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kati
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I had some false tan in the bathroom I tried putting it on last night but it's made no difference to my bruises. will have to try lots of makeup on my neck the rest can be hidden.
I have a kind of chinese style top (with the kind of collars they have cant think what you call them) I could wear that will hide my neck a bit but that leaves the finger marks on my arm bare if I take my jacket off. I cant think which is worse right now.
I got rudely awoken by my nose deciding to bleed this morning. I hate when that happens (it's a regular thing since I was a kid had operation to stop it but it hasn't) It's funny how I always wake up as soon as it happens though, saves my lovely white pillowcases getting stained though.
got lots of texts from mr mechanic who is obviously worried I'm not going to want him after meeting someone else. it too late for that isnt it.
I decided I couldn't bear it any longer and got my scales out lol. Actually I just did it as soon as the nosebleed stopped without thinking. So my scales have now caught up to Isobels and I'm definately 11 stone 3. that is sooo close to being in the 10's I can't wait! I can't even remember the last time I was that light. I know I was about 10 1/2 when I was at school. I had to get checked out because I have a goiter or however you spell it and I remember the dr commenting that I was fat
they decided not to remove it because it might have just been fat and they couldn't be bothered. Now every time I go to the dr's they notice it and make me get blood tests for my thyroid. I was 9 1/2 stone after giving birth to my twins so will have put another stone on when I stopped breastfeeding them. Have you ever tried breastfeeding twins/ you need to eat and drink soo much to make enough milk for them and it's a habit that is hard to get out of once you stop breastfeeding. Plus I was stuck in the one room with them all day every day so hardly got any exercise (I couldn't physically manage the 3 babies any other way). so anyway lol there's a bit of a moan, but it means I must have been heavier than that for at least 10 years. Wow all that time wasted when I could have just found this diet years ago.
I'm not reall nervous about this date tonight. I know the bloke well enough not to be nervous about him, I just am about the bruises and what am I going to wear, and me having to pick where we go. We've arranged to go for a drink and then to the cinema. We're just going to see whats on when we get there cos I didnt want to have to make that decision and have him sit there bored becaue he didnt like what i've picked.
I have a kind of chinese style top (with the kind of collars they have cant think what you call them) I could wear that will hide my neck a bit but that leaves the finger marks on my arm bare if I take my jacket off. I cant think which is worse right now.
I got rudely awoken by my nose deciding to bleed this morning. I hate when that happens (it's a regular thing since I was a kid had operation to stop it but it hasn't) It's funny how I always wake up as soon as it happens though, saves my lovely white pillowcases getting stained though.
got lots of texts from mr mechanic who is obviously worried I'm not going to want him after meeting someone else. it too late for that isnt it.
I decided I couldn't bear it any longer and got my scales out lol. Actually I just did it as soon as the nosebleed stopped without thinking. So my scales have now caught up to Isobels and I'm definately 11 stone 3. that is sooo close to being in the 10's I can't wait! I can't even remember the last time I was that light. I know I was about 10 1/2 when I was at school. I had to get checked out because I have a goiter or however you spell it and I remember the dr commenting that I was fat
they decided not to remove it because it might have just been fat and they couldn't be bothered. Now every time I go to the dr's they notice it and make me get blood tests for my thyroid. I was 9 1/2 stone after giving birth to my twins so will have put another stone on when I stopped breastfeeding them. Have you ever tried breastfeeding twins/ you need to eat and drink soo much to make enough milk for them and it's a habit that is hard to get out of once you stop breastfeeding. Plus I was stuck in the one room with them all day every day so hardly got any exercise (I couldn't physically manage the 3 babies any other way). so anyway lol there's a bit of a moan, but it means I must have been heavier than that for at least 10 years. Wow all that time wasted when I could have just found this diet years ago. I'm not reall nervous about this date tonight. I know the bloke well enough not to be nervous about him, I just am about the bruises and what am I going to wear, and me having to pick where we go. We've arranged to go for a drink and then to the cinema. We're just going to see whats on when we get there cos I didnt want to have to make that decision and have him sit there bored becaue he didnt like what i've picked.
kati
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Thanks karen I will update tomorrow unless its really bad and I come home early lol.
