RD's life diary: I'm back (sort of)

Sophie's going to my old secondary school, Bay House. It has a fantastic reputation but unfortunately is also very big (over 2000 pupils). It's speciality area is maths and IT - Sophie's weakest area is maths so I'm hoping they're going to have the facilities to help her.
It's a very oversubscribed school and houses in the catchment area tend to be pricy. That's why we had to resort to buying a 'do-er upper' to be able to send her there. (Still 'doing it up' - sheesh!! :sigh:)

Like your Charlotte, Sophie has also decided on her career path ... she wanted to be either a CSI or an actor. But decided that if she became and actor on CSI then she could have the best of both worlds! Bless!!
 
Thats my kind of thinking - good for Sophie! My son said at the ripe old age of 10, when asked ' what job would you like when you grow up Steve?' ' Part time - then I would earn enough to play with and have time to spend it!'. Still can't decide if he was a boy genius or a lazy little ***!

Sounds like you are having a better day Debbie, you sound calmer already. Your food for the day sounds good and I like the positve thinking, very important. Like you (again!) my tum is my problem area, I hate it, but I do wonder if it is what other people notice about me. When I meet people I always notice theirs eyes and their smile, I expect other people are the same. I see from your photos that you have lovely eyes and a gorgeous smile, so try not to notice your less than perfect tum, there are many worse off than you in the looks department!

Love
 
my tum is also my problem area, but my friends tell me thats not what they see. I'm sure if it were not there i'd be in a size smaller clothes :sigh:
xx :)
 
My tum definitely affects what size clothes I can get into. Hubby scraped together enough cash (saved from his lunch allowance bless him) to bu me a new pair of stretchy jeans from BHS yesterday.

A few months ago I was in a size 16 ... now I can STILL get the 16s up with no problem (over my thighs and bum) but then there's this big Buddha-like protrusion that prevents them from going any further! I had to get a size 20 to fit them over my tum :sigh:

I've had a much more positive day today (as you observed Barb). I went shopping with £40 and managed to get five days worth of food for four people - including fruit, veg, ice-lollies for the kids, diet stuff for myself and had a fiver change! Oh - and I bought three mini milky ways and two Freddos (all 15p each and around the 120 cal mark). I've put them in the freezer - except for tonights which I've already had.

For dinner I started off with half a grapefruit in my 'grapefruit experiment' (60 kcals) then had 2 small jacket potatoes (about the size of plums - approx 100g each = 250 kcals), 100g of Philaelphia extra light (111 kcals), a ryvita dark rye cracker (60ish kcals) and a generous mixed salad.
I had my yummy milky bar with a coffee for afters (120 kcals)

For snacks through the day I had an apple and a banana (200 kcals)

So all told, my 'approx' calorie intake for today was :
CD shake - 140
Tuna - 140
Mixed beans - 150
Dressing - 100
Apple & banana - 200
half grapefruit - 60
Spuds - 250
Phili - 110
ryvita - 60
Milky way - 120
Grand total - around 1330

I don't want to get too bent out of shape of EXACT calories to the nth degree but just to 'be aware'. I feel full and satisfied and have no guilt for the first time in weeks. I can't say that I won't be feeling terrible and a failure again this time next week but for today ... just for today, I kept my pact with myself NOT to binge and make myself feel bad.

I took the dog for a long walk along the bay this evening - she met lots of friends, including a Lhasa Apso ... so cute!

Anyway - tomorrow I'll start my day again with a new pact and a new challenge. :)
 
so glad u r feeling better with ur diet. making me drool tho lol. i love ryvita, philly and jacket spud.... and tuna!! ok...need to think about smething else lol. sounds like u have had urself some yummy nutritous and balanced foods. well done. makes a lot of difference to feel in control and 12-1300 kcals is a great aim.

keep on truckin' xxxxx
 
I started the day feeling strangely relaxed today. Maybe part of it is the fact I've stopped beating myself up with a big CD stick but I think that it's also possibly due to my hormonal cycles.

As I've mentioned before, I had a Depo Provera jab back at the beginning of February, which threw my whole life into turmoil. I've spent the last six months (the length of time it's taken to clear out of my system) in a state of heightened PMS and have consequently emerged from the other side 3st+ heavier.

I had my first normal period four weeks ago and came on again four days early, last week. Thinking back, my mood was at its most severely depressed and 'on the edge' at around that time. A connection maybe? I know bad things have been happening in my life (they haven't gone away) but my ability to cope with them seemed to diminish at that time. Something to consider this time next month perhaps!

I've had a good day so far - although the weather is awful so going out anywhere isn't an option. I didn't have my CD shake for breakfast: I wasn't all that hungry then came on here and before I knew it, the time had flown by and it was almost lunch time so I decided to wait.

Lunch was half a grapefruit (as part of my grapefruit experiment - watch this space! 60 cals) followed by the remainder of the philaedelphia extra light cheese (110 cals), a small baked potato (200 cals), a mixed salad (not-a-lot of cals) with some sweet chilli dressing (50 cals). I finished it off with a mini twister ice cream/lolly (a measly 46 cals).

