my diary ~ no more CD for me

[kati]

well I didn't leave myself much time to get ready and finally settled on wearing my short skirt and boots with flesh coloured tights and a plain black wrap over top with a set of sparkly beads to make it look a bit more dressed up. I felt a bit of a mess to be honest but apparently I didn't look it to other people!

Usually I can go all nigt and people will stare but no one will come over to me to try and chat me up or anything but last night the men were like flies around ..er..poo just being polite lol. There were a few people there I haven't seen since before I started the diet and the compliments were coming from all sides. It helped make me feel better about not being so dressed up. I was tempted to go home and change my shoes cos my feet and ankle were killing by about 10 o clock but I lasted till 1 and only went home beciause someone had gotten way too possessive over me. He chased away a few men telling them I was his or something like that. I do actually know this bloke, we were kind of seeing each other not long after I split up with my ex but he didn't have a mobile phone and lived with his mam and dad and kept telling me to ring him at certain times but then wouldn't be in. So I ended up talking to his mam more than him so I thought sod it and never rang him again. He was too lazy to ever bother ring me and neer came to see me either so as soon as I stopped making the effort then nothing ever happened. If I saw him out after that I'd hide out of the way so he wouldn't see me. But my friend thinks his friend is gorgeous (he is, he's kind of like a young Jude Law, think Alfie mmmm lol) so she was straight over to talk to them as soon as she saw them so I couldn't avoid him. After that he didn't leave my side apart from going to the toilet. He tried all sorts of ways into letting him come home with me and was very disappointed that I wouldn't.

There was another one who must be at least 50 kept sayin Oh you look fantastic can I take you out sometime please please please. I must have said no about 100 times yet he still tried!!!! what a pain. He's a friend of a friend type thing, I know for a fact he's a bit of an alcoholic. He does nothing but drink day and night. Not for me.

There was another one too, another ex ...er... spark (wouldn't say old flame it didn't last long enough lol) well he apologised for treating me badly in the past and offered to let me give him a slap for it. He made excuses and told me he's really not like that usually he just had stuff he really had to do then (yeah yeah whatever) and he asked me for my phone number! I told him I wasn't going to do that again. He went off for a bit and his friend came over asking if I'd given him a piece of my mind etc..He came back again later asking for my number again so he can prove hes not so bad after all. Well I gave him it but doubtanything will happen with him because I think he's only just changed his mind about me becase I'm thinner now. Not impressed. He'll have to work extra hard if he wants to get anywhere with me. However he does have this smile which I'm sure gets him a lot of what he wants lol. Plus it has been awkward in the past because his nephew is a friend of one of my kids. I'd see his sister in the school yard and hide because of him I just didnt want to talk to her.

I took the kids to a craft fair this morning to see if there was anything we could get for last minute pressies. There was a bloke at the door and he didn't want to let us in. He thougt I was a kid too and that we would just cause truble or steal or somthing!!!! Now I know people think I look young but thats just ridiculous

 

[kati]

thanks Kate but I'm not going out tonight it was last night. You're soooo right though.

 

[kati]

oh I have to mention too about this lad who cant have been much more than 20 came and asked me to dance. I said no thnks my feet hurt. then he tried to kiss me so I told him I wasn't going to do that I didn't know a thing about him or anything. then he said "but I'm a soldier" as if I should fall at his feet and worship him for it. Poor thing got a sharp sending off but I couldn't help finding it hilarious

 

[KateF]

Must have been posting while you were and not realised it was last night-

well- yep, my post now looks like a prediction!
Sounds like you dealt with all the attention in style- good on yer!

 

[sonkie]

Wow a boost to ur confidence then, all these men even the leeches complimenting you, a compliment nethertheless. You must feel great.
Congratulations on you weight loss

Sonkie

 

[kati]

thanks, it was a bit of an ego boost last night.

 

[sonkie]

I am so looking forward to getting to that point, oooooooo its so exciting

Sonkie

 

[kati]

well i'm sure you'll be having all this soon yourself. I'm sure it sounds a lot more exciting than it feels though.

 

[kazz]

HI Nikki, sounds like a good night in general though....lots of attention is a good thing!! I'm sure you looked fab despite wat you think...leeches can be a problem though!! Cant believe you got stopped going into the craft place!! WTF?! I remember during the summer myself and a friend were in tescos buying a bottle of vodka, I'm 25, shes 28, and they refused to serve us cos we didnt have ID!! The manager, who was all of about 12 told us not to even attempt to buy drink in there again unless we had ID with us!! So the 2 of us fell about the place laughing and I think that annoyed him even more!! The age thing is bizarre!! Ego boosts are soooo good....hopefully you will have a lot more over the next while as well!!

