Westiegirl: Restarted Day 1 Under my Belt!

[cazmaz_irl]

Hi Sarah,

You did well, you stuck with the guy even though you sort of knew he wasn't the one for you from the start, your a woman of your word so have to be admired, got to laugh at your excuse to go though...LMAO...maybe he would have been ok, if you'd only said the truth about the rugby...LMAO..

Anyhow its all good, better to be the dumper than the dumpee, its the risk we all take with our hearts when looking for love....Just saw the score of the Rugby....YEH...GO ON IRELAND.......

 

[flirty40greeneyes]

Oh Sarah sorry it did not work out for you with J - as everyone else as said if there's no spark then that's it - and you did your best to be honest with him and spend as much time with him ... so he could ask for no more.

Sometimes you have to kiss a few frogs to find your prince - and I'm sure you will eventually .... find your prince that is!!

Super well done for sticking to SS ....... think I'd have been running for a stiff drink after that!!

 

[westiegirl]

Day 8

Got a text from J last night saying I take it from the abrupt end to our day that you are not interested. It was quite late so I didn't reply.

Thought I better this morning so I decided to email him because I had so much I wanted to say. I didn't want to say I don't fancy you so I basically said that the distance was a problem for me (and some other stuff that he told me about that might have a future impact on our relationship if we had one - quite big stuff) and that we could still chat if he wanted, but as friends.

His reply was "Well that told me then. What can I say! Hope to talk to you soon, your friend. J". Umm, not sure what to reply to that - or even if I shoud. He is probably hurting like hell and I don't think anything I could say would make a difference at the moment. Perhaps I should just leave the ball in his court and see if he wants to chat. Felt a bit **** about it this morning but starting to feel a bit better now. I don't want to intentionally hurt anyone and I do genuinely feel bad.

On a brighter note, here I am on day 8, the most days I've done in succession for a long time, even with my eventful weekend.

Monday morning is measurement time so here are the stats:

Weight: 11.13.6 (-9.8lbs)
BF:37.1 (same so it looks like all glycogen)

So that has pleased me and provided motivation to continue. Didn't have a shake for breakfast today and have just had a tetra for lunch, so I still have 2 packs left - my bar and a soup for tea. This week should be fine, I'll just see what the weekend holds when it comes because that is always when I struggle most.

 

[Karen1972]

Hey Sarah honey

Sorry that J wasn't the person you expected him to be. This is a very common problem with internet dating - even when you talk to people loads beforehand, the meeting in real life is the main decider of whether you like someone or not. I have fallen in love with personalities before meeting but if there's no chemistry it won't work.

You have made a good decision about not doing weekend dates - i try to have a quick meeting first, i don't really like meeting someone for a whole evening on a first date just in case i don't like them or they don't like me! And you are sooo not a ***** - if i don't fancy someone i end the date promptly! One guy drove all the way down from north wales (4 hours) and i saw him for 10 minutes then i told him he was not what i expected and ended the date there and then! Yes that is bitchy behaviour but you gotta do what's right for you!

Don't let this put you off dating... it's normal that there'll be some you like and some you don't and also some will like you and some will not - that's life! Enjoy the rollercoaster ride that it is!!

8 days SS'ing - WOWSERS!! Truly amazing babes...

 

[KittyB]

Hey Sarah,
I think you did really well to last the weekend out without snapping.
It's far better to be as up front as you've been with him, and I don't think it sounds like you've been a ***** at all.
Sorry it didn't work out as you'd hoped, he sounds like a bit of a sulker?
Kitty xxx

 

[westiegirl]

Day 9 - Ouch Ouch Ouch

Day 9 and after a really good nights sleep I feel much better.

Still feeling quite bad about J and I felt even worse when he sent me an email last night with a picture of us at the weekend saying I hoped I liked it and it was a gift from the weekend. I replied thanking him and apologising for hurting him so much and saying how I handled our parting badly. I got an email back today saying that if he has big shoulders and he is there for close friends, which is what he classes me as. He said he did fall for me in the short time we knew each other but it would hurt more if he lost me as a friend too, and his phone is always on. How sweet is that! God could I feel any worse!
I think I will keep in touch.

