Chels.......

 

[Chelsea Lou]

Ha ha, thats sounding like the normal Chels.......

I don't know what you mean, I'm sure

 

[Chelsea Lou]

Day 60, confused, and don't know what I want to do

Oh, here I go again grrrrrrrr

I am really confused and a bit scared now, feel like I am back to how I was last year and not knowing what plan to follow.

I was going great until last Saturday, when I had two or three glasses of wine, which led to a blood sugar drop the following day, which led to huge bar of chocolate on Sunday, which led to a bit more off-plan food on Monday, which led to 5 shakes yesterday and more off-plan food today. Not a huge amount but off-plan all the same. Coupled with my DD2 having her first WI this morning on SW Extra easy. She was worried because she hadn't been all that good for her first week, she barely has anything to lose anyway but still managed to shift 4lbs!!! She is 5'6" tall and weights around 9st 6lbs, which is perfectly normal. She takes a size 10. So how come she loses 4lbs and I am living on meagre rations for 1lb?

Now I am really disheartened about the plan I am on and thinking that I really can't do it anymore but I am scared about my ability to live with food and portion control and losing weight the SW way, even though it is my nominated "back up plan" and also the plan I want to use for maintenance.

I feel really and stupidly guilty today as I have had two shakes, a bag of crisps and a chicken breast with some salad at a local Harvester, washed down with a diet coke. Hardly a binge but I am still feeling guilty about it. This is tiring me out - the way I think, feel, react and I don't know where I go from here.

I've always been an "all or nothing" person and I so want to just become a moderate person.

Any advice please? I don't think I can CD anymore :cry:

xxx

 

[Katycakes]

Can't offer any easy answers Chels as still struggling myself and trying to settle/ adjust onto SW. But didn't want to read & run, and I totally understand what you are saying because I have been through the same. If you feel you CAN get the CD zone back, I'd try - even for another week, when you can move up as planned to 1000. If it feels impossible, though, do what feels right - but be prepared for a few weeks of unsettled eating while you try to adjust.

I know we are not the only ones who've been through this Chelsea, I think you've done so, so well to get this far because this time around CD was so, so hard for me. Give yourself credit.

Sending a hug. I'm away tomorrow but back soon, just shout if you are struggling hun. And please... DON'T PANIC! It will be OK.

xxx

 

[Bess]

SW Darling, SW. xxx

 

[LellyCD]

Hey Chels, Understand your struggles hun, could it be a wobble in CD faith after the 1lb drop? a little off plan so the lower loss was expected but still hard to take when you see it, as we hope to 'get away' with off-plan and if you think about it, it'll be carb/water retention which will drop when you can be on-plan 100%, losses on CD are never easy to read and dont always follow a pattern, i have customers who have 100% weeks and lose a small amount but as long as they carry on and don't lose heart the scale will always catch-up.
Are your clothes still feeling looser?
21 lbs in 8 weeks is still an average of 2.6lbs a week which is great considering it hasn't all been on SS.
Are you drinking your water too ? This can so easily be a habit we fall out of and we don't realise what a massive effect this has on the scales and on our cravings too.
Are you reading your Beck book and reading your cards still?
Or could it be that others have changed their path and you want to be on the same wagon? You've been doing so well on CD and the 1000 plan will soon be here why jump ship when you are just coming in to port?

ok so you had a packet of crisps...just say oh well, don't skip your 3rd shake and just move on, skipping your shake today may make you feel rubbish tomorrow and its possible you may then not feel strong enough to carry on tomorrow? so important to have your 3 shakes.
Maybe have a look at the dealing with disappointment bit in the Beck Book too.

Keep with it Chels, you will be finished before you know it and back to eating normally once more and looking forward to looking hot on your cruise
Hope this helps a bit
xxx

 

[Greeneyes11]

Morning Chels...... look at it this way, your DD may have lost 4lb but it is still her 1st week and whatever diet she is on is likely to be mainly water weight. During my "lost" year last year I tried every diet under the sun but stuck to SW longer than any other, I lost 6lb the first week, then shuffled that 6lb around for the next 14 weeks, still only being 6lb lighter 14 weeks on and I was sticking to plan 100%.... you lost more than 4lb on your 1st week, I bet she doesn't lose much next week and if you manage to stick to CD you will have a good loss again. Even this year I was on CD and dropped the plan to move to WW because I wanted to lose weight by healthy eating, I just cannot do it and have now managed to settle into CD again.... please try CD again for another week and stick to plan this time, I bet you will be pleased with your WI then!!

Chin up and have a good day xx

 

[MinnieMel]

Morning Chels,

Sorry I missed your "bad day" yesterday. But...

which led to a bit more off-plan food on Monday, which led to 5 shakes yesterday and more off-plan food today. Not a huge amount but off-plan all the same.

Is still only 690 calories (it is still a VLCD).

However, if you are finding CD too hard ATM, then perhaps going to SW with your DD and sticking to that diet for the moment is the way to go. Then, if you feel strong enough for CD or want to change it up again, do so.

Dosn't Beck say that the reason you should ALWAYS have a back up diet is because this is what happens to people -- they get burned out, discouraged, etc. Any healthy diet will work if you follow it.

I am sure that we're all here for you (I know I am), no matter what route you are taking atm.

Buck up baby... you had the sun earlier this week, didn't you?

