Evilpenguin's food diary

[evilpenguin]

Had to work late last night so missed weigh in, managed to get in touch with my C to arrange a holiday so that I don't have to pay twice next week though.

Not enjoying my work tbh, but there's nothing else to apply for. Hmph!!

Will do a food diary later. Going to try a very low syn week if I can, have a feeling all that lager has stuck to me poo!!

 

[evilpenguin]

It's weird how I lose my job after commenting on not enjoying it lol.

So apart from the brownie which I had to cheer myself up, everything else was on plan! It was one of those m&m ones, pretty disappointing tbh. I'm guessing 10 syns as I threw the wrapper away without checking calories and cba doing a syn search.

Just not having a great time with this recently. And now I can't afford the classes so will be back to doing it alone.

I know you can't let life ruin the plan but its hard not to. Got so many exams to stress about, and life at home is stressful, and now not having a job again. I feel like nothing is going right!!

Also I'm freaking out about this kidney scan, even though the dr said its nothing to worry about, the whole health anxiety thing makes me worry, and I've had kidney pain on and off since that infection and I booked my therapy appointment today so obviously worrying about that

Then the bf asks why i'm upset over a silly job lol its not the job, its all the other stuff on top of that!!

I'm going to stay on plan and be as close to 100% as I can be, but I'm going to try not to worry too much. Maybe not post food diaries for this week and just see how it goes.

Now I'm off for a lie down!

 

[ermintrude]

Aw bladdy hell never rains but it pours eh Sorry to hear you have so many problems at the mo :bighug: Well done on sticking to it, hang in there you have done so well! x

 

[icklerockchick]

*hugs* sorry to hear you are having a rubbish time with it all chick, hope things improve soon xx

 

[evilpenguin]

Thanks ladies. I had a good day at college which lifted my mood! But just found out that our internet has been cut off again hopefully get that sorted asap so I can apply for jobs as most are online

Decided that I'm going to use my free time in the summer hols to start exercising again! College finishes in 3 weeks and I doubt I'll have work by then so will use the time to concentrate on getting fit

May as well put this anger/frustration/depression into something useful!!

Think having a few days off plan helps you get back on it sometimes. Feeling motivated again

 

[icklerockchick]

Great that you are feeling focused and great putting a positive spin on it as you say plenty time for exercising and getting fit x

 

[evilpenguin]

Yeah I need to exercise, so I decided that I'm buying a bike! Quite excited for that!

Wasn't on plan yesterday but this morning I felt about a stone heavier so that has motivated me to get back on track. Think not keeping a food diary sent me off the rails even more! So will start them again will post todays later on.

Not sure if I'm drinking this weekend but if I am it won't be lager!! Too many calories lol.

 

[icklerockchick]

A bike will be fab in the nice weather I don't have anywhere to store one and I'm up a tenement at the mo but hopefully moving later this year and then bike will be happening :-D is 26 to old for a bmx lol? X

 

[evilpenguin]

A bike will be fab in the nice weather I don't have anywhere to store one and I'm up a tenement at the mo but hopefully moving later this year and then bike will be happening :-D is 26 to old for a bmx lol? X

Never too old for a bmx!!

I've nowhere either really, theres a bike store out back but its been broken into before so I don't trust it! Just going to keep it in my room lol will need to tidy up a bit to make room!!

Xx

 

[icklerockchick]

I have a creepy bin shed or need to carry it up 4 flights of stairs :-( saw a kid in the park with a pink and black polka dot hello kitty bmx - jealous is an understatement lol! I was meant to be through in Edinburgh on sun but can't afford it boo shame as its been ages! X

 

[evilpenguin]

I have a creepy bin shed or need to carry it up 4 flights of stairs :-( saw a kid in the park with a pink and black polka dot hello kitty bmx - jealous is an understatement lol! I was meant to be through in Edinburgh on sun but can't afford it boo shame as its been ages! X

Lol that bmx sounds epic! Haha how weird I was going to visit Glasgow this weekend but also can't afford to lol. Planned it before the losing of the job! We had a whole weekend of fun planned, Glasgow for shopping/wandering around, safari park and a trip to Anstruther for a chippy (totes off plan but supposed to be amazing)... Then yeah.. No job, no weekend of fun! Poo!

But I just got home from treating myself! New trainers, 4 nails inc polishes and a bottle of red wine money spent wisely lol!

I am crap at staying on plan btw

 

[icklerockchick]

Lol that bmx sounds epic! Haha how weird I was going to visit Glasgow this weekend but also can't afford to lol. Planned it before the losing of the job! We had a whole weekend of fun planned, Glasgow for shopping/wandering around, safari park and a trip to Anstruther for a chippy (totes off plan but supposed to be amazing)... Then yeah.. No job, no weekend of fun! Poo!

But I just got home from treating myself! New trainers, 4 nails inc polishes and a bottle of red wine money spent wisely lol!

