Helen's quest for good health!
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GothGoddess
Time to start again!
Happy Halloween...xx
Charleybarley
Gold Member
Hey Helen, just catching up on your diary for the last few days. After my 4lbs loss last week I seem to have done nothing but celebrate in the worse possible way, I been a naughty girl - current mid week weigh in shows 4lbs back on!!! Hopeless - I am going to be a hopeless heffalump on that cruise in feb! I will keep trying though!!!
HPSaucy
Will get there one day!
sleepytimesadie said:
Sorry I missed it, I know how important it is to you, hope you had a good one x
Charleybarley said:
Oh no Charley, maybe a midweek weigh in wasn't the best idea but perhaps it's a good thing because its got you back on track.. Hasn't it?!
I really feel for you as that usually happens to me but last week it just gave me a boost to have a good week this week..very strange lol!
At least you've got until February, I've got three weeks and look hideous in a costume! X
GothGoddess
Time to start again!
HPSaucy said:
Thanks Helen I had a fab time was a very naughtysadie food wise but not weighing in this week on purpose as everyone deserves a holiday and Halloween is mine... But back to being good today...xx
HPSaucy
Will get there one day!
Had a really good day with my mum and sister yesterday, my sister wasn't too bad most of the time. We were out shopping for seven hours!! Car park cost a fortune!
Got my birthday present from my mum and dad and also from my sister.. Roll on 11th November.. I'm so impatient!
My sister was a nightmare the night before, moaning about the draft coming from kitchen might make her cold, the light from there in the morning is going to wake her up, the blue light on DVD player is going to keep her awake (I had to cover it with a teatowel!) etc etc
She's also getting bigger and bigger, wouldn't mind if she seemed happy but she keeps saying "I hate myself, I'm disgusted with myself but I'm not going to do anything about it".
We had lunch when we were out, my mum and I had a jacket potato and I had water with it, Carol had a hot pork baguette with an iced mango frappe and a caramel shortcake (looked lovely I have to say!), after we'd done that mammoth shopping spree we went to dinner in the evening, went to Frankie & Bennies, not much good choice to have as didn't fancy steak.
Mum and I didn't have a starter, Carol had dough balls, although I did nick two, she then had pizza with a side of chips covered in cheese and bacon!
If she was really happy I wouldn't mind but she's not and that upsets me, I know I was the same size as her but I was looking at her and she just looked huge, she seems to have gone really round shaped, what scares me is that if she carries on the way she is she's going to struggle, when we had to walk really fast back to the car to get there before it clicked over 7 hours in the car park she was really struggling.
There is no point in telling her though, she has to want to do it herself.
Well today is weigh in day, apart from a few syns over last Friday and last night eating some chocolate I've been on plan so don't know what the scales will bring.
Work wise it's mad, I received about 10 texts yesterday begging people to go in on overtime but I've already got things planned on my days off, am doing a Double on Saturday though, Late onto a Night shift so doing a little bit but feeling guilty I'm not doing more. Our REACH team has been activated so some of our staff have been flown out to the US to help, I wasn't chosen this time but bag packed on standby in case x
Wednesday 31st October - Extra Easy (OFF)
Breakfast: 35g All Bran Golden Crunch (HEB), ff vanilla yogurt, banana
Lunch: jacket potato, cheese (HEA), beans, salad
Dinner: 2x dough balls (4.0), penne pasta, chicken, prawns, Cajun sauce (5.0?), rocket
Snacks: 4x sea salted caramel chocolate (8.0)
Drinks: mineral water, diet iron bru, squash
Total syns: 17?
Got my birthday present from my mum and dad and also from my sister.. Roll on 11th November.. I'm so impatient!
My sister was a nightmare the night before, moaning about the draft coming from kitchen might make her cold, the light from there in the morning is going to wake her up, the blue light on DVD player is going to keep her awake (I had to cover it with a teatowel!) etc etc
She's also getting bigger and bigger, wouldn't mind if she seemed happy but she keeps saying "I hate myself, I'm disgusted with myself but I'm not going to do anything about it".
We had lunch when we were out, my mum and I had a jacket potato and I had water with it, Carol had a hot pork baguette with an iced mango frappe and a caramel shortcake (looked lovely I have to say!), after we'd done that mammoth shopping spree we went to dinner in the evening, went to Frankie & Bennies, not much good choice to have as didn't fancy steak.
Mum and I didn't have a starter, Carol had dough balls, although I did nick two, she then had pizza with a side of chips covered in cheese and bacon!
If she was really happy I wouldn't mind but she's not and that upsets me, I know I was the same size as her but I was looking at her and she just looked huge, she seems to have gone really round shaped, what scares me is that if she carries on the way she is she's going to struggle, when we had to walk really fast back to the car to get there before it clicked over 7 hours in the car park she was really struggling.
There is no point in telling her though, she has to want to do it herself.
Well today is weigh in day, apart from a few syns over last Friday and last night eating some chocolate I've been on plan so don't know what the scales will bring.
