Helen's quest for good health!

[GothGoddess]

Glad you had fun Helen...xx

 

[emma_partington27]

Sounds like u had a gud night well done on resisting the burger king

 

[HPSaucy]

It was good and cocktails were lovely and my lovely husband for steering me out of the kitchen lol!

Been very lazy again today but I always feel guilty doing nothing.. been in the bath for last hour with the excuse of a deep conditioner in my hair but really just can't be bothered to get out.. see told you I was lazy!

 

[HPSaucy]

Updating yesterday's food, made some cheese scones and had a couple but not sure if I need to syn them or not but as I only had one main meal I'm guessing it should be okay but if I snack on them another day instead of having them with dinner than I should syn them?!

I'm so pleased I managed not to eat loads of crap, need to hope my one evening off plan doesn't ruin the whole week.

Sunday 17th February - Extra Easy (Off)

Brunch: bacon, baked beans, tomatoes, 1tbsp bbq sauce (1.0)

Lunch/dinner: lamb tagine (HEB + 3.0), couscous (1.0)

Snacks: 2x slices ham, grapes, 2x scones, rice pudding (HEA)

Drinks: squash

Total syns: 5.0

 

[Mumma K]

Sounding good Helen

 

[emma_partington27]

Evening helen food sounds fab x

 

[Aaleigha]

I am sure on evening off wont ruin the plan
we have to learn to live our lives so a night off now and then is good training for when we are maintaining
H xx

 

[DopeyAngel]

One evening off plan can't ruin the whole week! You're doing great Helen x

 

[HPSaucy]

Grrr no girls I'm not doing great.. really cross with myself, I am such an idiot sometimes.

Reading Hannah's diary yesterday inspired me to want to go for a walk, it was no where as long as her walks, just a few miles but loved it, was so great getting out in the fresh air and we watched Poirot being filmed. First we got stopped from walking and then she said we weren't wearing the right dress I was laughing and Mark told me to sssh as they wouldn't want my fog horn in the back ground.. he says I'm so loud..oops!

Things went wrong when we stopped for pub lunch, I thought they'd do jacket potato, they didn't! Wanted something free or low syn as I knew last night's dinner was going to be 7 syns. So what did I go and order?! Stilton ploughman's.. why? I don't ever order ploughman's.

My problem is I should have taken menu away and looked at it properly instead of being put on the spot what to order. After I ordered it I started stressing about it being so many syns, Mark wasn't cross but said we don't go out often please just enjoy it, I wish I'd ordered a main meal and could have had steak and salad but have this real thing about people watching and everyone else was having "lunch" things, to be fair I'm not sure if I could have walked after if I'd have had anything bigger, the bit of stilton was massive but really nice.

So I got home and you think that'd be the end of it.. no.. because I'd ruined it I thought I'd ruin it some more so proceeded to have a freddo bar, kit kat, temptation bar and 4 chocolates.. so that's 25 syns on top of what I'd had at lunchtime.. and still had dinner to come.

So my 7 syn dinner became 12 syns as I thought I'd blown it anyway might as well chuck in all the chorizo!

Sabotage has hit again! Why can't I be normal?! Surely a normal person would have enjoyed lunch and that's it.. not let it ruin the whole day!

Well I don't know whether its a good thing or not but although I'm Nights tonight I've managed to get last minute swaps for wed/thurs and am now Late shifts instead of Nights, now can't make weigh in. It might be good as can claw back for next week but might be bad as no line drawn under it.

So today I need to sort myself out, I'm not going to try and keep syns low as think that might be where I'm going wrong putting too much pressure on rather than just think I enjoyed my night out I was trying to be too angelic.

Oh yeah and to make it worse I only wolfed the chocolate down when Mark was upstairs and wouldn't see me.. just stood there stuffing to see how much I could cram in before he came back down.

The boys will no doubt get take away and when I'm on a 16 1/2hr shift that's when I'm at my weakest so need to take stuff with me to make sure I don't give in.