I decided that I absolutely had to have something to wear that actually fits me so I went shopping. There was nothing in the shops I felt was really appropriate. I ended up getting asparkly black top that shows arms and neck (eek!) and a pair of jeans and I'm going to wear my silver heeled shoes with them. Both in size 14 yay. I didnt try them on in the shops just in case they didnt fit cos I didnt want the embarrassment in the changing rooms so when I got home I had a moment of panic that they'd be too small. But they're fine. Not really very dressy though I think the top needs a short black skirt and knee high boots with it. But the heels on my boots are too high for me to walk in all night and I dont feel confident enough to wear a short skirt, plus much safer wearing jeans lol.
I decided whats the point in worrying about my bruises. I had to wear a different jumper for work. No matter how often I wash it t doesn't look good to be wearing the same thing all week. customers have come in and said Oh what have you done to your neck, so I've got a bit used to it through the day. I'll just say what happened if he asks.
I'm getting picked up in an hour so I suppose I should get ready!
I will update tomorrow unless its really bad and I come home early lol.I decided that I absolutely had to have something to wear that actually fits me so I went shopping. There was nothing in the shops I felt was really appropriate. I ended up getting asparkly black top that shows arms and neck (eek!) and a pair of jeans and I'm going to wear my silver heeled shoes with them. Both in size 14 yay. I didnt try them on in the shops just in case they didnt fit cos I didnt want the embarrassment in the changing rooms so when I got home I had a moment of panic that they'd be too small. But they're fine. Not really very dressy though I think the top needs a short black skirt and knee high boots with it. But the heels on my boots are too high for me to walk in all night and I dont feel confident enough to wear a short skirt, plus much safer wearing jeans lol.
I decided whats the point in worrying about my bruises. I had to wear a different jumper for work. No matter how often I wash it t doesn't look good to be wearing the same thing all week. customers have come in and said Oh what have you done to your neck, so I've got a bit used to it through the day. I'll just say what happened if he asks.
I'm getting picked up in an hour so I suppose I should get ready!
kati
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thanks everyone. I'm back now.
we went to see the last kiss, not a great film for us to go and see but neither of us knew what it was about. We had a laugh, he was a perfect genteman. I kissed him before I got out of the car and that was it. Oh he held my hand for about 5 minutes during the film.
I have to say I was looking pretty damn good lol. Well I thought so anyway, don't know if he did. Agreed to go out aain some time but somethign better than pictures next time.
My diet is ruined. He got me normal coke insted of diet and didnt tell me till it was too late. so I ate cheesey nachos as well just a few though but still too many
we went to see the last kiss, not a great film for us to go and see but neither of us knew what it was about. We had a laugh, he was a perfect genteman. I kissed him before I got out of the car and that was it. Oh he held my hand for about 5 minutes during the film.
I have to say I was looking pretty damn good lol. Well I thought so anyway, don't know if he did. Agreed to go out aain some time but somethign better than pictures next time.
My diet is ruined. He got me normal coke insted of diet and didnt tell me till it was too late. so I ate cheesey nachos as well
just a few though but still too many
KateF
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Glad you had a good time!
Poo about the coke though.
As you know really- the diet is not ruined!! Drink lots more water and peppermint tea than you normally would tomorrow.
So glad to hear you actually saying something good about your appearance-I'm glad you're starting to see what other people see. A very attractive lass.
Night.
Poo about the coke though.
As you know really- the diet is not ruined!! Drink lots more water and peppermint tea than you normally would tomorrow.
So glad to hear you actually saying something good about your appearance-I'm glad you're starting to see what other people see. A very attractive lass.
Night.
kati
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Thankyou both. No the diet isn't completely ruined but I must have knocked myself out of ketosis (must check) so it's like day 1 again today. So I've had half a pack and will split my others again later incase i get hungry. It's no good putting off getting on with it again because I never will.
I told him I was on a diet and needed to lose another 2 stone but he said I didnt need to and would disappear so he probably got the normal coke on purpose. I didnt tell him anything about the diet though so he didnt know it would wreck it all
cant help thinking I might not be off ss by christmas at this rate
oh I got cornered yesterday and asked if i am actually eating at all because I'm losing weight so quickly. So he wanted a list of everything I'd been eating, I just made up that I was eating the aam stuff all the time that shut him up.
I told him I was on a diet and needed to lose another 2 stone but he said I didnt need to and would disappear so he probably got the normal coke on purpose. I didnt tell him anything about the diet though so he didnt know it would wreck it all
cant help thinking I might not be off ss by christmas at this rate
oh I got cornered yesterday and asked if i am actually eating at all because I'm losing weight so quickly. So he wanted a list of everything I'd been eating, I just made up that I was eating the aam stuff all the time that shut him up.
kati
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phew! just finally remembered to apply for my kids school places for next year and today was the last day!!! I'm so pleased i remembered today or they might not have anywhere to go to school for year 7. I'm very relieved now. I was late with my eldests last year but only put the one school down, when w went for the meetg they told us how many applications there were I knew we were lucky to get him in there with it being late. So I doubt if I was late again we'd get both of the twins in there. thats done anayway I can rest easy and forget about it and its a huge weight off my mind and loads of paperwork I can throw out.
ok must get ready and take doggy out.
ok must get ready and take doggy out.
