Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

[Spanglymum]

Not going to kick you, BL - you're doing a good enough job of that yourself. Yes, it IS possible to gain that much glycogen/water weight from a carb binge. I gained - wait for it - 19 pounds (!!!) in two weeks last Christmas (and lost 15 of them again in a further two weeks). I wouldn't have thought it possible - but our bodies are clever, and VERY GOOD at gaining weight, especially when we've been in ketosis and have no glycogen reserves left. The good news is yes you CAN lose a lot of that very quickly.

I can't do it now as I'm at work but I have a number of books/websites I can recommend to you, as they've helped me a lot with my own carb problem(s). I do buy in to quite a bit of the CBT stuff (each to their own, Kira!) but see it as one way of looking at things that sits helpfully within a range of different approaches. People are never quite as simplistic as any one particular model would imply - so it's helped me to read a number of different perspectives.

For what it's worth, for some of us, sugar and refined carbs have been proven to work on opioid receptors in the brain (I will dig the scientific reference out for you later) and therefore can trigger compulsive and/or addictive behaviours. I experience it myself whenever I go "off road". It's quite astonishing (and scary sometimes too).

Anyway - try to stop beating yourself up (you don't need to feel any more rubbish than you do already - no giving yourself another excuse to self-comfort with carbs!!!) and focus on all you HAVE achieved. You will get there. Maintenance is a very rocky road. (Ooh I've given myself a notion for rocky road now - only joking!! )

Lots of love
xxx

 

[Blonde Logic]

LOL @Rocky Road, you rascal!

THanks ladies <<<<<hugs>>>>> You are the best.

I just don't get why I kept pushing and pushing and pushing the boundaries until the damn was well and truly broke. What possessed me!!??

I am not beating myself up - not in a bad serious way - just annoyed - but I can only laugh in disbelief what I did. But I am getting in today all well and good and feel determined - and I agree Kira, I am going to try and mix it up a bit - as much as you can on this kind of diet but I did buy different packs then I ususally do - swapped the bars for porridge, and but some mousse mix - so going to change it up a bit. I think the sheer boredom was a good part of it all. That will help. If I need more, will look at the S&S.

And I love the book references....please do let me know the book Spangly and I am going to look at the other too!!

Love you ladies - thank you for your support and encouragement.

xxxxx

 

[Kira]

Awh! BL ((((hugs!!))) you've done it before and you WILL do it again. We know that sticking to any diet plan (whateve it may be) is hard, but what is harder it the maintenance especially after many years consuming food in the way we have. It isn't easy and you know at least we are "trying" some people never ever do and that's fine if they don't want to because they are happy with the size/weight they are. I think the worst thing when people complain about being fat overweight and how they "can't" lose weight and yet they have never tried! I know a few people like that! We are not those people! We will always keep trying. x

Glad you are not beating yourself up, there is no point its in the past and it's the present we need to deal with whilst looking to tomorrow! Says Miss Much less than Perfect!! x

 

[Jezebella]

Heya BL

Well, this is life hey and sh1t happens, I know how you are feeling, but glad to hear you are not beating yourself up too badly, it is just not worth it, some things in life are much bigger as we know. I suspect the weight bar a few lbs will drop off as quickly as you put it on. I am missing food, real food, healthy things weirdly. I want yoghurts, fruit and veg and cereal, things like that. Haven't had any real cravings for sweets. Feeling quite depressed at how slowly my weight loss is going right now to be honest. I suppose as its not that much to loose and I want to loose it fast my body has decided to be contrary. Feel like I have been at the same place well within 1kg of it up and down for 2 weeks now!!! My weight loss was always so steady before, 3 or 4lbs a week without fail. The end seems so far, and at this point I will be lucky to do 2 stone in 2 months. Lol sorry feeling kinda down today so having a bit of a pity party. Went with my sis to the pub tonight for a joyous mineral water. Nice to be out, but really did fancy a glass of wine, not because I wanted wine, but i guess for the social aspect. I know they wernt, but it feels like people are looking at you weirdly when you just sit there with a water. Some serious crooked thinking going on I suspect. Still did gaze at the most gorgeous looking man but sadly he was taken, hahahahaha i was cheered up for a bit I got the PM thank you very much for that, will respond properly later or tomorrow eve, going to go and pop into the bath now as I am cold and fancy snuggling on the couch in my fluffy pj's after. let me know your thoughts about Thanksgiving honey and have a happy day tomorrow


