Help needed for 1st day......

[xmisskx]

i'm not sure...i never really eat courgette so wouldn't have a clue i'm afraid....

eugh! i'm shattered this morning. i feel i haven't been rested all week and have felt the same most mornings?
fed up waking up for the loo through the night...last night i'd only been sleeping an hour when i had to get up...better be a sign of weight loss! lmao!

i had a look through pete's recipes on here again last night and have seen quite a few that i want to try. so i'm going to try and make a list then see what i'd need to buy for them.

EE for me today...not sure what the menu is but when i eventually wake up properly, i'll have a think.

how's you today? x

 

[sparty]

I feel sleepy but otherwise ok. I usually get that 'ahh only today to work and then its the weekend' feeling on Fridays but I'm working this weekend so will only have the bank holiday Monday off! it's meant to be really sunny as well which is a total pain as it probably will be on Saturday and Sunday but then will tip it down on Monday! Typical lol

My friend who I am working with has joined SW so I have suggested we take a picnic lunch to work instead of going to the pub which was the original plan! So I'm making cheese and salad sandwiches and SW coleslaw and she is bringing a fruit salad. I was going to have an EE day (had planned to do the meatball pasta from the mag) but will rethink and maybe have green now as ill need to watch my hex's!!

I keep needing the loo in the night too. I think it's where I'm trying to drink more water so my body is getting rid of the excess. That's should help come weigh in eh?! Maybe it's that for you?!? It's meant to stop after a while though I think once your body gets used to it.

What's your weekend plans?!

 

[xmisskx]

oh that's a shame you're working the weekend...kids are off school here for the bank holiday which i forgot...so bang goes my day to myself on monday lol

no plans really for the weekend, the weather is miserable and i'm not sure if it's meant to pick up? hope so....!

that's good your friend has started too...always good to share ideas and the cooking too

i always wake for the loo really but it had settled a bit....but back big time this week and i wouldn't say i'm drinking any more than usual...you know i'm good and try to drink loads at work and it's not like i don't go before bed! grrr...but as for WI...will just need to wait and see.

i've only just had something to eat...was starving and hoovered my fruit salad like it was going out of fashion lol x

 

[sparty]

I forget sometimes that you are so far away lol. Down here in London today (where I work) its really sunny and reasonably warm and meant to stay that way. Where abouts in Scotland are you? Sorry to hear its miserable weather up there - that sort of thing really affects my mood!

I've had a little bit of an upset stomach this morning (no complaints - better out than in for WI on Monday ) but sometimes this happens to me on the first or last day of star week....strange how your body reacts to hormones isnt it!?

I'm currently having some green tea - takes some getting used to but its not too bad - but in answer to your question the other day about whether it helps with hunger...the answer is no lol. It helps minimally having something warm in my tummy but doesnt really take the hunger away properly. I am a bit less hungry than yesterday morning (but it is only 10:40 lol). Got a sarnie for lunch today with SW coleslaw, ham and salad.....been ages since I had a sarnie so im really looking forward to it.

Made some of the syn free hummus last night to try and pack out my lunch but forgot that as im on a red day I cant have it (waaaaaahhhhhh) so will have to wait until tomorrow now (its VERY garlicky!!)

 

[xmisskx]

i've often looked at the recipe for that as i do like it...but wondered how nice it could really be...if not packed full of fat and calories ! lol

i'm just outside edinburgh and yep...we've never had a break from this weather!
it was sunny a few days but still cold cos of the wind....wait and see, we'll get a heat wave and we'll all be moaning about that too! lol

yep, it's weird how our bodies react. i am always sore with my period and also get faint feeling (think my blood sugars drop) so for a few hrs, i look chalk white, have the shakes and think i'm going to pass out! it's not good and of course i've been known to be physically sick too!
after the 1st day, i'm generally ok...or nothing i can't handle but its just that first day...for a few hrs when i basically can't do anything other than lie down and rock about in agony so it really stresses me out if it comes when i'm working...cos obviously i can't do that at work!

i bought the BBQ seasoning earlier - saw the fajita one you posted last night but went for the BBQ one to try cos i always used to but the old el paso bbq mix when i made fajitas and i thought it might be nice through a stir fry or coated on chicken...? also got some frozen peas which i can use when i attempt this chicken fried rice...whenever that may be....sigh....x

 

[sparty]

Well it's pretty nice although next time ill use less garlic

Ooh poor you - sounds like you really suffer! Mine isn't so bad mostly but every now and then I get a shocker!!