I feel like I am falling into a good routine at the moment with SSing. I think I should be concentrating on that at the moment, and ignore the dating thing. But....... Haven't chatted to P yet but we will soon. I also have a guy who is quite local who wants to meet for coffee. I might get over this weekend first and then arrange something - as Karen suggested - time limited so I can escape if I need to.

Called my CDC today and placed my order for the next 2 weeks. She is going to pop them in for me one night this week. Lost another pound today, so 10.8lbs lost in just over a week. I so need to just keep it going.

Quite nervous when I came home tonight as it was my first pole dancing class. Trotted down to the snooker club where is was being held and met Zara, the instructor. She was as lovely and friendly as she was on the phone. Waited for a bit but no one else turned up . So we had a one to one session and my god I am sore!!!!! It ain't as easy as it looks and I could barely lift myself up the pole. Kept bashing my leg trying to do a fireman spin and got a bruise and a lump the size an egg on it. It was quite intense because there should be 6 people all taking turns. Felt I was really crap at it (not even remotely graceful or sexy lol) but she praised me a lot and I felt really at ease. I have paid the rest of my money and I'm definately going back next week.
Hopefully some more of the people who had signed up will turn up so it's not just me. One thing that is for sure though is that I am going to hurt like hell in the morning!

 

[Karen1972]

Hi Sarah

Ouch that sounds painful haha! But good for you, i don't think that i'm brave enough to try that!!

Aw J does sound like a sweetie, and i'm friends with a few dates that didn't quite work out romantically - a girl can never have enough friends so go with the flow on that one hun...

I'm so proud of you with your SS'ing - you got it sorted babes, well done!!!!

 

[Dom1979]

OMG, am just so jealous! I have always wanted to do this (and secretly think I'd be really good at it, tee hee heeeeee!)

 

[kazz]

Hey Sarah....bit of a bummer about things with J at the minute....pole dancing sounds like fun.....wonder if there are any classes here I could take up over the summer or if its too racy for the manxies!!

The bruises will clear up soon.....hopefully!! Well done on SSing, you are doing so great!

 

[flirty40greeneyes]

Wow - way to go girl! Pole dancing ......... put that on your profile and you'll have all the guys after you!! Hope you don't ache too much - but worth the money to have 1:1 teaching!!!

J sounds really sweet - shame he's not for you ..... but yes try and keep him as a friend if you are comfortable with that. I met a guy a few years ago - we went out for a month ... but knew there was nothing there romantically for either of us - but valued each others opinions - so have stayed friends. He is now one of my closest friends - and great pals with Phil too!

 

[natpot]

Hi Sarah,

How's day 10 going so far? Just had to share! Myfriend bought me/us a pole dancing session in London for my birthday and I only have until Aug to use it. Were you self-concious about it or did it just feel like an exercise class? I am c**pping myself about it and it's def somthing I'll save until at goal!!! Good for you for doing it tho'!
Nat.
x

 

[westiegirl]

Day 10 - Can't Move My Arms lol

Day 10, going well so far.

Firstly an update from last night. Spent all evening on the sofa struggling to keep my eyes open - knackered lol. Must admit I went a bit loopy on the packs. I was so physically exhausted that I figured I needed extra nourishment after such a hard evening (my excuse and I'm sticking to it), so in all I had 2 bars and 4 packs, doh! Next weeks resolution is to plan better and for that day only to have 4 packs so that I can physically do the class. It was very hard work and I am so not used to that.

So much for keeping away from boys, J phoned me on his way home and we had a nice chat. P also called and we are thinking about a meet up, but when and how is still be arranged. Possibly the same weekend as the Birmingham meet as he is less than an hour away and finally I have been emailing R and and we are possibly going for a drink one evening. Can I keep up lol!

Nat about poledancing, I was very nervous and almost didn't go but as I had paid my money I thought sod it! It was fun and was very physical. Don't think I've got the sexy moves sorted yet. Felt like a proper exercise class but also totally different. It ain't easy mind but I really enjoyed it. It's all upper arms and that's one of my weak areas. Zara is trying to organise her own studio and set up pole dancing aerobics classes, I will definately be signing up.

