Hi i`m back again lol

[Roch]

Honey pie,

Do you know how well you are doing? Heck you are an inspiration.
Put the chocolate, jacket potato with cheese and sandwiches behind you and remember why you are doing this. You're doing this for you, the future you, Aaron, future Aaron and all those who love you dearly ... may I say a few Miniminers would come into the latter category I can tell you!

You're in a cycle and this part of your cycle is when you are feeling low. There is nothing to feel bad about. You need to acknowledge it, almost embrace it so that you know how to deal with it in the future.

I hope you start walking arond again when your sciatica gets better ... fresh air and exercise will do wonders for your emotional well being.

You are a real sweetheart and I'm 100% girly 100%!!!!

Hi CC thanks hun for ur support.Think i have stopped myself from slipping any further down the slippery slope and have stoped eating the food i should not be eating.
My sciatica has got so bad the last 24 hrs and have been crying in pain constantly i think this is the worst bout i have ever had and its horrible.
Food wise i am being good infact am not eating 2 much as have been vommiting over the past 24 hrs so hopefully between now and next sat i will be able 2 lose any weight i might have gained in the 2 days of being stupid.
Take care miss 100 girly, take care and chat soon xx

 

[Roch]

Sorry not been online the past 48 hrs yesterday my sciatica got to such a level that i have been vommiting and shaking as i am in so much pain.
Managed with help to get to the doctor today for an emergency app and when they saw the state i was in they saw me straight away.

The doc has changed my meds now to Tramadol for the pain he has given me the highest dose of 100mg 3 times a day also changed my anti inflam tabs for stronger ones called Etoricoxib 120mg and also given me anti sickness tabs called Doperidone and i must take them 3 times a day.The trmadol will knock me out as its the highest doasage u can give,have taken one and slept for an hour and it has not made any difference to the pain yet hopefully by tonight i might notice some difference.
He also said i am dehydrated quite badly.
He said it should take the edge of the pain immediately and within 48 hrs the two tabs together should def start making a difference to the pain.
He said the pain i am getting is normal for a severe bout of sciatica as i have pain in both legs,thighs,spin and shoulders and neck he said the sciaitica has inflamed the other nerves in my back hence making me in so much pain.

Food wise i am back on track and my stupid phase of feeling sorry for myself thank god did not last more than 48 hrs god knows what damage i have done but wont be going to ww on sat as i have been told i cant drive on the meds and i must totally rest up for the next few days and not go up and down the stairs as my legs are collapsing, so hopefully by next weeks weigh in i will of lost any of the excess i put on being stupid for 48 hrs.
Not manging to eat much becuase have been vommiting really just having a couple of slices of toast for each meal.
Got to start drinking more as the dehydration is making me very sleepy, hopefully when the pain relief starts to kick in will manage to drink more but at the moment cant manage to walk to the loo.

My little baby Ebony came into season 48hrs ago and we tried to put a pair of childrens knickers on her and a pad in them as she sleeps on Aarons bed and of course she took them off, so yesterday Aaron went out and got so hygeine pants and they look like doggy thongs ad they have little pads in them so she can still sleep on the bed with Aaron with us not worrying that she will leak blood on his bed, which she did the first night and i threw the bedding away.
She shakes when we put them on her but then she settles down and carries on like she is not wearing them.
Just got them for her for night time but as she is bleeing quite a bit and i cant manage to clean up after her i am keeping them on her during the day as well at least for the next 48 hrs hopefully i will be in a fit state to clean up after her then.

Anyway am really feeling rough and in alot of pain just wanted to log on and say thank u for all ur kind messages and to say that i am ok.
Take care and chat soon xxx

 

[xxluckyxx]

Hi ya Roch , what a time for you hey , lets hope the pain killers settle in soon for you .

You have done really well , ive just been catching up on your thread 2.5 stone thats great !

Wont be long till your out of pain and then another 2.5 will be said goodbye to .

you will do it and you will find yourself again !

must just say ...ahh poor doggy !
i dont know much about all the dog seasons and stuff but bless hope its over for you all soon xxx

big cyber hugs xxx

 

[sonkie]

Awww hun ....hope you feel better sooooon. Nothing like pain to make you depressed !

 

[Roch]

Hi ya Roch , what a time for you hey , lets hope the pain killers settle in soon for you .

You have done really well , ive just been catching up on your thread 2.5 stone thats great !

