Ava's New Diary....

[AvaGardner]

Your welcome hun. How was the chineese? Lol im jealous!! Hope u get the strength to jump back on tomorrow hun, its so difficult getting back on track after a break. Deep down i dont think its the cravings that gets to u, ur body has gone without solids for weeks and just wanted real food. Hopefully u will feel better soon now that youve had something to eat. I think this will actually boost u and give u a bigger weightloss if u stick to it for this week. Im having a gd weekend hunni, watching xfactor then going out again?, i havent been as strict as i should have been, staying away from the scales this week as im scared. Gona do only shakes and soups starting tomorrow to boost my weightloss. Are u watching the xfactor? I love it. Haha. Hope ur enjoying ur night hunni xxx

Aw thx for ur reply Tam. I stuffed myself eating a whole portion of Chicken satay and fried rice. I have limited my binge again and didnt give in to sweets, icecream, etc....

I am psyched to start again tomoro. Ever hopeful to reach the 11's. Ive set out my 3 shakes in the kitchen ready for consumption tomoro. Woop woop. I CAN do this!!!

Good luck back on shakes and soups doll. Yip watched some x factor. Love the style on it. Ooooh I got my hair extensions in so am a long haired lady again.

Aw lucky you going out again. Bet ull get loads of attention doll. I'd love to be slim and partying this festive season. Have a ball.

Ava
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[Tamzy1989]

Aw thx for ur reply Tam. I stuffed myself eating a whole portion of Chicken satay and fried rice. I have limited my binge again and didnt give in to sweets, icecream, etc.... I am psyched to start again tomoro. Ever hopeful to reach the 11's. Ive set out my 3 shakes in the kitchen ready for consumption tomoro. Woop woop. I CAN do this!!! Good luck back on shakes and soups doll. Yip watched some x factor. Love the style on it. Ooooh I got my hair extensions in so am a long haired lady again. Aw lucky you going out again. Bet ull get loads of attention doll. I'd love to be slim and partying this festive season. Have a ball. Ava xxxxxx

No problem hunni, i enjoy ur diary. Xx Sounds like u had a nice meal, what u did i wouldnt call that a binge hun, that was just eating food, when i go on a binge i eat a bit of all most everything in sight, sometimes i forget what i ate. Food can be such a devil, its like a disease to us, we need food to survive so its hard on us to controll our feelings towards it. Good on u for choosing ur 3 shakes for tomorrow. I followed ur advise and did the same lol haha. I need the motivation. Yaaay to the hair extentions, bet ur feeling good about the new look ?. Im getting my hair done tomoro yaaaay!! It was suppose to be done last week but work got the best of me. Ur almost their hun, youll look just as good whether ur in the 11s or not. Im taking my time o lose the pounds ive got left, as long as im 10st for my birthday in may then il be happy. Right!! I need to leave the house now before i keep the mr waiting ?. Good luck for tomorrow hunni! I need some luck too. Have a good night xxx

 

[Kuromi Jenkins]

I keep thinking about having one day off but after last weeks fiasco I daren't incase it takes too long to get back in ketosis. That pizza will have to wait.

 

[Tamzy1989]

Yea dont think u should ruin that after all youve been through the past few weeks kuromi, have that pizza when u can eat properly.today im going back to basics, soups and shakes! No bars or meals, time to get the scale going down again instead of a sts.

 

[Kuromi Jenkins]

There's plenty of time for pizza after I finish. It's not like pizzas are going to be outlawed or something.

 

[Tamzy1989]

Exactly.

 

[AvaGardner]

Exactly.

Yes Kuromi. Cheating really isnt worth it. Pizza will await you. Lol.

Good luck again with soups and shakes Tam. Ive no fear ull conquer it. Ooooh how was last night lady...bet u got chatted up and eyed up

Stood on the scales this morning...and Im 12 6. Which is a gain of 4lbs. Ill be lucky to get to 12 2 for party night...let alone 11 something

Again...I am psyched about restart today. Cant believe ive gotten to week 6.

Keep up the fab work everyone

Ava
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[Tamzy1989]

Yes Kuromi. Cheating really isnt worth it. Pizza will await you. Lol. Good luck again with soups and shakes Tam. Ive no fear ull conquer it. Ooooh how was last night lady...bet u got chatted up and eyed up Stood on the scales this morning...and Im 12 6. Which is a gain of 4lbs. Ill be lucky to get to 12 2 for party night...let alone 11 something Again...I am psyched about restart today. Cant believe ive gotten to week 6. Keep up the fab work everyone Ava xxxxxx

Hey hunni, thank u!! Hows ur day going?
Im doing ok so far but i wanna eat lol. Il keep as strong as i can be.

