missemma's 10 stone journey

[MinkyDinky]

Okay don't laugh but I'm on a downer because I feel old. I'm 32, going to be 33 in May & although I have a good job I don't feel like I've achieved much in my life and I feel super old. It really gets me down. All my school friends and Uni friends are engaged, married, have babies & I have none of them! I'm probably putting too much pressure on myself but it really gets me down a lot. I just feel like life is passing me by so quickly.

I understand I now feel like an utter idiot xx

Snap, snap and snaparoo babes. I rent a flat, don't drive and can't afford holidays to top that off I'm 30 this year, the boy is 34 this year too.

But! You have to look at the positives and achievements you do have in life. You went to uni - that's amazing. I'd love to be able to say I was able to have done that. You work in a demanding and highly skilled profession. You can drive!! I've only picked out these 3 things because they are the main achievements you have mentioned on here but I'm pretty sure you can think of more.

The thing is, you have two choices. You either continue to do what you're doing and enjoy and let it go with the flow. Or if you want things to drastically change - pull your finger out and change it. I know it sounds hard but really, it is that simple. It may take planning and it may take time but really, you just gotta do it if you want it.

Otherwise, just take it easy and chill honey. Don't put pressure on yourself and get stressed. And never expect a man to understand, tut tut xx

 

[missemma]

Snap, snap and snaparoo babes. I rent a flat, don't drive and can't afford holidays to top that off I'm 30 this year, the boy is 34 this year too.

But! You have to look at the positives and achievements you do have in life. You went to uni - that's amazing. I'd love to be able to say I was able to have done that. You work in a demanding and highly skilled profession. You can drive!! I've only picked out these 3 things because they are the main achievements you have mentioned on here but I'm pretty sure you can think of more.

The thing is, you have two choices. You either continue to do what you're doing and enjoy and let it go with the flow. Or if you want things to drastically change - pull your finger out and change it. I know it sounds hard but really, it is that simple. It may take planning and it may take time but really, you just gotta do it if you want it.

Otherwise, just take it easy and chill honey. Don't put pressure on yourself and get stressed. And never expect a man to understand, tut tut xx

It's amazing how when I read that it made me feel so much better. Deep down I know that everything you said is true but my hormones sometimes get the better of me. I know that I'm lucky, I live in London, I have a lovely boyfriend, I have a roof over my head but sometimes stupidness gets the better of me. The whole renting a place is another issue, I really want to own my own property but in this day and age I won't ever be able too (I don't think). Life as a grown up is scary!

Thanks though, it really means a lot that you took your time to reply. I love this site for helping me to meet such lovely people as yourself you've helped cheer me up, so thanks again xxxx

 

[MinkyDinky]

It's amazing how when I read that it made me feel so much better. Deep down I know that everything you said is true but my hormones sometimes get the better of me. I know that I'm lucky, I live in London, I have a lovely boyfriend, I have a roof over my head but sometimes stupidness gets the better of me. The whole renting a place is another issue, I really want to own my own property but in this day and age I won't ever be able too (I don't think). Life as a grown up is scary!

Thanks though, it really means a lot that you took your time to reply. I love this site for helping me to meet such lovely people as yourself you've helped cheer me up, so thanks again xxxx

It is super scary as an adult - I like pretending I'm still 19

You aren't alone though with those thoughts/feelings. I get those days when I just feel so useless and behind in 'life' I guess. But then I think of all the positives and look at what I can change rather than what I haven't been able to do yet. Usually thats after 4 days sulking

Keep your chin up and remember we / I'm here if you need to vent xxx

 

[missemma]

It is super scary as an adult - I like pretending I'm still 19

You aren't alone though with those thoughts/feelings. I get those days when I just feel so useless and behind in 'life' I guess. But then I think of all the positives and look at what I can change rather than what I haven't been able to do yet. Usually thats after 4 days sulking

Keep your chin up and remember we / I'm here if you need to vent xxx

I still feel 19 haha! I think that's why I find it hard because I'm actually 32 going on 19!

I do feel better about it now though, it's something that is on my mind a lot though. I'm a silly billy hehe! And thanks, same applies to you of course xx

 

[Charleybarley]

Wow Ladies (MissE and Minks)

I really resonate with what you are saying - I can trump you both on the age thing - I am coming up to 37 in July, I don't not feel it, look it or act it! I can hardly believe I am in my late 30s!!! I am sure we all feel that way at one time or another, you look at other people's lives and think "I want that" - Miss Emma, I want to live in London and I want to have gone to Uni and I want to be a professional, with your career you could work anywhere in the world. Minks, I want your willpower, you fab food ideas and your wicked attitude towards things.