Wont be long till your out of pain and then another 2.5 will be said goodbye to .

you will do it and you will find yourself again !

must just say ...ahh poor doggy !
i dont know much about all the dog seasons and stuff but bless hope its over for you all soon xxx



big cyber hugs xxx

Hi Sam thanks for stopping by and saying hello, not 2 sure if the next 2.5 stone will come of so easily:sigh: but fingers crossed it wont be 2 hard.
Hope u r having a good day, take care x

 

[Roch]

Awww hun ....hope you feel better sooooon. Nothing like pain to make you depressed !

Hey Sonya my guardian angel who is always here to support me thanks hun
Although i am in severe pain and now have taken the second painkiller i am buzzing talk about legal drugs lol i am feeling better emotionally, have stopped feeling sorry for myself and gave myself a stern talking 2 and am now back on track with my eating so no more eating crap for me.
Just had a quick look at ur thread hope u have a lovely time visiting Wayne and i hope this is what he needs to give him a boost emotionally, he is a lucky guy to have such a lovely caring sis like u.
Take care hun and chat soon xxxx

 

[MadamDotty]

Hiya Roch

Sorry to hear you're in so much pain, I really hope the painkillers kick in for you soon. But it's great to hear that despite all the pain you're still feeling strong mentally & not falling down into despair and eating, that's awesome Roch, you really are a star.

Keep up the good work honey & I hope you feel better soon
xxx

 

[cah-ching]

Hi Roch,

How are you?

 

[Roch]

Hiya Roch

Sorry to hear you're in so much pain, I really hope the painkillers kick in for you soon. But it's great to hear that despite all the pain you're still feeling strong mentally & not falling down into despair and eating, that's awesome Roch, you really are a star.

Keep up the good work honey & I hope you feel better soon
xxx

Hi MD sorry did not respond 2 u earlier been awol but am feeling good and rareing to go.
Sciatica has gone and not on any meds at all not even normal pain killers that i depended on for so long just to be able to walk.
Thanks hun for all ur support, hope u r ok, got loads of catching up. Hope u have had a good week take care and chat soon xxxx

 

[Roch]

Hi Roch,

How are you?

Hi CC am ok infact am more than ok i am gooood
Been awol and kind of lurking but when i saw you had posted i had to come out of lurking and reply to u thanks hun.
Hope u are ok take care and chat soon xxx

 

[Roch]

Well the past week i have been awol and lurking. Was upset that i had gainded some weight whilst being laid up with chronic sciatica infact had gained 10 lbs and was very dissapointed in myself and of course this led to a massive downer:sigh:

For the past 5 days have been off all the meds and i mean all my meds, the doc put me of strong painkillers to just get me over the bout of sciatica and that was just enough for 2 weeks and they did the trick and the past 5 days i am not even taking any pain killers that i have depended on for so long to help me with the constnat pain i had from being so overweight.

For some reason i no longer have any back pain at all and this back pain i have lived with for many years and been on pain killers for so long, i did cut them down from 8 to 3 per day but now i take a big fat "0" and i am chuffed.

I know the weight gain is mostly water so am sure it will come off as easy as it come on.
Been doing some serious thinking the past week or so and u know when u have those convos with urself (lucky no one was around to hear lol) and i decided that i need a kick up the arse and need to start taking my health more seriously.

I want to be able to lose enough weight between now and sep/oct to be able to get a full time job and start living again and having an income and a social life again.

I really need to get down to at least 20 stone to be even able to look semi presentable in a suit and hopefully not judged by my size but by my qualifications and experience and personality.
To most peeps 20 stone is an horrendous amount to weigh but when u have come down from 28. 5 lbs 20 stone looks kind of ok not good far from but def a big difference.

When i last saw my endocrinologist he decided that me folloowing vlcd would be very good as i have pocs and as we all know vlcd is an excelelnt diet for peeps with pocs as its such a low carb diet and most diets i follow except for atkins are not low carb enough.
One of the worst symptoms for me having pocs is not being able over the past 15 years to have another baby and at the moment having excess hair on my face which makes me feel so ugly:sigh:.
I am 40 next April and if i lose enough weight to gain some confidence again i would luv to start dating again and maybe b4 its 2 late settle down and have another baby but my biological clock is def ticking away at quite a fast speed

Anyway am back on track today and decided to use up my left over lioptrim packs have 2 weeks worth here at home with me, not sure if ssing with lipotrim is the way for me but as i have the packs here and my gp was def ok for me to ss will def give it ago and see how it goes,its not costing me any money at the end of the day and u never know funnier things have happened and this time might just be the right time for me.

I am desperate to start living properly again and start working and socialising and i know i have tried to ss so many times and failed for many reasons some my own greed and some for other reasons beyond my control but one thing i have realised that i have not failed untill i give it and i am no quitter and i will sucseed eventually.

