Dairy Of a Lardy kid aged 43 and 3 quarters...

Lisa-Lisa said:
GINGER & CHOC COOKIES

5 scan bran
2 eggs
6 tablespoons of sweetener sugar
2 tablespoons of ground ginger
1 tablespoon of ground cinnamon
1 sachet of options hot choc powder.

Break scan bran into small pieces into a bowl then add a small amount of boiling hot water and mash with a spoon until they go soggy. Add all other ingredients and mix well then blend until smooth. Spoon onto a fry-lighted baking sheet depending on what size cookie you want. Bake on 190' for 10 minutes. Cool completely and then put in fridge.

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Ooh yummy. I will have to get my friend who goes to group to get me some more scan bran. Hope your takeaway was yummy. I just want to get home, do a Zumba wii class or 30 day shred and settle down under a duvet and watch films. Mmmmmm nice. Meant to have someone come over to plan an egg hunt on the park but don't want to do that want to slob out and snuggle down. Could sleep for a week today!

How's your Sunday?
 
Well I can safely say I won't be having a take away again for a long time. Last Saturday, Sunday and Monday I was in agony with stomach cramps and indigestion after having a chow mein and exactly the same has happened this weekend :( I was up until 3am feeling crap.

To be honest the only reason we get a take away at the weekend lately is so I get a break from cooking. But hubbs as said he will cook on a Saturday from now on and I can use my syns on something that won't make me blueergghh.

Got my eldest and his gf coming over for tea. I've made lobbies for them (hot-pot) and vegetable stew for me, S and T. I've only had a small bowl of noodles today so far and I'm not too fussed whether I have stew or not.

Anyhoo...

Breakfast: coffee (hexA)

Lunch: plain noodles and whole meal roll (hexB) and laughing cow cheese (hexA)

Dinner: vegetable stew with whole meal bread (hexB)

I have the docs tomorrow been experiencing a sticking feeling in my chest/throat for the last 6 months. Sometimes food sticks, sometimes it doesn't but the feeling is there most of the time.

I've got a fair idea that its a physical symptom of my deep-rooted anxiety but would like it to be confirmed either way because this was one of the symptoms of my mums condition that she ignored for a few years saying it was anxiety and in the end it sealed her fate :(. I was offered an endoscope investigation last December but refused. I think this time just to put my mind at rest if its offered I will accept it.

Hope you're all having a restful Sunday

Lots of love xxxx

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Sometimes the reassurance is all we need . Yes, it is definitely an anxiety symptom but there is no point worrying whether it might be something else when you can get it confirmed & get a clean bill of health. Last year I had panic attacks straight from sleeping for the first time & I got obsessed with my heart racing -which made it race! I knew it had t o be anxiety but that niggle it might not be was enough to keep me constantly anxious. I went back a few times and the nurse prac confirmed it was worry but because I had been 3 times he referred me to a specialist GP at another surgery and after that appointment magically it stopped! The gp offered me beta blockers for as and when panic & a further test if I needed more reassurance but I didn't need that in the end. I'd got scared of showering and exercising and climbing stairs etc etc - it was crippling - but it vanished after reassurance so great you are going. I always have ongoing worries but that's me - I couldn't go every time or I'd be there every day! Let me know how it goes.

Bummer about the takeaway- your body has obviously become a temple!
 
malamobile said:
Sometimes the reassurance is all we need . Yes, it is definitely an anxiety symptom but there is no point worrying whether it might be something else when you can get it confirmed & get a clean bill of health. Last year I had panic attacks straight from sleeping for the first time & I got obsessed with my heart racing -which made it race! I knew it had t o be anxiety but that niggle it might not be was enough to keep me constantly anxious. I went back a few times and the nurse prac confirmed it was worry but because I had been 3 times he referred me to a specialist GP at another surgery and after that appointment magically it stopped! The gp offered me beta blockers for as and when panic & a further test if I needed more reassurance but I didn't need that in the end. I'd got scared of showering and exercising and climbing stairs etc etc - it was crippling - but it vanished after reassurance so great you are going. I always have ongoing worries but that's me - I couldn't go every time or I'd be there every day! Let me know how it goes.

Bummer about the takeaway- your body has obviously become a temple!
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Yep I think my body as got so used to good homemade grub with no crap in it that it just won't tolerate other 'stuff'.

I get myself worked up so much about going to the doctors, feel like I'm judged on my previous mental health 'episodes' and get all tongue tied and nervy..I've yet to develop a genuine comfortable relationship with a doctor :(.

I'm considering going on a very low dose of some form of anti-anxiety meds again because Im finding little niggles appearing again...it doesn't help that I'm still waiting for my counselling date to come through - ridiculous really, was referred last September :(

xxx

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Well this was my tea...veggie stew I ate half, it was gorgeous I'm just not feeling 100% and getting myself in a tizzy about going docs in the morning...think I need to man up <wimp> :D



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Lisa-Lisa said:
Yep I think my body as got so used to good homemade grub with no crap in it that it just won't tolerate other 'stuff'.

I get myself worked up so much about going to the doctors, feel like I'm judged on my previous mental health 'episodes' and get all tongue tied and nervy..I've yet to develop a genuine comfortable relationship with a doctor :(.

