JanD into the third year of maintenance :-D

[JanD]

Nice to see you around Mary !

I can't say I have a 'weakest time' except perhaps when I'm working and that's more through boredom I think. Anyhoo - whatever the reason I have decided to stop beating myself up and, indeed, to stop trying so hard!
Apart from whatever I may have put on since monday I am more or less where I was aiming for all that time ago when I embarked on my LT journey. So I have decided - at least for a little while - to forget about trying to lose that elusive half stone to get me to where I feel best. I'm betting I'm not the only person on the planet who wishes they were half a stone lighter .
I keep find myself thinking 'when I've lost the weight' I'll do one of those 'Jusroll Janet' things, 'when I've lost the weight' we can have one of the tesco/M&S/wherever meal deals, 'when I've lost the weight' we can go to that restaurant again or try the new world buffet locally, 'when I've lost the weight' I can take a salad wrap to work again - I used to enjoy those .... or whatever whatever. Yet instead of 'losing the weight' I'm messing about at it!!!
SO!! I'm going to use the shakes/mrbs purely for convenience - when i'm in a rush or out & about or whatever and I'm going to try to eat 'normally' (whatever that is!).
What I need to do is break the 'thing' of anything that isn't 'on plan' setting me off on a munchiefest. I'm back into the cycle of what i used to call 'stuffing or starving' (though I'm never really starving - YOU know what I mean)
I'll still get weighed every week & see how it goes - I think I just need to ease the pressure for a while. Obviously if I start going up I'll have to think again.

I haven't decided whether I'll keep the diary going foodwise but I'll deffo still be here!!

Here's todays at any rate

Thursday 3rd November

Loads of nawties at mum's - biccies, bread with clover & peanut butter, bite size pretend milky ways (3)

breakie - Piece Burgen s&l with clover light & goat's cheese

bed

Tea - Bird's Eye breaded haddock with roasted carrots & parsnips & spinach.

2 slices turkey ham & tiny bit (only bit left) goat's cheese

work - mrb & 2 boiled eggs xx

 

[summergurl]

Loving your new positive outlook to this Jan and you can defo bet your bottom dollar your not the only person wanting to lose half a stone!

I find myself saying the exact same things a you 'when I've lost the weight I can ...' I'm always saying yeah ok we'll have such and such for lunch/dinner but then I always back out because I feel it's just tooooo nawty! I know my friends & Stevie get annoyed at it sometimes too!

Hopefully you can get back to being happy with where u are - just look at how far you've come and like u say your more or less where u wanted to be in the first place.

Oh and don't you dare disappear from here!!!!!!!!!!!! :giggle: xxxx

 

[JanD]

LOL! Not a chance!! I think I'd feel as though I'd chopped a limb off If I didn't come on here

I can only try it out and see what happens but I do feel as though I've lifted a weight off my shoulders (shame it wasn't my hips eh! ) by taking the pressure off. However if I start to regularly gain it'll be a different story.

Thanks for your support .... do you know it's nearly a year since we met up??!! xx

Oh and thanks to whoever repped me xx

 

[summergurl]

Oh wow yeah of course!!!!
Glad u feel alot better about it xxx

 

[JanD]

Had 4 squares of choc a couple of hours ago. All the more enjoyable coz no guilt!!! xx

 

[irish molly]

I like your change of thinking to your intake. I honestly believe feeling "deprived" or " I can't have this" leads to bingeing. It does in my case.
I prefer the more positive spin of "I can have this( biscuit, stodge etc), but do I want or need it right now".
Accentuate the positive! You are where you were a year ago and that is a great achievement.
So good for you!

 

[kered]

I think your new positive approach will benefit you in the long run Jan, we need to feel comfortable around food, and if we tend to think that what we are eating, out of our otherwise chosen menu for the day, is naughty food etc, its bound to have an adverse attack on the train of thought.

Like you say, give it a little while and see how it goes. What about looking that thread out again with someone on the shoulder........cant remember his name :8855:

 

[JanD]

Fred I think Mary .... I have looked at all these things lately & nothing seemed to help :sigh: ....