You don't sound your usually cheeky self if that post?! You must really be craving the fried rice lol

 

[xmisskx]

just meant "sigh"...still haven't decided lol

since my last post, i have made a scan bran cake, some sw ferrero rochers (1st time in ages and they were a nightmare! think i had 1 too many ryvita in the mix so wouldn't really stick well )
i also made some cous cous for the 1st time...easy peasy! i just did it with a veg stock cube and planned to have it with tuna salad...but i've left it and i'm waiting on sw chips to have with my tuna and onion mayo and salad...
i cooked rice so think i'm giving it a bash later...egg fried rice and i'll season the chicken i think, add some veg and see what happens. not sure if it'll be a bit dry tho? x

 

[sparty]

Morning! I'm on my way to work with a SW picnic although its a bit overcast at the moment so it might be an indoor picnic

Dinner tonight will be the meatball pasta from the mag!

Hope you have a good day

 

[xmisskx]

you too...and enjoy your picnic

i made the meatball pasta bake the other week....let me know what you think.

its looking sunny and bright here today...but i have the heating on so i imagine it's still chilly....wonder when i'll get to turn the heating off for more than a few hours! *dreads meter reading time for the gas bill* lol x

 

[sparty]

Had a very successful picnic day yesterday although it was indoors in the end. We had cheese salad sarnies for hex A and B, crisps (4 syns), SW coleslaw (2.5 syns) cherry toms and carrot sticks with SW hummus and a massive fruit salad.

Did an 11 hour day so was too tired to do the SW meatball pasta from the magazine. I ended up with a very sorry looking dinner of scrambled egg on toast (B) but I had no milk to put in the egg But had already whisked it up so couldn't stick with poached lol. Very strange experience. I was also hungry after so had some SW chips and an Alpen bar (3 syns)

So all in all I had 9.5 syns for the day but no superfree with dinner - I had lots during the day though.

Today in already on route to work (via replacement bus service as trains aren't running til 10!) with more of the same except egg salad sarnies today.

How was your day yesterday?

 

[xmisskx]

ooh your picnic sounds gooood!

yesterday was ok for me, did a green day and had fruit salad for breakfast, cheesy beano for lunch and quiche, sw chips and salad for dinner. my syns were 10 altogether - for pasta n sauce which i'd used in the quiche (cheese, leek and ham 1), 2 sw ferrero rochers, a mini malteser bunny and some crisps so not bad for a saturday night as i've had some saved all week and thought about having a proper sized piece of chocolate but in the end, i just wasn't really that hungry so didn't bother.

i used the different pasta n sauce for a change on the quiche seeing as me and my OH were having it for tea....it's really nice but i must admit, that one's definitely more tasty when it's warm. (i tasted it once it was done and we had it cold for dinner)

doing EE today and not really sure what the plan is food wise...have a big gammon joint in the fridge which i might cook later but will need to get some veg when we're out today.

up this morning feeling like someone's whacked me around the head a few times lol, hoping it passes once i'm more conscious and have my shower etc.
definitely noticing my PJ's are HUGE on me and doing me no favours at all....keep looking for smaller sizes but they end up too short on the leg and it drives me nuts!
i do like a bit of room in my pj's but honestly, my OH could slip into these at the same time! pmsl.

how come you're having to work all weekend anyway? meant to ask the other day.

what's your plan for today? x

 

[sparty]

Hope you not still feeling like someone has whacked you lol. I'm on my way home now and getting hungry so hopefully the meatball pasta doesn't take ages to cook!! I feel utterly drained but looking forward to a day off tomorrow.

Have you done anything nice this weekend?

I have only had 6 syns so far today on crisps and SW coleslaw. Planning a nice vodka and diet coke and some Special K biscuits after dinner as a treat

Think ill take out a joint from the freezer for dinner tomorrow and do a roast. The extra meat will do for either a soup or sarnies on Tuesday.

I'm doing a load of document control work for my previous job (work that was meant to be done during the close down but time ran out). It involves a lot of shredding of documents and lugging things around but we can't do it while people are working because of the noise. Plus it's an open plan office. So has to be weekends - there will be a few of these going forwards. The overtime will be good though!

