Everyone has a fat friend... I don't want to be yours! 2013...

Hi! Not been around much as I have been shattered after work. Had a busy day today, took my niece out with Holly and Tyler and then went to my brothers house, we rushed back and had lunch and then took Holly went out with Ste and I took Tyler for an extra karate lesson. We're just relaxing now and doing nothing! Hope everyone is having a nice weekend x
 
Well hello there....
Sorry I haven't been around, I have been so busy with work and things have been quite stressful and I did my usual coping strategy.... I ate! It was weigh in day on Wednesday and I had put 3lbs on. I was so disgusted with myself that I just give up. This morning I woke up about 3:30am and just cried and cried, I hate myself right now and feel horrendous. I want to be the best mum to Holly and Tyler and the best partner for Ste and I'm not doing that right now. So its day one again tomorrow, I'm starting over.
I don't know how I'm going to change the way I deal with stress and emotions with regards to food but if anyone has any suggestions I'd really appreciate the support. To date I have lost 14lbs since January and I aim to lose another 4 stone by the end of the year. I'm literally taking this 1lb at a time.
I'm going to do EE as this seems the most flexible now I know how to do it and I have tended to struggle to get in both B's on red/green so that shouldn't be a problem with EE.
Anyway... I'm rambling but I'm back..... here goes..... xxx
 
Awww hun ((big hugs )), sorry to hear you have been off track. Ive no real suggestions/ideas im afraid as im the opposite and dont eat when stressed. All I can say is tomorrow is a fresh start, so make it just that. Your a brill mum and partner dont let anyone tell you otherwise. Everyone deals with stress differently, could you have a word at work and get some of that pressure taken off? give someone else some of the workload?

Anyway always here for you for support and to sound off your only a login away. One day at a time and try putting YOU first once in a while xx
 
Hi Hun, its not the work load that is the problem, its general staffing and recent changes. A member of staff has left and we are in the process of recruiting and my other member of staff has just found out she has a place in uni so she will be leaving too... 2 people is my whole team of front line staff so I'll be starting again with 2 new people and Ofsted are looming, could get the call any time. I feel in control whilst I'm at work but its when I come home that things fall apart when I sit back and reflect on stuff. I haven't been eating anything during the day and then pigging out in the evening. On Friday during the day I had 2 cups of tea and a blackcurrant and liquorice sweet.... then at night I had my tea which was a SW chilli and rice and then pigged out on crisps and cookies. I get so angry with myself and then the cycle begins again.

I have always struggled with weekends so as tomorrow is a new day I am going to make weigh in days a Monday with the hope that it will keep me focused over the weekends.
 
You cant have the kids and Ste doing without so what about buying flavours of things you dont like ie crisps, biscuits? Can Ste help you at night when you reach for that kind of stuff? cruel to be kind theory?

Work sounds pretty rough for you at the mo, its the same all over, staff leaving and not being replaced etc.
 
Ste kinda stays out of it, he wouldn't care how big or small I am and he just says, "you'll regret it if you eat that."

I know all work places are the same at the moment- its so tough out there and our budget is due to be cut again next financial year by 10% I am so pleased that the member of staff got in uni, she is going to do a social work BA and she will be fantastic but I am gutted she is leaving. She's my right hand girl and I know that if I am off or out of the office etc that she can deal with anything. Its quite scary having to start over with 2 new people.

I'm quite looking forward to tomorrow- fresh start and all. Kinda got a plan in my head so just gonna go for it. How are you getting on hun? Just seen the pics of your sick on your diary! haha xx
 
I have no idea how but I have lost 2lbs this week (last weigh in day was Wednesday but from this week I will be weighing in on Mondays)
 
Well done hun! Today is a new start. We all have times where we fall off the wagon and life does get in the way of your 'diet'. The main thing is that you are back on the wagon and wanting to lose. If you've had a bad day instead of reaching for the crisps or chocolate (as I have done), could you paint your nails or have a hot bath and take your book in? I know its easier said than done when you work full time, have little ones and a partner but sometimes you have to put YOU first. SW is a lifestyle change and so it will take some getting used to and some tweaks but you will get to target x
 
I have no idea how but I have lost 2lbs this week (last weigh in day was Wednesday but from this week I will be weighing in on Mondays)

Well that's great - see, nothing to worry about after all. You've lost and you're back on it- all great!
 
Well done, 2lbs is great...... Could you not eat anything in work during the day?? Sorry if I've missed anywhere where you've said why you don't /can't...... Just thinking that if you ate during the day you might not eat so much in the evenings.... . Even if it's only something small it's gotta be better than nothing.
And you're definitely NOT being a bad mum or partner at all by eating a few goodies!!! You're just human hun!
Hope you have a good day today xxxxxxx
 
Hi ladies, thanks for your kind words. I am so happy with that weight loss and have had a good day food wise today.

I struggle to eat at work as I am usually really busy and before I know it, its the end of the day and I haven't eaten. I am going to try and be more prepared and take my lunch to work each day, I have just made up a chicken and potato salad and a mixed fruit salad for tomorrow so I'm heading in the right direction. xx
 
Todays food diary (EE):
Breakfast: an apple
Lunch: jacket potato, 30g cheddar cheese (hex A), large salad
Tea: Chicken, boiled potatoes and a large salad
Snacks: sun bites (6 syns)
Drinks: 1 litre of water and 3 pints of NAS juice
Exercise: none!

I still need to have a hex B but I am stuffed so not sure what to do about that?!
 
Bloody well done nettie. Thats great hun. What about a slice of toast later and a cuppa, maybe a late supper?
 
Bloody well done nettie. Thats great hun. What about a slice of toast later and a cuppa, maybe a late supper?

I was thinking that, it is quite early in the evening just now and I've got syns left for flora light x
 
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