I'm considering going on a very low dose of some form of anti-anxiety meds again because Im finding little niggles appearing again...it doesn't help that I'm still waiting for my counselling date to come through - ridiculous really, was referred last September :(

xxx

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Oh my that's a long wait! A friend of mine has had a series of mental health issues. Anxiety, depression and bulemia possibly paranoid schizophrenia and after 3 years I think it is they signed him off whether he was better or not. Which he wasn't. The mental health system can be shocking! I hope the docs goes ok and ill be thinking of you xxx
 
incaravanland said:
Oh my that's a long wait! A friend of mine has had a series of mental health issues. Anxiety, depression and bulemia possibly paranoid schizophrenia and after 3 years I think it is they signed him off whether he was better or not. Which he wasn't. The mental health system can be shocking! I hope the docs goes ok and ill be thinking of you xxx
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Thanks chuckie egg xxx

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Lisa-Lisa said:
Well this was my tea...veggie stew I ate half, it was gorgeous I'm just not feeling 100% and getting myself in a tizzy about going docs in the morning...think I need to man up <wimp> :D

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Don't you worry they will not think anything negative at all - honestly the things people go in there about they just won't worry at all. My gp (sadly left for another surgery) used to say 'the minute it becomes a worry you must knock on my door immediately'. Anxiety/ stress are as big a deal as physical ailments. I get so worked up when I go - panic in the night, my BP is outrageous, heart rate sooooo high! I have diagnosed white coat syndrome though. The reality is there is nothing to be anxious about - they're there to help. Chin up it'll be fine. As for your referral - that's ridiculous. I went private as couldn't bear to wait & wanted to choose my counsellor. Chase them on that. My worries have been increasing am getting all weird about things, very preoccupied in my little worry world. I think the lack of sun plays a big part. We will come out the other side.

Meant to ask - any news on job?
 
I'm now a happy little food bunny after munching on this and now settled in bed with a blueberry yoghurt and a cuppa tea watching War of the Worlds :) x

Homemade (syn-free) Chunky Hummus.


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And tomorrow I'm going to make Michele's grilled bananas for everyone because they look nommy.

xxx

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malamobile said:
Don't you worry they will not think anything negative at all - honestly the things people go in there about they just won't worry at all. My gp (sadly left for another surgery) used to say 'the minute it becomes a worry you must knock on my door immediately'. Anxiety/ stress are as big a deal as physical ailments. I get so worked up when I go - panic in the night, my BP is outrageous, heart rate sooooo high! I have diagnosed white coat syndrome though. The reality is there is nothing to be anxious about - they're there to help. Chin up it'll be fine. As for your referral - that's ridiculous. I went private as couldn't bear to wait & wanted to choose my counsellor. Chase them on that. My worries have been increasing am getting all weird about things, very preoccupied in my little worry world. I think the lack of sun plays a big part. We will come out the other side.

Meant to ask - any news on job?
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I think it's because the health centre I'm at dies get a lot of GP training traffic there is only 3 resident GP's weeks wait to see them but an appointment with any of the training GPs who ate never there longer than 6 months. No doctor/patient bond is established and every time I go I seem to have to give them my medical autobiography up to present day each bloody time - I feel embarrassed about having to explain stuff and then get flustered and defensive. Tomorrow I'm seeing a doctor that I've never heard of AGAIN!. Anyway chums signing off for the night before my diary entries start to sound very samey, whiny and self-pitying.

....oh before I forget...no news on the job yet.

Will report in tomorrow xxx

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Listen up Lisa :) Mental Health issues are NOTHING to be ashamed of. My son is on a section (coming home soon) at the moment, my husband has difficulties with being an undiagnosed adult Aspie which caused him all sorts of problems, we were convinced he was bi-polar for quite a while. Maybe he is. Other people I know, it really is common, I'll admit to the odd wobble myself here and there. Loads of people have problems here and doctors are there to look after people full stop. Not say, oh it's a mind thing, bugger off patient.

If this was a symptom of your poor Mum's illness then of course you will worry, and if it is stress related then getting it checked out and nothing found will, as you say, put your mind at rest. It is a lot better anyway to get things checked out. This comes from a woman who kept on going for five days with a burst appendix thinking she had stress related tummy problems. I could have died because I didn't look after myself.

I'll second the notion of you chasing up that counselling referal too. That's a flippping long time, even for our poor old almost non-existant NHS. Hope you get someone soon that you can relate too.

You are doing really well, keeping focused on your food intake, making good choices, and FLIP!!! Look at you going to the group. You couldn't have done that a while back could you? so hang on in there, get an appt and ask for it to be checked out. Say about your poor mum if you need to, say you were recommended the investigation before but turned it down. Can anyone go with you if you need back up?

Good morning, because I doubt you will see this before then XXX
 
Well visit to the docs went very well! :) the lady I saw I'd never seen before (she's one of many that are doing their GP training) but...what an absolute angel of a doctor!...I could actually cry I feel so relieved...in fact I did a little and she put her arms around me (I'm old enough to be her mum lol).

