JanD's Maintenance Diary. Week 15 onwards

[kered]

Thank you Jan, very wise words indeed.

I have altered my date to stop smoking due to the fact I am taking the Champix tablets, prescribed from the Doctor. This is my day 8 of the tablets, and it states to give up on any day between day 8-14, so as I am on the first date and dont feel 100% just ready yet, I have decided the new and definite final date will be on Thursday.

 

[JanD]

I haven't heard of those tablets Mary .... what do they do?

But HaHa .... VERY appropriate to give up on bonfire night!! I love it! Go out, find a bonfire and throw on it ALL your smoking paraphernalia. I chucked everything, fags, lighters, matches ... except 1 ash tray and I only kept that because I'd got it on my honeymoon. It gets used when anyone who comes to the house smokes - but only outside the back door - it's not allowed in the house! (BTW - I know you don't need telling but just in case anyone thinks I was suggesting it - of course you wouldn't throw lighters on a bonfire!!)
I'll be away but I'll be thinking of you on Thursday! xx

 

[JanD]

Saturday 31st October

Confession - 4 squares of wholenut before I left work.

Breakie - maintenance choc whip

Bed all day.

Tea - have come to my son's to dog-sit - have brought with me a big salad and a piece of River Cobbler - recommended by Mary.

I've also brought a maintenance summer fruits drink for my breakfast in the morning. Between those 2 meals though there WILL be some wine imbibed xx

 

[summergurl]

Wiiiinnnneee :drool:

 

[Scotsmist]

Well it’s not fair to you guys who took the trouble to reply to me NOT to try again …. So here goes … hope I can remember all I said ..

Thank you sooo much, I wonder what I did before I came on here?? Oh yeah – that’s right regained everything I’d lost and more besides!

You really are sooo helpful – far more than just a wee bit I assure you!

I don’t know what set this off – it may well have been that disappointing weigh-in. I don’t think I do what you described Iris – though I may ‘start’ the day before an event – well you’ve ‘made it’ then.

‘Dave’ wouldn’t dare argue with me when I’m ‘serious’ about chocolate. This goes back to the days when – about once every 4-6months PMT would visit me in the form of a MASSIVE chocolate fest. Putting what we had between us the other night totally in the shadows AND I wouldn’t have shared it. Just to add insult to injury he would have to go out and get it too, coz I couldn’t be seen buying it now could I??!!

I really am coming to the conclusion that I’ll never be a sensible eater. I’ll always be a yoyo-er. Maybe the best I can hope for is that I can limit the seesaw to between 2 and 5 lbs for example – instead of 2 & 5 stones! I don’t seem to be able to find a balance – not yet anyway. Although I DO eat reasonably well MOST of the time. I think …?

I didn’t stop last night either … I had a big thick piece of white bread with clover (sorry Tan ) at about 5am, a piece of white toast at Mum’s – again with clover. When I got home (about 11am) I had 2 weetabix, blueberries, splenda & skimmed milk, a toffee waffle (why the hell did I buy those ruddy things?) 2 x 30g packs of yoghurt coated raisins and I took 3 oatcakes to bed with cheese & branston, houmous and cheese spread on. But it’s okay coz it was low fat cheese spread …. And I did EAT them btw …. Nothing pervy going on don’t worry

However … all that said – I DO feel I’m back in control. I had a nice piece of sole with a big salad for my tea and I’ve got a maintenance bar with me in work.

I’m planning on taking maintenance bars away with me for my breakies. Although the meals don’t HAVE to be HEEEOWGE Tan, the trouble is that often they are buffet style – certainly in Vegas, so you can go back as often as you like and they’re not expensive! In our hotel the Brunch (7am-2pm) is $12.99 (less than £8) and the dinner (4-9pm) is $18.99 (less than £11.50)!!

Brilliant in many ways but you could end up just sitting in there eating all day (well - apart from between 2 & 4pm! ) So DH can go and have a buffet breakie if he wants but I won’t have to watch him – pity you can’t share but you’re not allowed in if you don’t pay first.

I reckon I’ve gained about another 3lbs. In an ideal world I’d be 5lbs lighter than I am now to go away – but that ain’t gonna happen in 3 days so I’ll take whatever I can get. I’ll still be about 3.5st lighter than when we went 2.5 years ago but I’d really like to feel better than I do right now – as in not bloated and stuffed, but in control.

So thanks again guys – you really are great.

****hugs**** & ****kisses**** xx

Hi Jan

You have done so well since maintaining...and like you say up to 5lbs either way is brill!!!! It isnt easy and I defy anyone to say it is. If food has been problematic in your life, then it will take a long while to get to grips with it, and I think yes, generally your food is well balanced and very good!

You are a very clever and balanced (that word again) woman and have no doubts you will get around this....

You know, in the past week I have met so many people who have said they are struggling...not just with food, but with their mood, and being down and depressed. I am convinced it has something to do with the clocks going back and SAD! I really am!!! People that are normally really bubbly, feel they have nothing left in them!....it just makes me wonder....maybe it is our bodies getting used to the change..I know it is only 1 hr, but I know I find it difficult and I hate, absolutely hate the darkness....just another of my daft theories to help me understand..hahaha

Enjoy your break in USA Jan :0

Do hope all went ok re: xray the other day

 

[Scotsmist]

Saturday 31st October

Confession - 4 squares of wholenut before I left work.

Breakie - maintenance choc whip

Bed all day.

Tea - have come to my son's to dog-sit - have brought with me a big salad and a piece of River Cobbler - recommended by Mary.