 

[xmisskx]

you just answered my next question which was gonna be...i hope you're getting paid extra! lol

feeling better now but only just had dinner!
i got ready earlier and nipped to Aldi for fruit and veg whilst my OH was in the shower. i'd made a sandwich to take out with us but we had it before we left and headed to asda.
it's funny that we buy less and less there each time...only cos i get a lot of fruit and veg in aldi now....but it's good that we're not spending £25 in Aldi then another £60 or something at Asda!

anyway, i ended up having a look at clothes and stuff seeing as we had spare time and picked up a couple of things so going to try them with different things here and can always take them back if they're no good...or i put myself off! lol.
we stopped in at the cafe for a drink and i had some melon while my OH polished off 4 of these cake things....wasn't that fussed!

and dinner was gammon joint, sw roasts, carrots and brussels...de-lish!

i've only had 1 syn so far so might treat myself to a galaxy bubbles bar which is 8 or 8.5. not too sure, but it's in the fridge anyway (so that it lasts me longer...or that's my logic anyway )

my OH is off tomorrow too which is rare...but good, although things changed at this end so we're going to both be off with nothing planned...not to worry, sometimes it's nice just to chill!

anyway, enjoy your vodka....what are your plans for tomorrow?x

 

[sparty]

I'm planning to do absolutely nothing in the morning. Hopefully sleep in a bit and just slob out in front of the tv. Then ill just be pottering about at home and doing some washing/cleaning.

Doesn't sound too exciting but I just need a day at home to get things in order after a truly hectic week tbh. If anything ill be sitting outside with a few cuppas along the way but I can't be arsed to go out lol

Yeah we get overtime plus its time and a half on Sundays lol. Wahoo!! It will come in very handy but I can't wait til its all done. We looked today and reckon its at least 16 days worth - 2 months of overtime!!! Eeeekkkkk!!! We will be spreading it out I hope!!

 

[xmisskx]

eeek...that is a thought...but as you say, the money will be handy and at least this weekend, it's fallen on a bank hol weekend so still manage to get a day off.

yep, i know exactly what you mean about needing a day to get things in order...you make the most of it then...and just enjoy doing bugger all lol.

so...i'm sitting here borderlining emotional meltdown after trying on some of the new things i got earlier. my OH is saying stuff which he means in the best way, but it's making me want to scream at him and how much he doesn't have a clue what he's on about.

last week, i got 2 compliments at work (when i had my jeans on) that i was looking good. of course, it was nice, and i knew that it was cos i had my jeans on and they're more flattering.
after that, i kinda thought right, i need to get some tops and try and get into the habit of wearing my jeans more often, cos i know the things i wear are getting big so not doing much for me and of course, not showing people that i've been working hard to lose a wee bit of weight.
anyway, my OH (and friend) are ALWAYS going on at me for wearing stuff that's too big but i'm one of these people where i refuse, point blank, to wear something that either makes me look like i've squeezed in to it or who won't wear anything if it's going to make me feel uncomfy or paranoid all day.

today, i tried on jeggings - i actually only picked them up to show my OH how hideous i look with stuff like that/skinny jeans, but when i put them on with my boots, they actually looked good. different...but good. so he said i should get them and a couple of the tops i picked up which were in a size 14.
i've told you before how my wardrobe ranges from a size 10 to an 18 and that it all depends on the material etc but i was pleased when i tried on a 14 which i thought would be too small (so picked up an 18 in it aswell!) and found that yep, it fitted...and actually from the tummy down, it was too big and made me look big (it was a dress type thing)

i decided i'd buy what i'd seen and try it on at home with different tops etc then decide if i was keeping them.
so i've just done it and the whole time, my OH was like oooh what a difference, you can really see your shape, it's so much more flattering, don't wear it with a cardigan etc and after a while, i started feeling really uncomfy and wanted to cry!

i tried to explain that trying on things that fit feel physically different on me and the wee bits of belly that i'm conscious of are hidden under my leggings (which are sooo big they practically get pulled up under my bra! lol) or the tops/dresses that are a bit more roomy, so to try something on that sits where it's supposed to, or lower down, makes that bit stick out or for me, emphasises it and whether or not it looks that way, i can see/feel it so wouldn't want to wear something that yes, it might mean people looked and thought, oh she's lost weight, but god she shouldn't be wearing that!

i know it's probably not the case but i think i'm so conscious of what i think when i see how people dress (like my GOD she should NOT be wearing that! lol) that i'm worried people would think that about me.

he ended up going off not amused telling me that i'm just picking out faults about myself and i've come down stairs after taking 5 mins and tried to explain that i'm not being self critical, that the bits that bother me are always there...it's just that wearing something that fits properly, gives me a different feeling physically and its similar to the same feeling that i had almost 3 stone ago, when i decided that my clothes weren't comfortable so i needed to join WW.
he said he gets it and i told him no you don't....but he really doesn't!

i know that my PJ's are HUGE...but i also know that i kinda cover up and hide under stuff and god i wouldn't if i could help it...he doesn't realise that i wish, more than anything, that i had the confidence to wear my arms out....or not walk past with my hand covering whatever area i'm paranoid about trying to make it look like i'm doing something that would justify my hand being wherever it is!
he doesn't realise that i wouldn't wish how i think or feel sometimes on anybody...and it definitely is NOT me being negative about myself etc.