All these 'physical' symptoms I've been experiencing, jaw clenching, palpitations, throat closing (that's the sticking feeling) even indigestion and heartburn, constipation, stiff neck, bleeding gums (from jaw clenching), short fuse, no concentration, mood swings, rebound insomnia, thoughts racing, being extra sensitive etc...they are ALL the by-product of chronic deep-rooted anxiety and PTSD.

She ACTUALLY understood, I couldn't believe it!! I told her I was tired of being put on X Y and Z tablet and being unheard...I'm not depressed...IM FECKING ANXIOUS!! to the point that I've spent at least the last 25 years being put on one anti-depressant after another and being ignored when I told them its anxiety.

Anyway..she got it!...she really did!. :) :) :)

I've been put on 120mg of Propranolol it's marketed for high blood pressure, but is very good for anxiety - so I'm happy to put up with feeling a little nauseous, with a bit of a head ache and light-headedness if it makes all the other stuff bugger off!

So I have to see same doc in 10 days time. Lets hope this is the beginning of the clouds lifting :D

xxx

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Lisa-Lisa said:
Well visit to the docs went very well! :) the lady I saw I'd never seen before (she's one of many that are doing their GP training) but...what an absolute angel of a doctor!...I could actually cry I feel so relieved...in fact I did a little and she put her arms around me (I'm old enough to be her mum lol).

All these 'physical' symptoms I've been experiencing, jaw clenching, palpitations, throat closing (that's the sticking feeling) even indigestion and heartburn, constipation, stiff neck, bleeding gums (from jaw clenching), short fuse, no concentration, mood swings, rebound insomnia, thoughts racing, being extra sensitive etc...they are ALL the by-product of chronic deep-rooted anxiety and PTSD.

She ACTUALLY understood, I couldn't believe it!! I told her I was tired of being put on X Y and Z tablet and being unheard...I'm not depressed...IM FECKING ANXIOUS!! to the point that I've spent at least the last 25 years being put on one anti-depressant after another and being ignored when I told them its anxiety.

Anyway..she got it!...she really did!. :) :) :)

I've been put on 120mg of Propranolol it's marketed for high blood pressure, but is very good for anxiety - so I'm happy to put up with feeling a little nauseous, with a bit of a head ache and light-headedness if it makes all the other stuff bugger off!

So I have to see same doc in 10 days time. Lets hope this is the beginning of the clouds lifting :D

xxx

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Lisa,

Im so pleased for you that you had someone listen to you for a change and its great that you have come out feeling so positive. It must be an absolute weight off your shoulders to know that you are on a different path now xxx
 
incaravanland said:
Lisa,

Im so pleased for you that you had someone listen to you for a change and its great that you have come out feeling so positive. It must be an absolute weight off your shoulders to know that you are on a different path now xxx
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Thanks love :D I took my first tablet about an hour and a half ago and can feel a slight difference already! xx

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Ok - been a little side tracked with 'stuff' all morning...so here's how today's grub looks..

Breakfast: vanilla coffee(s) (hexA)

Lunch: a big bowl of vegetable stew from yesterday.

Dinner: southern style Quorn burger (2.5) whole meal bread roll (hexB) 40g reduced fat cheddar (hexA) oven roasted onions and SW chips with a mixed salad. Extra light mayo (2) ketchup (1) salad cream (1)

Snacks: hoping to have black grapes and fat free blueberry yogurt. 4 Ryvitas (hexB) with yesterday's homemade chunky hummus, but don't tend to eat much in the evening. Prefer a bit of fruit and a cup of tea <what a rock chick>

:D xxx

:)
 
Lisa-Lisa said:
Well visit to the docs went very well! :) the lady I saw I'd never seen before (she's one of many that are doing their GP training) but...what an absolute angel of a doctor!...I could actually cry I feel so relieved...in fact I did a little and she put her arms around me (I'm old enough to be her mum lol).

All these 'physical' symptoms I've been experiencing, jaw clenching, palpitations, throat closing (that's the sticking feeling) even indigestion and heartburn, constipation, stiff neck, bleeding gums (from jaw clenching), short fuse, no concentration, mood swings, rebound insomnia, thoughts racing, being extra sensitive etc...they are ALL the by-product of chronic deep-rooted anxiety and PTSD.

She ACTUALLY understood, I couldn't believe it!! I told her I was tired of being put on X Y and Z tablet and being unheard...I'm not depressed...IM FECKING ANXIOUS!! to the point that I've spent at least the last 25 years being put on one anti-depressant after another and being ignored when I told them its anxiety.

Anyway..she got it!...she really did!. :) :) :)

I've been put on 120mg of Propranolol it's marketed for high blood pressure, but is very good for anxiety - so I'm happy to put up with feeling a little nauseous, with a bit of a head ache and light-headedness if it makes all the other stuff bugger off!

So I have to see same doc in 10 days time. Lets hope this is the beginning of the clouds lifting :D

xxx

:)
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Such good news. So glad you got a nice gp. The clouds are most definitely lifting and doesn't it jus price one thing - it's not worth the pre gp worry! You will feel really good now with relief but try to remember it for next time. Maybe she will sort your counselling. I hope so. X
 
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