I will have to give this a little while and ride out any initial gains till I get used to the idea 'I can have whatever I want and it needn't turn into a binge' ...... It did at Mum's tonight unfortunately .. but it's early days xx

 

[kered]

Its all a new learning curve again Jan, its getting your mind into the right place so that you are not giving yourself a hard time.

Practise makes perfect hun.

 

[summergurl]

Practise makes perfect hun.

Sure does. You'll get there Jan xxx

 

[JanD]

Fingers crossed - thanks guys xx

 

[JanD]

Ate FAR TOO much this morning .... Who thought it was a good idea to make a 6 item breakfast in Tescos £1.50??!!! It was my duty really wasn't it??!! And this was AFTER enjoying a breakfast at Mum's

Feeling a bit wobbly about this 'I can have anything' not calming down from 'I'm having EVERYTHING!! NOM NOM NOM!!!' But hope I can stick with it until it does ... (?) xx

 

[summergurl]

6 items £1.50 ... it'd be criminal to refuse! lol
Stick at it for a while see if you can get into the swing of things just keep an eye to the scales make sure its not going in the wrong direction and make sure you're still feeling comfortable in your clothes etc you'll soon work it out xxx

 

[kered]

Give it a couple of weeks Jan, and even though you are eating anything sort of approach, a healthy approach, but with real food rather than MRB's might be a better solution - but I agree, 6 items for £1.50 - WHOOOOOOO in their right minds can possibly refuse?

 

[JanD]

HaHa I knew you'd all understand the £1.50 thing!!!

I hope it'll settle down ..... otherwise there'll be another big rethink xxx

 

[kered]

Bloody hard this malarky aint it!

Seriously, why dont you try preparing a menu for the week, make it three hearty meals, and hopefully this will stop you from wanting to snack. What about the GI/GL approach too, you were quite up on that plan when you spoke about it before.

 

[JanD]

:sigh: I'm fed up already! LOL!! I don't think there's any hope for me. My head's all over the place. I know I'll have put on what I lost last week & more besides, when i get weighed tomorrow so it's soooo tempting to try to keep on with 2 meal replacements & a low carb meal until I'm at a more comfy weight. I really don't want to go back over 11st - which is a real possibility.

Oh I don't know ..... Maybe you're right about the plan for 3 hearty meals & GL'ing at the same time. And then I think - well that's a plan .. a 'diet' & isn't that what I'm trying to get away from??

I really really don't know

I had a mousse for breakie today purely because John brings my breakie up on a sunday and he isn't yet educated in alternatives - I suggested I might have weetabix and he practically had a panic attack ... ' how many? which bowl? how much milk? how much splenda? which spoon?' so i was like 'ofgs - I'll have a mousse!!'

I've got 2 boiled eggs which I may have with some salad in a wrap for lunch and there's stacks of veg in so it'll probably be a pork steak with some of those for tea.

While a big chunk of me wants to eat as little as possible to minimize the damage in the morning, part of me still wants to persevere with the 'eating proper' thing ... :sigh:

I'll be having the v&cs either way xx

 

[summergurl]

Had to laugh at all the Q's John asked for a bowl of weetabix! :giggle:

Do what you feel is right for today - if you want to eat then eat but if you want to cut back then do. Either way, enjoy your v&c's xxx

 

[JanD]

Put on 2.8lbs :sigh:

I'm going with the 'proper' food thing for this week anyway. Trouble is I've got 3 meals out so will have to watch what I order and try to keep away from the 'eating everything in sight' temptation xx

 

[kered]

LOL @ John, typical bloody man haha.

I know the GI/GL approach might seem like a 'plan' - 'diet' Jan, but surely its a more healthy stable diet than 2 MRB's and a low carb meal? I would find that more of a diet/plan to have to stick to two bars and a meal with no carbs in the evening, I would think that would make me go right for snacking/picking etc, but we are all different and think different ways, so best of luck for this coming week for your meals out chick. I know its hard.

Come on hun, just think healthy/filling...........no diets, you will get there.