Pinkie1973
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Blimey! I hope you can at least stick a film or something on?
It's Now Or Never
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Blimey! I hope you can at least stick a film or something on?
Woodland girl
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How's things Pnkie?
Pinkie1973
Starting over again......
Hello girls.
Sorry I've been quiet, everything just seems so manic lately.
I haven't really been SWing but trying a few other tactics and using what I've learnt from SW.
Now ironically I've lost 13lbs since New Year! Key things I've been doing are a) starting the day with lemon juice and hot water and drinking freshly squeezed juice each morning; b) drinking lots of water and c) ankle good enough that I'm back to my regular hours walk each day.
Other than that lot though I really haven't been good. Too many take outs etc. Walking again feels good though. Oh and as per my psychiatrist chap I'm trying to calorie count which has been a very interesting exercise and tends to promote green veg superfree rather than fruity superfree.
Hope you are all well. My lad has left for the night. I'm at a bit of a loss as to what to do with myself. Bit run down at the moment. We both had a 2 hour sleep this afternoon so not ready for bed just yet.
Sorry I've been quiet, everything just seems so manic lately.
I haven't really been SWing but trying a few other tactics and using what I've learnt from SW.
Now ironically I've lost 13lbs since New Year! Key things I've been doing are a) starting the day with lemon juice and hot water and drinking freshly squeezed juice each morning; b) drinking lots of water and c) ankle good enough that I'm back to my regular hours walk each day.
Other than that lot though I really haven't been good. Too many take outs etc. Walking again feels good though. Oh and as per my psychiatrist chap I'm trying to calorie count which has been a very interesting exercise and tends to promote green veg superfree rather than fruity superfree.
Hope you are all well. My lad has left for the night. I'm at a bit of a loss as to what to do with myself. Bit run down at the moment. We both had a 2 hour sleep this afternoon so not ready for bed just yet.
Pommette
Trying - very!
Morning Pinkie - Sorry I wasn't here to chat last night. Had a really early night for a change (I'm run down too!)
Well done on that 13 lb loss since New Year. That's fabulous chica! Glad the CC is helping too.
I'm not surprised about the veggies. Fruit, even though superfree on SW, has heaps more calories than veg - all those natrural sugars.
But that's what also gives us some extra energy and vitamins so try not to cut it out completely.
Could that be why you are feeling a bit run down?
Or maybe it's just the time of year as lots of peeps are feeling "orf" at the mo - me included.
Lots of colds and other viruses and the lack of sun dossn't help us either.
((( Hugs ))) chica. Sounds as though things are going in the right direction for you at the mo.
Well done on that 13 lb loss since New Year. That's fabulous chica! Glad the CC is helping too.
I'm not surprised about the veggies. Fruit, even though superfree on SW, has heaps more calories than veg - all those natrural sugars.
But that's what also gives us some extra energy and vitamins so try not to cut it out completely.
Could that be why you are feeling a bit run down?
Or maybe it's just the time of year as lots of peeps are feeling "orf" at the mo - me included.
Lots of colds and other viruses and the lack of sun dossn't help us either.
((( Hugs ))) chica. Sounds as though things are going in the right direction for you at the mo.
Pinkie1973
Starting over again......
Hiya. Yeah eating plenty of fruit too. It occurs to me though that I'm not grazing like I used to.
Throat and everything feels much better today. Am pooped though.
Throat and everything feels much better today. Am pooped though.
Woodland girl
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Swim Pinkie 
Pinkie1973
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Lol
Woodland girl
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Am I hounding you?? Lol. Just helping, honest!
Tracy x
Tracy x
Pinkie1973
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Ha ha you're fine. My swim stuff is out and ready.
Pinkie1973
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As bless. Happy St David's Day to you too honey xx
Pinkie1973
Starting over again......
Hmmmmmm.......... :-/ OK and not so great. I still am just fail fail failing.
Pinkie1973
Starting over again......
Evening girls.
It's been a while since I posted properly, so a quick catch up on where I'm at.
My weight is back to horrific unfortunately - heavier than when I originally started SW over two years ago.
