Well i think its lovely and i could listen to you go on all day.
Ok food shop done and ive not done what i normally do and buy loads only to worry about using it all in time! Ive got sliced beef, rocket, cucumber, celery, tuna and a new cheese. Its cheddar combined with parmesan and really delicious. Just the thing to make my cheese crisps!
Oh im also going to try and make some cabbage like you get in the kebab shops. Vicky said Jim told her its soaked in water and sugar so im going to try it with splenda. I hope it works as that will make my huge lunch/dinner salad even tastier.
Dont know why i feel the need to write this on here but maybe you will all understand why ive thrown myself into work and not thought about myself too much. After we lost the baby back in aug we spent 4mths trying obviously with no luck. Since then i went back on the pill and Mark has totally changed his mind saying he doesnt want another one. Well today we turned a corner. I spoke to him about adoption. Its something ive always thought of. I guess seeing the kids taken from their families pulls at my heart strings still despite whhy its being done. Well he agreed that if thats what we are going to do then to start looking into it as it can take years and i think he would be happier as 2 angels and the last one almost killed me. I cant believe he seemed happy for me to talk about having a child that way. Guess he didnt know how to bring up the subject. I can totally understand, huge risk of baby no4 dying or worse as we had with no1 and the huge risk of losing me too, maybe i was being selfish wanting another. I have oliver to think of too.
I feel so much happier and now with work almost stopped completely i can concentrate on my diet and looking into giving a child the life it so deserves.
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