I am crap at staying on plan btw

Ach that's a shame well you do Edinburgh for me and I'll do Glasgow for you lol! ;-)

Enjoy the vino, the trainers are totally necessary for exercise and nail varnish is always fun, speaking of which I was very impressed I got a crackle nail varnish set from primark for £3 - base colour, crackle varnish and topcoat and it was brill lasted a week before chipping! X

 

[evilpenguin]

Ach that's a shame well you do Edinburgh for me and I'll do Glasgow for you lol! ;-)

Enjoy the vino, the trainers are totally necessary for exercise and nail varnish is always fun, speaking of which I was very impressed I got a crackle nail varnish set from primark for £3 - base colour, crackle varnish and topcoat and it was brill lasted a week before chipping! X

Ooh that's good! You wouldn't expect a £3 nail polish to be so good eh I have found loads of cheap surprises like that since becoming a student lol got the nails inc stuff from TK maxx so it was about 1/4 of the price, according to the label anyway lol!

Mm the vino was good but it didnt last long! Got bourbon for tonight. Oopsie! Enjoying my cash while I still have some, will be on the dole in a fortnight

Didn't get a bike today. Went along to the bike station sale but think all the good ones were gone as there were only a few left! The one I liked was old and rusty but still cost £90 and I figured I could get a brand new bike for that out of Tesco home plus! I think the bike station are selling bikes every day from now on instead of only on Saturday's so I'll pop back in a few days and see if there's anything else in, if not I'll go to Tesco

And yet another day off plan today. Was lured into a farm shop and ate a massive cheese, ham and pickle roll and a slice of malteser cake! Should've eaten breakfast before I left so that I wasnt starving when we were out

Well...gonna get drunk and watch some DVDs now!

And I absolutely 100% pinky promise that as of tomorrow I am BACK ON PLAN!!!!! I haven't even weighed myself since losing that 7.5lbs. Maybe I'll do that tomorrow to shock myself back into eating properly! Really think I've put on a stone eek!

 

[evilpenguin]

Back on track today!

Not entirely sure what to do with my stats tho as I won't be going back to class so I need to go with my scales, and according to them this morning I weighed 19st 4lbs which is a loss from my last WI?? But those scales are about 7 to 10lbs lighter than the class ones so am I actually 20st??

I dunno what to do, but I think just pretending I never went to SW and resetting my stats back to what my scales originally told me is the only thing I can do!

Also not sure if I should email the consultant to tell her that I won't be back? Its pretty embarrassing really, not being able to afford it but now that I'm out of work and also not going to get a bursary now that college is finishing, I can't justify £5 a week on it don't think I'll even have a fiver a week for myself!! Stupid dole

Anyway this post is beginning to depress me. Will post a food diary in a seperate post

 

[evilpenguin]

Was EE but had no meat so its Green today!!

Breakfast: coffee (part HEA1) rocky biscuit (5.5 syns)
Lunch: French toast with cheese (HEB1 plus 2 syns)
Dinner: leek, asparagus & mushroom risotto
Snacks: baked crisps (5 syns) fruit salad: strawberries, blueberries, melon, pineapple, grapes, oatly milk (HEA2) fried egg roll (HEB2)
Total syns: 12.5

Switched back to sweetener as I got it from b&m and they didn't have my sugar stuff!

Planning on munching loads of fruit today to get back into it properly

 

[icklerockchick]

Yeh taking all your numbers back to what they were on home scales is probably the best plan.

Don't be embarrassed I'm sure people drop out all the time for financial reasons! It's a lot to be spending when that fiver a week could be going towards healthy food instead.

Hope you get benefits sorted out soon I had to apply for mine the other day for first time ever as not getting any more sickpay :-( x

 

[evilpenguin]

Yeah it's a lot of cash to throw away on getting weighed, it was a late class so the chances of me staying for IT every week were low and tbh the online access isn't that great. Most of the time you can work out your syns using the calories or do a quick search on here, and the magazine is handy for new healthy extra updates. I joined to get back into it and didn't manage to so I wasnt getting much out of it!

Aw that sucks hopefully you can get back to work soon tho? How long do you think it'll be before you're able to go back?

I cant apply until college officially ends so got another fortnight before I can claim. I did an estimate online last week tho, it's not much, will just cover my bills

Xxx

 

[icklerockchick]

Hopefully not be off too much longer as can do general walking about ok just struggle with longer distances and exercises and such.

On the plus side at least you can get benefits over summer when I was at uni there was a majorly stupid rule that you couldn't get any benefits if you were a full time student :-/ mental! X

 

[evilpenguin]

You know I think that rule still exists, I can't remember if the estimate asked me about being a student it says on the directgov website that you can claim but only under certain circumstances aaahhh!!! Will ask my mum as she works for dwp so will know I am fooked if I can't claim!! Xx

 

[icklerockchick]

Oh no hope you can now as it does seem stupid as its so hard to get a job full stop nevermind something just over summer - i was lucky in that I got a part time job that I just did weekends and could do extra shifts during holidays. I guess you could say you're not going back to college then "change your mind" not ideal but needs must eh? X