As you know my psychiatrist chappy suggested I calorie count, aiming for 1500 cals a day. However, whilst it was fantastic when I stuck to it, I just didn't stick to it for more than a few days at a time. A week or so back I had a session with my CBT therapist (oh don't I sound a joy!). We agreed that where my weight was concerned something seemed to be blocking the way to success. I had also recently come to the conclusion that I subconsciously put on weight, in order to create a barrier between me and men - i.e. I'm trying to make myself less attractive. Anyhoo, as an upshot, there were quite a few tears at that session, but we are starting to look at addressing my various issues around food etc etc etc - stuff I won't bore you all with.
Coming away from that session though, I did feel a bit differently about things. I had got so fed up with thinking about food, worrying about it, feeling in denial all the time etc etc. However, I also know that when I try to just eat 'normally' I end up eating horrendous amounts. So I decided, that for now, I am going to take all stress off myself (as it wasn't actually achieving anything anyway) and not deny myself anything at all. The only thing I wanted to strictly adhere to, was to keep track of everything I eat and monitor calories. I am doing this via MyFitnessPal. As I say, if I want something I will have it. I took my Mum for a lovely (and highly calorific it turned out - 1800 cals!) lunch on Sunday - but I didn't feel guilty at all. And that feeling is lovely - no guilt. But what I have noticed, is that the act of writing my food down, is making me much more mindful of what I eat. I am not eating mindlessly. I've had chocolate, wine, freshly squeezed juices (I have a juicer now and LOVE IT!), SW style meals, shop packaged sandwiches if I'm out and about. It all seems to have worked very well so far.
Anyway, that was a week ago (I started last Thursday) - so tomorrow morning I will weigh in. I feel better either way. I am much more relaxed about my food - I am eating healthily (for the most part) - it is not a million miles away from SW - like I say, when I cook meals, they adhere to an EE SW day. I think I have eaten considerably less though over the past week than I would normally.
One example of how this has worked well for me: last Thursday, I felt quite hungry after work, but was watching the lad play cricket so not going straight home. I bought a hoisin duck wrap, a Lindt egg and a malteser bunny. Immediately I had that sinking feeling of 'oh **** it, I've screwed this up'. Normally at this juncture it just opens the floodgates for appalling eating - I'd have headed for the bread and butter at home- plus fillings if I'd had any in for example. But I made a point of totting up the calories, and realised that actually the days calories were still around 1850. So I figured, actually that's not so bad - the day is not a complete loss after all. And in turning that thinking around, didn't go home and stuff my face. May not seem like a huge deal to some, but believe me, that is possibly the most sensible thought trail I've had regarding food in a long, long time.
I have also been making a real effort around the home, at keeping it neat, clean and tidy. OK, with a 10 year old boy it will never be immaculate, but it has vastly improved, and I feel happier being at home. I have not been turning the TV on automatically unless there is something specific that I want to watch. Instead I've been reading a bit more, which I've really enjoyed. It is only one week in, I feel like I may have lost a couple of pounds, but I feel much better already, definitely more relaxed. I'd be happy to lose a lb a week perhaps as I settle into this. But for now, I just want to get into the habit of recording my food, and being mindful of the calorie content against the choices I make, rather than denying myself anything. I will form that habit first, if I can lose some weight in the process then great. If not, I will then start consciously looking at those calories and how I can reduce/improve them to help shift some weight.
My exercise has not been great - just the usual walking around work. Just under an hour on work days. About an hour on homeworking days, walking the lad to school and back. I am feeling a bit more energetic though, so I am sure that I will get my act together there soon enough. My ankle is still painful and very weak since I badly turned it 5 months ago, but I'm feeling the desire to get running again. I may start my C25K again and incorporate all the exercises afterwards that my physio gave me. Play it by ear.
I hope having said all the above, I am still able to post under this thread, as my journey over the past couple of years is all recorded here. As I say, when I make a meal, it adheres to SW - and I suppose were I to list my food, it would pretty much be EE really. Tonight for example, I had beef stew with curly kale. Completely SW friendly.