I've also brought a maintenance summer fruits drink for my breakfast in the morning. Between those 2 meals though there WILL be some wine imbibed xx

ENJOY YOUR WINE!!!!

 

[JanD]

Thanks Iris - I am ... Tan - aren't you having something tonight?

Iris - I don't know about 'clever', I wouldn't say that but I AM always aware of the bigger picture. There are sooo many people in this world who have to live with soooo much worse things than I do. Yes I can get down about things sometimes but I like to think my cup is always half full rather than half empty.

I have had to start using my SAD light since the clocks went back. When I'm doing my nights in the winter I sometimes don't see daylight at all, the light definitely helps.

Thanks for asking about the xrays - I don't have the results of them but the blood test showed no infection but lots of inflamation .... (having great deal of trouble with right elbow/wrist etc at the mo.) ..... as 'Dave' would say ... 'age doesn't come on it's own ... but it's a hell of a lot better than the alternative'.

Chin up Iris - we need you xxxx

 

[summergurl]

I am indeed - healthy homemade curry - LOVELY!!!! fully LOVED it and am guna make it again for me and my lil bro in the week - it was divine!!!!!!! :drool: bf gave me 9.5 out of 10!!!! and he is the worst food critic ever! lol and have had a few vodka and pepsi max's so far :giggle:

 

[JanD]

FAB!!! Glad you're enjoying! xx

 

[kered]

Jan, the tablets help take the craving away. I did use them 2 years ago and they worked really well, but then I was on holiday just 5 weeks after giving up, so it was a bit soon for me and I started smoking again. Thats why I have left it until after this holiday as I wont be going away until June next year.

I never smoke in the house either, I always go outside, but to think of years ago when everyone smoked in their houses, it must have stunk to high heaven lol.

Have a fantastic holiday Jan and hope you enjoyed the wine.

 

[JanD]

Oh that's good, that'll be a big help! Wish they'd had them when I gave up.

Yes I did enjoy the wine thanks .... (and the peanut butter on krispy rolls - and the piece of toast with clover **sigh** ) xx

 

[kered]

Im with Tanya on this one - clover - yeuch.
Give me some lurpak any day

 

[summergurl]

:sigh: clover! lol!!!

 

[JanD]

I like lurpak too ...

Sunday 1st November

Breakie - Maintenance summer fruits drink

lunch - a few small slices of chicken and a pear

Tea - Baked salmon, large salad and extra light salad cream.

Voddies & Coke zero tonight. xxx

See you all sometime on or after 12th! I'll weigh before we leave in the morning but doubt I'll have time to post.

Take care xx

 

[summergurl]

Oh Jan!!!!!!!!!!!!! have a lovely time - although youre gone by now! Hope you fully enjoy yourself! xxxxxxxxxxxx

 

[kered]

Hi Jan, hoping you are having a wonderful time, I am sure you are.

 

[anne-mariep]

hi Jan, you have been maintaining longer than ive been on tfr so you dont know me and im sorry for intruding on your thread but i must say you are truly an inspiration i have read all of your diaries now and the way you are SO honest is lovely it really prepares me for maintaining which ill be doin soon. i wanted to take the time to acknowledge the fact that ive been reading about your success for the last 2 or so months and i think you are incredible.

You not only talk about such healthy foods but also about the munchies which we all dread wen coming back to the 'normal' world of food. You make it seem obtainable and real. you show us that maintaining is a process it doesnt just happen. You have prepared me so much you will never understand how grateful i am for you opening up on this forum. I hope you loved America and are coming back in the right frame of mind.

Dont underestimate how brilliantly you are doing not only with your food but also helping others and yourself by documenting your food life.

I will definitely be taking a leaf from your book and doing a total truth maintainance thread. xxxx Thanks so much!

 

[Scotsmist]

I saw your post on Mary's page..THANKS!!
Just wanted to say hello and missed you.
Hope you had a lovely time in USA and come back all refreshed.
Look forward to catching up with you.

Take care

 

[JanD]

Hi Anne-marie .... what a lovely post - thank you very much. For some reason the 'thanks' button isn't showing on this thread

I sometimes have mixed feelings about 'baring all' - I wonder whether it might be better to just say 'I've lost it' or whatever .... and I have done that now and again. Somehow though 'confessing' to everything makes it seem more real - I can't hide and I have to be accountable.
It's difficult because it seems to me like I'm the only one who pops a bite of cheese or someone's leftover chips or crust off their bread in my mouth. I read what other people have had and it's literally their 3 meals and maybe a snack. I feel inadequate and it would be a lot easier to 'forget' those things, but ultimately I wouldn't be being honest and maybe that's where I've come unstuck in the past - trying to fool myself!!?

So what you see is what you get - I'm glad someone finds it useful anyway!! xx

Had I lovely time thanks Iris - especially San Francisco .. we didn't have long enough. The aged hippie in me really could have spent another week there. I don't know about refreshed .... very jet-lagged at the mo but I have to recover in time for work tomorrow night .... which is a bit backwards when you think about it as I'll be staying up all night ... HaHa xx

I'm sure I've put a shed-load of weight on but I shall be getting back on track tomorrow and hope to do a bit of compensating before wi on Monday. We did do a lot of walking but not enough to make a difference - not the second half of the hol anyway. .... We'll see .... xxx
Lovely to catch up with you all xxx

 

[Scotsmist]

Jan, you wouldnt be you if your posts were so honest and truthful.....like you say, what you see is what you get....your posts have helped a lot of people, me included, so never stop!

Glad you enjoyed San Fran....and I can imagine you are absolutely shattered...I know when I came back from Canada I felt worse when I got back, than I did when I went there. Hopefully you will recover quickly!!!