kati
Gold Member
well he's already asked!!!! and it took some courage but I said no. now I'm all shakey
my diary ~ no more CD for me
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well he's already asked!!!! and it took some courage but I said no. now I'm all shakey
Maintainer
** Chief WITCH **
Maintainer is still fascinated at your writing... again you just made me guffaw aloud (much to my office mate's indignation!)
Why are so many people reading your diary? Because you're a great writer!
Did you hear about that secretary in Paris who was fired for writing a blog during her office hours? Who's now got a £250,000 book deal? You never know what's round the corner! (daren't post a link in case it contravenes any rule, but search on internet)
Have you been out shopping for some nice undies yet? Would hate you to lose your trews and not be amazingly dressed beneath!
Well done you for saying "no"...
Why are so many people reading your diary? Because you're a great writer!
Did you hear about that secretary in Paris who was fired for writing a blog during her office hours? Who's now got a £250,000 book deal? You never know what's round the corner! (daren't post a link in case it contravenes any rule, but search on internet)
Have you been out shopping for some nice undies yet? Would hate you to lose your trews and not be amazingly dressed beneath!
Well done you for saying "no"...
Isobel1965
Gold Member
Hun - it was good to see you looking so fab this morning!!
You rock!
You rock!
kati
Gold Member
Thanks ladies. I didn't do so well the rest of the day when he spent all day texting me then came over to get something after work. He went to kiss me and the smell of him was just overwhelming. I always loved how he smells so much 
he kept saying loads of times that I've lost so much weight.
He really didnt take me seriously this morning.
haven't had much at all today. I had a bar when I got to work at 11 and not much to drink so lots of caching up to do. Isobel was wonderful and had a lovely cup of peppermint tea waiting for me to cry into. That was really lovely of you to take so much time with me ths morning, thankyou I woulnt have even mentioned any of that to my first cdc.
Now i need to severely reprimand myself for being so weak and I need to force down some packs.
Maintainer I've never heard of that secretary, but 'm going to have too et you to point ut the funny bits to me just so I know what I'm doing right lol
he kept saying loads of times that I've lost so much weight.
He really didnt take me seriously this morning.
haven't had much at all today. I had a bar when I got to work at 11 and not much to drink so lots of caching up to do. Isobel was wonderful and had a lovely cup of peppermint tea waiting for me to cry into. That was really lovely of you to take so much time with me ths morning, thankyou
I woulnt have even mentioned any of that to my first cdc.Now i need to severely reprimand myself for being so weak and I need to force down some packs.
Maintainer I've never heard of that secretary, but 'm going to have too et you to point ut the funny bits to me just so I know what I'm doing right lol
Isobel1965
Gold Member
Hey hun - he's your poisonous drug, remember! Intoxicating and wonderful yet fatal!
I know you want him but he's playing cat and mouse, babes.
Don't give him the satisfaction of succumbing to his charms.
What's happened to Chocolate Box Man? Did you see him today?
I know you want him but he's playing cat and mouse, babes.
Don't give him the satisfaction of succumbing to his charms.
What's happened to Chocolate Box Man? Did you see him today?
kati
Gold Member
oh I forgot the drug thing, I can resist till hes there in front of me. Must stay away! hmm theres a sugababes song that has something to do with this kind of thing in it somewhere. think I'll find the lyrics of it to remind me.