Well i feel good and positive and in control and deep down i know that i will lose my weight no mattter what path i follow.

 

[cah-ching]

I'm going to sit down and read your post with a CD soup later on. I just wanted to say I'm thinking of you honey. I know how hard things get for you at times. ((hugs))

 

[Roch]

I'm going to sit down and read your post with a CD soup later on. I just wanted to say I'm thinking of you honey. I know how hard things get for you at times. ((hugs))

Thanks hun i just wrote that long wineded post with a lipotrim shake lol. Yes things do get hard for me quite alot of the time and i think its hard for me as i dont have any close family and i have made myself a recluse over the years so i have to deal with things on my own most of the time and of course always dealt with things the wrong way stuffing my face with food but hopefully i am learning how to cope with my probs without food.
How r u doing hun hope u r ok take care and thanks for being there for me, it was ur post that bought me out of lurking.
Thanks and chat soon x

 

[Karen]

sounds like u have done loads of reflecting and it puts a lump in my throat to hear you speak the way u have. i so so know u can do this hun. xxxx

 

[Roch]

sounds like u have done loads of reflecting and it puts a lump in my throat to hear you speak the way u have. i so so know u can do this hun. xxxx

Thanks Karen hun for such a lovely post, i have done alot of reflecting and thought very carefully b4 i posted as i am sick and tired of posting things and then for my own stupid reasons not following them through, actually enjoyed my 2 shakes today
Take care hun and thank u so much xxx

 

[cah-ching]

Well the past week i have been awol and lurking. Was upset that i had gainded some weight whilst being laid up with chronic sciatica infact had gained 10 lbs and was very dissapointed in myself and of course this led to a massive downer:sigh:

For the past 5 days have been off all the meds and i mean all my meds, the doc put me of strong painkillers to just get me over the bout of sciatica and that was just enough for 2 weeks and they did the trick and the past 5 days i am not even taking any pain killers that i have depended on for so long to help me with the constnat pain i had from being so overweight.

For some reason i no longer have any back pain at all and this back pain i have lived with for many years and been on pain killers for so long, i did cut them down from 8 to 3 per day but now i take a big fat "0" and i am chuffed.

I know the weight gain is mostly water so am sure it will come off as easy as it come on.
Been doing some serious thinking the past week or so and u know when u have those convos with urself (lucky no one was around to hear lol) and i decided that i need a kick up the arse and need to start taking my health more seriously.

I want to be able to lose enough weight between now and sep/oct to be able to get a full time job and start living again and having an income and a social life again.

I really need to get down to at least 20 stone to be even able to look semi presentable in a suit and hopefully not judged by my size but by my qualifications and experience and personality.
To most peeps 20 stone is an horrendous amount to weigh but when u have come down from 28. 5 lbs 20 stone looks kind of ok not good far from but def a big difference.

When i last saw my endocrinologist he decided that me folloowing vlcd would be very good as i have pocs and as we all know vlcd is an excelelnt diet for peeps with pocs as its such a low carb diet and most diets i follow except for atkins are not low carb enough.
One of the worst symptoms for me having pocs is not being able over the past 15 years to have another baby and at the moment having excess hair on my face which makes me feel so ugly:sigh:.
I am 40 next April and if i lose enough weight to gain some confidence again i would luv to start dating again and maybe b4 its 2 late settle down and have another baby but my biological clock is def ticking away at quite a fast speed

Anyway am back on track today and decided to use up my left over lioptrim packs have 2 weeks worth here at home with me, not sure if ssing with lipotrim is the way for me but as i have the packs here and my gp was def ok for me to ss will def give it ago and see how it goes,its not costing me any money at the end of the day and u never know funnier things have happened and this time might just be the right time for me.

I am desperate to start living properly again and start working and socialising and i know i have tried to ss so many times and failed for many reasons some my own greed and some for other reasons beyond my control but one thing i have realised that i have not failed untill i give it and i am no quitter and i will sucseed eventually.

Well i feel good and positive and in control and deep down i know that i will lose my weight no mattter what path i follow.

What a beautiful post. I had a huge lump in my throat reading that!

Firstly, no meds how brilliant is that

I know that in the past SS has not been kind to you one way or the other, but you've never given up and thats what is so brilliant about you Roch. You certainly sound as though you've been doing some serious soul-searching ... so whe you're feeling down or tempted think back to this post and see what I see .... someone who is happy; someone who believes life is ahead of her; someone who sees oppotunities there for the taking; someone who acknowledges they aren't utilising their full potential.

20 Stones can be achieved within 2007.

The future is bright .... and it's got Roch's name up in the sky in lights!