Ohhh lastnight was crazy, we went out to a bar/restaurant!! Really think this guys trying to get me fat again lol. It was crazy guys tried chatting me up even when i wasnt alone, like hello cant u see me on a date with a guy lol. But it was good getting the attention, i could see the mr getting a little frustrated lol. " he said im on fire" ?. I do get a little embarassed lol.

Well dunno what im going to do tonight as he wants to take me out a 3rd night in a row!! Think il suggest bowling or something because i dont wanna eat again lol. think hes getting attached to me quicker than i thought haha but im still taking it slow though i think wer'e kissing too much these days ?. Seems like being single i was missing out on the perks of having company.

Oh hunni 4lbs up? Its not fat dont worry too much its just water, if u really stick it out for this week i think u can atleast get rid of atleast another 7lbs. Its possible to get the water weight off quickly hunni. Anyway youll still look fab!! No doubt about that!! Ur a beautiful lady for definate ?.

Im doing my hair today and im going rihanna red? the last time i went red was when i was17 yrs old, 7 yrs ago lol!! But im sure it will suit me lol.

U enjoying ur extentions?

I hope ur having a gd day hunni, your young and gorgeous so u deserve to feel happy and not worry about so much. Xx

 

[AvaGardner]

Ooooh Im delighted for u Tam. 3rd Night in a row....he must be keen. And isnt it lovely getting attention from guys..i miss that.

Loving the hair extensions....thx doll. Love Rihanna's red...bet ull look fab.

Im not that young Tam. Im 30 next year eeeek. And im not that gorgeous...ive to take a few pics before i hit on a good un

Im having a good day thx...are u?

Im getting my smaller clothes from the attic later and will have a trying on / organising session. Am mentally preparing for them not to fit tho.

Gonna have shake 2. Bring it on

Ava
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[Tamzy1989]

Ooooh Im delighted for u Tam. 3rd Night in a row....he must be keen. And isnt it lovely getting attention from guys..i miss that. Loving the hair extensions....thx doll. Love Rihanna's red...bet ull look fab. Im not that young Tam. Im 30 next year eeeek. And im not that gorgeous...ive to take a few pics before i hit on a good un Im having a good day thx...are u? Im getting my smaller clothes from the attic later and will have a trying on / organising session. Am mentally preparing for them not to fit tho. Gonna have shake 2. Bring it on Ava xxxxxx

Thanks hun, hes already told me that hes really interested but knowing me still keeping it low key to protect my fragile heart, i wont say anything for a long time, no offence but men can become quite evil so its up to me to take control and protect myself and not get trapped like in the past like before. Oh yea im loving the attention, though sometimes i dont see what the big fuss is about lol. Mmmm happy ur loving te new hair, youve also got a new body to go with it so thats exiting. Will take a pic to show u the hair once its done ?. Ohh hunni ur only a few yrs older than me lol. Im 25 in may haha. I still feel 16 u no lol. I look younger than my age when i sport my natural hair lol so the extentions are mostly in all the time along with the make up or else i have trouble getting into the clubs if i forget my ID!! You should see me without make up how childish i look lol, guess when im 60 il start appreciating it lol. Sounds exiting u getting out ur smaller clothes, no doubt some of them might fit, i love trying on old clothes, i get all exited like a school kid haha. Yaaay2 shakes down and 1 more to go. Wayyy to go hunni. Well done u!! Keep it up and be strong. Proud of u ?. Its that much harder dieting on a sunday, im already suffering, everyones eating a sunday roast ?. Xx

 

[Kuromi Jenkins]

I'm 33 and still get ID'd. Only the other week someone made a comment about me still being "really young" and couldn't believe it when I said how old I really am. Guess I'm lucky that the only thing I need to work on is my weight, but I'm already feeling loads better about that now I can wear tops without them stretching around my tummy with the dreaded belly button dimple and they have stopped riding up now too.

 

[AvaGardner]

Thanks hun, hes already told me that hes really interested but knowing me still keeping it low key to protect my fragile heart, i wont say anything for a long time, no offence but men can become quite evil so its up to me to take control and protect myself and not get trapped like in the past like before. Oh yea im loving the attention, though sometimes i dont see what the big fuss is about lol. Mmmm happy ur loving te new hair, youve also got a new body to go with it so thats exiting. Will take a pic to show u the hair once its done ?. Ohh hunni ur only a few yrs older than me lol. Im 25 in may haha. I still feel 16 u no lol. I look younger than my age when i sport my natural hair lol so the extentions are mostly in all the time along with the make up or else i have trouble getting into the clubs if i forget my ID!! You should see me without make up how childish i look lol, guess when im 60 il start appreciating it lol. Sounds exiting u getting out ur smaller clothes, no doubt some of them might fit, i love trying on old clothes, i get all exited like a school kid haha. Yaaay2 shakes down and 1 more to go. Wayyy to go hunni. Well done u!! Keep it up and be strong. Proud of u ?. Its that much harder dieting on a sunday, im already suffering, everyones eating a sunday roast ?. Xx

Ah im delighted for u Tam. A blossoming romance underway. How cute! And ur only a baby at 24. Cant wait to see the hair doll

I was super excited to try some clothes on. Few bits fit me well. Yayyyyyyy.