Chocolate box man didn't come in today. He's probably too embarrassed to come back
Chocolate box man didn't come in today. He's probably too embarrassed to come back
kati
Gold Member
this is the bit of the song I was thinking of
Though I bruise easy with you boy
I know you still got the power to hurt me
So
Stay out of my way now
Till loves gone, gone
So I can move on
If you want to know the rest of the song its this:
SUGABABES
"Bruised"
Da na da na da na da na da na da na da na na
Da na da na da na da na da na da na da na na
Loves, not how it used to be
And the passion that made me strong
Is clearly breaking me
I scream you shout you're my favourite enemy
I wanna hurt you like you're hurting me
Up down your moods swing with more extremity
This heartache won't go away
I bruise when you get close
Feel my body choke
Bitter last blows
In the war with you
When you get close
Feel my body choke
So the pain grows
In the war with you
Da na da na da na (in the war with you)
Da na da na da na na
You're chasing I'm running
The weapons keep coming
Don't do it I'll lose it
I'm seeing red
I'm on low resistance
You better keep your distance
Before you do something you might regret
I scream you shout you're my favourite enemy
I wanna hurt you like you hurting me
Up down your words come with more intensity
This heartache wont go away
I bruise when you get close
Feel my body choke
Bitter last blows
In the war with you
When you get close
Feel my body choke
So the pain grows
In the war with you
Da na da na da na (in the war with you)
Da na da na da na (in the war with you)
Da na da na da na (in the war with you)
Da na da na da na na na
Though I bruise easy with you boy
I know you still got the power to hurt me
So
Stay out of my way now
Till loves gone, gone
So I can move on
I bruise when you get close
Feel my body choke
Bitter last blows
In the war with you
When you get close
Feel my body choke
So the pain grows
In the war with you
Still fighting in the war with you
Don't try and end the war with you
Still fighting in the war with you
Don't try and end the war with you
probably more than necessary but you never know someone mght be interested.
Actually it's hard listening to that cd now because the whole thing reminds me of him
I certainly dont think he's learnt his lesson from getting caught though. He will do that over and over again
Though I bruise easy with you boy
I know you still got the power to hurt me
So
Stay out of my way now
Till loves gone, gone
So I can move on
If you want to know the rest of the song its this:
SUGABABES
"Bruised"
Da na da na da na da na da na da na da na na
Da na da na da na da na da na da na da na na
Loves, not how it used to be
And the passion that made me strong
Is clearly breaking me
I scream you shout you're my favourite enemy
I wanna hurt you like you're hurting me
Up down your moods swing with more extremity
This heartache won't go away
I bruise when you get close
Feel my body choke
Bitter last blows
In the war with you
When you get close
Feel my body choke
So the pain grows
In the war with you
Da na da na da na (in the war with you)
Da na da na da na na
You're chasing I'm running
The weapons keep coming
Don't do it I'll lose it
I'm seeing red
I'm on low resistance
You better keep your distance
Before you do something you might regret
I scream you shout you're my favourite enemy
I wanna hurt you like you hurting me
Up down your words come with more intensity
This heartache wont go away
I bruise when you get close
Feel my body choke
Bitter last blows
In the war with you
When you get close
Feel my body choke
So the pain grows
In the war with you
Da na da na da na (in the war with you)
Da na da na da na (in the war with you)
Da na da na da na (in the war with you)
Da na da na da na na na
Though I bruise easy with you boy
I know you still got the power to hurt me
So
Stay out of my way now
Till loves gone, gone
So I can move on
I bruise when you get close
Feel my body choke
Bitter last blows
In the war with you
When you get close
Feel my body choke
So the pain grows
In the war with you
Still fighting in the war with you
Don't try and end the war with you
Still fighting in the war with you
Don't try and end the war with you
probably more than necessary but you never know someone mght be interested.
Actually it's hard listening to that cd now because the whole thing reminds me of him
I certainly dont think he's learnt his lesson from getting caught though. He will do that over and over again
Isobel1965
Gold Member
You make sure you read those lyrics to yourself over and over again, hun - they tell the truth!!
And yes, I think you're right, he probably would do it again just because you've given him permission to stomp all over your heart. You know that already.
Poor CBM - I like him!!
And yes, I think you're right, he probably would do it again just because you've given him permission to stomp all over your heart. You know that already.
Poor CBM - I like him!!
kati
Gold Member
I have given him permission to stomp all over my heart just by letting him have that power over me. I'm probably going to have another night with no sleep again I'm going to have dark circles under my eyes that cover my whole face soon!
CNM should have bought me flowers not chocolates, can he not see i'm losing weight? Mayeb he thought I need fattening up again
CNM should have bought me flowers not chocolates, can he not see i'm losing weight? Mayeb he thought I need fattening up again
Isobel1965
Gold Member
Then take the permission back, hun. He has no right to affect your life so badly, if he's not putting anything good into it.