Big Hugs

j
xx

 

[Bigj75]

Hey I know the feeling well :-( lost just under 4 stone on lighter life and guess wot I'm back to square one !! Starting exante tomorrow , got another supply but have wasted 2 weeks worth going back and forth but hey ho another fresh start looms ,,,,, ur not alone xx

good luck x

 

[Kira]

How you doing BL? X

Bigj wish you well! I'm sure you can stick with again. Though I have to say it does get harder to do a vlcd. This will most definitely be my last attempt as I plan to maintain for life I just can't key myself get so overweight again.

 

[Bigj75]

According to my scales I've lost 11lb !! Had a wee sneaky weigh in Cant help but think my scales are playing up ! Lol x will weigh again on the 7th day and hope it either stays the same or my weight is even lower
im so bloody happy the now !!!!!


Big big hugs to all

 

[Blonde Logic]

Well done BigJ - That is great!!! You lost the 11 - I found them!! ROFL!!!

I have had a good week - not 100% angelic, but about 98%. Iweigh tonight - I will be so happy to get rid of most of last weeks gain - would love all but somehow me thinks me asking too much!

I hear you Kira - I never want to do this again. It IS harder the second time around - the first time, it felt amazingly fast, and now it feels so slow - though its not....it feels it.

I hope everyone else is well and going good.

I can't wait to be done If I hadn;t bought all those new clothes in a size 12, I would be easily talked into stopping at size 14 - but I want to push on.

Give me strength!!

Have a good week everyone!

xxxx

(Jezz - thank you SO much about your offer at Thanksgiving - I am going to be in America, so will decline - but love that you are doing it and thank you so much for inviting us. If we weren;t going away, I'd have happily come along. ) xx

 

[Kira]

Big great loss! Keep going!

BL so pleased you've had a good week. You will still lose even if you are not 100% on vlcd as provided the calories are less than you would normally have the few extras won't really impact. Obviously we know this slows everything down but hey, it's not a race. Though I do know that even being 100% it seems so much slower than that very first time! I think what is slowing me down this time is that I have salad and celery on hand for when I have that craving, desire and I munch on that. Clearly I have munched too much as my losses are much lower than when I last attempted a vlcd. Either that or I have really messed my metabolism up in a big way!!

Have a good day and an even better week! (((hugs!!)))

 

[Bigj75]

Thanks to u both xx
tiredness has all but left me and been replaced with a very short fuse , oh I pity the OH lol x

 

[Kira]

You'll soon feel the energy come back. It's a very odd thing with vlcd's they leave you zapped and then suddenly out of nowwhere one gets energetic?!! Probably because we are carrying less blubber and feel less lethargic?!

 

[Blonde Logic]

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 10 of the 11 pounds - GONE! Yessssssss Well happy with that.

Making very important note to self: Look how fast you can lose a weeks weight if you cut out carbs and fat and sugar - deal with it the week after a series of events/meals, etc., and look how quick you restore the norm. REMEMBER THIS JAN!!!!

 

[Kira]

Brilliant BL!! Keep going hon!

 

[Bigj75]

Brilliant !!! You must feel on top of the world just now xx

big hugs n luck to all x

 

[Spanglymum]

Well done you! I knew you could do it xx

 

[MinnieMel]

Whoop! Amazing loss!