For Me: Yes, I have a mortgage, but I am stuck here and I can't move, because I can't sell - yesterday, on one of the hottest days of the year, I was in layers upon layers of clothing with a blanket over me because my flat faces east and I only get the sun for two hours in the morning - I am so desparate to move, but I can't. I am super bored in my job, but do not know what else I can do, because I can only do this. Most importantly I don't want to be in my late 30's and UNMARRIED (Mick can you f!!king hear this!?).

But, the I look at the big picture, I am happy, I am with a lovely man, we go on nice holidays because our dingy dark cold flat is really cheap. I have a decent job, it may bore me but at least I have a job, and work with nice people... some people have awful jobs. ... Yes I am not married, but I am in a safe, secure relationship, I would rather be like this and be in an unhappy marriage, or be single.

So ladies, we are all entitled to have a downer about what we haven't got, we are women, we are human and that is our right, its all relative.....BUT we must remember what we have got, because ironically we all want something that the other has individually, and it doesn't make US anymore happier/sadder - and the main thing is there are millions of people with lots and lots less than us.

Lets celebrate what we have got eh? I feel a song coming on - Ella Fitzgerald from the Muller Adverts "I got a life, I got a li-ife"

xx

 

[Charleybarley]

Oh by the way Miss Emma, Lisa Doggett (the nurse in St Georges) works in the Caroline Ward, the main thoracic ward on the 3rd floor of Atkinson Morley Wing? Does that ring any bells? I am now totally aware what a massive hospital it is and the chance of you knowing her is slim. x

 

[MinkyDinky]

Oh by the way Miss Emma, Lisa Doggett (the nurse in St Georges) works in the Caroline Ward, the main thoracic ward on the 3rd floor of Atkinson Morley Wing? Does that ring any bells? I am now totally aware what a massive hospital it is and the chance of you knowing her is slim. x

My brother was on Atkinson Morley but that was oooh, nearly 5 years ago for 6 ish months when he had all his heart surgery, a lot of the staff remember him when he pops in because he was such a miracle! Small world... Xx

 

[missemma]

So ladies, we are all entitled to have a downer about what we haven't got, we are women, we are human and that is our right, its all relative.....BUT we must remember what we have got, because ironically we all want something that the other has individually, and it doesn't make US anymore happier/sadder - and the main thing is there are millions of people with lots and lots less than us.

Lets celebrate what we have got eh? I feel a song coming on - Ella Fitzgerald from the Muller Adverts "I got a life, I got a li-ife"

xx

Yes yes yes. Thank you for taking the time to reply. I hate to admit it but I get terrible pmt and my hormones were playing up terribly over the last few days. I agree with everything you have put, I know I should be grateful for what I have and I do feel kinda silly worrying about such small things when I know there are people 10000x worse off than me!

I don't know her I'm afraid although my Grandpa was in Caroline Ward as a patient a year ago! xx

 

[missemma]

I forgot to say, food today:

B: 2 weetabix & 200mls semi skimmed milk with cherries.

L: 1 WM 60g roll, low fat cottage cheese, cherry toms & vanilla fat free yoghurt.

T: no idea tbh. I'm going to the gym after work so will decide when I get home.

I am binning my carton of sweetener when I get home, I bought a new carton of it and I just keep getting headaches I'm sure the two things are related! I think sweetener is meant to be pretty evil too so it's time to say goodbye!

 

[missemma]

Gym done! Goodbye calories.



I missed the bus on the way home so had to walk the 1.5 miles home after! I walked to work too so 3 mile walk on top of the gym. Woo.

Dinner was some chicken slices and gherkins, it was too late for a proper meal. Gonna grab me a hot choc for 2 syns in a minute too.

 

[anju100]

Wow! Well done you!

 

[Charleybarley]

My brother was on Atkinson Morley but that was oooh, nearly 5 years ago for 6 ish months when he had all his heart surgery, a lot of the staff remember him when he pops in because he was such a miracle! Small world... Xx

What a coincidence!! And fantastic news about your bro, that must have been a tough time for you all. How is he doing now? Xx

 

[Charleybarley]

Yes yes yes. Thank you for taking the time to reply. I hate to admit it but I get terrible pmt and my hormones were playing up terribly over the last few days. I agree with everything you have put, I know I should be grateful for what I have and I do feel kinda silly worrying about such small things when I know there are people 10000x worse off than me!