 

[kati]

well it can be funny, embarrassing or just a pain when that happens cant it. I thought it was hilarious today though cos there's no way I look THAT young. most people assume early 20's even though I'm 32 in less than a month.

The night was ok apart from the sore feet. i get annoyed with my friend though, she might as well go out on her own cos she spends most of the time going off to talk to other people instead of us. It's even worse when there used to just be the two of us out together cos she's one of these people who will stand with her back to you so you get totally left to your own devices while she enjoys herself. It's all me me me as far as she's concerned and I couldn't be bothered with it last night.

However it was wonderful to go out and not feel like the fat friend for once. Specially when I was getting so many compliments all night about how fantastic I was looking, even from people I'd never expect to even notice. There was one comment about how it was a shame my boobs have shrunk but apparently I'm still ok even though they're gone (huh!)

But I've got a thing about examining body shapes now lol I wish I was pear shaped. Pear shaped people look much better in my opinion. I was out with 3 friends last night. All 3 different shapes. Karen pear shaped, joanne hourglass and denise upside down triangle. They're actually biggest to smallest in that order too. Last time I was out with Joanne was just before I started the diet and she seems to have gained weight. She used to be very slim and complained she couldn't put weight on, but now I'm sure shes bigger than me.

Karen can get away with being the biggest because she is tall and with her being pear shaped she looks slimmer because her arms and neck and everything look slim so people dont care that she's bigger further down. joanne is like me, if she puts on weight it goes on everywhere so she looks bigger more quickly than someone who is pear shaped. Denise has the worst shape I think because her top half looks great, You'd think she's the perfect size till you look down. Her legs are so skinny so she looks to thin there. But if she were to put on weight you'd only see the top half of her and wouldn't even notice her legs. So now I don't care who goes on about how tiny her waist is.

 

[kati]

well I should be tidying the house right now but it can wait. I decided to finally weigh myself. I thought I'll change my ticker cos I must have put on so much weight it'll be nowhere near right any more. BUT I am only 2 pounds heavier than I was!!!! so thats a surprise and I'm not going to change my ticker for a measly 2 pounds. So I haven't undone lots of hard work I'm proud of myself lol.

Got a busy day today. I need to buy food and today is the last day I can go christmas shopping without the kids in tow and the last chance to wrap presents without waiting for hours til they go to sleep. urgh. i hate wrapping presents and the do keeps running away with the sellotape.

 

[sonkie]

Well done on not putting on what you expected

Sonkie

 

[Isobel1965]

Hey girl - well done on the measly 2lbs - that's really good!!!!

Sounds like you had a good night out! Men can be sooo sorry once they've realised what they've lost, hey? lol I hope you took great satisfaction in sending them on their way again!

heheh!!

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

[kati]

Thankyou I cant believe I didn't put on an extra stone lol but it does prove that you can go back to eating and not go wild with it doesn't it? I'm pleased about that.

It's temptation city in here now. I've just been doing the food shopping for over christmas. I spent £160 in sainsburys and was looking out for spaghetti carbonara all the way round! I got lots of stuff for me to be able to stick to my 790 lifestyle too lol and lots of sweet stuff for the kids (I know I should make them eat more healthily too but it is chrsitmas)

I was soo hungry when I got in I was going through all the bags trying to find something to eat straight away. So I've cooked a chicken breast and made some fizzy water with cd flavouring in (1st time I've tried it ,quite nice) and I thought i have to take a break before putting it all away or I would have stuffed myself. So here I am.

I opened a few letters this morning and discovered I've overpaid my dorothy perkins card so decided to have a look in there and see what I could get since I've already spent that money anyway. So I went straight to the shoes (my feet have shrunk, only trainers boots or sandals fit now cos they're tied on so need some proper shoes) I noticed the boot I've been dying to fit into so I could by them had been reduced to £25 so I thought I'm going to get them! So they don't fit me yet, they will when I get to goal. They better anyway. So I got those and a silver belt and a pair of wolly gloves. Also a proper pair of shoes.

I went into asda and looked at the bras, for some reason the big ones now are all horrible. I really need my boobs to shrink still.

