Minerva's on a mission!!

Morning honey! :D

And can I just say...I wish SnS would hurry up with the cheesy pasta replacement for the Mac N Cheese. lol I really want to try it. (now ive said that I will probably hate it.) ..I asked them when it would be in stock on the live help thingy a couple of days ago and they said "hopefully within 2 weeks". So who knows...
 
Morning all :)

Been avoiding my diary a little ... NOT because I'd been bad or anything - I'm still on plan, no worries... just a lot of stress and there really isn't much to tell. My days, every day consist of: get up, coffee, poodle on internet for an hour or so, then downstairs to the kitchen, start looking at the revision, breakfast, revision, lunch, revision, panic, revision, dinner (or raid), watch something in bed, go to sleep... rinse and repeat.

I'm not feeling "in the zone" with the diet right now though, doing the packs, but I'm forcing it. Been like that for quite a few days now. Maybe the 'week-off' affected me slightly? Showed me I could eat normally and still lose weight? ...

My OH (bless him!!) bought a 500g tub of Total 0% the other day because he knows I like it a lot and knows I refuse other yoghurt!... I felt bad because he bought it for me to make me happy (didn't ask, as I'm SnS'ing and he knows it...), so had that for breakfast these last two days instead of the SnS porridge. 250g of Total is EXACTLY the same calories as a porridge, LESS carbs and DOUBLE the protein, so on that front, the substitution doesn't matter. I didn't add anything to the yog, just sweetner...

But just MEH. It's just stress talking, the stress wants me to feed it junk - but it won't happen :) I know food isn't going to do my studying for me - it'll only WASTE time instead...

Weighed this morning and it's -2lb. Tomorrow's WI day, but I doubt it'll change by then, so I'll take this figure, so i can FINALLY update myself to be in the BMI 30's (one more point to go until Overweight :D :D :D) and to be in the 12st's on the ticker. YAY. I know it's not much, but it's a little bit of a morale boost updating these tickers into the next milestone. :D

Now for the next one... get back in the 11st's... I start to feel slender and good in that range, so it's all downhill from there!! 1 stone to go until I feel good and less fat. :D Yay!

x
 
Hugs honey.

I can't even begin to imagine how hard studying must be. It's been a loooong time since I've done that lol
I have nothing but respect for you for putting so much work in.

I looove total 0% and I do have it sometimes as an extra protein especially on my workout days. Bless your OH for thinking of you and wanting to treat you.

Enjoy your day lovely and well done on the 2lb loss. My favourite number it seems lol (or my body's favourite lol)
 
I havent studied in a very very long time, either. I commend your discipline!! :D

I know exactly what you mean about the packs vs food. The 3rd week I did the diet, I felt really kinda down about it. I had started to not be in the zone either. I kept thinking "what am I putting my body through, just to lose 2lbs a week?! I was doing that when I was low carbing and working out!!" At my height, 2lbs is like nothing...10lbs isnt much! I have to lose more weight for it to be noticeable than people shorter than me. That said, 2lbs of fat is a lot of fat in itself. A LOT. Logically I know that. But yeah, I was annoyed. lol. So i completely see what you mean. For me, now...the diet is more about the control. I have exact boundaries to stay within and I know that I WILL lose weight if I keep on. Im enjoying it right now and I am totally in the zone but Its kinda good that Im off on holiday in a few weeks. I dont know how youve done it for so long, I dont think I could go past about 4 weeks, without a re-feed/break week. I think I may do that when I get back. Have 4 weeks on, 1 week off (but still watching carbs etc....not just a free-for-all!) and then 4 weeks on...and just cycle like that. ive got sooo much to lose....its gonna take a while. lol

Your OH sounds like a sweetheart! Bless him! :D
 
I studied until I was 25 then I was like No more, ever! Lol... And only now, at 33 am I thinking about doing a practice teacher course so I can have social work students.

I have the food demons calling me too, but I know it is always a sugar rush which gives me headaches and makes me really sleepy... Neither of which gets the work done I need to do!

Wohoooo on the BMI, and it is an achievement don't you go belittling it! You worked hard for that and deserve it! I know what you mean about feeling slender, it's around 12stone 7lbs for me...hoping to be there for the ay break! We will see, keep going stong my lovely xxx
 
Hang in there Minerva! All the revision will be worth it in the end, i'm sure the monotony of that routine isn't helping, as the diet is monotonous too. I'm sure you'll get your mojo back in a few days.

Woot, I get to update my ticker too tomorrow, I will start it up now in preparation :)
 
Hey chick, how are you?
 
Hmm.. not feeling great... OH has developed a cyst on his face which is close to erupting.. he had one on his back a few weeks back - it opened and now he has a massive scar there... he has small lumps everywhere, but this one on his face developed very rapidly - within two days it's really big, swollen and hot to the touch... so.. we're worried about permanent scarring, it's some sort of abscess - which won't go away on its own... so we need to source doctors for treatment...

Just now I also received news that one of my classmates on my course passed away. :( I really liked the man, he was so lovely. He was a little older than the average student, around 65, but.. this was unexpected. :(

So... yeah.. difficult day...

:(

OH pushing to have pizza because he's feeling like crap with a massive lump on his face... and I'm trying to resist very, very, very hard... but... emotionally.. I'm a bit drained too.
 
Aw min, so sorry to hear of your trials. Death is never good, but extra hard when so unexpected. Many his family get some peace, Knowing people like yourself care.

Sorry to hear bout your other half too, does your Gp know what to do to help / minimising scarring? I can imagine the stress you are under, thinking of u xxx
 
Sorry to hear the bad news Hun! I hope doctors can figure out what causes those cysts are. You must be so worried.

I'm sorry to hear about your classmate too! It's not been the best of days for you guys!
All I can do is send you lots of positive energy.

As for the pizza. I really don't know what to say. I'm really struggling today myself because I'm poorly so I can't offer any constructive advice I'm afraid :(
Is it really is going to make you feel better?

X
 
Oh love. Im sorry its been a crap day. :( I hope OH can get sorted quickly.

With my MIL situation, Ive been trying to think of how to explain it to Tabby, should MIL pass away and I really am at loss. Death is such a horrible thing. :(

*hugs* I hope you have a much better day tomorrow, honey!
 
Hey Minerva, I'm sorry to hear all your bad news, keep strong, we're here for you (I know a load of faceless internet people aren't quite the same, but better than nothing) x
 
Thanks my lovelies, your support really means so, so, SO much :bighug: ... following some speedy responses by you - I came to my senses and talked OH out of his plan... So I had mushroom pasta packs... the only damage was in having about 350g extra vegetables on top of the allowance! ... I'd call that a success.... still under 900 calories, so ... :)

Bee - a child of 3-4 won't understand death. I didn't. My grandparents, when they told me my mum passed away when I was 4, they said I kept looking for her, no matter how much they said that she was 'no more'. It doesn't compute I guess... not until I got to about 6.

I'll catch up with everyone tomorrow morning, I'm a little emotionally drained right now... :(

By the way Slim - beautiful avatar - I really remember you used something similar back on the LL boards. :) I recognise you!

x
 
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