You can do it girl ... anything is possible if you believe and have faith in yourself.

xxxxx

 

[SHAZA]

Hi ya Roch

Your post was amazing and rang a bell of truth to alot of very over weight people.

I too suffer pain with my RA but I need to post to encourage you a little bit

I started at 23 stone 10lb ~ far too much for my 5ft 4" frame and suffered terribly with pain from my RA

After around 5 months on CC I now weigh 17stone 12lb and you are right. I do feel I look decent now and not the biggest person walking around the planet. The stares have all but stopped and I feel invisible ( I am sure you know what I mean by that)

Even though the pain levels of my RA have not really altered, the change in the way I move is unbelievable. I am now even going to aquatone at the local swimming baths and if people dont like looking at Shaza in a swimsuit then dont bother looking !!!!

Please stick to the VLCD I know its very hard ~ probably the hardest thing that a person can ever do but it is really worth it in the end, and for us I do think its the only way to shift most of the weight. As you shrink you will grow in confidence and get your dream life

You deserve more than being restricted by your weight

Good luck on whatever diet you do

I am sending you a healing angel to help with your pain

Love Love

Sharon

 

[Roch]

What a beautiful post. I had a huge lump in my throat reading that!

Firstly, no meds how brilliant is that

I know that in the past SS has not been kind to you one way or the other, but you've never given up and thats what is so brilliant about you Roch. You certainly sound as though you've been doing some serious soul-searching ... so whe you're feeling down or tempted think back to this post and see what I see .... someone who is happy; someone who believes life is ahead of her; someone who sees oppotunities there for the taking; someone who acknowledges they aren't utilising their full potential.

20 Stones can be achieved within 2007.

The future is bright .... and it's got Roch's name up in the sky in lights!

You can do it girl ... anything is possible if you believe and have faith in yourself.

xxxxx

Hi CC thanks hun for such a lovely and caring post.
Yes u r right there ssing has not been kind to me in the past but its been 50/50 really half of the time i have just given up and the rest of the times its been out of my hands, but i am sick and tired of being weak willed, i want to sucseed and i will sucseed.
I am so lonely but still ashamed to go out and socialise so i am at home 24/7 on my own and i need to get out of that bad habbit.

Although my tummy is rumbling today i am not going to give up, i will have major carb withdrawals as i am a carb addict but i am trying to talk myself into the idea that i like the sensation of being hungry to help myself get through the next few days till i get into ketosis.

Day by day i know i am shrinking although i only lost the 35lbs which i have gained some with water retention:sigh::sigh: :sigh: i am now practically 2 sizes smaller and peeps are def noticing. I saw my uncle for the first time in 6 weeks and he said their is a big difference, also i am trying on clothes that i have bought ages ago and never even taken the label off and they never went even half way accross my boobs and now they do up but tight so am pleased and hopefully this will keep me going.

Thanks hun and take care xxxx

 

[Roch]

Hi ya Roch

Your post was amazing and rang a bell of truth to alot of very over weight people.

I too suffer pain with my RA but I need to post to encourage you a little bit

I started at 23 stone 10lb ~ far too much for my 5ft 4" frame and suffered terribly with pain from my RA

After around 5 months on CC I now weigh 17stone 12lb and you are right. I do feel I look decent now and not the biggest person walking around the planet. The stares have all but stopped and I feel invisible ( I am sure you know what I mean by that)

Even though the pain levels of my RA have not really altered, the change in the way I move is unbelievable. I am now even going to aquatone at the local swimming baths and if people dont like looking at Shaza in a swimsuit then dont bother looking !!!!

Please stick to the VLCD I know its very hard ~ probably the hardest thing that a person can ever do but it is really worth it in the end, and for us I do think its the only way to shift most of the weight. As you shrink you will grow in confidence and get your dream life

You deserve more than being restricted by your weight

Good luck on whatever diet you do

I am sending you a healing angel to help with your pain

Love Love

Sharon

Hi Sharon thanks hun for taking the time 2 write such a lovely post.
Well done 2 u for doing so well and smashing so many of your goals.
Sorry hun 2 be thick but what is RA ?
I know what u r saying about feeling good as u r now not the biggest person around i hope soon by the end of the year i will be saying that as well.
You seem to have so much confidence i wish i could go swimming and not give a dam what others thought, i luv swimming and am a strong swimmer.
Thanks again hun i really appreciate your post, am off now to walk Ebony as she is sitting at my feet under the pc table crying to go for a wee so have to take her out now.
Take care hun and chat soon xxxx

 

[IreneH]

Glad to hear you are feeling so much better. It's a shame you can't come to Dublin as I know you suggested it in the first place.
Irene xx