U said earlier you think i could lose 7lbs in the week. That really motivated me Tam. I hope i do it. I need to hit the 11's psychologically.

Its tough to start any day lol. Im getting on ok. Coffee is helping.

Oh and ex of sorts facebooked me earlier. Really hope I wow him next week...even tho ill still be a lil fattie....haha

Thx so much for listening to me rattle on people...i soo appreciate it

Ava
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[Tamzy1989]

I'm 33 and still get ID'd. Only the other week someone made a comment about me still being "really young" and couldn't believe it when I said how old I really am. Guess I'm lucky that the only thing I need to work on is my weight, but I'm already feeling loads better about that now I can wear tops without them stretching around my tummy with the dreaded belly button dimple and they have stopped riding up now too.

In that case your lucky, getting the weight off helps looking younger aswell. Nice getting the attention. O yes i dont miss my tops looking uneven and bumpy and keeps riding up because my tummy aint flat enough, im on cloud 9 at the min about how my stomach has gotten flatter. Weightloss really boosts self confidence, ohh and wearing jeans on my hips now is totatally possible unlike before.

Just imagine after u get to goal how you will look.

 

[AvaGardner]

I'm 33 and still get ID'd. Only the other week someone made a comment about me still being "really young" and couldn't believe it when I said how old I really am. Guess I'm lucky that the only thing I need to work on is my weight, but I'm already feeling loads better about that now I can wear tops without them stretching around my tummy with the dreaded belly button dimple and they have stopped riding up now too.

Oh Kuromi....you are so lucky to have started at what i consider not that overweight...and now be a healthy 10 stone something. I bet those tops look cracking on you. Tho I can identify with having a small goal weight. Id like to reach a teeny tiny 8st 10lbs.

Ava
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[Tamzy1989]

Ah im delighted for u Tam. A blossoming romance underway. How cute! And ur only a baby at 24. Cant wait to see the hair doll I was super excited to try some clothes on. Few bits fit me well. Yayyyyyyy. U said earlier you think i could lose 7lbs in the week. That really motivated me Tam. I hope i do it. I need to hit the 11's psychologically. Its tough to start any day lol. Im getting on ok. Coffee is helping. Oh and ex of sorts facebooked me earlier. Really hope I wow him next week...even tho ill still be a lil fattie....haha Thx so much for listening to me rattle on people...i soo appreciate it Ava xxxxx

Oh thanks hunni lol , i really am a baby, i get treated like one as im the last child lol. It does look like a blooming romance ? the constant messages and phone calls " scary thought" Yaay told u that the clothes would fit haha. Bet u feel so much happier now!! I can imagine. I no u can get the pounds off if u stick with it hun. Oh yea coffee helped me out alot during desperate times, i hated black tea with a passion. Ohh u will deffo wow him next week with all the effort your putting in!! Cant wait to hear about your night out, oh and trust mr your not a fattie, u got nice curves and never forget your gorgeous. Xxx

 

[Tamzy1989]

Oh Kuromi....you are so lucky to have started at what i consider not that overweight...and now be a healthy 10 stone something. I bet those tops look cracking on you. Tho I can identify with having a small goal weight. Id like to reach a teeny tiny 8st 10lbs. Ava xxxxx

Ohhhh 8st 10 is a tiny cute size, id be considered underweight at that number as im so tall at almost 5"10. The smallest ive ever been is 9st but i was underweight? can u beleive that!! Now im battling to lose weight lol. Crazy!! You ladies are lucky to be shorter, y do i have to be so tall lol. Id love to be atleast 5"5. Xx

 

[AvaGardner]

Ohhhh 8st 10 is a tiny cute size, id be considered underweight at that number as im so tall at almost 5"10. The smallest ive ever been is 9st but i was underweight? can u beleive that!! Now im battling to lose weight lol. Crazy!! You ladies are lucky to be shorter, y do i have to be so tall lol. Id love to be atleast 5"5. Xx

Yip coffee is a godsend lol. ah he sounds really keen Tam...too cute.

Gosh ive never been underweight. Thats mad. Im sure ur height suits u doll. Well i feel fat and ugly. Us women are never happy. Though i think ill be a lil happier as im shrinking in size.