Work wise it's mad, I received about 10 texts yesterday begging people to go in on overtime but I've already got things planned on my days off, am doing a Double on Saturday though, Late onto a Night shift so doing a little bit but feeling guilty I'm not doing more. Our REACH team has been activated so some of our staff have been flown out to the US to help, I wasn't chosen this time but bag packed on standby in case x
Wednesday 31st October - Extra Easy (OFF)
Breakfast: 35g All Bran Golden Crunch (HEB), ff vanilla yogurt, banana
Lunch: jacket potato, cheese (HEA), beans, salad
Dinner: 2x dough balls (4.0), penne pasta, chicken, prawns, Cajun sauce (5.0?), rocket
Snacks: 4x sea salted caramel chocolate (8.0)
Drinks: mineral water, diet iron bru, squash
Total syns: 17?
Charleybarley
Gold Member
Hey Helen
It sounds like you had a fab time shopping yesterday. Well done for steering clear of naughties, I couldn't have done the same!
I feel for your sister, it sounds to me like she is in self destruction mode, all that breaded food for dinner and fattening chips too. Maybe all her whinging and moaning is a cover up as to how bad she feels about herself and maybe (dare I say it) she is a teensy bit envious of the fact that you managed to lose weight and left her behind. You say you want to lose more and feel worried about jumping in a swimming cosi for your holiday, but the fact is Helen, you are comfortable in your own skin, your sister isn't and she is probably very aware of that.
I have a very slim friend who always looks great, she told me recently that she has always envied ME! (we have been friends since we were 11) I never got it but she explained that I am happy, a happy confident person and she isn't. She moans to me that her knees are too big (?!?) or her belly is a barrel shape, her nose is too wide, her hair is to wiry - she is never satisfied despite being a size 8! I don't necessarily like the way I can't fit into the clothes I want to, or hate most of the photos I have taken of myself, but I have never let my size stop me from doing anything. I will wear a cosi, I know I wont look good in it, but f ___ it I will wear it and I will have fun in it. You seem to be the same sort of person, you will always be plagued with this food issue (addiction?) like me, but you will always keep trying, because thats who you are. Your sister, at the moment, can't see a way out, another than to keep stuffing her face - which as we all know is not the answer. She will do something when she is ready, or when something happens to her that will stop her from living the way she is currently living, it could be something tiny like a chair giving way from under her or something, a shock. For now though, she is wallowing in her own self pity and that is not a great place to be. I do hope she finds happiness within herself.
It sounds like you had a fab time shopping yesterday. Well done for steering clear of naughties, I couldn't have done the same!
I feel for your sister, it sounds to me like she is in self destruction mode, all that breaded food for dinner and fattening chips too. Maybe all her whinging and moaning is a cover up as to how bad she feels about herself and maybe (dare I say it) she is a teensy bit envious of the fact that you managed to lose weight and left her behind. You say you want to lose more and feel worried about jumping in a swimming cosi for your holiday, but the fact is Helen, you are comfortable in your own skin, your sister isn't and she is probably very aware of that.
I have a very slim friend who always looks great, she told me recently that she has always envied ME! (we have been friends since we were 11) I never got it but she explained that I am happy, a happy confident person and she isn't. She moans to me that her knees are too big (?!?) or her belly is a barrel shape, her nose is too wide, her hair is to wiry - she is never satisfied despite being a size 8! I don't necessarily like the way I can't fit into the clothes I want to, or hate most of the photos I have taken of myself, but I have never let my size stop me from doing anything. I will wear a cosi, I know I wont look good in it, but f ___ it I will wear it and I will have fun in it. You seem to be the same sort of person, you will always be plagued with this food issue (addiction?) like me, but you will always keep trying, because thats who you are. Your sister, at the moment, can't see a way out, another than to keep stuffing her face - which as we all know is not the answer. She will do something when she is ready, or when something happens to her that will stop her from living the way she is currently living, it could be something tiny like a chair giving way from under her or something, a shock. For now though, she is wallowing in her own self pity and that is not a great place to be. I do hope she finds happiness within herself.
HPSaucy
Will get there one day!
Charleybarley said:
This is so true, I think she really is in self destruct mode, having lost her job and had to leave the Midlands and move back to my parents, trying to sell her house I totally understand that she has had loads on her plate this year, Mum says she doesn't ever seem to eat anything healthy but she has to want to do it, I've given up trying to help her as she isn't interested and says she doesn't like any food on SW, have been trying to think of something that might suit her better but I'm not experienced so not sure, perhaps ww as think you can eat naughty things more but I'm not sure, or perhaps JUDDD but that might be too strict for her but to be honest I think I'd be too scared to suggest something so I'm just letting her get on with it.
You're right it will need something to happen before she sees it for herself however earlier in the year she was told the reason she was ill was because of her weight and she lost a little with SW but then went back to her old habits are a few months and left.
