Hi chapesses:wave_cry: *manages sheepish wave*,
I've posted exactly the same message on the DD challenge thread but so as to save my fingers I've copied and pasted!!......
Sorry to worry you Bevvers, I'm still alive, but I've been out of sorts for the past few days and off plan basically since the wedding on Saturday for a number of reasons!! I've been hanging my head low and the easier option was to avoid Minis because I went into myself and a bit withdrawn (unusual for me!!)
Firstly I had the wedding Sat and went out for Sunday lunch over the weekend and basically didn't stick to plan at all! Then I had a 2lb gain at WI Monday (slap wrists for not reporting in!!!) which was expected to be fair after the bloat of the weekend! But I haven't pulled it back since I'm afraid! Tuesday was the worst day as on the night shift I stuffed my face with biscuits all night- very gluttonous!!
But the main reason for my down in the dumpsness is that my Mum had some bad news just before the weekend! Some of you will be aware that she is suffering from ovarian cancer, which was diagnosed 3 years ago. Since then she's had 3 rounds of chemo and a big operation to remove all the ovarian bits and pieces (and remaining tumours after the chemo had shrunk it down). Because she was diagnosed at stage 3c of the cancer (advanced stage) it means that it's already got it's evil claws into her abdominal organs, and the more recent chemo has been to control the cancer in that region- bowel, liver etc. She finished her last chemo in November. We were hoping that things would be kept under control for a nice long period of time but unfortunately a recent blood result threw up a very high number and on examination the oncologist felt a new lump around her liver. She had been suffering from abdominal pains/burning for the past 3 months (just before we went on the cruise mid Feb) but the oncologist felt it was unrelated to the cancer and the GP diagnosed neuralgia! But maybe this wasn't the case! Anyway she's due to have a CT scan in the next couple of weeks and they started the chemo again on Tuesday!! It's not exactly unexpected- it was always on the cards, but it's been on the backburner a little for the past few months and I must confess it has come as a shock! She's been so well and basically living a normal and active life since diagnosis so in a way I haven't had to face it full on!! You never know how you're going to react to each new bit of bad news and it hit me quite badly! My Mum for the very first time has been talking very negatively about it- saying things like "This is the beginning of the end now" and "I've had a good life- now I want you to enjoy yours" etc etc and it's been very upsetting! I'm worried about taking time off work as I'm aware I may REALLY need to take some off further down the line so I haven't been able to get down to her this week due to night shifts etc! But I'm going to go down on Sunday to Tues (my next days off)! It's only a 3 hour run but what used to feel like a short distance suddenly feels like a long one in circumstances like this!!
Sorry to rant and offload on you lovely ladies- you want to hear and read positive things not someone whingeing on about her mother you don't even know!!
On the SW side of things- I can't make my next three classes due to visiting Ma & Pa next week, working nights the following week and being away for a wedding the week after that!! So all I can do is my best!! I know it's not wise for me to skip the food diaries but I WILL get back into the swing of them- things are just a bit hectic at the moment - I'm working double shifts tomorrow and Sat then off to Exeter for a couple of days before another round of nights next Wed Thurs and Fri! Booo!! So I'm going to live by the SW principles but give the food diaries a miss until I'm back into a routine again!!
