Willpower.... where do I find that?!?!?

[lil_legs]

Go for it, you always feel much better afterwards x

 

[MissieCB]

Ive had nothing yet!!!! Tempted to get something tho zx

Not sure what I fancy!

 

[Caroline_Louise]

When i come back im hving a tuna salad sarnie. Bought these little tins of WW tuna in coronation sauce, we'll see if they are nice or ming! Xx

 

[MissieCB]

oooo let me know................................ive caved in and had two rich teas!!!

 

[lil_legs]

That's not caving hun just count it! x

 

[Caroline_Louise]

Yeah exactly! I though this was a new sensible approach miss where u allowed to eat?!

Back from run. Nice and slow and chilled, u know me too well, feel much better now. Xx

 

[lil_legs]

Good

All my food is gone lol but it was 800 cals so if I need more I'll have more!

 

[lil_legs]

I've got the right horrors about the weekend, had a few dreams which I know are dreams but I can't be 100% cos I was so plastered

Been really paranoid since hols I think due to the spiking and I'm creeped out to be honest

Only now admitting that really - does that make sense? Feel like a drama queen but I feel all over the place!

Never want to get that drunk again

 

[Caroline_Louise]

Ah babe believe me i understand! I didnt drink for ages after getting spiked. And any traumatic experience can take a while to crop ip properly and affect u. I still have screaming mental nightmares going back to my psycho ex the stalker, and he is how my not sleeping started too.

Ur not a drama queen, the mind is just a crazy complicated place!

 

[MissieCB]

aww babes thats so awful that you feel like this!! Its so out of order on you. Its gonna take you some time to feel confident about drinking again xxx

Your not a drama queen at all honey xxx

Was planning to save my calories til the evenings! loool x

 

[lil_legs]

I just hope they are dreams and I haven't made a complete and utter fool of myself I feel really really ashamed :/ which is stupid!!

 

[Caroline_Louise]

I just hope they are dreams and I haven't made a complete and utter fool of myself I feel really really ashamed :/ which is stupid!!

If u go and look up about drink spiking on internet ul see its 'normal' to feel like u do. And our brains store things and mix them up and its crazy. If it is unbearable you should thing about some counselling though, it is a big deal what happened. U kind of lose trust in yourself a bit, even though not ur fault xx

 

[lil_legs]

Thanks hun, feels nice to be able to talk bout it without sounding like a complete nut job!

 

[MissieCB]

It sounds terrible caant believe you had to go through this!!! xxxx

 

[Caroline_Louise]

Ur not a nut job love! Well at least if u are its nothing to do with this ;-) Honestly, it really is a big deal, and believe me from my own experiences (like the psycho ex) u sometimes think ur fine but then things can come back to haunt u so much better to deal with them now, either by talking to us or ur mates or counsellor etc
Xxx

 

[Caroline_Louise]

Like we were saying yest though, people are just rank and sick! Can u imagine if you/i hadnt had out mates with us? It just doesnt bare thinking about.
One of my friends had a real nobber of a bf a cpl of years ago and he put some drug or other in her drink 'for a laugh.' I wasn't there but when she told me i nearly murdered the w***er, such an. Invasion of someones life!! X

 

[lil_legs]

What a prick!!

Argh I don't like this I feel really on edge! x

 

[MissieCB]

Awww babe maybe u should talk to someone about it x x
I'm sure it's ur mind just playing tricks xx

 

[lil_legs]

Hope so.. Just text my mate to ask if I didn't anything really bad!

 

[Caroline_Louise]

Hope so.. Just text my mate to ask if I didn't anything really bad!

Seriously mate don't torture yourself, no point, where will it get you?!
My advice, do some exercise! Best thing to clear ur head! Xxx