I said to mum why don't they all join, my dad is very big, I said we could all do it together and compare results each week and different recipes etc but my mum says she isn't in the right mind frame either (about 10 years ago she did lose 3 stone on SW and looked amazing but it's all gone back on and more). It would help my sister if they all went together.. Maybe January she might feel like starting the new year afresh, not sure.
As for body confidence, yep I just get on with wearing my cossie, do wear tankinis but never bikinis.. Wouldn't wanna scare the kids! Lol, seriously though I'm no body beautiful and sometimes I'm not happy with how I look but I don't tend to worry too much.
It's funny we all strive to be slimmer but the slim people aren't happy as you said above!
I've gotta shoot now as off to weigh in but thanks for the above x
HPSaucy
Will get there one day!
Mumma K said:
Massive shopathon.. Wore me out! Have got loads more online today too as need to get this shopping done before the holiday if possible.. Hate shops in December! X
shenzi said:You did great with food
Good luck tonight
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Thanks hunny I'll let you know how I get on x
HPSaucy
Will get there one day!
I STS, don't think pissed off is the right word but quite annoyed! Wanted to just have a complete blow out and binge but I drove past chip shop, curry house, KFC etc and just came straight home from weigh in. I am going to have my on plan dinner however I am going to have some chocolate now and possibly something from Mark's graze box.
My consultant says perhaps I need to let go a bit, my mum had said yesterday that perhaps I am too strict! Don't know what to do, was so determined to get 3lb off by the holiday.
So do I stick totally to plan this week or maybe have a few naughty things or what?!
My consultant did mention trying perhaps fast forward or something but what with what's going on this week at work and that my food is sorted for this week I'm not going to, next week is my birthday so was thinking of perhaps trying it after the holiday x
My consultant says perhaps I need to let go a bit, my mum had said yesterday that perhaps I am too strict! Don't know what to do, was so determined to get 3lb off by the holiday.
So do I stick totally to plan this week or maybe have a few naughty things or what?!
My consultant did mention trying perhaps fast forward or something but what with what's going on this week at work and that my food is sorted for this week I'm not going to, next week is my birthday so was thinking of perhaps trying it after the holiday x
HPSaucy
Will get there one day!
Mumma K said:Poo...poo and double poo
I dunno what to suggest as you are going on holiday etc soon so maybe just carry on as is ....enjoy your holiday then have a rethink and a shake up diet wise when you get back...after the 1st of course
I'll try and shake it up but definitely no idea what to do! And not before the 1st; think that'll be an off plan day! X
lsf666 said:I predict it'll come off next week x Honest! That seems to happen but only if you stay in plan!!!
That's what I'm experiencing anyway. Just keep at it x
Oh and stay clear of FF as its nasty
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I'll stick to it completely this week too and see what happens, normally I get pissed off when I've been 100% and not lost so going for it again.
Is FF that bad then?! X
HPSaucy
Will get there one day!
Right had some chocolate last night, felt like I'd indulged myself and I'm going to be 100% again and see what happens. I went back through my food for last week, if I looked at each day it looked like I'd gone over twice but when adding up all the syns for the week came to dead on 105 which is the right amount (sometimes my consultant says to me to count weekly rather than daily).
I'm off out tonight to see the show I used to be in, be weird being in the audience rather than on the stage or helping back stage, meeting some of the cast before for dinner and then after for drinks. We're going to weatherspoons as its near the theatre so I'll try to find something low syn and I'll drive so I can't drink.
So my food after my blow out yesterday was:
Thursday 1st November - Red (OFF)
Breakfast: all bran golden crunch (HEB), ff vanilla yogurt, banana
Lunch: aldi mussels (2.5), ww petit pain (HEB)
Dinner: chicken, Parma ham (4.0), mustard (0.5), 2x goats cheese baby bell (HEA), bns chips, roasted red onions, pepper, tomatoes
Snacks (blow out!): 75g cheese (HEA + 9.0), graze box (4.0), chilli chocolate (12.0)
Drinks: soda water, sf lime, squash
Total syns: 32.0
Could have been worse if I'd stopped for takeaway on way home from weigh in! X
I'm off out tonight to see the show I used to be in, be weird being in the audience rather than on the stage or helping back stage, meeting some of the cast before for dinner and then after for drinks. We're going to weatherspoons as its near the theatre so I'll try to find something low syn and I'll drive so I can't drink.
So my food after my blow out yesterday was:
Thursday 1st November - Red (OFF)
Breakfast: all bran golden crunch (HEB), ff vanilla yogurt, banana
Lunch: aldi mussels (2.5), ww petit pain (HEB)
Dinner: chicken, Parma ham (4.0), mustard (0.5), 2x goats cheese baby bell (HEA), bns chips, roasted red onions, pepper, tomatoes
Snacks (blow out!): 75g cheese (HEA + 9.0), graze box (4.0), chilli chocolate (12.0)
Drinks: soda water, sf lime, squash
Total syns: 32.0
Could have been worse if I'd stopped for takeaway on way home from weigh in! X