I hope those who still read this diary are well anyway. I know you have seen so many ups and downs from me - and unfortunately my food habits are intrinsically linked with my mental state. It has been a very difficult year or so, but one thing I will never do is give up. An awful lot of bouncing back and falling off, but keep bouncing I will!
Thanks for reading xx
It's been a while since I posted properly, so a quick catch up on where I'm at.
My weight is back to horrific unfortunately - heavier than when I originally started SW over two years ago.
As you know my psychiatrist chappy suggested I calorie count, aiming for 1500 cals a day. However, whilst it was fantastic when I stuck to it, I just didn't stick to it for more than a few days at a time. A week or so back I had a session with my CBT therapist (oh don't I sound a joy!). We agreed that where my weight was concerned something seemed to be blocking the way to success. I had also recently come to the conclusion that I subconsciously put on weight, in order to create a barrier between me and men - i.e. I'm trying to make myself less attractive. Anyhoo, as an upshot, there were quite a few tears at that session, but we are starting to look at addressing my various issues around food etc etc etc - stuff I won't bore you all with.
Coming away from that session though, I did feel a bit differently about things. I had got so fed up with thinking about food, worrying about it, feeling in denial all the time etc etc. However, I also know that when I try to just eat 'normally' I end up eating horrendous amounts. So I decided, that for now, I am going to take all stress off myself (as it wasn't actually achieving anything anyway) and not deny myself anything at all. The only thing I wanted to strictly adhere to, was to keep track of everything I eat and monitor calories. I am doing this via MyFitnessPal. As I say, if I want something I will have it. I took my Mum for a lovely (and highly calorific it turned out - 1800 cals!) lunch on Sunday - but I didn't feel guilty at all. And that feeling is lovely - no guilt. But what I have noticed, is that the act of writing my food down, is making me much more mindful of what I eat. I am not eating mindlessly. I've had chocolate, wine, freshly squeezed juices (I have a juicer now and LOVE IT!), SW style meals, shop packaged sandwiches if I'm out and about. It all seems to have worked very well so far.
Anyway, that was a week ago (I started last Thursday) - so tomorrow morning I will weigh in. I feel better either way. I am much more relaxed about my food - I am eating healthily (for the most part) - it is not a million miles away from SW - like I say, when I cook meals, they adhere to an EE SW day. I think I have eaten considerably less though over the past week than I would normally.
One example of how this has worked well for me: last Thursday, I felt quite hungry after work, but was watching the lad play cricket so not going straight home. I bought a hoisin duck wrap, a Lindt egg and a malteser bunny. Immediately I had that sinking feeling of 'oh **** it, I've screwed this up'. Normally at this juncture it just opens the floodgates for appalling eating - I'd have headed for the bread and butter at home- plus fillings if I'd had any in for example. But I made a point of totting up the calories, and realised that actually the days calories were still around 1850. So I figured, actually that's not so bad - the day is not a complete loss after all. And in turning that thinking around, didn't go home and stuff my face. May not seem like a huge deal to some, but believe me, that is possibly the most sensible thought trail I've had regarding food in a long, long time.
I have also been making a real effort around the home, at keeping it neat, clean and tidy. OK, with a 10 year old boy it will never be immaculate, but it has vastly improved, and I feel happier being at home. I have not been turning the TV on automatically unless there is something specific that I want to watch. Instead I've been reading a bit more, which I've really enjoyed. It is only one week in, I feel like I may have lost a couple of pounds, but I feel much better already, definitely more relaxed. I'd be happy to lose a lb a week perhaps as I settle into this. But for now, I just want to get into the habit of recording my food, and being mindful of the calorie content against the choices I make, rather than denying myself anything. I will form that habit first, if I can lose some weight in the process then great. If not, I will then start consciously looking at those calories and how I can reduce/improve them to help shift some weight.
My exercise has not been great - just the usual walking around work. Just under an hour on work days. About an hour on homeworking days, walking the lad to school and back. I am feeling a bit more energetic though, so I am sure that I will get my act together there soon enough. My ankle is still painful and very weak since I badly turned it 5 months ago, but I'm feeling the desire to get running again. I may start my C25K again and incorporate all the exercises afterwards that my physio gave me. Play it by ear.