Ask CBM for diamonds next time!!!!
Ask CBM for diamonds next time!!!!
kati
Gold Member
you know I thnk today with him was all about him seeing if he could get one over on me. Or if he could just get me to do what he wanted rather than what I wanted. I think he is being controlling over me, which he has been all along without being obvious about it. He knew he coudn't wait too long or it wouldn't work, and too soon wouldn't work either.
I am in love with the man I want him to be, not the man that he is. Always remind me of that whenever I forget. Also remind me there are millions of mechanics out there lol so I dont need him to personally work on my car lol. Plus, all these other mechanics aren't going to get oil on my bedclothes!!! (If they do then theres something weird going on)
speaking of oil....
I remembered to look for bio oil again today and managed to find some. I just had a bath then put some on so now I'm all oily. I hope it does something. Might take a picture of my scar and see if it looks any different after a while. I'm hoping it'll do something about the stretchmarks on my belly too but I doubt it, theres loads of them. I'm envious of anyone who can have a baby and not get them, even more envious of anyone who has twins with no stretch marks. mine go up past my belly button! at least theyre skin coloured now not red like they were before I lost any weight.
still got 2 packs to go and lots of water. Isobel suggested having 4 packs for a couple of days since I've been missing some so that makes 3 really. eek! its already after 8 pm and I'm so not hungry or thirsty. I'll force it. I'll make crisps I think, and maybe a mousse (or maybe not) hmm think I'm going to hae to do them as drinks not soups.
I am in love with the man I want him to be, not the man that he is. Always remind me of that whenever I forget. Also remind me there are millions of mechanics out there lol so I dont need him to personally work on my car lol. Plus, all these other mechanics aren't going to get oil on my bedclothes!!! (If they do then theres something weird going on)
speaking of oil....
I remembered to look for bio oil again today and managed to find some. I just had a bath then put some on so now I'm all oily. I hope it does something. Might take a picture of my scar and see if it looks any different after a while. I'm hoping it'll do something about the stretchmarks on my belly too but I doubt it, theres loads of them. I'm envious of anyone who can have a baby and not get them, even more envious of anyone who has twins with no stretch marks. mine go up past my belly button! at least theyre skin coloured now not red like they were before I lost any weight.
still got 2 packs to go and lots of water. Isobel suggested having 4 packs for a couple of days since I've been missing some so that makes 3 really. eek! its already after 8 pm and I'm so not hungry or thirsty. I'll force it. I'll make crisps I think, and maybe a mousse (or maybe not) hmm think I'm going to hae to do them as drinks not soups.
kati
Gold Member
oooh oooh oooh I forgot to tell you the most important thing of the day
My son was sitting watching the simpsons this morning while I was getting ready. I was standing in front of the fireplace which is next to the tv and he said to me "mam you've got something round your waist" so I looked couldn't see anything so i lifted my top up a bit and he said "oh its your trousers falling down, that makes you look thin mam"
I of course beamed lol
My son was sitting watching the simpsons this morning while I was getting ready. I was standing in front of the fireplace which is next to the tv and he said to me "mam you've got something round your waist" so I looked couldn't see anything so i lifted my top up a bit and he said "oh its your trousers falling down, that makes you look thin mam"
I of course beamed lol
kati
Gold Member
I'm soo tired I wish my eldest son would hurry up and finish his homework so we can go to bed (hes nly 12 can't just leave him to sit up and do what he wants all night.
will someone please hit me over the head with something heavy so I cn get a good nights sleep?
I'm so bloated I've literally just forced down 2 packs and a pint of water all in one go (not all in the same mouthful I hasten to add I did have them one at a time) so ive got a full belly, full bladder, tired head, tired heart and a need for my bed. hopefully the cat wont try and sleep on my head tonight like she has beendoing lately, it's rather annoying having her purring in my ear and hiting me in the face with her paw every so often.
will someone please hit me over the head with something heavy so I cn get a good nights sleep?