Sub-total for the day = 466 cals (approx)
 
sounds good. Its amazing how differently we cope with things depending on time of cycle as well as where our heads are at.
We need to make the most of the "positive" times to get into good habits that, hopefully, we can continue at "negative" times.
xx :)
 
Yep - if we can work out when these times occur then perhaps we can prepare.
If I get some healthy 'hand to mouth' food at the ready for when I get like that then perhaps I can combat it better. Maybe rice-cakes, veggie sticks and if I'm really, really craving something sweet - as seems to be the case - some of those pink & whites (mega sweet marshmallow thingies). I know it's not ideal but it would be preferable to munch on a couple of those than a whole six pack of kit-kats!
 
those snack a jacks rice cake thingies r lovely rd, have u tried em? and mini ryvita. drooling again!!
 
oh you've just made me think Karen, my MIL works for ryvita, ought to ask her to get me some, they get them for silly prices :D
xx :)
 
I love those jumbo snack-a-jacks ... esp the sweet ones. They're huge! One (or two if I'm being particularly piggy) with a cup of coffee and I'm in sweet thing heaven! :p
 
Glad you're feeling better. I think your diet plan sounds good and you certainly seem happier with the decision.
You're a true fighter.x
 
Russiandoll said:
Lunch was half a grapefruit (as part of my grapefruit experiment - watch this space! 60 cals) followed by the remainder of the philaedelphia extra light cheese (110 cals), a small baked potato (200 cals), a mixed salad (not-a-lot of cals) with some sweet chilli dressing (50 cals). I finished it off with a mini twister ice cream/lolly (a measly 46 cals).

Sub-total for the day = 466 cals (approx)
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Dinner was supposed to be a chicken breast braised in a Peking lemon sauce but I got distracted and, only when my nose detected the whiff of something burning did I remember what was in the oven :sigh:

The by now budgie-sized chicken breast was well and truly welded to the dish thanks to the black, syrupy glue that used to be lemon sauce ... but no way was I going to resort to cottage cheese so I prised it free, put it in a plastic pot (one the size of an egg cup was ample), tipped the remaining sauce stored in the fridge over it and shoved it in the microwave for 30 seconds!

I had it served on a bed of shredded steamed cabbage, carrots and sliced green beans. it was actually very nice; I personally think the sticky brown chewy bits on the chicken added a little 'something' :)

I haven't had my Freddo frog yet (still full from my gourmet meal) but will have it in a while with a cuppa. Yum!

So my cals for dinner have been

1/2 grapefruit + 1/2 tsp sugar = 70 cals
Titchy, shrunken 100g chicken breast = 100 cals
Lemon sauce = 100 cals
Steamed veg = whatever ...
Anticipated Freddo = 100 cals
Sub total = 370

Snacks
2 x ryvita dark rye with drizzle of marmite = 100 cals
1 banana = 150
Sub total = 250

Total for today = 1086

..... and I'm stuffed!! :eek:
 
well done debbie, a good day, albeit a little unconventional in your menu hehe, lovin the sticky black chicken.
here's to a good tommorrow
xx :)
 
Wed Aug 15th

I didn't feel very hungry this morning (seems to be happening a lot lately) so I didn't bother with breakfast - although I know I'm supposed to. I feel I need to 'listen' to my body for once though and it definitely said 'NOT HUNGRY'.

I had to go to work at the Fort but before I went, I spoke to my youngest sister on the phone to discuss a couple of things about my dad.
As I mentioned before, his lung biopsy results were postponed from last Friday and rebooked for this Friday so we're both going along to give my mum and dad a lift and provide support if they need it.

I also mentioned his birthday, which is on the 28th of this month. It's very likely that it will be his last so me and my three sisters were racking our brains as to what to get him. Flash material gifts seem somewhat shallow and pointless: it has to be something more meaningful. We already had a group photo done in February but I came up with an idea ...
I suggested that we all chip in for a really nice blank book (or photo album) and then each of us writes a section about our childhood memories and events that stood out for us. Add a few old scanned photos and hopefully it would be something that would give him a few smiles.

Lunch today was:
Half grapefruit & 1tsp sugar = 75 cals
Cottage cheese = 140 cals
Ryvita x 3 = 90 cals
Mixed salad = neg
Sweet chilli dressing = 50 cals
Mini twister lolly = 50 cals

Sub total for day = 405

More later ...
 
thats a really lovely idea for your dad's birthday, it will probably cheer him up & maybe even produce a tear or two, but it can then be a source of comfort to your mum & become a bit of a family heirloom. If you get a scrapbook you can add pages as your children grow up & pass it thru the generations.
when my dad became an "orphan" ie his last parent died i did a scrap book for him for his birthday going back to his g grandparents & he was really touched.
doing well on the diet front, well done
xx :)
 
its a wonderful idea RD. knowing how he is valued as a father, hubby and person will be a much bigger gift than anything u could buy him. xx
 
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