MM

 

[Chelsea Lou]

Day 61

Hi everyone, sorry I've been quiet. I've been really busy at work plus I have been up since 2am (woke up and couldnt get back to sleep again) so I am absolutely hanging now :cry:

Am trying to reel myself back in, take a bit of a breath and continue with 810 for a couple of days more and see how I feel. I'm not going to make any claims about how I will see out this week on 810 and then go up to 1000, I may well think I can do that or equally I may think that I can't and change to SW. All I DO know is that I WILL get to 10 stones, by hook or by crook

Thank you all for your support and encouragement........it is so much appreciated xxx:girlpower::hug99::thankyou:

 

[MinnieMel]

Hi Yang,

Good to know you're okay. We'll get to 10 stones together.

MM

 

[Katycakes]

Just calling in to say hi and to let you know I'm back on that wagon... let's roll along together today, the whole lot of us, and chat and smile and know that we are getting closer to destination all the time.

Have been feeling very muddled too so you are not alone, but one thing we are not muddled about, any of us, is that we are in this for the long haul. Sun shining here and rainbow-maker on the window is chugging away & sending tiny prism rainbows whirling all around the room. Beautiful. I might even get my sorry self outside for some fresh air today. Big Friday hugs...

xxx

 

[DisneyParis]

Chels, hope you are doing well. Wishing you a lovely weekend.

 

[MinnieMel]

Hiya Yang,

Happy Friday and weekend to you and yours (i.e. your three chicks).

I am off for some pilates in a few, but will be back to check on you this afternoon. Don't make me drive down to Sandhurst to give you a good shake.

You have done amazingly well -- and Beck said (paraphrased), "You are mental if think this is going to be easy and you are not going to have times when you just want to say, 'Sod It'. But, you know that you are working on developing the tools to do this: so stick with it and ride out the storm."

Change things up... try something different, but "HANG IN THERE BABY!!!"

We're all hanging in there with you! (I'm the gray one ATM!)

MM

 

[Bess]

Hey Chels, You there and ok? What's occurin'? :8855:...I'm down with the kids, me!

 

[Katycakes]

Chels, come out and let us know you are OK, please hun.

xxx

 

[Chelsea Lou]

Day 62

Just calling in to say hi and to let you know I'm back on that wagon... let's roll along together today, the whole lot of us, and chat and smile and know that we are getting closer to destination all the time.

Have been feeling very muddled too so you are not alone, but one thing we are not muddled about, any of us, is that we are in this for the long haul. Sun shining here and rainbow-maker on the window is chugging away & sending tiny prism rainbows whirling all around the room. Beautiful. I might even get my sorry self outside for some fresh air today. Big Friday hugs...

xxx

I am really glad that you have un-muddled your head sweetie..........and in the process of trying to un-muddle mine :cry:see below

Chels, hope you are doing well. Wishing you a lovely weekend.

You too Dis. Hopefully the weather will improve and warm up a bit.........ffff freezing here

Hiya Yang,

Happy Friday and weekend to you and yours (i.e. your three chicks).

I am off for some pilates in a few, but will be back to check on you this afternoon. Don't make me drive down to Sandhurst to give you a good shake.

You have done amazingly well -- and Beck said (paraphrased), "You are mental if think this is going to be easy and you are not going to have times when you just want to say, 'Sod It'. But, you know that you are working on developing the tools to do this: so stick with it and ride out the storm."

Change things up... try something different, but "HANG IN THERE BABY!!!"

We're all hanging in there with you! (I'm the gray one ATM!)

MM

Love the pussy cats Mel, I'll be one of the ginger ones lol.

There's been a few 'sod its' of late and will explain below xx

Hey Chels, You there and ok? What's occurin'? :8855:...I'm down with the kids, me!

What's occurin' ? Me being me, that's what is occurin' doh!!! xxx

Chels, come out and let us know you are OK, please hun.

xxx

:giveup:
I genuinely have been busy and not hiding away.....honest. Jess came over last night and took over my laptop, so couldn't post at all and work has been manic. I have not been good and want to be honest about what has been happening, so please don't think that I was just hiding away with shame (although I probably should :cry

I don't quite know what has happened really....The earthquake in Japan last Friday and wondering why I am worried about being overweight, having a couple of glasses of wine last Saturday, off-plan on Sunday, Monday, ok Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, lots of bad today. It seems like I opened the lid slightly and now the whole can of worms has been unleashed and I am worried that I don't know how to get the lid back on again.

I am at a weight now, where I feel reasonably comfortable to socialise and not worry about other people and what they would be thinking about me but because CD doesn't allow for that (not really) I am staying in, not inviting anyone around because it would involve food and/or alcohol and I am lonely and isolated and I've had enough now. When I was fatter I was quite happy to hide indoors but now??? I want to be seeing friends and family and having Sunday lunches.

Therefore I have decided that I am going to go with SW. I can have a life and hopefully I will lose the last 11lbs or so and feel comfortable around food and eating. I have my books from last time I joined up. I will go and get shopping done tomorrow and count tomorrow as Day 1. There is a class near me on Thursday evenings, which I will join next week. I will email my CDC today or tomorrow and let her know.

I approached my local Cricket Club to see if there was any way that I could make myself useful......unfortunately they couldn't offer me a game but they did suggest helping lay out the teas (which involves sandwiches, cakes etc., or bar work. I would be in a real tizzy if I was still CDing. I feel that it would be nice to integrate myself with the local community in a positive way, and make some friends,rather than making 'friends' at the local pub. 21lbs ago I would never have put myself forward like this, so am making progress and want it to continue.......so I will press on with losing the weight but using a different tool...SW. Just hope I can still post on this forum.

God bless you for looking out for me and for your unwaivering support. We might all be doing it differently but we are all still doing IT.... together and that is very important to me.

Lots of love

xxxxx