I hope having said all the above, I am still able to post under this thread, as my journey over the past couple of years is all recorded here. As I say, when I make a meal, it adheres to SW - and I suppose were I to list my food, it would pretty much be EE really. Tonight for example, I had beef stew with curly kale. Completely SW friendly.
I hope those who still read this diary are well anyway. I know you have seen so many ups and downs from me - and unfortunately my food habits are intrinsically linked with my mental state. It has been a very difficult year or so, but one thing I will never do is give up. An awful lot of bouncing back and falling off, but keep bouncing I will!
Thanks for reading xx
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Pommette
Trying - very!
Chica - just when you start posting again I'm beggaring off to the UK for a week!
Keep posting, keep talking to us and above all keep bouncing :8855:
"There is no such thing as failure - only feedback" Although I prefer to say learning life's lessons.
You might have a few little detours en route but you can get to the end of it, even if slowly.
((( Big Hugs )))
Keep posting, keep talking to us and above all keep bouncing :8855:
"There is no such thing as failure - only feedback" Although I prefer to say learning life's lessons.
You might have a few little detours en route but you can get to the end of it, even if slowly.
((( Big Hugs )))
Pinkie1973
Starting over again......
Thank you Bev. And have a good trip (wrap up warm!).
Well a pleasant surprise this morning. Last Thurs am I weighed in at 17st 3.75lbs (new digital scales). Today I was 16st 12.25lbs. Which I make to be a 5.5lbs loss. Not bad at all when you consider what I set out to do. Therefore I shall continue as I have been.
For the record my cals over past week have been (just to prove I haven't been trying to intentionally reduce calories):
Thurs - 1980
Fri - 1886
Sat - 1812
Sun - 2781
Mon - 2084
Tues - 2536
Weds - 1722
Some higher numbers there from Sunday onwards. Tues eve was because I felt ravenous once I'd got home - had been at an Expo all day which was good (interesting) but hard in the sense there was so much small talk with strangers which isn't really my bag. Though bizarrely, I sat down at lunch next to a guy who used to ride motorbikes. So that was very interesting, I felt quite in awe to be honest!
Today is a regular office day for me in London (Coventry yesterday). Food is prepared, and tonight will have to be a sandwich or something whilst the lad is at indoor nets. I don't want to start eating at nearly nine at night.
Oh and Millwall made it through to the semi finals of the FA Cup last night. Wembley seems to be our second home these days! Huzzah!
Well a pleasant surprise this morning. Last Thurs am I weighed in at 17st 3.75lbs (new digital scales). Today I was 16st 12.25lbs. Which I make to be a 5.5lbs loss. Not bad at all when you consider what I set out to do. Therefore I shall continue as I have been.
For the record my cals over past week have been (just to prove I haven't been trying to intentionally reduce calories):
Thurs - 1980
Fri - 1886
Sat - 1812
Sun - 2781
Mon - 2084
Tues - 2536
Weds - 1722
Some higher numbers there from Sunday onwards. Tues eve was because I felt ravenous once I'd got home - had been at an Expo all day which was good (interesting) but hard in the sense there was so much small talk with strangers which isn't really my bag. Though bizarrely, I sat down at lunch next to a guy who used to ride motorbikes. So that was very interesting, I felt quite in awe to be honest!
Today is a regular office day for me in London (Coventry yesterday). Food is prepared, and tonight will have to be a sandwich or something whilst the lad is at indoor nets. I don't want to start eating at nearly nine at night.
Oh and Millwall made it through to the semi finals of the FA Cup last night. Wembley seems to be our second home these days! Huzzah!
Pinkie1973
Starting over again......
Excellent post Pinkie, and so glad that you have found something that suits your needs, and let's be fair, that is an excellent loss!
Whilst Bev is in the UK, I will keep an eye on you, so, please keep posting, or I will have nothing to keep my eye on
Do you know that is so sweet it has brought a tear to my eye. Thank you Lynne x
