finally taking control of my body
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Emmaline
Hippety Hop!
Hi there Elm, Gosh! 60 hours - that's such a lot - no wonder you are feeling so down!!..
Hope things get a bit better for you soon.
In the meantime if you would like a giggle, visit my diary and see what happened to me over the last day or so. Could swear I'd been set up for YBF!!..
Hope things get a bit better for you soon.
In the meantime if you would like a giggle, visit my diary and see what happened to me over the last day or so. Could swear I'd been set up for YBF!!..
Miss_Kassy
Silver Member
Hey Elm
Crikey - 60 hours is a huge amount of hours to work. You will be feeling tierd hence why you feel down. Also, you dont tend to lose weight as much if your body is tierd. Can you reduce your hours?
How are you feeling now? I wish I could jump on the next flight to America, give you a big hug then make you giggle for hours on end hehehehe.
Try stick at the diet. I know its a hard slog, but you will be pleased you did. I'm overloading myself on fruit at the mo as I am hungry all the time. Not the same as biccys but its food all the same.
Are you still enjoying the job then or you feeling a little under pressure? You are a tough cooki kidda so stay positive and you'll do fine.
Thinking of you xxxx
Crikey - 60 hours is a huge amount of hours to work. You will be feeling tierd hence why you feel down. Also, you dont tend to lose weight as much if your body is tierd. Can you reduce your hours?
How are you feeling now? I wish I could jump on the next flight to America, give you a big hug then make you giggle for hours on end hehehehe.
Try stick at the diet. I know its a hard slog, but you will be pleased you did. I'm overloading myself on fruit at the mo as I am hungry all the time. Not the same as biccys but its food all the same.
Are you still enjoying the job then or you feeling a little under pressure? You are a tough cooki kidda so stay positive and you'll do fine.
Thinking of you xxxx
elm
Gold Member
Day 102
Well, today I probably put on 3lbs just from what all I had to eat.
I actually am now working 73 hours a week, and there is no way to bring down the hours. I'm pretty sure tomorrow morning I'll call in and tell them I quit. Which sucks because I can grow with the company, but right now I need a job that pays better and hourly, not just on comission because there is days I work 12 hours and not make 1 dollar if I don't sell anything.
Also, I have another job interview tomorrow at 9 which is also a huge company and is about 2 streets away from where I work now.
Finally, went out to Red Lobster tonight and saw my 2nd mom and bella (her grand-daughter and she calls me aunt elma)...oh and yes my name is Elma btw lol. Anyways, we ate there and I'm sure I put on 3lbs just from eating there lol. When she saw me, she couldn't believe how much skinner I looked. She said I look like I weigh 180-190...hahahaha I told her I'm 245 and she couldn't believe. I'm more tone looking now, probably from walking 10 hours a day now 6 days a week.
Hm, nothing really else to say besides I'm feeling down again. I'm not happy with this job, though I adore most of the people I work with but I need a job with better pay.
Well, today I probably put on 3lbs just from what all I had to eat.
I actually am now working 73 hours a week, and there is no way to bring down the hours. I'm pretty sure tomorrow morning I'll call in and tell them I quit. Which sucks because I can grow with the company, but right now I need a job that pays better and hourly, not just on comission because there is days I work 12 hours and not make 1 dollar if I don't sell anything.
Also, I have another job interview tomorrow at 9 which is also a huge company and is about 2 streets away from where I work now.
Finally, went out to Red Lobster tonight and saw my 2nd mom and bella (her grand-daughter and she calls me aunt elma)...oh and yes my name is Elma btw lol. Anyways, we ate there and I'm sure I put on 3lbs just from eating there lol. When she saw me, she couldn't believe how much skinner I looked. She said I look like I weigh 180-190...hahahaha I told her I'm 245 and she couldn't believe. I'm more tone looking now, probably from walking 10 hours a day now 6 days a week.
Hm, nothing really else to say besides I'm feeling down again. I'm not happy with this job, though I adore most of the people I work with but I need a job with better pay.
elm
Gold Member
Day 107
Omg I keep eating. I didn't bother weighing myself on Saturday, I'm sure I gained. I've decided to weigh myself once a month from now on.
A lot is going on in my life.
Remember the ex who then turned into my bestfriend? Yeah, basically he admitted that he's still IN love with me.
Another thing, I might be moving to california, where he is, and to get a job there that I can grow with.
Lastly, around my belly button area, its been hurting for about 5 days now. Not sure why. But it hurt even when I walk, sit, sleep, lay down. I know I have to make a doctors appointment, but I hate the doctors.