So today is day 10 and my god I can barely move my arms! Bruises on my legs are not so bad but I ache so much I could barely drive. It is so physical that it will be a good work out for me. Definately going to practise press ups before next weeks class. I am going to suffer even more because it's my yoga class tonight.

Had 2 packs so far today and I think I will probably end up having 4 again today but it's better than eating food and I will deal with it!

 

[Karen1972]

Hi Sarah

Day 10 - Brilliant!

I overdid the exercise thing last year by going to the gym and it left me ravenous!!! So i would think very carefully about how much you exert yoursef whilst SS'ing. If you're anything like me you want to get to goal at the earliest possible timescale and by eating extra packs you are just delaying things. I know it's silly to say don't exercise and i'm not saying that but i do think you're doing too much if you know what i mean, it's leaving you starving and making the sticking to plan (ie 3 packs) impossible....

Up to you tho of course babes, but i would hate it if you spoilt this fabulous 10day run just cos you overdid it on the exercise!!

Luv,

 

[westiegirl]

Yoga Hurts Too!

End of day 10 and it's been so so. I am just back from yoga and that hurts too! I think I have worked all the same muscles and they are objecting big time!

Came home from work and had my soup and bar - all ok, then I followed it by another pack and 2 more bars doh!!!! Silly silly girl! Thought it was physical activity but I think it is time of the month.

But my hormones and cycle are all over the place at the moment. I have literally had my period for the last 4 weeks. I have never had one last so long. I am on the pill and last month I was late taking a tablet, by more than 12 hours and a couple of days later my period started and hasn't stopped since. I am due to finish my latest pack on Friday and I'm hoping that I will get back to normal. When I was SSing first time around I was late a few times but I have never had this happen before. I presume it is because of SSing but I don't feel poorly at all. I've had loads of energy, until just a few days ago (since after the weekend with J) so I think I'm OK. I think if once I finish this pack and start the next I will see if it gets back to normal and if not I will see the doctor. So I think in a "normal" month I am just entering the peak TOTM time for me and I will just have to be strong and get through it - no excuses because of physical activity! I am terrible of making excuses lol!

 

[FatFairNForty(ish)]

Hiya Sarah
Sorry not popped on for a while (have been lurking though )

Misread your title! Thought you said - day 10 Yoghurt hurting!!! ROFL (mebbe am hallucinating!!!!)

Pole dancing sounds such fun!! And the Yoga too! Blimey woman - you're going to put the rest of us to shame! lol

For what it's worth, I think you let J down quite nicely (all things considered). Internet Dating is a minefield (remind me to tell you about Paris sometime!!!!)

Only 28lbs to go... not long if you carry on the way you are doing You looked fab in the Toon - are you def coming to Brum? Only 6 weeks away!! yipee!!

I HATE TOTM time - since this diet I can't tell when.. or for how long! Still... mebbe things will settle down again afterwards!

Have a brill day - have you got snow up there? There's flipping heaps of it here!!!

 

[westiegirl]

Day 11 - Grrr It's Cold!

Jennie, thanks for popping by - I must admit I've been quite bad too but this weekend I have nothing planned and will be catching up with everyone. I am definately coming to Brum, have hotel, train and day off work all booked.

Things have settled down with J since the weekend I have spoken to him a few times (he had quite a tough day yesterday on a personal level) and it is good to have made another friend.

So I woke up on day 11 hoping to be snowed in - chance would be a fine thing! Living in a town on a coastal headland with 2 coasts means the snow never sticks, just enough on my car to inconvenience me. So work as usual .

Had an awkward nights sleep because I was so darn sore! I woke up and can barely raise my arms above my head! Will probably just recover enough to go through it all again next week!

Woke and REALLY NEEDED a pack. Bugger off I told Mrs CB and had a coffee and a pint of water. But, but she said and I shushed her right away!