So yesterdays food:

Monday 18th February - Extra Easy (Off)

Breakfast: smoked salmon, 4x wholegrain cracker bread (3/4 HEB), 35g light philadelphia (1/2 HEA)

Lunch: stilton (??), 2x white bread (??), salad, 2 tbsp pickle (??)

Dinner: sea bass with lemon and chorizo potatoes (12.0)

Snacks: freddo bar, kit kat, temptation bar, 4x chocolates

 

[Aaleigha]

you DO NOT need a weigh in to draw a line under it
get the books out and re read them
then plan your foods for the next couple of days and make sure you have those things in the house
as for the chocolate
is there any more in the house
if so get DH to put it in HIS car - you will not be able to get it there without asking and if you do need some will have to go out to get it - so walk

as for the stilton ploughmans you enjoyed it - that is what normal people do - they go out and order what they want - we all have to learn to do this and not feel guilty
I think this is where the flexibility of using syns weekly not daily helps as we can go out with spare syns and eat more meagerly during the next few days - far more like what my skinny friend does - we need to learn to think more like a thin person eat and enjoy but ONLY when hungry or (mentally) planned for

so draw your line NOW




___________________________________________________________ there you go

and deep breath and continue

 

[GothGoddess]

Stop being so hard on yourself Helen... We all give in to temptation from time to time, the chocolate was you're way of reacting to guilt about the ploughmans... I have done this so many times, think I have blown it and blow it even more... Just stay calm and take it one day at a time... If it goes pear shaped, pull it back, but please be a bit a kinder to yourself, half this battle is because we have always punished what we consider bad behavior... It isn't bad just natural... Believe me I know I am the biggest fruitcake on here... Be nice to yourself... Hugs...xx

 

[lsf666]

I agree with the comments above x

Your line is drawn. Stop being hard in yourself - we've ALL been there. We've all got a f*cked up relationship with food and are learning.

Just start again. I also think giving Mark the chocolate to hide is a good plan too

Anyway :bighug:

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[Mumma K]

you DO NOT need a weigh in to draw a line under it
get the books out and re read them
then plan your foods for the next couple of days and make sure you have those things in the house
as for the chocolate
is there any more in the house
if so get DH to put it in HIS car - you will not be able to get it there without asking and if you do need some will have to go out to get it - so walk

as for the stilton ploughmans you enjoyed it - that is what normal people do - they go out and order what they want - we all have to learn to do this and not feel guilty
I think this is where the flexibility of using syns weekly not daily helps as we can go out with spare syns and eat more meagerly during the next few days - far more like what my skinny friend does - we need to learn to think more like a thin person eat and enjoy but ONLY when hungry or (mentally) planned for

so draw your line NOW

___________________________________________________________ there you go

and deep breath and continue

I'm gunna flag this up because the bit where Aaleigha says that's what normal people do
Is so, so true Helen
Normal people go out and pick what they want from the menu and don't feel guilty
about it
It's the guilt ( diet head-itis ) that we ( the porkers ) allow to creep in
the I've had this,......I may as well have that, and that and that because I've blown it

You hadn't blown it at the Stilton point lovely
It was after when you allowed the feelings of guilt to sabotage you
But it's done .....it's dusted move on from it
and try and learn from it
that having something out and enjoying yourself isn't something to feel guilty about
because that's what ordinary people do

 

[DopeyAngel]

I don't have much to add Helen. We've all been there. I'm a frequent feeder at the sabotage buffet. So frustrating. The difference with us lot is we keep trying and that is the main thing. Try to be kind to yourself, another week at the same weight, in the grand scheme of things, is not the end of the world. Just keep plugging away x

 

