Hi i`m back again lol

Roch - hope Ebony has had no side effects from her little escapade - and great you are taking her out for so many walks. It will do her good and you.
 
Hi Roch :D :D :D SO impressed by your grit and determination and positivity. :D Simply wonderful! Don't overdo the exercise.. gently does it to begin with - we want to see a new, fit and healthy Roch.. not a knackered one! lol
:D Really pleased for you.
 
Hi Roch Sweetheart ....

How are you doing? How's your gorgeous son and cute doggy?
 
Hiya Roch,
Hope your ok how you getting on with Ebony hope your steering clear of the puppy puddles .
We have been walking Millie this weekend i tell ya walking on the beach is far more taxing than i remember :eek: sore legs today but considering foodwise i have gone haywire the exercise has to be a plus .
Hope to see you posting soon :D lotsa love Julie xxxxxxxx
 
Hi, have not been around recently have been feeling very low and feel like i am going backwards big time emotionally !!

Last week i went shopping and was in 2 shops first marks and spencers as i had some vouchers 2 use which i got from doing a survey as i was walking around minding my own buisness this rude little girl turned round and said so loud to her mum "look mum look at that really fat lady " the mum did not ever tell her off and the girl said it so loud that qute a few others heard, i felt so shame, i know i am enormous and people stare all the time but for some reason thos really hurt me, so i left my shopping and got as fast as i could out of M&S, and decided to go to tesco as i desperately needed shopping,so i was walking up the isle of tesco`s getting diet stuff"cottage cheese" and this rude lady was staring at me then blatantly infront of me nudged the woman she was with and said something 2 her then she was staring at me, and they made it so obvious ,then i was furious and i had to take all my strength to not run my mouth and make a fool of myself so i moved away as fast as i could and in the process my heel on my boot broke and i fell to the floor and twisted my ankle and when tesco staff tried to help me i refused help and just took my time and heaved myself up off the floor by holding onto the side of the fridge and just like i did not an hour ago left my shopping and got out of the shop as fast as i could.

I have had enough of people staring at me, i feel shame and disgusted with myself enough for allowing myself to get to the size i am looking like i do why do people have to be so cruel and nasty.

So i have decided to not go shooping for the moment and just shop online and i am back to staying at home apart from walking ebony.
I lost 4 lb last week which makes 19lbs in 2 weeks but i am not pleased with myself at all,ki know everyone will say well done for losing the 4lb and thats so good losing 19lbs in 2 weeks but i am sorry i cant feel happy just angry, dissapointed and hate myself so much at the momment for putting myself in theses situations.

I dont want to eat no more, even the past 4 or 5 days i have hardly eaten anything,just bare minimum maybe 600 cals a day and that has been having 2 of my lipotrim shakes and a small sandwich just enough so i can take my pain killers which must sound so stupid coming from someone like me who weighs so much but i feel so angry and annoyed with myself that i dont want to eat.

I have tried so hard to ignore stares and remarks all the time but all this in one day is far 2 much for me 2 cope with !!
Think i might just take my Lipotrim shakes as i really dont want to eat at all !!!

Sorry have not responded to any posts but am not in the right frame of mind at the momment and i did not want to sound like i was whingeing 2 much.
Thanks x
 
Sorry to hear you are feeling so rough.

It's awful that people think it's OK to be rude to you! <hugs>

You are losing weight though - 19lb in 2 weeks is fantastic, and you are well on your way to the 2 stone mark!

Amy
 
hey Roch,
thats so awful that people can be that blatant about you, almost to your face, but hun, you are a strong woman & as hard as it is, you need to reiterate to yourself that you are doing something possitive about your life.
remember - you are overweight & doing something about it, they are nasty & will probably never change, now who's the better person, you or them ?
xx:)
huggs n love
 
Oh Roch, sorry you had such a horrible day but you mustnt let that stop you going out. People can be rude but YOU know you are doing the best you can to get yourself healthly and part of that plan has to be getting out of the house. It is hard to ignor stares and comments, i know i work with not very lovely 15/16 year olds every day, but now i smile smugly to myself knowing i wont be this way for very much longer. You have a lot to be proud of yourself for, you have raised a son who sounds very kind and considerate, single handedly, you have a lovely home and you have never given up this struggle. Yes you may have days even weeks where you stray off path but you always come back fighting the fight to health. Hold your head up, stand tall and keep going. You will get there.:)
 
They are the ones with the problem pretty lady. You will get slimmer - they won't get nicer. I'm with Happe here - don't let them stop you doing what you want to do - go out hold your head high, you have done nothing to feel ashamed of.
 
Oh Roch, don't let those small minded and downright nasty people stop you, you are so much better than they are, you are a beautiful person, you are kind, caring, loving, generous, have pride & dignity and you will still have all these things when you are smaller - something they will never have.

Stay strong & focussed, you can do it.

Big ((((hugs))))
xxxx
 
Roch that is awful, how much have you got to lose, I weighed 25st 5lbs when I started out and am now at 21st 8lbs....!

