yeehhawww#1 well done on the 4lbs
well done girl, 35lbs in 5 weeks, thats absolutly fab news Roch !
i love that your giving yourself little goals like being able to get into the bath, physical measures of your success, long may you continue this fab journey
xx
blimey rock
as a mother you did exactly what most of us mums would do
if anyone hurt my kids i wouldn`t hesitate i would go at them and pay for my actions later
hope its the end of the matter for aaron poor lad
well done on climbing over the wall, another great feeling of triumph
kaz
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Hey Roch
Really sorry to see you are feeling crap and feel like you are on a slippery slope
Hun the only person who can stop you from slipping is you.... maybe its time to get into some counselling to start believing in yourself again and feeling worth while.
With losing 35lb there is absolutely no way that there would not be a difference in how you look.. That is an amazing weight loss hun and you should be soooo proud of yourself.
Even people who are maintaining their weight losses sometimes get days where they can't see any difference in how they look... but the facts are there YOU ARE WEARING SMALLER CLOTHES... ya can't argue with that
Please try to do something nice for yourself today to give you a little boost and to prove to yourself that yes indeed you are worth losing this weight for you and nobody else (well except for your hunk of a son
big hugs to ya darling and I really hope ya put the oul brakes on ur skates and try to stop slipping as soon as you can
What you said you have eaten today is absolutely nothing... I do know they may be forbidden foods or whatever but maybe just tell yourself they were your slipping foods and just make a lovely dinner, ur fave whatever that is, tonight and sit down and pamper urself!!!!
Maybe try hopping over that wall again and feel how good that feels .... cos ya couldn't do that before... another fact that you have lost weight hun!
Thinking of ya xxxx
Stop right there !
the fact that you are in smaller clothes means you are smaller.
the fact you have lost 2 1/2 stone means you are smaller.
the fact that you can't see it means your brain hasn't caught up yet.
the brain takes 4 months to accept each stone you lose ( i read somewhere)
i have lost nearly 6 stone & still have days where i think i am still overweight, other times i recognise i am smaller than i was.
As overweight people, either on our journey or at the end of it, we will allways be critical of ourselves.
try not to be so hard on yourself hun, yes yours is a long journey but we are all here to support you.
xx
Roch, keep taking the photos!! I started that in March, wish Id done it sooner and there may not be a huge difference from month to month theres a definite difference between the first ones and the most recent ones.
Like you I have LOADS to lose but believe me, actually seeing it like that is amazingly motivating. Ive actually, against my better judgement posted them on my own diary and I cant tell you what a huge thing that was for me.
Youre doing really well. Retrieve those photos and store them away - believe me, youll be awful glad you did
Just a qucikie to say thank u but i am still feeling very low and cant seem to get myself together.
Sciatica is back again seems to be that i get a bout for a week to 10 days then i get some releif for 3/4 days and then it comes back with vengance and i know this is adding to me feeling so low.
Took Ebony into the communal garden today and cut my leg in 5 places accross the whole width of my calf on some wire fencing not sure when i last had a tetanus but went to my local chemist and spoke 2 pharmacist and showed him my leg and he said as long as i cleaned it properly i should be ok i put savlon spray on it so will just keep an eye on it, boy i am such a clutz
2 days now have not been on any diet plan at all went out yesterday and bought 2 big bars of chocky ate around 6 squares and felt sick and binned the rest.
Just ate some Jacket potato and cheese last night used to be one of my fave comfort foods and although i finished it i did not enjoy it like i used to and today have just had sandwiches for all my meals so most prob have eaten more than i should but at this precise moment i feel so crappy i am finding it hard to even register that i have eaten more than i should.
I want to snap out of this stupid sorry for myself mood but at the moment i just am finding it so hard.
Even though i know deep down i have lost some weight my journey is so long and i am scared that i am not strong enough to stay motivated.
Sometimes i think that i must of been happy with being super morbidly obese otherwise i would of taken my finger out and stayed on track and lost my weight and not ruined my life for so many years all becuase of my gluttony and lack of willpower.
On the other hand i hate my life how it is, i am lonely,unhappy and bored and hope that bit by bit when my weight comes off i will gain more self worth and self confidence and start to change my life for the better.
I dont like the person i am now and do desperately want to change my life but am just finding very hard at the moment and i dont know why.
My life is not very good at the moment and i know i am responsble for that and nobody else as its my choice to stay in my flat 7 days a week i dont leave the flat hardly at all maybe to go shopping once a week after WW and of course to take Ebony in the communal garden for a wee, Aaron walks her every day now instead of me. This has been going on for the past 3 weeks or so and i want to stop this b4 it gets to a stage where i was 3 months or so ago where i did not want to leave lhe house at all.
I am not going to allow myself to carry on sliding down this slippery road as i dont want to gain the weight i have lost and i really hope i have the inner strength needed to pull myself out of this black hole and get back on track before 2 much damage is done.
I hope the last 2 days eating crap has not dont 2 much damage and i can try and lose some b4 my weigh in on saturday at least what i must of gained the last 48 hrs.
I know it is not helping me staying offline but sometimes its just 2 hard to write down how u really feel as it then makes u face reality and hiding from reality is something that i have a masters degree in !!
Roch I'm so sorry to hear you are feeling so down
((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))
We are all here for you and I know its difficult to post when you feel so low but we are your friends and sometimes just those few kind words from people who understand the difficulty of losing weight can help.
Don't beat yourself up for the past 2 days so far you have done fantasically well and you will continue to do so...I just know it
Please don't feel that you can't post at your lowest times as these are the times we want to support you more than ever.
I really do hope you feel better soon as you deserve to be healthy, happy and slim...and you will do it....just look how far you have come in such a short time
All my love