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** Chief WITCH **
He seems like a nice guy and seems very concerned about you already!
It's probably too late now, where he's concerned, but I have lots of ready answers now to prevent people poking their nose into my food intake and whether or not I need to diet!
- "I'm not hungry" (usually foxes them! whereas people will try to persuade you to eat when you say you're dieting, in general I find that they don't when you simply say you're not hungry!)
- "I've already eaten" (ditto)
For the booze
- "I'm driving" (whether you are or not!)
- "I'm on anti biotics" (ditto)
It's probably too late now, where he's concerned, but I have lots of ready answers now to prevent people poking their nose into my food intake and whether or not I need to diet!
- "I'm not hungry" (usually foxes them! whereas people will try to persuade you to eat when you say you're dieting, in general I find that they don't when you simply say you're not hungry!)
- "I've already eaten" (ditto)
For the booze
- "I'm driving" (whether you are or not!)
- "I'm on anti biotics" (ditto)
kati
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they're good tip to remember thanks
i'm definately not in ketosis anymore so definately starting again. I'm not ravenously hungry or anything, still haven't been tempted by food so its really just like any other day on cd without the ketones. I dont dare weigh myself now.
I've had another day at work where someone gave me choolate!!!!!!!!
Whenever I walk to or from my car theres always this old indian man or whatever he is walking in the other direction to me. He always talks to me and I have a bit of a conversation with him too, nothing much just a couple of minutes. well today I was late for work because the traffic as horrendous and there he was as usual so I said hello and sorry I didn't have time to stop and talk because I was late. so he got this chocolate bar out of his pocket and said there that is for you then put his hands on my face and said I had such beauty lol. it could have been scary but he must be about 70 or something, I must have blushed lots, considered saying oh no thankyou but I think he would be the kind who would have been offended so I just said thankyou and went off to work rather quickly.
I gave the chocolate away to one of the regular customers cos I'm so nice lol.
So now I'm home with the kids, bought paint in preparation for painting their bedroom. we have BRIGHT metallic blue and BRIGHT red. I'm so glad it wont be me sleeping in there! But I'm having a rest then going to get on with cleaning cleaning and more cleaning. I'm going to need the next week off to recover!
i'm definately not in ketosis anymore so definately starting again. I'm not ravenously hungry or anything, still haven't been tempted by food so its really just like any other day on cd without the ketones. I dont dare weigh myself now.
I've had another day at work where someone gave me choolate!!!!!!!!
Whenever I walk to or from my car theres always this old indian man or whatever he is walking in the other direction to me. He always talks to me and I have a bit of a conversation with him too, nothing much just a couple of minutes. well today I was late for work because the traffic as horrendous and there he was as usual so I said hello and sorry I didn't have time to stop and talk because I was late. so he got this chocolate bar out of his pocket and said there that is for you then put his hands on my face and said I had such beauty lol. it could have been scary but he must be about 70 or something, I must have blushed lots, considered saying oh no thankyou but I think he would be the kind who would have been offended so I just said thankyou and went off to work rather quickly.
I gave the chocolate away to one of the regular customers
cos I'm so nice lol.So now I'm home with the kids, bought paint in preparation for painting their bedroom. we have BRIGHT metallic blue and BRIGHT red. I'm so glad it wont be me sleeping in there! But I'm having a rest then going to get on with cleaning cleaning and more cleaning. I'm going to need the next week off to recover!
kati
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well it's 11 30 am and I've done nothing yet. I feel awful. The kids wanted curry and chips from the chip shop for tea last night and I ended up eating some
I didnt drink enough water yesterday either.
Also the bloke I went out with wasn't such a gentleman last night sending me rude texts at about 1 am basically suggesting he would come over and ...er.... yeah that.
I ignored it.
Had one text off mr mechanic asking how thusday night went and nothing more. he must be in a huff with me, oh well.
Spent hours on msn talkng to the bloke who's gone to wales last night him telling me how lonely he is etc (aww poor thing doesn't know anyone yet) whilst at the same time I was looking for christmas presents for people online. didn't buy anything though. Might get one of those space hopper things for my niece.