I had this problem last week too at my first aid course....I was picked out of the group to prove that a skinny person could put a "fat" person into the recovery position easily by using there body weight......I let this pass, then came a question about if you could get away with using 1 hand for chest compressions on an adult, he pointed to the stick insect (dont rememeber her name) saying you could for her, then pointed at me and said you`d definately need 2 on her....!

Well I was miffed to say the least.....so I am prepared for this saturday ....if he says anything like that again I will have my say....there was a couplke of us a bit larger than the rest but I was the biggest.
 
Roch you are so pretty dont let these nasty, vindictive small minded people get the better of you, You have to be one of the strongest people on this site with good advice for everyone who needs it.

Take care hun be strong. xxx
 
i get the comments and stares too roch. i have 10 stones to lose and i am only 4'11 so it really shows! i knwo telling u how fab u r doing dont make going out feel any easier but i just wanted you to know i think u r gorgeous, and am inspired by ur determination and strength.

u will get to the end of this journey and every week u will feel better than the week before. i have to force myself to go out as well and i try to hold my head up but it aint easy. would love to tell u to sod em all and dont let them stop u but that would be hypocritical of me. i know its difficult but we r getting there. as already said, u'll get slim but those people will still be aXXXholes!!

u really are a strong and wonderful woman roch. try not to forget that.

xxxxx
 
Hey sweetheart

Firstly, I can't say anything that will take away the pain the u're feeling right now, but all I can say is this will get easier. U're on ur way to a new life - if it takes 6 month, 1 year, 2 years - it doesn't matter, u have already set the ball in motion and u're doing something about it.

Secondly, not eating won't make u lose weight hun. Ur body will go into starvation mode, and when u do eat u will get a gain on the scales - this will knock ur confidence and possibly knock u off track. It's vital, that anyone with PCOS, eats little and often - if U don't u're insulin levels will go crazy and will make u feel even lower than u feel already. SO please honey, please eat little and oftern - even if it's only a carrot or a piece of wholemeal toast or fruit. PLease please do this hun, u've come too far to let stupid bitches set u back.

Right, now u know I love u love bits don't ya??? Hmmm??? Well loads of ppl on this forum do too, so it doesn't matter if u don't reply to threads etc, right now u need to take some time out for yourself and realise how beautiful u are. Please realise, that altough u may not beleive that u are beautiful, others see in u what u cant see within urself.
I understand all about the blue days hun, dealing with a weight problem and PCOS is not somethin I'd wish on my worst enemy - I totally completely and utterly understand the emotions u're feeling.
If u need to e-mail me [email protected] or simply write on ur thread, but please please keep intouch hun.

Thinkin of u and sending u lots of love and hugs

Much love, chelle xx
 
Hi Roch,

Its cr*p. I know how you feel - I was once walking in my local park and a little brat shouted "look at that really fat woman" to me. I was really upset, it does really knock you. The fact is I "wear" my weakness - people who are addicted to drugs or alcohol instead of food can hide and be acceptable to strangers - we get the instant judgement.

Hold your head up high because you are doing something about it and its working - 19lbs!!!! Rejoice in your sucess and give yourself the credit you deserve. Please dont stop eating - I totally agree with Chelle, it will wreck all your good work. Just grit your teeth and by the summer you will be alot closer to where you want to be. You will show them Roch!

Hugs

Ax
 
Hi Roch

Just wanted to say - I wish I had been there, I would have torn them off a strip or two. What the hell makes people think they have the right to say or do that stuff.

Children are different, the say it how it is.. it's hard and hurtful and their parents should tell them that it is rude to say but they are kids.. and that. I'm afraid is how they are. I have lost track of the times I have had the same thing happen to me and I have dashed home in floods of tears. You are not alone.

I beg you though.. do not let them beat you. You are so much more than them. Try and wear a coat of emotional armour if you can. I know its very hard. Do not lock yourself away, you are a beautiful person and the problem is with them and their ignorance. You are better than them. Miles better.

You are taking positive action to make the changes you want to happen, happen. Don't let some obnoxious old witches stop you being the person you want to be honey.

If you can't face going out for a couple of days then send Aaron with a list of your GI foods.. you can do this.. LL and a sandwich is not a good way for you... you need the mix of foods that enabled you to a) stick to the plan and b) enjoy the variety that you need and want

So please Roch, try and get above this... petty malicious bints have no power over you.. and just think.. in a few months time you could go in that same shop and have the confidence to walk right up to them and tell them how they made you feel!

Sending you such a big loving hug in the hope that you can see that these are people whose opinions are worth less than Ebony's 'parcels' !!

Take care and be good to yourself, you've nothing to be ashamed of. You are lovely. x
 
I came on your thread to say few firmly worded views about the rudeness you endured .but the others have said it all & better, particularly FFnF above.So all I can do is say ditto, & hear,hear to all the above. Don't let people of no significance interfere with what's really important.Don't let their problems & personalities sully the work that you have started so well.
 
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