I need to quit eating so much bad food. I'm sure I gained 5-8lbs lol. Last night we had a tornado warning, but luckly it didn't hit us. But we did stay in the basement for an hour till the weather cleared up a bit.
....must eat healthy.
Omg I keep eating. I didn't bother weighing myself on Saturday, I'm sure I gained. I've decided to weigh myself once a month from now on.
A lot is going on in my life.
Remember the ex who then turned into my bestfriend? Yeah, basically he admitted that he's still IN love with me.
Another thing, I might be moving to california, where he is, and to get a job there that I can grow with.
Lastly, around my belly button area, its been hurting for about 5 days now. Not sure why. But it hurt even when I walk, sit, sleep, lay down. I know I have to make a doctors appointment, but I hate the doctors.
I need to quit eating so much bad food. I'm sure I gained 5-8lbs lol. Last night we had a tornado warning, but luckly it didn't hit us. But we did stay in the basement for an hour till the weather cleared up a bit.
....must eat healthy.
Miss_Kassy
Silver Member
Hi Elm
How come you have been to the hospital? Are you okay?
OMG, your ex still lurves you. What you going to do about that one? How do you feel about him?
Is your belly button sore? Mine sometimes gets like that (i think its of sweating and the belly button area gets a bit red and sore) but I just whack some sudocrem on or hydrcortozone (however you speall it) and it usually makes it ok.
What job do you fancy trying now then?
Oooooh, Calafornia sounds lovley. I wish I could live somewhere like that. How come you might be moving there? Is it far from where you are now?
xxx
How come you have been to the hospital? Are you okay?
OMG, your ex still lurves you. What you going to do about that one? How do you feel about him?
Is your belly button sore? Mine sometimes gets like that (i think its of sweating and the belly button area gets a bit red and sore) but I just whack some sudocrem on or hydrcortozone (however you speall it) and it usually makes it ok.
What job do you fancy trying now then?
Oooooh, Calafornia sounds lovley. I wish I could live somewhere like that. How come you might be moving there? Is it far from where you are now?
xxx
elm
Gold Member
Well I'm feeling much better today. Yesterday I went to the doctors, and let's just say I was a total b*tch. Why? Because the doctor was rude. She kept asking me about my weight and if I have issues with it, I told her yes I started gaining weight when I was on heavy meds when I was younger.
Since you all know I have pain in my belly button, the stupid doctor decides to stuck her finger in it pretty hard which made me scream, I grabbed her fingers and squeezed them really tight and then pushed them away from me and started crying because I can't believe she did that without telling me what she's going to do next, and doctors/nurses are suppose to tell you their every move.
So then I was pissed. I wouldn't even look at her or reply when she was talking to me so then she starts talking to my sister instead. Stupid b*itch pissed me off. Then she said I have to get my blood work done. So she left, and two nurses came in and of course, I was rude to them too by ignoring them. Why? Because I was still pissed at the doctor. So they stick a needle in the arm and omfg it hurt so bad then they told me to keep laying down for a few more minutes because they took so much blood that they don't want me to faint.
So now I'm waiting on results from the hospital, and also now I have another appointment on Monday about my blood work.
I'm a pissed off girl.
Since you all know I have pain in my belly button, the stupid doctor decides to stuck her finger in it pretty hard which made me scream, I grabbed her fingers and squeezed them really tight and then pushed them away from me and started crying because I can't believe she did that without telling me what she's going to do next, and doctors/nurses are suppose to tell you their every move.
So then I was pissed. I wouldn't even look at her or reply when she was talking to me so then she starts talking to my sister instead. Stupid b*itch pissed me off. Then she said I have to get my blood work done. So she left, and two nurses came in and of course, I was rude to them too by ignoring them. Why? Because I was still pissed at the doctor. So they stick a needle in the arm and omfg it hurt so bad then they told me to keep laying down for a few more minutes because they took so much blood that they don't want me to faint.
So now I'm waiting on results from the hospital, and also now I have another appointment on Monday about my blood work.
I'm a pissed off girl.
Miss_Kassy
Silver Member
Oh dear Elm, you have had a right day of it havent you. I can't believe the doctor done that. You are right, they are supposed to talk through their moves, not just go and prod at you willy nilly.
Have you got much planned this weekend me dear? I'm having a girls night tomorow then we are going out round town for a few so that should be a good laugh. Looks like its going to be another heavy weekend on the drink hehe. Do you drink much?
xxx
Have you got much planned this weekend me dear? I'm having a girls night tomorow then we are going out round town for a few so that should be a good laugh. Looks like its going to be another heavy weekend on the drink hehe. Do you drink much?
xxx
Emmaline
Hippety Hop!