[HPSaucy]

you DO NOT need a weigh in to draw a line under it
get the books out and re read them
then plan your foods for the next couple of days and make sure you have those things in the house
as for the chocolate
is there any more in the house
if so get DH to put it in HIS car - you will not be able to get it there without asking and if you do need some will have to go out to get it - so walk

as for the stilton ploughmans you enjoyed it - that is what normal people do - they go out and order what they want - we all have to learn to do this and not feel guilty
I think this is where the flexibility of using syns weekly not daily helps as we can go out with spare syns and eat more meagerly during the next few days - far more like what my skinny friend does - we need to learn to think more like a thin person eat and enjoy but ONLY when hungry or (mentally) planned for

so draw your line NOW

___________________________________________________________ there you go

and deep breath and continue

Stop being so hard on yourself Helen... We all give in to temptation from time to time, the chocolate was you're way of reacting to guilt about the ploughmans... I have done this so many times, think I have blown it and blow it even more... Just stay calm and take it one day at a time... If it goes pear shaped, pull it back, but please be a bit a kinder to yourself, half this battle is because we have always punished what we consider bad behavior... It isn't bad just natural... Believe me I know I am the biggest fruitcake on here... Be nice to yourself... Hugs...xx

I agree with the comments above x

Your line is drawn. Stop being hard in yourself - we've ALL been there. We've all got a f*cked up relationship with food and are learning.

Just start again. I also think giving Mark the chocolate to hide is a good plan too

Anyway :bighug:

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I'm gunna flag this up because the bit where Aaleigha says that's what normal people do
Is so, so true Helen
Normal people go out and pick what they want from the menu and don't feel guilty
about it
It's the guilt ( diet head-itis ) that we ( the porkers ) allow to creep in
the I've had this,......I may as well have that, and that and that because I've blown it

You hadn't blown it at the Stilton point lovely
It was after when you allowed the feelings of guilt to sabotage you
But it's done .....it's dusted move on from it
and try and learn from it
that having something out and enjoying yourself isn't something to feel guilty about
because that's what ordinary people do

I don't have much to add Helen. We've all been there. I'm a frequent feeder at the sabotage buffet. So frustrating. The difference with us lot is we keep trying and that is the main thing. Try to be kind to yourself, another week at the same weight, in the grand scheme of things, is not the end of the world. Just keep plugging away x

Thanks so much girls, I needed you guys and your straight talking, it's so true, had it just been the Stilton I would have been okay.

Well I have drawn a line and I'm not going to keep my syns low, just normal, I think this is probably why SW advise using a flexi day and not trying to claw back as you feel deprived, naturally some days my syns are lower each week anyway.

So day 1 for me of my start again, it's now 2am and I'm having a quick breather, 11.5 hours into shift and only another 5 to go, no takeaways in the office tonight however there is loads of chocolate but despite it being shoved in my face I'm really not interested in it. I've brought in some snacks and haven't wanted most of them.. Not to say I won't later but they're ready if needs be.

Question for when on Nights, I've just had my HEA and HEB now, but its past midnight so should I have eaten it before as I'm going to end up having double today (Wednesday) or doesn't it really matter as I'm still awake?

Tuesday 19th February - Extra Easy (L2/Night)

Breakfast: bacon, baked beans, tomatoes, mushrooms, 30g black pudding (3.5)

Lunch: speed soup, 2x cheese scones

Dinner: pork & cider stew (2.0), mashed potato, broccoli, cauliflower, carrot

Snacks: mango, pineapple, passion fruit, lime, grapes, kiwi
3x crackerbread (1/2 HEB), 35g light Philadelphia (1/2 HEA)

Drinks: PLJ, squash

Total syns: 5.5

 

[Arctic-BNG]

Count for yesterday, as your going to sleep before the next lot of A's & B's?

 

[GothGoddess]

Count for yesterday, as your going to sleep before the next lot of A's & B's?

I agree...xx

 

[shenzi]

I always count it as the previous day as I've not been to sleep yet, I've just had my B as well and will probably have another for 'breakfast' when I wake up as I'm not at work tomorrow night, your body will sort it out xx

 

[HPSaucy]

What are you lot doing up at this time?!

I was going to have breakfast before going to bed to try and eat at normal times tomorrow so was going to have my HEB.. Perhaps a change of plan and might have an alpen light (other half of HEB) and perhaps hot chocolate made using other half of HEA and start again once I wake up afresh with Wednesdays allowance x

 

[shenzi]

I have an excuse I'm working! I would go with having other half of heb & hea and when you wake up start afresh or another way to to do is over a 24 hour period so you could say your new day starts whenever you have brekkie, it's entirely up to you there's plenty of options x x