Hey guys, sorry I've been missing in action
Things got tough... I split up with my other half, and I went to Australia with the intention of sorting my life there to move and get on with my life
But I missed him... I realised that I couldn't live my life without him... Which took me by surprise...
We talked loads when I got back, and he does want children just not now. So I have decided to wait... I love him and I really don't feel like I could leave him..
I've had an emotional few months, and lost my way...
I had to go back to Australia last week as my nanna passed away, so I went back for the funeral.
Weight gain central here at the life of kes. So I feel like rubbish..
But I got back on the wagon today, and started with the ripped in 30 week one.... Tough and def a step up from the 30 day shred, and I hope that I can get through the whole 4 weeks of it..
I've also got to fit into a dress for the other halls awards night in jan. currently it doesn't do up, and Its extremely tight so I want to fit into this. I need to work hard and I am sure I will get there.
I'm going to have shakes and meals ( back to how I started really) but instead of the slim fast shakes I had I will be using up the Cambridge, slim and save and exante shakes that I still have. And will have a meal (low fat and low cal) as per slim fast rules.. I will also be taking my tablets too...
I've completely gone back to how I started and how I lost my weight slowly and kept it off.
I want to fit into the dress but I also want to lose this weight for good. Some days I may have a shake as well instead of dinner, but I don't want to completely go onto Cambridge again as I know if I don't deal with my addiction I won't get anywhere and I will just put it all back on again,,, from New Years to the awards night I will go fully onto the shakes coz I know that it will make me less bloated which means I will feel good in my dress, but that's only about 8 days, then it will be back to 2 shakes and dinner.
Back to the way things were.