Yip it will be lovely to see him. Im not sure if im slim enough to meet someone new and throw it in ex's face...is that a bit mean? lol. I said before...he might be seeing a mutual friend who's in her 50's. Like wtf. She's a lot older than me...but does have a cracking figure. Grrrrrr

Imagine if he chose me on the night. Gosh i have it bad ladies. Help

Ava
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[Tamzy1989]

Yip coffee is a godsend lol. ah he sounds really keen Tam...too cute. Gosh ive never been underweight. Thats mad. Im sure ur height suits u doll. Well i feel fat and ugly. Us women are never happy. Though i think ill be a lil happier as im shrinking in size. Yip it will be lovely to see him. Im not sure if im slim enough to meet someone new and throw it in ex's face...is that a bit mean? lol. I said before...he might be seeing a mutual friend who's in her 50's. Like wtf. She's a lot older than me...but does have a cracking figure. Grrrrrr Imagine if he chose me on the night. Gosh i have it bad ladies. Help Ava xxxxxx[/QUOTE

Lol haha it was only because im tall and was 9st. I actually had a food problem where i was scared to eat, after being hospitalised and was force fed i gained a few pounds or they wouldnt let me out of hsp, most of my family on mums side is over weight and i fear being like them everyday of my life!! Yea ur right. Us women are never happy. But id rather be unhappy slim than fat if u no what i mean lol

Hunni if u meet someone while your bigger then atleast u will no that they love u for the size that you are, and wtf. Did u say shes in her 50s? ? oh my!! Your going to find someone who really deserves u hunni, beleive me when i say it, youve got a smashing personality, your lovely!!

Yea seems like u got it bad but when u start getting attention from all the other men u will forget about him!!
Xxx

 

[AvaGardner]

Lol haha it was only because im tall and was 9st. I actually had a food problem where i was scared to eat, after being hospitalised and was force fed i gained a few pounds or they wouldnt let me out of hsp, most of my family on mums side is over weight and i fear being like them everyday of my life!! Yea ur right. Us women are never happy. But id rather be unhappy slim than fat if u no what i mean lol

Hunni if u meet someone while your bigger then atleast u will no that they love u for the size that you are, and wtf. Did u say shes in her 50s? ? oh my!! Your going to find someone who really deserves u hunni, beleive me when i say it, youve got a smashing personality, your lovely!!

Yea seems like u got it bad but when u start getting attention from all the other men u will forget about him!!
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Wow poor you. Glad uve come out the other side. My mothers side of the family are all huge too...thats mad.

And u my dear also have a cracking personality. Thx for the compliment. I think i need a new man to help me get over him alright. I'll just have to truck on and keep losing weight. Yip she is ooooolllldd. She's a Doctor. So i think thats the appeal for him

Gosh 6 days to go. Ive had too much coffee. Might have my last shake soon.

Hope u have a lovely evening lady

Ava
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[Tamzy1989]

Lol haha it was only because im tall and was 9st. I actually had a food problem where i was scared to eat, after being hospitalised and was force fed i gained a few pounds or they wouldnt let me out of hsp, most of my family on mums side is over weight and i fear being like them everyday of my life!! Yea ur right. Us women are never happy. But id rather be unhappy slim than fat if u no what i mean lol Hunni if u meet someone while your bigger then atleast u will no that they love u for the size that you are, and wtf. Did u say shes in her 50s? ? oh my!! Your going to find someone who really deserves u hunni, beleive me when i say it, youve got a smashing personality, your lovely!! Yea seems like u got it bad but when u start getting attention from all the other men u will forget about him!! Xxx

Wow poor you. Glad uve come out the other side. My mothers side of the family are all huge too...thats mad. And u my dear also have a cracking personality. Thx for the compliment. I think i need a new man to help me get over him alright. I'll just have to truck on and keep losing weight. Yip she is ooooolllldd. She's a Doctor. So i think thats the appeal for him Gosh 6 days to go. Ive had too much coffee. Might have my last shake soon. Hope u have a lovely evening lady Ava xxxxx[/QUOTE]

Thank u hunni xx

No doubt youll find one soon. I understand how u feel because i had to find someone else before i got over my ex, mad situation!! You'll be surprised how quick u forget them.

O well your younger than her anyway, just concentrate on improving yourself an make yourself happy until mr right comes along, by then u will be totally inlove with yourself. I cant wait to get to goal too

6 more days to go!! Cant beleive how fast time flies. Oh no the coffee does get a bit boring after 1 too many cups. Hope u dont get too hungry before bed time hunni. Im feeling slightly hungry but i must not give in lol. Im lucky i get 4 packs.

Goooo youuu. Youve made it to the end of the day. Welldone!! Xxx