I'm so bloated I've literally just forced down 2 packs and a pint of water all in one go (not all in the same mouthful I hasten to add I did have them one at a time) so ive got a full belly, full bladder, tired head, tired heart and a need for my bed. hopefully the cat wont try and sleep on my head tonight like she has beendoing lately, it's rather annoying having her purring in my ear and hiting me in the face with her paw every so often.
happygal
Banned
Aww Pet!! Poor you. I can send some of my sleepiness and then that will help you but unfortunately it dosent transfer electronically and you know what royal mail is like!! lol
Why dont you start reading a book and maybe that will help you drop off to sleep. Sorry if that dosent help.
Why dont you start reading a book and maybe that will help you drop off to sleep. Sorry if that dosent help.
KateF
Silver Member
Well done on the four pounds and general thinness!
Thought bloke would be asking you back soon- good- cos it'll be a good test. Your realisation about being in love with who you wanted him to be rather than who he actually is sounds like a good one.
Wishing you a good sleep and sweet dreams of lovely men bringing you whatever you want
Kate x
Thought bloke would be asking you back soon- good- cos it'll be a good test. Your realisation about being in love with who you wanted him to be rather than who he actually is sounds like a good one.
Wishing you a good sleep and sweet dreams of lovely men bringing you whatever you want
Kate x
kati
Gold Member
Thankss ladies I did have a good sleep and don't remember any dreams apart from one about one going into the big brother house which was weird dont know where that came from.
still 11 stone 7 today. Must be back to sticky time. I would absolutely love to lose another 4lbs by next monday and then another 4lbs the week after so I'd be in the 10's. in reality it'll more likely be 3 weeks at least till I get there. Oh well its still in reach. my bmi gets to 25 at 10 stone 1 which if I lose 3lbs a week is 7 weeks away. 7 weeks??? that seems ages away oh well, I've got 5 weeks of this behind me another 7 isn't a problem. Anyway I can't stop there, got another stone to go after that at least, maybe a stone and a half. I would love to be in the 8's. 7 weeks is the 1st week in december so I'll be at least on the next step and eating in time for christmas. once I get off ss I'll get back to the gym and start toning up as well as losing weight. It'll be good for me. I'll probably still look at all the skinny women and feel dead jealous of then forgetting that I'll be like that too (well wont be skinny but wont be overweight yay)
i updated my losses on the bonfire night challenge yesterday and saw I lost 2lbs then 3 then 4 so I'm at least due to lose 5 next week lol (I wish) anyway, I'm on target for that so only need to lose 5lbs to get my 1 stone goal. I can do that in 2 weeks cant I?
I did have a good sleep and don't remember any dreams apart from one about one going into the big brother house which was weird dont know where that came from.still 11 stone 7 today. Must be back to sticky time. I would absolutely love to lose another 4lbs by next monday and then another 4lbs the week after so I'd be in the 10's. in reality it'll more likely be 3 weeks at least till I get there. Oh well its still in reach. my bmi gets to 25 at 10 stone 1 which if I lose 3lbs a week is 7 weeks away. 7 weeks??? that seems ages away
oh well, I've got 5 weeks of this behind me another 7 isn't a problem. Anyway I can't stop there, got another stone to go after that at least, maybe a stone and a half. I would love to be in the 8's. 7 weeks is the 1st week in december so I'll be at least on the next step and eating in time for christmas. once I get off ss I'll get back to the gym and start toning up as well as losing weight. It'll be good for me. I'll probably still look at all the skinny women and feel dead jealous of then forgetting that I'll be like that too (well wont be skinny but wont be overweight yay)i updated my losses on the bonfire night challenge yesterday and saw I lost 2lbs then 3 then 4 so I'm at least due to lose 5 next week lol (I wish) anyway, I'm on target for that so only need to lose 5lbs to get my 1 stone goal. I can do that in 2 weeks cant I?
kati
Gold Member
oh i forgot to say.... in my fed up state last night i ended up agreeing to go out on a date on thursday night urgh. Not with the 3 women at a time bloke, this is with someone who has been asking me out for 3 1/2 years! some people just don't take a hint do they? but I ended up thinking sod it I'll go out and it might shut him up for a bit. but I think it's the wrong thing to do cos it's leading him on a bit when I know he's not going to be right for me. Specially when he's been waiting for soo long for me to agree to it
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