anyway, typing this out has helped a bit...just to be able to say it, in a sense....after your long week, it's prob not the best thing you want to read lol...maybe i should've posted it on my food diary???

aww i dunno...i think it's just how the clothes (which fitted) felt against my skin...made me think: no way, too tight, need a bigger size! but then it's a vicious circle and kinda pointless losing weight if i won't get the right clothes size!
i don't WANT to wear clothes that look too big, i do, however, want to find something that makes me feel good, comfortable and is flattering so need to draw a line somewhere?! just don't know how really!

ooh sorry for having a whinge...he doesn't mean any harm and FYI....i don't wear clothes that would fit the green giant pmsl...its just what i have, is starting to get a bit shapeless...bonus i guess and when i think back to what i was wearing before i joined WW then i know i've done well....hard to explain really, hope you know what i mean?

what did you think of the pastabake then? and are you having your vodka?
maybe that's what i'm needing too?? lol x

 

[sparty]

Awww hun. Meltdowns are not good

What's important is that you wear stuff that you FEEL good in. It's lovely when you get a second glance or a compliment but at the end of the day you need to dress for YOURSELF and no one else.

Ok so you know you look good in jeans and you know you were pleasantly surprised by the leggings - so far all good!

Right so the problem is tops. Are you trying on a totally different shape to normal?! Have you thought about trying a few different shops to see what styles they have?! If you don't like fitted things round you tummy, M&S do nice things sometimes and also Dorothy Perkins. I have some nice tops from DP that are fitted on the neckline and then widen a little (like a 'swing' style if you know what I mean) and they are flattering to wear. Have you thought about trying something like that with a pattern or a bright colour that you can wear with a nice cardie to cover your arms if you don't like them?!

Who cares if noone can see your shrinking tummy?! You need to feel comfortable and stylish but that doesn't necessarily mean you have to wear tight fitting clothes. I'm like you and refuse to wear anything that is uncomfortable - but I do like fitted clothes sometimes. (Depends if I'm having a 'fat day' or not )

I know your OH means well and you can't blame a guy for trying to give you a compliment - especially when you have worked so hard.

I don't think men ever really get stuff like this tbh. They try their best at times but no man I know is ever as self conscious as the women I know. For example, my bf will say "god I need a diet. I've put on weight" and then proceed to have 3 hotdogs for dinner. Lol.

I totally get where you are coming from with using your hand to cover things up. I do that all the Bleedin time. When we go to the pub my bf (gentleman that he is) will get me a stool or chair and I hate telling him that sitting down makes me feel like a whale. It makes my stomach all roll up like I weigh a ton and I have to sit uncomfortable with my hand covering my rolls. But im sure noone notices except me.

Don't ever apologise for having a whine. That's what I'm here for and ill always listen even if I can't help!! try not to dwell on things too much and don't worry if you didn't find something you liked today....there will be other things in other shops that fit lovely and make you look fab!! (Size 14 eh?! Get you... )

The pasta was really nice - def recommend it on an EE day. Tomorrow is EE again and I'm having a roast.

Have had a bath to try and relax my muscles a bit - I'm gonna hurt tomorrow I can tell. I am just sitting down to my vodka now and it's such a nice reward for working hard the last 2 days. Bf is mad at me though because I forgot to record the snooker for him....ooooppppssss!!

 

[xmisskx]

lol...oh you'll be in the bad books hehe

glad you liked the meatballs....i thought the sauce was lacking something a bit....think i mentioned that when i made it before? what did you think of the sauce?
my OH didn't complain right enought.

as for the tops...i kinda need a certain material that doesn't cling and make cellulite appear that's never been noticeable before if you know what i mean? a lot of the primark vests are the type that i like...but avoid (unless it's maybe a darker colour) but i have to be careful cos something that's floaty looks gorgeous on someone who's really thin...but wouldn't do me any favours so in a sense, i'd need it to be a size smaller from under the boobs down (does that make sense?)

i'm quite broad across the back so if i see something that i really like, sometimes i have to leave it cos the size that flatters me is neat across the back but the bigger size is too big elsewhere...chr1st i'm making myself out to be a right weird shape here eh lmao!

so i'm broad across the back, with not much of a bust and a weird belly that i'd rather hide...holy sh1t i sound a right catch eh! (actually lol here!)

i totally get you on the standing up thing...i can literally pick something out and think right, that's ok cos i'll be standing or noooo, can't wear that cos we'll be sitting down....and it's not being crazy...it's just cos it looks how it should when its upright....totally get you there! my OH though, would think i was at it!