 

[Jezebella]

Hey BL

Well done girl, so damn proud of you!!!!!!! That is an EPIC result And well done everyone on your fab losses this week. I have had an ok week of it, scales again showed only a 2lb loss with LLC, alas, something seems to be wrong with my period at the moment. Have heard this can happen on vlcd's but as I was on permanent contraception last time and am not this time, I guess I am noticing the difference. I basically had a few days of it last week, then started again this week. Really bloody irritating. Like the rest of you I am really realllllllllllllllly feeling that this is going sooooooooo slowly this time. Just want one decent week's weight loss again. I am at the stage where im on it but bored of it so to speak. There is just no socialising nothing, and it is the one slightly quiet time of year where I could be out and about. - lol not forgetting the fact I have zero funds now till payday, because of paying the rather high LL fees. Still mixing it up with the odd s&s pack, just to give me a bit of a change, and still having the odd bit of allowable green veg on s&s because god I just get bored bored bored.Then I thought about it what would I go and eat if I could?? The answer was anything and then nothing. Nothing, because Im not actually hungry, but I just want some variety, some lovely healthy food. Blah, blah!!!!!!!! I do have days wehre I just feel like giving up, but I am resolute, even though like you BL I am fitting well into all my clothes, just a few more kg to go till it is all where it should be, why damnit, why is it taking sooooooo Loooooooooooooooooooong!! lol really thought that if I was loosing in the way I did before I would be about a week away from goal, if I carry on the way I am now it will be another 5 bloody weeks at 2lb a week. Onwards and forwards though, just hoping, holding everything for at leaast 4lbs next monday. Glad you will be in the USA for thanksgiving and will deffo send you happy thoughts from this side of the pond. Let me know if you do fancy catching up before Xmas?

Big hugs and proud of ya girlfriend!!!

J
xx

 

[Kira]

Morning BL, Jez (and of course anyone else dropping by here!) I discovered a blog yesterday which I found really interesting and helpful. It kind of reminded me of how you write BL, some of your experiences (you may of course disagree when you read it. OK I admit the lady is American and as my hubbie (he's American) he thinks I think all American's are wonderful, kind and happy. ER! Only because the one's I've met have been!!! I digress. I really liked this blog and I will continue to follow it. Mainenance/lifestyle change/diet call it what you like. Life after reaching target will for most of us always be about restricting calories - not stopping eating what we like but restricting them otherwise the weight will come back on.

Check it out when you have time. I guess you will either hate it or like. Stacey Morris | Recovering From America's Culture of Excess, One Recipe At A Time

Let me know what you think. I always like others take on things. x

 

[Blonde Logic]

Thaks Kira - I will try and remember to look at it this weekend - feel free to remind me!! (Me memory is RUBBISH)

Today, I am wearing a little purple crop coat and new top and new heeled boots, with dark blue denim flares and three people gasped when I walked in! Made me feel good - they all commented on how trim I was looking. One lday even recognized my coat as one that I wore three years ago when I started here, soon after I hit my goal the first time. So that was realy nice - kind of made my day. Most here at work are pretty close-mouthed about my losing. I see them watching, but they say nothing. Which is OK. Maybe cause they are too busy eating all the cakes on the back table. :giggle:

Anyway - it reminded me how god I felt the last time when I hit goal - one more thing to put in my gladbag to help keep me keepingon.

Oh and Kira - your hubby is right....Yanks are wonderful and kind and happy as a whole. We ROCK!!! And Brits do too. If you think about it - we are kind of all the same - we just sound different. But we were you guys before we were us!

 

[Kira]

Oh! BL!! You are gonna do this!! The very fact you are "dressing up" wearing fab clothes, doing your hair etc means "you are back"!! YES!!!

I loved seeing your clothes and you funky style throughout your journey on LL the first time! You should really be in a fashion magazine! Just love the way you put things together. I love clothes etc myself but I think many of us can be prone to the "sheep" syndrome and follow the fashions of the season. Alas they don't always suit us all! Low rise hipster, skinny jeans spring to mind! For me even at my tiniest they simply wouldn't do a thing for me! It is funny dressing nicley and making an effort to do one's hair and make up can make all the difference to how we feel even at times we may be heavier than we would like. It certainly can spur one on to stick to plan. Have a great day. x