Work have been really mean to me this week. The first 2 weeks I was here the local chip shop was closed because the owners were on holiday. Now they are back and everyone has placed an order every day since Tuesday. How rude, my office smells lovely and I can't have any of it . But I have made a lovely discovery - warmed up tetras! Yum! Had a hot choc for lunch. Tipped the tetra into a mug and heated it for 1 1/2 minutes. Lovely! I wonder whether banana ones will work the same?

 

[flirty40greeneyes]

Yep banana ones work well - and remind me of banana cutard.

Also try tipping a tetra into half a cup of stong coffee or strong mint tea and having a mocha shake or mint choc shake. Works for both of those hot or cold.

 

[westiegirl]

Day 12 - TOTM Stinks!

Day 12 and I'm doing OK (ish). It's definately TOTM time. Was thinking back to when I last ate food (bar Amsterdam trip) and it was that Saturday night I went out drinking - which was exactly 4 weeks ago tomorrow. Had that same "urgency" to eat then as I do now. So the pattern emerges again - just like it did first time around and I'm hoping that I can stay strong this time. I was bombarded with food smells from my mum's last night but I didn't eat anything. But again I had a couple of extra packs and about 3 savoury drinks. Is that better than succumbing to food? I'm not sure. It's still not sticking to the program properly whether it's food or not. I am still in ketosis by the looks of it but that might not necessarily be a good thing because it means that I am taking it for granted.

Guess my perfectionist traits are emerging again and I know that I am feeling a little down and all that I need to do is to ride it out. I'm definately having mood swings because I was so annoyed when I got home last night I could have spat. My kettle packed up on Wednesday so I borrowed my mums spare one and broke that too yesterday. I know I was being irrational shouting at a kettle but when it's the most important piece of equipment in a kitchen whilst SSing you just get a little tetchy!

I anticipate I'm in for a rough ride this weekend but I hope Minimins will come to my rescue!

 

[Karen1972]

Oh honey hang on in there...

EATING/BINGEING = FEELING LIKE SH!T

SS'ING = FEELING GOOD AND CONFIDENT

Your choice, but i know it's hard and we are ALL here for you chick, don't be a stranger ok...

Luv,

 

[westiegirl]

MY Dating Life lol

Having a better evening tonight. OK, I have had 4 packs (no bars though) and I feel fine and not having cravings.

The day didn't drag too badly at work but I'm glad it is the weekend because I need a bit of me time. This will be my first weekend to myself since starting my new job. Two weekends ago I was in Amsterdam and last weekend I was with J. J and I have spoken every day this week and I don't think there are any hard feelings. In fact he texted me today to say he missed our late night phone calls and he wished we could have made the most of the four poster bed . Umm, methinks he ain't over me yet. I can't be that hideous after all can I? He has met me in the flesh and all!

Still I have learnt a lesson and my next date is with R on Thursday night. He is local (works a couple of miles from here). We are going for a quick drink after work and see how we get on. Had a chat with him tonight to organise it and he sounds quite nice. He's got a lovely lilting welsh accent and is impressed that I can understand him. He works as a photographer for a major local newspaper (have had a sneaky peek at some of his pictures - very good). He travels all over the place. He took some pictures of the rugby at the Millenium Stadium on Sunday which sounds pretty cool. My mum says I should keep in with him as I might get free tickets lol! I'm going to meet him and just see how we go. Although I am quite worried because he said my photo was lovely and I look beautiful. I told him I put the best one on and that he hadn't met me yet, and to reserve judgement till Thursday. My god I think I might put a minging picture up instead and then nobody will be disappointed! We had to cut our conversation short because my mum called up to me to say I had a visitor.

Turned out to be my CDC. I called her a few days ago and she said she would get my packs to me before Sunday (when I would have run out). So that's all good. I have had 4 packs already today and really contemplated a bar - but NO! Not going there! Will save it till tomorrow else I'll run out!

Now I'm just chilling and hoping this good feeling lasts all weekend. I suppose a date is an incentive as well as a possible meet up with P, who calls me gorgeous everytime we talk. Oh the pressure! Karen, you are right, the attention is addictive though!