he doesn't mean any harm at all, loves the bones of me and is starting to comment when we're in bed about ribs and hip bones etc. he just wants me to be happy and even before i lost any weight, wanted to show me off to the world and that for me, was the hardest thing cos i just wasn't used to it!

i need to have a look round shops but i'm not a fan and to be honest, i'll happily do everything online. would love to walk in to a place and them hand me something and say here, this fits, you suit it, off you go lol. but i'll need to make a conscious decision and go shopping!
the thing with that is when you NEED to go, you see nothing, and when you don't need anything, you see loads....but i also have a love/hate relationship with the mirrors in changing rooms....when nothing goes to plan, i often leave feeling worse so i need to tackle this with the same frame of mind i've been having re the sw plan...and just take it as it comes.

i think what's hard sometimes is the fashion too...i feel right now that you either have to buy the whole look or nothing at all sometimes cos stuff might not look right if you only get say the top- do you get what i mean?
like today, i tried on this long vest thing with coca cola on it, i really suited it, the colours were nice and it was flattering cos i didn't get it in size jumbo (lol) but of course i didn't get it cos i knew i couldn't wear it without a cardi and cos the vest was casual, the cardi would make it look odd. might be ok if i wore it with a head band and some cycling shorts (fek! what a thought lol) but not my cardigan.

aaahhh i've made myself chuckle typing this...gotta laugh or we'd cry sometimes eh!
but tomorrow's a new day and if we go out and about tomorrow, i might just wear something different and break the mould...who knows!

so...the vodka....is it just the one you're having?? x

 

[sparty]

All I would say is..............Changing rooms are the work of the devil!!!! i would much prefer to shop online and try on in my own home. I do this all the time but my trouble is all the shops send me details of their sales and then I get sucked in lol. Not good for my purse.

I don't see why you can't wear a coke vest top and cardie - I would lol. Maybe you could try a different style of cardie to better suit the vest tops you like?! That's an idea!!

We all have our body hang ups and sometimes no matter what anyone says you won't feel comfortable in something. I have a jersey dress that I love but if I wear it with even minimal bloating I look about 5 months pregnant lol. So I rarely wear it these days.

If you are feeling a bit blue from the failed clothes shopping then just look back at what you have achieved. You must be nearly at your target now?! You are doing brilliantly and I'm sure your confidence in new styles of clothes will grow as you learn to love your newer shape try and stay positive hun!

Yep I just had one vodka and filled it up with a good amount of diet coke so it was a substantial drink. Was a real nice treat and I wasn't even tempted to have another actually. I enjoyed it and now snuggling up in bed (bf getting up for work at 7 so no lie in for me boo!!!)

 

[xmisskx]

aww why not...can't you just snuggle up when he's up and away??

the vest was really casual so might look better with a hooded top if you know what i mean(no i'm not a chav lol)...would look ok on it's own without a cover up but i'm not over my bingo wings trauma....i tell you, if they took some skin from my arms, thighs and tummy they could do a recycle your own boob job...then i'd be happy PLUS there's less chance my body would reject it as it wouldn't be a foreign object win win!

need to hope this weight comes off from the tummy down now as so far, it's most noticeable from the head down and if i thought i had no bust before....pffft! honestly, gonna end up with envelope flaps at this rate...and i'll need to change my username to Manilla! hahaha....
(ahhhh gotta have a wee laugh eh!)

that's good that you weren't tempted. i had the galaxy earlier on and really enjoyed it...but kinda thought hmmm for 8.5 syns i could have had a few little things instead. not to worry, done now and it's the 1st proper sized sweet i've had in a while so it was nice.
just counted up that across the week i have saved 28 syns and good thing is, i don't feel i've missed out at all! x

 

[sparty]

I was intending to snuggle up once he had gone but he makes such a fuss and faff because he doesn't get things ready before hand. So I heard him banging around in the kitchen huffing that its a massive mess trying to put lunch together, going through the wardrobes grumbling that he has no clean work clothes (erm.....sorry....I've been at WORK all weekend - while he has been on a stag night and to watch footy in Manchester yesterday!!)

And he so kept getting in and out of bed so he could have another 5 minute snooze!! FFS!! The result is that its just gone 8 and I'm pretty awake! But I have stuck some washing on and come back to bed with a cuppa and my kindle. Might just doze off again but if not ill just relax for an hour.

Are you doing any body magic?! This could help with below the waist losses?! Maybe on your days off you could do something in between cooking?! Like a walk/run/exercise DVD. It will prob help with weight loss too but more importantly it will start to tone your legs and tummy up a bit. I'm going to start the 30 day shred DVD again. That really made a difference for me last time.