...seems lyk sucha long way to goooooooo i wna petite as weneva i see a shortishh girl they are alwasy reli slim n all of dat...dnt mind curves bt hate the luv handles n big waist.. i av no idea hw iv dun it was orrible i onli got one question which i kno for defoo that i av got rite n where i will probz get a high numba of marks on bt the other two omdz no idea at all...:S.. :S...soo disappointed in maself...bt goin out 2nite so hpefully will feeel better ma waist size accordin to the cdc is 33 inches dat accordin to skirt size is lyka size 10 bt i am nowher near a size 10 so dnt reli get that...she sed she will xplain it to me propaly wen she nx sees me n also ma mate she measured me with a tape measure n it sed 41 :/ which was ma start size accordin to the cdc can ne1 xplain y dat is da case...:s....thnx...buh buh js wnt it to wrk dat lil bit faster lol... felt soo gd to b freee finally lol...ad abt 3 drinks in totall...was on a nyc leevel nt completely gone lol....n yh dancced da nite away..buhh at the end of the nite all ma mates got food so i ended up gettin a chi strip meal dint eat the chips doe n onli reali managed 2 strips outs of the 4 that they gave soo was quite proud of that...bt av no idea hw that will affect ma weight this was inda early hrs of the mrning btw....lol lyk cud hear the birds singing by this tym....ma head is hurtin bt wudnt call it a hangova n i feel bloated frm lst nite n the food :S.........ohh crap i hpe its nt effected ma weight too much i dnt even av any scales that i can easily jump on to see.............i ended up txin ma cdc late lst nite goin on abt hw much i relii wna lose this weight lol hpe she ws kk with dt this was wen i was at the nyc happy stage lol...shanny loool...woman u reliii need to get msn lol....soo much easier sumtymz to talk on there rather then avin to wait around ere for ur posts lol....all i wnt is ma daft waist to decrease lool n ma weight to keep goin dwn lol....its probz gna b a crap weight loss this week wt with the drinks nt he pieces of chicken init or u tink i cud rectify this prblme by jumpin straight bk on to the diet strtin frm 2dai even tho i ad the chicken in the eraly hrs of the mnring#/??? i aint got nuttn else planned this week as in goin out or nuttin lyk that cz sum of ma mates still gt examss so we waitin till they officially finish themselves....soo wt u tink? shanny i can tel u hw to dwnload msn if u wna lloool.... luvyaa tc mwaahz :'( i bort celery, and carrots n low fat cottage cheese which ma cdc had told me i cud av n i was well proud of buyin all this healthy stuff yh n then i came home n ended up makin a hand ful of pasta in ma head i knew it was rong...n yet i ended up aving 4 forkfuls of pasta n then i threw the rest away bt its still bludy carbs dat goin in ma body n lyk i sed i knew when i was eatin it was wrong ohh im dredin seein ma cdc nx mon i dnt kno if i will b able to fix ma blips by thennn.......any advice wud help me soo much honestly...plz elppppp so ima tinkin its eitha gna b 2dai if i can last or 2mo frm mrning that i am goin to jump bk on the wagon again coz there is no point in me doin half a day of ss n then av food at sum point durin the day coz then that wudnt b ss....so i admit iv dun crap bt frm the day i decide to jump bk on the wagon ima determined to do this propaly.......n if i do decide to cave in 2dai if it apens...which im hopin will nt, then its gna b sumat small n grilled so hpefully will still b hhealthy..........i reli need sum1 to lyk gimi a kik up ma bum to get me bk into gear ppl.. iv dun reli wel i kno i av bt for sum dnt kno whether it was the mon that kikstrted it off bt since then iv been findin it reli difficult gettin bk on it...i went shoppin yday bought a size 10 tube dress n a size 12 stripy dress frm new look...was disappointed that the size 12 wasn a size 10...bt oh well n i relii wna b slim nuf to av a nyc fit on it coz it fits me bt coz its fitted u can see evry bludy bit of the luv handles ...so plz shanny espc lol feel free to gimi a bit of a go or a lecture or a motivational lecture to me at sum point....iv still got four days to go til weigh in...i relii aint expectin much at all bt see hw it goes i am terrified to see ma cdc ....
...n its soo much better coz den u av online convos rather then always avin to wait around to posts n that...my weigh in is on nx mon i am terrified lol that i av eitha gained or nt lost ne at all..........n i am worried for monday i relii am dreadin that day...:S........had ma mrning shake abit ago...drank half a pint of water....n keep it up for the rest of day...goin home 2nite bt ova the weekend i am js goin to sstik to lentils on its own n have it as a soup...ma rents will js av to understand that i am tryin to lose weight and that i am determined to stik to it this tym n that things lyk rice and curries will always be there after i av finished this diet...i am goin to stik to it til abt july tym and then after that i tink i will probz give up...hopin that i will get to aim by then....or mite start it again it again in august wen i go home officialy....nt decided as yet....depends hw much i lose...well this week i have had food so nw that i have had it i am kinda satisfied that it is in my body n hpefully will not crave for it again or cave is as easily as this tym round..fingers crossed..i need all the support i can get i know 2 stone n a bit don't sound lyk much hence da reason i kno i can do it coz iv read other ppl's diaries hu av successfully lost more then me n are lukin fab......wish me luck ppl n will probz see u again on sunday evening if u dnt hear frm me frm the rest of the evening...weekend shud b kk got wrk to go to n then after that ima sleep lol which is wt i tend to do neway...6am shift n all of dat...goin to do sum hsewrk this weekend try n keep ma mum happy lol she tends to av a go at me for cumin home ova da weekned goin to wrk n then knockin out early wen i cum home n nt elpin with the housewrk ova da summer hollidays i am goiin to try n maintain my weight byu keepin maself busy n nt tinkin abt food soo much....goin to wrk n being out and abt i can do this even with the odd blip iv realsied dt sum of u still lose...so i am goin to carry on with this til iv lost hweva much i need to lose.....ur support n wrds of advice wud b very much appreciated by me....thnkuu... ...i can do this n i will do this....sum1 talkin me thru this will elp me i kno it will...so ne1???......aint even got ne scales...if i stik to it 100% then i mite even lose a lot mre then i av been losin the past two weeks....hpe so newayz...:S... nt lukin forwrd to it at all av a feelin its gna b a hell of a long shift 2mo.....n the sme on sunday...
