Pretty little blue Pill!!!- the fight to the end!!!!!

[Kes]

Oh my goodness, I feel so stressed today.

My boss is now hounding me to find out when. My interview with Slimming world is going to be. I DON'T BLOOMING KNOW!
So I now have to chat to them about it....

Oh its rightly frustrating, and the worst part was my dad boss turned around and said well your not as stressed as what my mum boss is... HOW THE HELL DO YOU KNOW IF I'M NOT AS STRESSED AS HER!. Aaaarrrrrrggggghhhhhh..

Sorry. Lol

Food yesterday was okish
Had a couple of naughty things, and I've changed my calorie allowance to according to my bmr... so I have changed that ion mfp and I'm doing well to stick roughly to that...

I hope today will be a good day.

 

[Kes]

well i still feel like my world is coming crashing down on me, and im def wearing my problems on my shoulders as i am soooooooooo tense!!!!

ive really got to do something about my stress eating..
need to re focus, on dealing with that, and ill be home and dry.... (and skinny too!!)

 

[Kes]

Yes my world (well the one I had hoped for) has come crashing down....

The group where I live is going to be taken over by someone else, and to be honest I'm gutted...
Peeved that my boss didnt tell ne before hand (just a week earlier could have been what it could have taken to get me the group) when they could have, and all this wouldn't be happening!

 

[KittyBling]

((((HUGS)))) from me, that's too bad, I know how much you wanted it. But if it wasn't meant for you then there is something else bigger and better out there for you, you have to believe that. Chin up!

KB xx

 

[x Nee x]

I agree with Kitty, it is awful but im sure there is a reason behind it

xxxxx

 

[Alex_1978]

(((hugs))) from me too Kes....I know it won't feel like much reassurance at the moment, but I like to believe that what's meant for us, won't go past us... I'm sure that you WILL make a fantastic PT and SW leader - the only question is when.
You have so much determination in whatever you set out to do, so I know that you will acheive your goal. It's just so difficult when you build yourself up, only to have your dreams shattered, but you won't feel like this forever.
Take care lovely lady

 

[Kes]

Nawwww thanks everyone...
I'm not going to give up, and I'm gonna still work hard and achieve what I've set out for....

I've got a gym interview tonight and I am bricking it! Arrrrgggghhhh. I'm so nervous... but on a flip side I've been pretty good with cals today.. just what I have eaten hasn't been healthy LOL....

I'm going to go tomorrow night and force myself to have a good time.. have an outfit from next coming so looking forward to that.....

Wish me luck for thnight....

 

[KittyBling]

Good luck! And have a great weekend,

KB xx

 

[Kes]

The interview went ok, it was just a friendly kinda chat thing to tell me what it is and what I would be doing..
Down side is its casual.... booooooooo so just gonna see what they can cone up with really and go from there ....

Focus now on being goodish tonight while out for my friends birthday and then drinks after, and then focus on getting my stress eating under control and also my Slimming world interview in Tuesday... Eeekkk

One thing, with being away. I really miss my husband and he misses me. So I can honestly say finally we are in a good space! I love it. And I love him....

Also my friend just brought out the pringles.... and I just ate an Apple instead... woop woop go me lol

 

[x Nee x]

The interview went ok, it was just a friendly kinda chat thing to tell me what it is and what I would be doing..
Down side is its casual.... booooooooo so just gonna see what they can cone up with really and go from there ....

Focus now on being goodish tonight while out for my friends birthday and then drinks after, and then focus on getting my stress eating under control and also my Slimming world interview in Tuesday... Eeekkk

One thing, with being away. I really miss my husband and he misses me. So I can honestly say finally we are in a good space! I love it. And I love him....

Also my friend just brought out the pringles.... and I just ate an Apple instead... woop woop go me lol

Casual can work out great sometimes, gives you alot of flexibility, so dont rule it out just for that, it may work fab for you, and then again it might not

Well done on the apple instead of pringles I would have struggled hee hee

Thats great to hear that your in a good place with OH so pleased for you

xxxx

 

[bunny_hops]

So pleased for you Kes, you sound so much more positive and bright!..well done on passing on the pringles!

Casual work, can work out sometimes, it gives you a foot in the door, and sometimes thats all you need, you never know what can happen!

Lou x

 

[Kes]

Casual work can be great I don't doubt that at all, but when you need an income coming in or you will lose the house you live in... kinda puts me off it some what..

Had a good night on sat night, drank loads though, but didn't feel drunk at all...
But man my feet hurt, and I was ( still am) tired. I had a sleep Sunday afternoon when I got back, and then went for a jog, which was great. I had a beef barrito (can't spell) for dinner which only had a little cheese melted on top, and some rice... so food wise I was happy with

Today im back at it, tablets... and had a good day so far... and I have my Slimming world weigh in tonight, so expecting a gain.. hopefully not a big one, but not going to get up set about it if I do...

I went to the gym again this morning and now my back is hurting. Which means I've done something to it... just wish it would go away ..

But I did jog for 13 mins... very chuffed with my self!

 

[bunny_hops]

well done hun, seems like your getting back in the zone!

have you got some deep heat or a heat wrap you could put on your back? i hate having a bad back, it really gets in the way of things..

good luck for tonight hun!

Lou xx

 

[Alex_1978]

Good luck with the Weigh in Kes - keeping my fingers crossed for you that it isn't a gain, but it sounds like you're in the right frame of mind to tackle it if it is.
Sounds like you had a good night on Saturday - sometimes it does us good to let off some steam when things aren't exactly going smoothly elsewhere in life!

xx

 

[KittyBling]

Hope the weigh in went well.

KB x

 

[bunny_hops]

Morning Kes, how did you do hun?

Lou xx

 

[Kes]

Well I lost half a pound... so I'm chuffed to bits. And I hope that it doesn't cone to bite me on the butt next week. But I won't be having my book looked through from my potential new job next week..
I'm just glad I have a loss to show for for last week as that's gonna be the last thing they see...

I'm here now waiting for my interview... and Im just slightly scared.... interviews scare me. And seriously I get nervous and my mind goes blank!

But ill let you all know what happens... aaaarrrrrrggggghhhhhh

 

[KittyBling]

Good luck, you can do it!

KB x

 

[Kes]

well just have to play the waiting game, i just hope that things are going to turn out... if it doesnt, then i will have to think about something else... fingers are crossed still though

 

[bunny_hops]

Keeping everything crossed for you hun!! well done on the loss to hun!