I don't know her I'm afraid although my Grandpa was in Caroline Ward as a patient a year ago! xx

Like I say Miss Emma, we are all entitled to feel blur every now and then. I get PMT too. Woe is me woe is me type of thing. It's all relative, it just hits home that we want better things for ourselves. Ain't nothing wrong with that! Xx

 

[Charleybarley]

Gym done! Goodbye calories.

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I missed the bus on the way home so had to walk the 1.5 miles home after! I walked to work too so 3 mile walk on top of the gym. Woo.

Dinner was some chicken slices and gherkins, it was too late for a proper meal. Gonna grab me a hot choc for 2 syns in a minute too.

Well done you! Fantastic food and exercise day!!! Xx

 

[missemma]

Well done you! Fantastic food and exercise day!!! Xx

Exercise is my enemy as whenever I introduce it into my routine I end up weighing more than the week before. I need to realise that exercise is a good thing and there will come a time when the weight loss picks up again as I do want to carry on at the gym for toning and overall health but it does make me think why bother when the scales creep up during the week. I think I need to stop weighing myself everyday!

 

[anju100]

weighing in everyday can be really bad, but really addictive. I WI every day and then get miserable if the scales dont move! Why are my scales at their lowest on a wednesday morning when my WI is Tuesday evening!!!AAAAHHH!!!
As for exercise, I am really trying to vary things - aquafit, walking or treadmill and Wii Just Dance. Should get my silver body magic today!!

 

[missemma]

weighing in everyday can be really bad, but really addictive. I WI every day and then get miserable if the scales dont move! Why are my scales at their lowest on a wednesday morning when my WI is Tuesday evening!!!AAAAHHH!!!
As for exercise, I am really trying to vary things - aquafit, walking or treadmill and Wii Just Dance. Should get my silver body magic today!!

It is addictive, I've always weighed myself daily, it's a habit and I know ill continue to do it.
My weight really fluctuates a lot for example Friday I weighed 13.9 and Saturday it was 13.5.
Monday I weighed 13.9, today 13.10. I ate all slimming world meals over the weekend, although consumed a lot of alcohol Saturday however I did not consume all my syns last week as saved them for this. Yesterday I burnt off well over 500 cals after all my exercise yet the scales show a gain of a lb. I'm not letting it demotivate me, infact it motivates me to lose more! I know come Saturday it'll be less again.

It's my anniversary tomorrow, my boyfriend has warned me he is surprising me with a posh meal and says there is no healthy option. It's one day, I'm not going to pig out and will be sensible and will try to be as healthy as possible. As its a surprise I can't see the menu in advance. To try and control the damage I am gyming in the morning!

Food today:

2 weetabix & milk & cherries., 2 coffees. HEb & HEa.

Lunch was a tuna salad & yoghurt & water.

Tea is a chicken stirfry!

The weather is glorious today.

 

[missemma]

Gah, anniversary day is coming tomorrow and I have a sore throat! I've just realised I've been so busy at work all day today that I didn't wee once which then made me realise that my body hasn't told me I need to go so I can't have drunk enough. I had 500ml water and 2 coffees which were about 200mls each so in total 900mls fluid. I've just necked a pint of sugar free squash because I don't want to be dehydrated as I know this will put weight on. Might have to treat myself to one last caramel coffee in a minute. Mmm such goodness.

Dinner was a lovely stirfry with chicken, don't you just love the smell of chinese 5 spice? I do, and put lots of that in there, yummers.

 

[anju100]

Have a great anniversary dinner tomorrow. Hope you feel better too xxx

 

[MinkyDinky]

Gah, anniversary day is coming tomorrow and I have a sore throat! I've just realised I've been so busy at work all day today that I didn't wee once which then made me realise that my body hasn't told me I need to go so I can't have drunk enough. I had 500ml water and 2 coffees which were about 200mls each so in total 900mls fluid. I've just necked a pint of sugar free squash because I don't want to be dehydrated as I know this will put weight on. Might have to treat myself to one last caramel coffee in a minute. Mmm such goodness.

Dinner was a lovely stirfry with chicken, don't you just love the smell of chinese 5 spice? I do, and put lots of that in there, yummers.

Oh no! Hope you feel better soon lovely!
Get some juice in ya I've had the caramel today - love. Just had a vanilla - s'ok but not as awesome as caramel. Going to have the hazelnut in the morning. A woman at group has half caramel, half hazelnut and reckons it's amazing so I'll be giving that a crack!

Hope you feel ok to go out for your meal, happy anniversary! Xx