I managed to get my nephews present, the last minute jenga request from my kids and lots of chocolate but couldn't find the pirates f the caribbean dvd game anyway. Got no money left though and still have to get my sister something too. No idea what to get her. But that going to have to wait till next week when I get paid again.

Anyone want to put this food away for me?

 

[kati]

I decided to try my boots on with tights instead of bare legs and woohoo the right one fastened straight away. but the left one didnt.

However the right one is the one people will have been trying on in the shop (ew dont want to think about that) so it'll have stretched a bit.

I have got the other one fastened now though and yay I have knee high boots!!! proper zip up ons that arent going to fall down every time I take a step!

Plus they have lower heels than my other ones so I will be able to wear them longer.

wooohoooo!!!!!

 

[sonkie]

Play.com are good for dvds and games, pretty good delivery times and free delivery.

Congratulations on ur boots, iv not been able to wear boots for years.

Sonkie

 

[kati]

thanks for that, but the only problem is I leave for work before 7 and dont get back till after 5 so would never be able to get it if it doesn't fit through the letter box. Even if it gets taken back to the royal mail depot I'm still not able to get there for their opening times so I daren't order anything off the internet.

 

[kati]

I still haven't put the food away, all the frozen stuff will be defrosting!!!

I'm not so hungry now so should do it straight away but I don't ant to take my boots off now I've got them on lol

 

[kazz]

Congrats on the boots hun!!!! Thats fantastic that you can get into them now!!!

With regards to play.com, I THINK (not 100% sure) but I think that you can give them a different delivery address to where your card is held, so you could get your stuff delivered to work maybe?!

 

[kati]

Thanks Kazz. I'll give it a go.

Well..There's just not enough hours in the day any more.

As I was setling down to watch hogfather ast night my friend rang and asked if I fancied going out for a drink so of course I had to say yes. We went out and she bought me a pint (!) of cider so I had to drink it. So I had another one (!!) and ok a bit more. Was rather tipsy, then got starving as obviously not in ketosis and hadn't eaten for days so ate crisps!!!! Did well eh? ho hum, it's done now and I had a good time. she did however put my name down for karaoke so I ended up having to get up and sing. I got quite a crowd watching me lol (about 4 men/boys came and stood in front of the little stage thing to watch me) then my neighbour came up and said oooh I didn't know you could sing. I was thinking well why would you? but just said well I try lol.

So the presents I was going to wrap last night are still sat in my living room. I have to go to my sisters and babysit in a few miutes so don't have time to wrap them tonight either. then the kids will be home about half an hour after I get in from work tomorrow so looks like it's going to be 2 am christmas morning when I get the chance to do it.

I'm so tired I don't want to babysit. I want to go and have a bath then go to sleep. It didn't seem too busy at work today but it must have been judging by the takings. I suppose it was steady, we never had a queue out the door but never stood still for long. Got an order for tomorrow for 15 sausage and bacon sandwiches for 10 20 so have that to look forward to just as the builders working on the church usually come in for loads of bacon sandwiches and stuff. One of these builders is quite nice (he he it's not all I think of honest). One of his mates has been going on about how the nice one likes me but was probably just winding him up to embarrass him or something. They live miles away though so no good even if he really does. Cant work out his age either but would probably say early to mid 20's, hmm. I'll probably go red thinking about it when he comes in tomorrow. Must admit he has been in the shop more than the others cos they just come in for morning breaks and he has been in at lunch times too.

I am on my own from 3 o clock in the shop so i usually lock the door then. Just after I'd locked it today a regular customer came to the door, he just wanted a coffee and I hadn't cleaned the machine yet so I let him in. He went and locked the door again after him saying something about keeping everyone else out. I'd purposely made sure it wasn't locked so didn't really feel comfortable with him locking the door behind him. He stayed there talking for about 20 minutes too! I hate being rude but I think if he does that again I'm going to have to be, it's just not on.

I soooo don't want to go and babysit. I need this time to get things done in my own house without kids around and I need sleep. I don't think I'm going to get any sleep tonight cos I have to put everything away again adn sort clothes out for the twins party tomorrow and everything.

They better not stay out late tonight or I'm going to be fuming

Oh tried the broccoli and cheese soup tonight. It's not as nice as the cup a soups I'm used to but only because it's not quite as creamy and has no pasta in it. But I still liked it.