Hi Elm, Sorry to hear you had a rough time with the doc. They can be real swines sometimes and used to have the same thing with mine about the weight problem. In the end I wrote to my doctor and forbade her to mention it again. I did explain that it was a very emotional subject and I was suffering from depression and didn't want to be driven down that road. Thankfully she abided by my wishes and never mentioned it again.
So if I could offer my bit of advice, it would be well worth you doing the same thing and TELL your doc how you feel.
As for the other bit of your experience - do try to remember that they are trying to be of some help and clamming up is not going to help matters. Far better to keep your cool and be calm and forthright and they will respect you for that - after all they are only human as well.
Do hope you soon get something sorted. All the very best to you....
So if I could offer my bit of advice, it would be well worth you doing the same thing and TELL your doc how you feel.
As for the other bit of your experience - do try to remember that they are trying to be of some help and clamming up is not going to help matters. Far better to keep your cool and be calm and forthright and they will respect you for that - after all they are only human as well.
Do hope you soon get something sorted. All the very best to you....
elm
Gold Member
Thank you Emmaline, I will tell her how I felt since I have to see her again. Now I feel bad because I was mad but still the nurses shouldn't have gotten the bad treatment from me like that.
Day 112
Tuesday I weighed 253, today is Saturday and I weigh 245...so in 2 weeks I gained 8lbs, and lost it all in 5 days. I think because the meds made me sleep a lot and poo a lot but I'm shocked 8lbs...puts me right back where I was 2 weeks ago so yay! Hm, started today I'm serious about getting back to the diet. Why? Because the nurse called yesterday and they did find that I had an infection but also that I have high cholesterol which is not good at all. She said she'll talk to me on Monday about that, which means I'll be put on meds for that and a diet plan.
Day 112
Tuesday I weighed 253, today is Saturday and I weigh 245...so in 2 weeks I gained 8lbs, and lost it all in 5 days. I think because the meds made me sleep a lot and poo a lot but I'm shocked 8lbs...puts me right back where I was 2 weeks ago so yay! Hm, started today I'm serious about getting back to the diet. Why? Because the nurse called yesterday and they did find that I had an infection but also that I have high cholesterol which is not good at all. She said she'll talk to me on Monday about that, which means I'll be put on meds for that and a diet plan.
elm
Gold Member
No idea what day it is, since I stopped counting and dieting all together. I haven't been on in like 2 weeks or so.
I'm going through a lot of things right now and I don't know how to just let it all go. I wish I was strong enough to ignore my emotions like I use to. I need to become more stronger.
If anyone knows how to ignore their emotions, like a way to push it all aside, please help? Please!
Its monday, 2 27 in the morning and all I want to do is cry. I feel like throwing up again because I'm so emotional omfg! I guess today is the day to restart the diet. I can't type anymore, I just want to cry.
I'm going through a lot of things right now and I don't know how to just let it all go. I wish I was strong enough to ignore my emotions like I use to. I need to become more stronger.
If anyone knows how to ignore their emotions, like a way to push it all aside, please help? Please!
Its monday, 2 27 in the morning and all I want to do is cry. I feel like throwing up again because I'm so emotional omfg! I guess today is the day to restart the diet. I can't type anymore, I just want to cry.
Pomooky125
Silver Member
Oh Elm, your post is so sad. Don't give up on your emotions - have a good howl. I don't know what your problems are - I only caught your thread by accident as I was looking for some support (I had a mega binge today after 3 weeks eating normally).
You ARE strong! But you're allowed to make mistakes - you're only human. Don't give up - there's lots of us here to spur you on. You've lost heaps of weight and with health problems too - that shows you have a strong will, just stop using it against yourself! Start again tomorrow. This time you will climb right back up again sure and slow but you WILL peel off the weight.
Me too - I know I can do it now and I'm not giving up just because I have eaten the size of my backside in chocolate. C'mon Elm! Don't cry any more - get yourself ready for the next step.
A big hug Pomooky XX
You ARE strong! But you're allowed to make mistakes - you're only human. Don't give up - there's lots of us here to spur you on. You've lost heaps of weight and with health problems too - that shows you have a strong will, just stop using it against yourself! Start again tomorrow. This time you will climb right back up again sure and slow but you WILL peel off the weight.
Me too - I know I can do it now and I'm not giving up just because I have eaten the size of my backside in chocolate. C'mon Elm! Don't cry any more - get yourself ready for the next step.
A big hug Pomooky XX