Havent weighed myself again so no idea how heavy I am. Probably about 3 stone heavier than when I started (just joking, but seriously doubt I'll have lot anything this week)Maybe once I get stuck into the housework that'll burn off some of the extra calories. I didn't bother checking to see if i was in ketosis, I thought it was pretty pointless.
I've arranged to go out with a friend on monday night, I think I'm going to have to wear that same dress again cos I've got nothing else to wear. Oh well, different people and different places every time so no one will know its all I have. might take my boots to get reheeled though os they're a bit uncomfortable to walk on and hurt my ankles as they're always leaning to the left.
I measured the waist of that skirt I've been trying to get on that says its a size 14 and it is only 28 inches. According to all the size guides I found on the internet that is a size 12. So it lies!!!!! it has the wrong label on or somethng. So all this time I've een worried about buying size 14 stuff in case they're too small I've really been trying to get into a 12. no wonder I could never get into it. Oh well at least now I'll know when I can get into 12's. (not yet) I must get back to ssing properly so I can get into the 12's as soon as possible. Then there's just 10's to aim for then I'm done
So, SS day 1 (again!) no more food for me till aam week! or 10 stone 1 whichever comes first (thats bmi 25 so will have to go to the next stage) and lots and lots and lots of water.
I didnt drink enough water yesterday either.
Also the bloke I went out with wasn't such a gentleman last night sending me rude texts at about 1 am basically suggesting he would come over and ...er.... yeah that.
I ignored it.
Had one text off mr mechanic asking how thusday night went and nothing more. he must be in a huff with me, oh well.
Spent hours on msn talkng to the bloke who's gone to wales last night him telling me how lonely he is etc (aww poor thing doesn't know anyone yet) whilst at the same time I was looking for christmas presents for people online. didn't buy anything though. Might get one of those space hopper things for my niece.
Havent weighed myself again so no idea how heavy I am. Probably about 3 stone heavier than when I started (just joking, but seriously doubt I'll have lot anything this week)Maybe once I get stuck into the housework that'll burn off some of the extra calories. I didn't bother checking to see if i was in ketosis, I thought it was pretty pointless.
I've arranged to go out with a friend on monday night, I think I'm going to have to wear that same dress again cos I've got nothing else to wear. Oh well, different people and different places every time so no one will know its all I have. might take my boots to get reheeled though os they're a bit uncomfortable to walk on and hurt my ankles as they're always leaning to the left.
I measured the waist of that skirt I've been trying to get on that says its a size 14 and it is only 28 inches. According to all the size guides I found on the internet that is a size 12. So it lies!!!!! it has the wrong label on or somethng. So all this time I've een worried about buying size 14 stuff in case they're too small I've really been trying to get into a 12. no wonder I could never get into it. Oh well at least now I'll know when I can get into 12's. (not yet) I must get back to ssing properly so I can get into the 12's as soon as possible. Then there's just 10's to aim for then I'm done
So, SS day 1 (again!) no more food for me till aam week! or 10 stone 1 whichever comes first (thats bmi 25 so will have to go to the next stage) and lots and lots and lots of water.
I havent done a thing today either. i hava pile of washing and ironing. The house looks like a bomb site but fortunately my bum seems glued to this chair!!!
I hate it when clothes differ from shop to shop - I am learning which are 'skinny' shops and which are 'fat' shops!!!
Good on you for getting back onto SS today. 10 stone 1 here you come
I hate it when clothes differ from shop to shop - I am learning which are 'skinny' shops and which are 'fat' shops!!!
Good on you for getting back onto SS today. 10 stone 1 here you come
kati
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we should have a sticky thread somewhere of which shops are small fitting or not!
I've just read the what will you be saying at christmas thread and I have just realised. I have got to my goal!!!! My goal was to be a size 14 by christmas so I could have my bag that I had bought for my reward. well now I am a size 14 I dont have anything left to aim for.
Of course aiming to be a size 10 is always good but I think I need to set myself a new aim otherwise I will probably not stick to it. Hmmmm what can I aim for now?
I've just read the what will you be saying at christmas thread and I have just realised. I have got to my goal!!!! My goal was to be a size 14 by christmas so I could have my bag that I had bought for my reward. well now I am a size 14 I dont have anything left to aim for.
Of course aiming to be a size 10 is always good but I think I need to set myself a new aim otherwise I will probably not stick to it. Hmmmm what can I aim for now?
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